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trying hard to be a gaslight gatekeep girlboss on my own

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The other day, I had a Zoom call meeting for a class that focused on personal struggles in school. The lesson was all about knowing ourselves more and improving as individuals. It was an interesting topic, but I found myself distracted during the call. My mind was preoccupied with someone special to me, and I couldn't help but think about our last conversation.

Despite my wandering thoughts, the lesson still managed to leave an impact on me. It made me reflect on my own struggles as a student, particularly in the area of independence. I have a tendency to rely too much on my classmates, and I often get confused with the teacher's instructions.

But as the lesson went on, I began to realize the importance of taking responsibility for my own learning. I need to be more independent and take ownership of my education. I can't rely on others to do the work for me or to understand the lessons for me. It's up to me to put in the effort and seek help when needed.

I also learned the importance of communication, especially when it comes to understanding instructions. If I'm confused about something, I need to ask questions and clarify what the teacher wants us to do. I can't let my confusion hold me back from learning and growing as a student.

Overall, the lesson on personal struggles in school was a reminder that we all have our own challenges to overcome. But with perseverance and a willingness to learn, we can become better students and individuals.

PS: Sorry ma'am, my submission is late. I've been swamped with work, and I missed a few days of work due to being really sick. Plus, I was distracted by chatting with my crush, so I guess I was in cloud nine. Huhu, sorry again!

-glaiza xoxo

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Tonight’s discussion is very fun. Not only did we expand our knowledge with a new topic, but we also had an absolute blast doing it! I can certainly relate to Arabella's initial expectation of simply checking the lesson plan, but I was wrong (kimmy!) This topic was far from ordinary, and it truly kept us engaged and excited throughout the discussion. It's rare to find a topic that seamlessly blends academic learning with personal expression, but tonight's discussion was just that. We were able to not only absorb new information, but we also got to share our own unique perspectives and ideas. It was refreshing to have a conversation that didn't feel like a one-way street of information, but rather a collaborative and dynamic exchange.

The five key skills of SEL, is not just a lesson that we easily forget, it also teach us how to become more aware of ourselves. Tonight’s session made me realize a lot of things, how SEL works made me realize that I should do better and that I should work on myself to become the best.

Again this is not just a new lesson that we need to learn, not just a lesson that we need to know for us to be able to ace the exam. Teacher Jay Ann went above and beyond to ensure that we understood the definition and how it applied to us individually. She didn't just treat us like her students, but like her own children. Her guidance and advice on which areas we needed to work on were given with the care and compassion of a mother who wants nothing but the best for her children. It's not just about passing exams or memorizing information, but about personal growth and development. Today's lesson was a reminder that we are not just students, but human beings with unique needs and challenges. Thanks to Teacher Jay Ann, we are equipped with the tools and knowledge to improve ourselves both academically and personally.

This has been a fun session, we ended the class with a new knowledge academically and a knowledge and advice that might help us personally. Overall, tonight's discussion was a perfect example of how learning can be both informative and enjoyable.

- Herlen

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Overall, I learned important information and I have extended my knowledge is like all areas has likely contributed to my personal growth and development, as well as my ability to navigate the complexities of social and professional relationships. By continuing to develop these skills, I can become a more effective communicator, leader, and collaborator, both in personal and professional life. But I regret not sharing my experience about the other skills or answering some questions, That I want to open up or share my experience about school to my classmates and especially to my teacher. Im very proud to myself because I conquer everything I thought I couldnt. Lately I feel no excitement  to go to school. I'm currently quite stressed and feel so very alone and sometimes it affects my mental health and Im unmotivated , I guess watching myself doing my best and for my future and especially to the people who believe in me that I can, it makes me happy and it is my motivation to continue and to study hard and to do well. Of course for my family it gives me strength and hope that I will be not losing interest to go to school.

This topic for today has taken me on a reflective journey towards increased understanding of my own qualities, and the skills and abilities gained from my life experience, including my life role

Having listened to the experiences of other opinions and message as well as doing the reflective activities, I have thought about how would I like to see myself  in the future  where I want to be and how I might go about planning for me and first step towards my goal. Im very happy and amaze for today's topic it not just about the school or knowledge about this subject, it's also about the experience you encounter and how you will overcome this challenges in life. For myself I deserve this cake from me to me hehe

-Roxalyne🫶🏻

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A night to remember: tidal waves of emotions

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A night to remember: tidal waves of emotions

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This night has been a roller coaster ride for us. For our emotions, that is. The topic was so great that it left a massive impact on me. On us, I believe. I realized that emotions are the most complex thing humans fail to understand. We are designed to be able to understand, yet emotions are one thing that we are oblivious about. A person's emotion is not something to be made fun of. It is a word that may sound simple, but it weighs a ton that not everyone can withstand. Some define it as a mystery, while others describe it as misery. For others, it is challenging, but some find it quite intriguing. It is so complex that people ignore it even though they notice it. As a result, others do their best to mask their emotion or, worst, let it affect them.

This night has been one of the most memorable moments in my college life. The topic may seem so simple, but it weighs a lot. It was so heavy that it left an impression on me. I was speechless, to be honest. I thought we would be learning how to make the third competency, the letter C, in the objectives—the affective domain, which was a challenge for me and my classmates to make. I was happy that, at last, we could learn it and perhaps make it with ease. But what is left of us is an unidentifiable emotion we must surpass. Especially on my part, I did not know what pushed me to share one of my fears, but for some reason, I just blurted it out. For the record, I was in a café during class. I was in public, yet, I spoke it out loud. I did not care if others or my companion heard me, but I needed to share it in class. I am the type to keep things to myself, but after sharing them, I felt relieved. Especially when my teacher gave me advice, it felt like a thorn had been lifted from me. It left me speechless. Overwhelmed.

This was a signal for me to train myself, especially my social skills. The irony of wanting to become a teacher with little to no social skills. I need to improve that skill if I want to survive in my career that highly relies on verbal skills, or else I will be left with nothing, and my efforts at school will be well-spent. It was also rewarding to be able to hear the side of my classmates.

I am sure I am not the only one who felt this way, but also my classmates. Despite their silence, I know they also felt the same way. We initially thought we would be learning lesson plans, but guess what? It's a prank!

I pray that we will be able to sleep peacefully after this night.

-George

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In today’s lesson, I’ve learned that our topic is social and emotional learning, bloom’s taxonomy, and kind of about a reflection of ourselves. When Ma’am Jay Ann asked me if I have self-awareness, I proudly said, ‘yes, I am’ after I answered that, it sank into me that sometimes I’m out of myself and tend to get lost in some situations. I also wanted to share my other traits, especially the weakness of ‘asking questions.’ In terms of that, I am very aware that it is difficult to ask questions to a teacher. Though it is not a bad thing to ask, because of my past traumatic experience, it gives me a different vibe to ask a teacher. Most likely, it takes time for me to build up the courage to ask about what I haven’t understood or learned during the class.

I still have a lot of weaknesses to mention, but another one of my weaknesses is communicating, especially if I am in different social settings. I still have a hard time sharing, but if necessary, I will build myself up to talk and communicate with them. About the motivation in going to school, well, I always go to school early every day. I don’t know what makes me motivated, but maybe for someone whom I look forward to. Lol, but in serious thoughts, it became my routine to go to school early even though the class is in the afternoon. It just became a habit of mine, and what only inspires me is to study well. Even though it is challenging, the patience and the tuition invested in this must be reciprocated with good results. I am the eldest of the family, so I need to be motivated and do well at school even though life is too harsh for me.

- Allysa

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As my head hurts so badly that it feels like it might explode at any time, I decided not to attend class today.

I think the discussion went pretty well, though, and I kind of regret missing the class, based on my classmate Arabella's reflection. According to her reflection, I assumed the class was asked if they are still motivated to learn. However, even if I were in the class today, I don't think I would speak up because I'm currently working and worried that my time tracker will record that I was using my microphone.

But in all honesty, I think that the most of us are barely making it through class and are no longer having fun.

Yet, I think that our generation of students will wrestle for our future and ambitions.

-Faith

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As the Zoom call continued, I couldn't help but notice that the others in the group had gone silent. We were asked the questions "What motivates you to finish your studies?" and "Are you still happy pursuing your studies?" I wasn't sure if they were lost in thought or if they simply didn't know how to respond. As for me, I found myself struggling to answer those questions. I wasn't sure if I was still pursuing my studies because it was truly what I wanted, or if it was simply because my family had always expected me to do so. The truth was, I was exhausted and lacked the motivation to continue on this journey. However, despite my own feelings, I knew that finishing my studies was important for my family's future.

Initially, I thought we would be discussing the lesson plan, not our personal experiences. But as we shared our thoughts and feelings, I realized how much it helped to ease the burdens I was carrying. Today's lesson was particularly impactful, as I have been struggling in many aspects of my school life such as managing myself and developing self-awareness. Although I often avoid delving into my personal life, the conversation today has given me a new perspective. I see it now as an opportunity to use my personal struggles as a stepping stone to keep thriving and working hard.

As our instructor continued discussing the lesson for tonight, I couldn't help but reflect on how it had impacted the way I thought about myself. It's not just about what motivates me to finish my studies, but also what motivates me to keep going, to keep striving for a better future. The discussion today reminded me that it's important to address personal issues and that it's okay to ask for help when needed.

-Sha

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I thought we would be checking the lesson plan drafts tonight but the topic completely caught me off guard. I honestly wanted to share my thoughts about the soft skills, to which I think I lack about half of it, but I was afraid of the possibility that I might cry  while sharing my experiences. I barely talked during the discussion but every time a question was asked like "Are you still enjoying school?", I would answer to myself  "no." Prior to the meeting, I was already contemplating whether I should attend the class or not but I chose the former since we only meet once a week and I guess it was my way of showing gratitude for the grades I don't think I even deserve. The topic was great in my perspective since it is kind of related to psychology, which I like. The absence and presence of those social skills tell a lot about a person. I would have enjoyed it had I been in the right mental state. School right now is terrible since I find everything pointless and my only anchor to continue studying is that I do not want to meet new people and adjust in the new environment, since I find it incredibly difficult to initiate conversations with new people. The topic tonight really felt like a personal attack. I am well aware of my skills, my strengths and weaknesses—the weaknesses that I am very insecure of and absolutely not ready to face. I was not able to appreciate the lesson because my mind was plagued with intrusive thoughts, which I find a pity because Ma'am Jay Ann did make the learning as interactive and conducive as possible. Great topic, just not right for me today.

-Ara

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