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Artist intro - please read my comments below for updates

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Artist intro - please read my comments below for updates

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Welcome message from Jo

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Evidence of the disease

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Juxtaposition

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(behind Anglican Chapel)

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A still from a projection

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Credit: David Mark / Alamy Stock Photo

The fungus overwinters in leaf litter on the ground, particularly on ash leaf stalks. It produces small white fruiting bodies between July and October which release spores into the surrounding atmosphere.

These spores can blow tens of miles away. They land on leaves, stick to and then penetrate into the leaf and beyond. The fungus then grows inside the tree, eventually blocking its water transport systems, causing it to die.

The tree can fight back, but year-on-year infections will eventually kill it.

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Ash Dieback (Hymenoscyphus fraxineus) - Woodland Trust

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Credit: David Mark / Alamy Stock Photo The fungus overwinters in leaf litter on the ground, particularly on ash leaf stalks. It produces small white fruiting bodies between July and October which release spores into the surrounding atmosphere. These spores can blow tens of miles away.

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Arnos Vale blog link

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This week, Jo our artist-in-residence explores transforming grief and loss through art.

Why I made a decision to become an artist who doesn't sell work (and what this has to do with grief).

Hunting for seasonal change

It's a cold December day, 2016, and I'm trudging back from dropping my son at school; making my ritual return journey through Arnos Vale down the hill towards my home. More recently this has taken a bit longer than usual, as I'm looking for seasonal changes in the Ash tree cycle. I take photos and gathering scattered Ash keys along the way. I've already collected leaves, buds and flowers throughout the year so this completes my collection.

Playing with shadows

I'm using these fallen specimens to create a series of projections. I am using an old-school OHP projector, which I picked up from a charity shop. I place a piece of card on the glass. It has a large circle cut in it's centre to allow the light to pass through. I begin to arrange the keys so that they create a border of key-shaped silhouettes around the inside-edge of the circle. Then I flick the switch and to my joy the projected light creates an impressive design on the opposite wall. I play with the key shapes until I'm happy. Next I change into a long dress (I've painstakingly made for a later installation) and climb onto a stool. My shadow falls in the centre of the halo of light. I start to play with movement while taking images to complete the documentation of the process.

Inspiring Ash and its loss

I have decided to experiment with these ideas for a short film. This becomes part of a 6 month community project three of us as artists are working on . This project culminates in two community woodland performances. These projection experiments kick off the process. The performance will celebrate the value, myth and uses of the Ash over the centuries. We weave this with the science behind its demise, as the tree becomes increasingly threatened by the Ash Dieback disease. Final product Used with the kind permission of Courage Copse Creatives and Shimnix Films.

I am particularly interested in creating projections around the life-cycle of the tree as I experiment . This is not just because it is beautiful and fascinating but because this tree stands at the centre of the Nordic creation story - Yggdrasil.

I'm interested in drawing from stories, theories and myths like this; The type which map out cycles of life and shine a light on stages of transition. This interest began at a point of change in my own life when I had to deal with a deep loss bringing . This loss brought with it a significant and sudden change of location, lifestyle and new community. I am suspended in a mode of grief and I spent years feeling rootless. The loss became a strange but alienating comfort as it still linked me to the past. I was fine On the face of it, I was meeting new people, working, supporting my kids with the transition but in truth I was stuck. I was struggling to transition and transform grief and loss for myself.

Making earth pigments and transformation

Sometimes what seems like a fairly insignificant meeting actually resets the course you are heading on. I met a group of artists, at this time, on the streets of the local market town demonstrating how to make paint from earth pigments. They had dug them up along the local coastline. There was something about the idea of digging up these raw, organic materials that tapped into something innate and authentic within me. It gave me an urge to connect with the earth. Taking the map coordinates they kindly gave me, I set off a few days later to locate and dig up the pigments for myself.

The act of clambering up across the craggy cliff line and down onto the beach, finding the seam of exposed pigment and scraping it lump by lump from its secret seam made me feel more alive than I had felt for a long time. The pigment I'd chosen to find first was Bideford Black. This is a sticky black substance, which now covered my hands and marked my clothes.

I can honestly say this was a transformative moment in my life. For me this wasn't just a foraging trip - the trip felt like an intentional performance, a passage that enabled me to step entirely into my grief. I was in some sort of partnership with the natural world. The hidden layer of dark matter was evidence of the journey of the earth - a huge and very lengthy transition from Jurassic era to present day. This blacker-than-black pigment emerging through the cliff-face somehow spoke to me about my own hidden grief and its need to be unearthed.

Playing with pigments

As I began to experiment with making the pigment into paint at home; pounding it down, removing debris, refining it and mixing it with a medium; I knew that whatever I eventually did with this paint would need to be part of a physical process, not just painting on canvas. It would be a way of marking the inner shift I was making. I was bringing the moment out into the world. I created instinctual patterns with the paint and took images of these in order to project them onto my body. It was a brave but necessary response to the need I had to mark my grief.

With the help of a photographer friend we captured the powerful images of the black patterns as they fell onto my skin and following the contours and gestures of my body. It was a profound process that was unlike anything I'd experienced before. There was a synergy with the journey of the natural world, it's longevity, it's deep knowledge of change . This allowed me to safely connect with myself in a way that counselling never quite had.

Using the experience to transition and transform grief and loss

Since this experience I have read extensively on the subject of transition including areas of depth psychology and deep ecology. It's helped me to understand why I had felt the need to work through this transition in such a physical way. This route connects my body to myth and the life-cycles of the land (I have since had similar experiences in water). This has led me to develop art processes for others who are facing significant transitions. This includes taking small groups into private woodlands for 12 hours to mark their own encounters with grief; processes that enable them to move through grief. They are not forgetting the loss but acknowledging it's place in the journey beyond.

Grief, loss and Growth

When we get stuck in any part of the cycle of life, we are then holding on to a permanence that can't be sustained. The cycles of natural world, of life, teach me that growth and grief are both necessary. In fact it is the ability to embrace the constant of change that makes us fully alive. It enables me to navigate life differently. It is on a personal level, as a community and even into the huge shifts of a pandemic, climate change and beyond. This is why I choose to work with impermanence. This impermanence allows us to transition and transform grief and loss.

From collecting Ash keys to digging up earth pigments I continue to work with impermanent processes rather than creating permanent pieces of art. I enjoy the use of natural materials that get left behind, the dialoguing with others, the projections in wild and urban spaces. This is the art and this art draws people in (sometimes alone and sometimes with others). Then when that moment ends we are left with the memories, sometimes images . Of course, the changes embraced in the process.

For further reading on embracing change, transition and transform grief and loss - https://www.bbc.com/culture/article/20200930-why-embracing-change-is-the-key-to-a-good-life?fbclid=IwAR3ehqrqHlo6z9L17DZZF0r-DPLB0VYadzirVuBs0Bu7oxy_vT_XVzlZrXU

Follow the link to discover more about the ash tree artist-in-residence project at Arnos vale. Find out what happens to all the ash trees after we fell them here.

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Using art to transition and transform grief and loss | Arnos Vale

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This week, Jo our artist-in-residence explores transforming grief and loss through art. It's a cold December day, 2016, and I'm trudging back from dropping my son at school; making my ritual return journey through Arnos Vale down the hill towards my home.

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Coombes Bottom Ash Arch

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Weeping Ash Mother 1

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The Ash Mother's view

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Behind the Anglican Chapel

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behind the Anglican Chapel

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Taken by tree surgeon

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'Tree of many arms'

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The trees have spirits of their own

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Weeping Mother behind Anglican Chapel

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Charcoal paint

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Panorama of an opening in the trees

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The sadness of the yellow dots

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The trees have spirits of their own

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The sadness of the yellow dots

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Archway of trees
Jo Walter

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Young ash with yellow mark
Jo Walter

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Reclining ash - beautiful woman

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these trees seemed to be waiting as though they knew they were marked  watercolour
Jo Walter

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I drew this tree with my eyes closed and felt my way around
Jo Walter

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New buds  there's still hope. Maybe they will find a way to resist the disease
Jo Walter

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Loneliness (more likely to be left for Mother Nature)

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Farewell Tree of life

gracious Venus of the woods.

Lamenting winds call.

Ash dancer, roots deep

branches sketching in the sky

waving and leaving

Traces of old tales

In the heart of the world beat.

Turning keys falling.

Bright Gypsy fires burnt.

Whispering smoke prophecies

ashes to ashes.

Winds blow, chain saws roar,

Ash trees felled and fallen lie.

Helplessly undone.

Silently you move

to the edge of memory.

Empty fields and woods.

Leaving your lessons

artists impressions echoing.

Sawdust turns to grief.

Bare winter dancers

become sky held silhouettes.

starlings soar and swoop.

Hope lies in action

weaving in resilience.

Memories of you.

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Arnos Vale Ash Dieback

Here lies Fraxinus Excelsior -

graceful, upstanding beam of this urban wood,

she wore Portland grey bark, rutted, dappled

cadmium, viridian, sienna, titanium

by the impressionist art of lichens.

Her canopy fragmented the air,

divided and shared honeyed light

to the leaf-littered floor of garlic and violets.

She would burst, potent and late, into vibrant spring,

her feathered leaflets filtering May’s warming rays

and quietly bending, dark velvet budded, to winter storms.

She birthed winged samara in clinging swarms,

dispersing her progeny to fruitful winds and fortune.

She stood here together with sisters:

hardwood sentinels – our native mystics –

drawing sap to strengthen ancient staffs of magic.

She was a straight grained Venus,

casting her shadow of love and beauty

onto this landscape of mourning.

Rooted in this hill that absorbed our dead,

she upended granite-scattered words

echoing across two world wars and two pandemics.

She was the tree of life, a pulsing heart

of this cemetery woodland;

lockdown wanderers heard it beat

and the nature of wonder returned to them

just as the wonder of nature will reclaim them.

She faced Chalara, her own plague,

as Ash to ashes, she was stumped

by the battles we wage and now

we count hers in our circles of loss.

Jane Houben January 2021

Jane Houben lives in Knowle. Her poems have been published by The Great Margin, Tiny Seed Journal and Visual Verse, set to music in a collaboration with Echoes & Edges and made into  film in collaboration with Paper Nations.  Instagram: @virtual_fiction

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Poem by poet and regular visitor to Arnos Vale

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Cut Ash 2021

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Phoenix 2021

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Ash Debris

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Felled Ash