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The narrator 'talks' to her journal as if it were a person, which shows how her mental state is getting worse and how she is telling her darkest secrets and honest feelings to an inanimate object rather than any of the real people in her life. She doesn't get any support from people in her life. "It is so discouraging not to have any advice and companionship about my work." (Page 4)

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“And I’ll tell you why—privately—I’ve seen her!”

The narrator talking to her journal

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“dead paper and a great relief to my mind”.

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"I think sometimes that if I were only well enough to write a little it would relieve the press of ideas and rest me." (Page 4) She has very clear ideas about how she thinks she'd get better, but despite disagreeing with her treatment she still conforms to it and listens to her husband/doctor.

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"I did write for a while in spite of them; but it does exhaust me a good deal - having to be so sly about it, or else meet with heavy opposition." (Page 2)

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She only writes when she feels like it, and as she stays in the room more her mental state begins to slowly worsen, which shows in the long gaps between her journal entries. "We have been here two weeks, and I haven't felt like writing before, since that first day." (Page 3)

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She thinks that perhaps with "less opposition" and more "society and stimulus", her condition might get better. But she keeps that to herself as she knows it is an act of defiance against John.

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"I don't know why I should write this.
I don't want to.
I don't feel able.
And I know John would think it absurd. But I must say what I feel and think in some way - It is such a relief!"
Page 7

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She writes despite being ordered not to, which shows her defiance against social norms and societal rules. "(...) and am absolutely forbidden to "work" until I am well again. Personally, I disagree with their ideas." (Page 1)

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"There come's John's sister... I must not let her find me writing." (Page 5)

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The Yellow Wallpaper IS the narrator's journal, the short and unorganized entries towards the end show her mental state getting worse as she loses her sanity.

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The Yellow Wallpaper is written in first person, the audience is essentially reading the narrators journal.

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It is her one means of relief during her stay at the mental asylum. But also her act of rebellion and inconformity to society, as she does exactly what John and society does not want to see in women.

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The journal is hidden from everyone in the narrator's life, she doesn't want anyone to know that she's still writing despite being ordered to rest cure. "There comes John, and I must put this away,- he hates to have me write a word." (Page 3)