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Your intention.

Honouring the down time and not forcing. Not listening to the urgency within.

Working with the waxing and waning energy levels.

Wanting freshness and change, but needing to find contentment and the wisdom in the waning times.

Remembering cycles.

Having the anchor of talking to Tessa once a month.

Community.

Finding a network of other artists that are serious about their work.

A female peer group.

Setting up an artist collective in

early 2025.

The business side.

Taking one day a week for art admin.

This can link to your intention for your work also.

Future dreaming.

Creating an artist retreat and studio complex that is family friendly.

Possibly in the Calder valley.

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Two of the last four weeks have been spend camping and by the time we got back I was really drained and didn't get started on any oil paintings. I spent the first week playing with my website and feeling out of sorts - like a stasis or overwhelming tiredness set in and did not want to let me move forward with anything. Then this week I had intended to go to the studio but instead thought I'd ease myself in and play half heartedly with more automatic small works on paper and wait until September to decide what to take into the studio. I like September, it's a month of energy for me. Hopefully.

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"Are you ready?" They say.

"I've been expecting you." I reply.

"You've always been there. I've seen you.

"And when I haven't seen you, I've felt you.

"Circling above me.

"Waiting to pick my bones."

"Yes." They say.

"We've always been there.

"Circling above you.

"Ready to pick your bones.

"And now it's time.

"It's time to go home."

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Ancestors. Descendants.

We are all woven.

Full of unseen connections.

With each other. With the land. With the stars.

Through the shadows we find our light.

And celebrate.

The past and future are all here in the present.

For we are all woven in light.

Moulded in earth.

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trying to work out whether this feels like it has some kind of thread to it

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trying to work out whether this feels like it has some kind of thread to it

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Meeting ID: 826 1463 5052

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Our next session is: 3rd September 11am.

Some things you spoke about being important, in relation to your work:

Identifying patterns that are broken and fixing them.

Intention and trust

More elegance and light and starting into sunsets

Making people's lives lighter.

What you would like to do before we meet next.

Create some oil paintings from the small paintings.

Go public: Create a visual journal on instagram. Show process in a poetic style.

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mix of last month's and this month's sketches

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Moodboard

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Quick stab this morning writing about my work

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Quick stab this morning writing about my work

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Lyrical, ethereal and hopeful, I use fluid and transformative processes to create artworks where  dreamy worlds are evoked, moving enigmatically between figuration and abstraction. Stories of the natural cycles of transformation, belonging, origins and light are explored, as organic forms and contours merge and dissolve into echoes of the natural landscape and the human body. A desire for freedom from control - and to breakdown the illusions that humans and the natural world are separate - are thoughts that weave their way throughout.

I find my process cathartic - a way to heal and put the noise, chaos and shadows of the external world into perspective. It begins with grounding both my work and my sense of self through drawing with charcoal and watercolour direct from the British landscape, found objects and images to create a create a library of moments and new connections. These are then synthesised through music, dance and mirrors to create intuitive and poetic paintings and prose. Mimicking the endless cycles of creation, my work evolves through an almost ritualistic and nurturing process of creation, destruction and rebuilding again to create luminous, subtle and visceral oil paintings on wooden panel.

As if windows to a hinterland where peace and contemplation of our place in the universe can be found, I like to see my work as quietly totemic: where the viewer can return to the portraits, ravines, meanders, trees, sea and sky to gather inner strength. My influences include Eileen Agar, Ithell Coloqhoun, Leiko Ikemura, William Blake and Lewis Carroll.

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Had a good time at the ESOP show. Sold three paintings, got good feedback!

Taken it slowly other than that, letting the energy shift around my body. Culminated in a crying session last week, which I've decided - or discovered - is actually a necessary part of my process to cleanse what doesn't serve me any more. It left me empty which was perfect to clear space for what's next to flow in naturally.

So following this episode I decided to start with making intuitive work and see where that took me. A feel for new places and understanding that I think my work is about in someway the breaking down of the illusion of our bodies/selves being separate from the landscape/place at a subnarrative levels it speaks of ownership/respect of land / female body and a quest for freedom to live in our own natural expression. (or something like that).

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A few hours playing intuitively with watercolour and gouache to try and get back in the swing of things, exploring palettes and motifs that reoccur

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Quick test of an idea of using a line found in the landscape to create mirrored charcoal drawing

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Last exercise with ESOP - making a negative version of existing artwork

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Last bits for exhibition, oil on panel

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Playing with light

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playing with light 2

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Playing with light 3 (Ignore the sound! )

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Links.

Ithel Colquoun

https://rb.gy/wr0zrb

Eileen Agar

https://rb.gy/krhqtt

Hettie Judah

https://www.hettiejudah.co.uk/

Dream Arc Course

https://genekeys.com/dream-arc/

Rosy Aranson

https://www.wisdomkeepers.net/

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'A thrilling insight into one of the 20th century's great artists. Agar's exuberant and colourful life and work come alive in this book' Katy Hessel Financial Times

'A vivid panorama of an adventurous and stimulating age'

Whether dancing on the rooftops in Paris, sharing ideas with Pablo Picasso, or gathering starfish on the beaches of Cornwall, Eileen Agar (1899-1991) transformed the everyday into the extraordinary. Her legacy as a pioneering figure in the Surrealist movement is firmly established, and her work continues to captivate audiences with its otherworldly beauty and imaginative power.

Agar's life was no less extraordinary than her art. Here, she traces her life from her birth in Argentina to the late 1980s. She gives an intimate account of very different worlds: grand house parties in Buenos Aires and Belgravia as a young girl give way to la vie bohème in London and Paris, and a peripatetic existence with her lifelong partner, Hungarian writer Joseph Bard. She enjoyed enriching friendships with contemporaries Paul Nash, Ezra Pound, Evelyn Waugh, Gertrude Hermes and Henry Moore, while a summer spent in the South of France with Picasso, Lee Miller and Man Ray had a lasting impact. Agar introduces them and many others into the narrative of her artistic development; above all, it is Agar's own unwavering resilience, infectious energy and drive that permeates this compelling memoir.

Bringing her work to life in all its vibrancy and variety, this updated autobiography is populated with Agar's own personal selection of photographs of family, friends and lovers alongside over fifty colour illustrations of collages, paintings and assemblages spanning her life's work.

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Buy A Look at My Life 1 by Agar, Eileen, Fraser, Olivia, Lambirth, Andrew (ISBN: 9780500026809) from Amazon's Book Store. Everyday low prices and free delivery on eligible orders.

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Our next session is: 1st August 4-5pm.

Things we discussed (with a few additions!)

Allowing it all to evolve in it's own time.

letting go of the need to be productive in the 9-5 way.

The inner peace that comes with that.

Planting seeds

Aligned action.

After Esop, finding the threads of what to run with for the next 5 years...

Beginning to produce a body of work, dreaming in the artist retreat etc...

Gene Keys work might be good at this point, to help orient, once the course is finished.

The Dream Arc online course with Richard Rudd and Rosy Aranson might be a good transition from the course to working on your own in the studio.

Links etc mentioned.

Artist Ithel Colquhoun (book)

Eileen Agar (new book)

Hettie Judah (link on next column) writes a lot about art and motherhood, with a recent book out on the subject.

Dream arc online course.

Rosy Aronson and Richard Rudd.

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Gosh - six weeks seems like a lifetime ago! I've been on holiday, moved into Assembly House, been ill a few times, done lots of gardening and rearranged my home studio for sewing (including making my own new - massive- sewing table), writing and having Seren able to work in here too has been great. She's becoming an obsessive creative.

I wondered why I was feeling knackered a couple of weeks ago and then realised a lot of this newness takes a lot of energy.

Anyhow work below in no particular order. Words - origins and transformation feeling relevant to work. Focus on cycles of birth - death - rebirth and stripping away illusions / old lives. Also interested in the illusions of the Maya versus the issues of sight loss (Glaucoma family history) and occular migraines.

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Esop exercise Mars and Venus in Pisces pt2 (gouache)

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ESOP exercise - Mars and Venus in Pisces p1 (gouache)

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Spray paint, oil pastel and oil on wood panel

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Oil on wood panel

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Our next session is: 18th June 11am.

Things I mentioned in the session.

Kirlian or Aura Photography

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kirlian_photography

The word inchoate, for your current work. It seems to fit well!

Agnes Martin's Writing https://dn790003.ca.archive.org/0/items/AgnesMartinWritings/Agnes%20Martin%20-%20Writings%20-%20Agnes%20Martin.pdf

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Kirlian photography is a collection of photographic techniques used to capture the phenomenon of electrical coronal discharges. It is named after Soviet scientist Semyon Kirlian, who, in 1939, accidentally discovered that if an object on a photographic plate is connected to a high-voltage source, an image is produced on the photographic plate.[1]
The technique has been variously known as
“electrography”,[2]
“electrophotography”,[3]
“corona discharge photography” (CDP),[4]
“bioelectrography”,[5]
“gas discharge visualization (GDV)”,[6]
“electrophotonic imaging (EPI)”,[7] and, in Russian literature, “Kirlianography”.

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Seren wanted to tell you that she is going to repaint these Leiko Ikemura homage statuettes from last year because she is "a better painter than she was a year ago."

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Hello

The day after we spoke I got offered a shared studio at Assembly House, and all things being well, I get the keys next Monday. At the time, I had no idea how I could afford it but thought I'd apply as they had shared my work on instagram after seeing it at the exhibition. I thought, if they offer one to me, I'll worry about the money then, I just want to make my intention known. Then my brother offered to help with with a year's rent. So the universe did provide in unexpected ways.

Other than that I've been giving more time to writing - which I've enjoyed - and focussed on taking things step by step to connect with what brings me joy in my work. So looking at colour, texture, media, composition in a bite size process without worrying about what this means for finished work.

A couple of extracts from my journal below I have found helpful to focus my mind when it comes to work. Rather than an old skool brief something that conjures more of an atmosphere in my mind.

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There is a place.

It's somewhere West.

Where the sun sets and rises on the sea

And the light is always changing.

Where mountains dissolve into the water creating the ever changing shore.

Where hopes and dreams merge with the land.

Where the tides reveal the whispers of those that came before.

And where the wind leads us into the future.

It could be the place that Lilith was chased when she left Eden.

So here we congregate.

Come, shed your burdens at the wrack zone.

Here we find peace.

In this moment,

Here we create our own Eden.

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I pick up fragments of wherever I go.

They become part of me.

I become part of them.

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Earth, pigment and oil on panel

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Acrylic, oil, pastel, glass and iron powder on wood panel 

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ink and bleach over print out of baby scans

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playing with materials - ink, oil pastel, cold wax, garnet and pigment

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ink, acrylic, spray paint, bleach

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Gene Keys Pearl Sequence Online retreat. It's not the Venus retreat coming up, as I had originally thought. The Venus retreat is all about journeying into the core wound. This Pearl sequence is a journey into unlocking prosperity in life.

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Gene Keys - Discover your higher purpose

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Embracing the flow of prosperity in our lives. A four-month journey into the Gene Keys begins April 2nd, 2024.

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Our next session is: 30th April 11am.

To Do:

Lots of small pieces to unlock the next step. Play. Explore colour, texture and shape.

Occupy the intellectual mind with writing every day.

Get out into nature to give time and space for contemplation. Taking time out.

nb. I've put a link to the Pearl Sequence Gene Keys online retreat on the column to the left.

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It's been a bit of a strange couple of months. I felt in suspension. Like the clarity has gone and I'm just hanging around like the hanged man tarot. I've done bits and pieces but nothing particularly feels like anything is leading me to the next step. Everything feels transient. Like I create something and then it just passes through me. Like everything is a sketch and exploration.

I am (jokingly) slightly concerned that this is my open throat in action and my chiron in gate 8. And I wish I had all the wisdom I need right now. Something inside me is telling me I already know...but I can't access it right now.

I am feeling some call to work I've done in the past (landscapes/water/ warm sunrise/sunsets) and I don't know if it's out of fear of not being clear as to what I'm doing or whether there is something there I need to pick up.

I have clear vision of where I want to be and have manifested part of that... but it seems like when this came into reality a bit emptiness/pause came into my life.

...As I write this (and journal alongside), what is coming to me is whether my work is simply about 'matter is just energy'. We are all just temporarily trapped energy wandering around the cosmos. Anything more than that is overcomplicated. And maybe why I experience so much resistance in my own work when it has too much form.

...and this ties into my long term goal of maybe running my own gallery and residency/retreat is that I want help people unlock their creative energy.

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Our next Session is 18th March 11am.

Things we discussed.

Doing your own thing on the the esop course and not being thrown 'off course'

dyeing and bleaching fabric to paint in the garden.

Journalling and dreaming into the year ahead. Who am I at the end of 2024. What has happened, what have I created.

Below is an an article by Isla Mcloud and a dreaming ritual that I did with the creativity cafe group. You may wish to do it also before the course starts.

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A article on Winter and Creative Visioning for 2024.

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A article on Winter and Creative Visioning for 2024.

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This was a post I created for the Creativity Cafe members recently which you might find helpful!

Winter by Isa Mcloud

As the long nights are drawing in, the Callieach's cloak wraps us up in the darkness. Grandmother of mountain, stone, cave and cliff, She knows how to endure the desolate places our souls meet in the depths of Winter. Those confrontations with the bare bones of our lives that we must see for what they are and reconfigure in the dark cave of our dreaming to grow ourselves again from the fertile earth.

Her way is fierce, protective, creative and destructive as she unravels the stories that have kept us apart and kindles the embers of our forgotten longing. I can feel the layers peeling back as the Old Crone of Winter blows the wild winds of transformation and bellows from the edges of sight, calling for me to go deeper into the darkness. To withdraw from the familiar world and enter the wild landscape of my soul.

The Callieach, the watchful grandmother of this Winter tide, demands that we ask ourselves some of the deeper questions about the way we are living our life, individually and collectively. What needs to die so a new way can be born with the returning light that is in alignment with truth and freedom? Her fierce love and penetrating gaze can force us to our knees if we are not willing to be reshaped by her ravaging Winter winds. Can you allow the force of her sacred breath to blow apart your inner landscape to reveal the radiant beauty and luminosity of your soul?

Within the cauldron of creation, new life is stirring... What is taking shape from the quiet whispers of your Winter's dreaming?

Dreaming into a creative vision for the new year 2024.

Through the months of Winter as we retreat into the darkness, we are incubating our dream-seeds – all our hopes and visions for the future. At Winter Solstice and beyond, when the Sun is reborn, our seeds are given the strength and vitality they need to grow and thrive above ground, to be made visible.

This ceremony is designed to help make these dreams conscious and support these seeds to blossom in their perfect time.

Preparation - Collect physical images from magazines, journals and Pinterest that inspire you and resonate with your vision of what you wish to create in the world. What do you want to feel? What images awaken your longing or speak to some hidden dream? How do you want the wider world to look and feel?

Create Sacred Space – Tidy and clear a space that has enough wriggle room for some crafting and dancing.

Speak your Intention – Light a candle as you speak aloud your intention, something along the lines of ‘ I look within and unearth the seeds of my dreams, to spark them to life so that they may bear fruit at the perfect time. As the Sun is reborn, so am I, ready to emerge into the light and a new way of being.’

Enter the Silence - Turn off the lights so all you can see is this candle flame. Sit in front of this candle, gazing into the light as you welcome the silence like an old friend. There is nothing to do here. Let thoughts come and go, whilst staying curious to what arises. Spend 20-30 minutes here.

Make a Dreaming Board – gathering your images and a piece of card (A3 will do nicely) begin weaving this web of your dreams. Stick the images down in whatever arrangement feels good and instinctual.  Leave some gaps if you like, and add your own words, phrases, symbols or drawings.

Identifying Weeds – When your dreaming board feels complete, take some time drinking it all in, feeling the sensations in your body. Is there any contraction, resistance, holding? Can you sense any thoughts or beliefs that doubt your creative potential and ability to manifest these dreams in your life? Write down these weeds on a piece of paper, all of them!

Turning Weeds into Compost – Using your candle, ignite a corner or this piece of paper as you watch these weeds being burnt away (hold over a saucepan or ceramic dish). Commit to yourself that you will not be bound by these limiting beliefs; that you will create new, loving pathways that support the embodiment of your fullest potential. Offer any remaining ashes to the earth, a house plant or your fireplace.

Dancing your Dreams – Choose a song or playlist that compels your body to dance wildly! You might like to dress up for this, wearing your most fabulous finery. Placing your dreaming board on the floor, or somewhere in front of you, press play, and imagine you are courting your dreams, enticing them to life, luring them out of the darkness, as you dance them awake with your energy and intention.

When you feel you have given your full, embodied attention to your dream-seeds, take some deep breaths down into your belly, filling yourself up with all this vital life-force energy, feeling the warmth in your body and the power in your heartbeat. Make a pledge to protect and nurture these seeds as you blow out the candle.

Tending your Dream-Seeds – Over the next few weeks, through these long nights, spend time meditating with your Dreaming board in front of you, drinking in the images and feeling gratitude for all that is becoming.

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The Ancients lived by a feminine cosmology of creation, where everything was birthed and dissolved through a sacred universal Womb. Within each of us, whether female or male, lies a holographic blueprint of this Womb of Creation, connecting us to the Web of Life.

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It's not enough to shine a light on what is "wrong", we must shine a light on the path to what is "right". What does true hope, beauty, love, freedom and peace look like when you're not looking over your shoulder in comparison or fear?

Does it start with internal healing? Can we really heal the world without that? If fear lies within us, we fall into the negative patterns because that is all we know and trust.

We teach our children to compete. To be top of the class. That our value is based on an individual league table that doesn't celebrate individuality. A seed of competition, leads to war at all levels - internal and external. What if collaboration, app and win-win was our criteria for success? Where our individual gifts make the whole much richer.

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I revisited my hd/gene keys and refreshed myself on my INFP type and the parallels are pretty cool. What career direction for a sage in the 21st century? ;) No wonder now that I'm listening to my dominant intuition over my tertiary logic, i'm seeing symbolic stuff in my mind's eye without much effort now.

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Erin Claire Jones Human Design

Could be good for learning about using your strategy and your human design blueprint for business.

She's been a guest on quite a few podcasts too.

https://erinclairejones.com/human-design

Pam Gregory Astrologer, Interviewing Nancy Rebecca about the light surges in November. Could help explain the intense energy of the past month!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SnUzM60yaXk

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There is a business brewing.

Calling in someone to help initiate it, to co-create it with.

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Our next session is: 22nd January 12.30pm

To do:

Get into a rhythm of making the channelled ink drawings regularly.

Post regularly on instagram.

Look into blogging. Should it be part of the website? Substack?

Go on some fun outings! ice skating, nice meal, dancing. : )

Over the next 3 months.

Learn to sew well

Make the work beautiful, unique and fresh.

Hand died and dip dyed pieces.

Art can be business as usual.

Stick to processes used already.

Get into a flow and rhythm with it.

A new body of work is forming.

Nebula

Representing the experience when listening to different frequencies of music.

Message given to you.

'Be visionary now'

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I thought I'd try a bigger piece using ash and charcoal from our fireplace. Difficult to photograph :(

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Following on from our last session I spent the saturday cleaning and while i was doing that loads of thoughts about my creating a guide to creativity came out. I wrote it all down and perhaps there is content there to start a blog on substack.

However, following that, my month hasn't been the most satisfying in physical creativity. I had half term so spent most of the time with Seren then we stayed with my brother for the weekend. Big mistake. I felt it was wrong when I was travelling down, but I didn't want to disappoint Ed and Seren. The whole weekend I felt sucked dry of my positivity. He's a kind person but is so full of anger and apathy. He's an astrophysicist and it's funny that I feel like he's a black hole. I was very derailed after that visit.

I tried get into work but I felt empty. I knew it would pass but it doesn't make it any easier when you are keen to get on with your life. Anyhow I did some playing, trying to re-familiarise with the processes that I might want to use and then thought maybe the energy would be better found in planning. In among all this I had started visioning what playing big (unrealistically massive) could look like - SoHo house meets a creative wellness retreat complete with gallery and studios. Anyhow it's more about the brand ethos so i sat with Ed and talked it thought and we started on thoughts on a brand mission...still very much early essence at the moment.

And then I got ill.

But some things I have learned.

I need to separate my textile work and painting work into completely different chunks of time to focus mind and minimise the clearing up time between disciplines - so may be two weeks then shift to the other

Colour and texture are important and are influence by the seasonal light so I want to give permission to have my palette change with the mood. Maybe do little collections around the seasons but with shifting light

I'm liking making my own paint with pigments so that could be a thing

Questions I have for myself:

Is my work precise or fluid...or can it be both?

Is my work figurative or abstract or both?

I haven't the space for creation and storage of lots of large paintings, so what do small works look like?

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Our next session is: 28.11.23 12.30pm

Things to think about.

Creating a guide to the creative process. Initially for you, perhaps to have up on the studio wall, but in the future, something you can share with others.

Continue to work with the higher self energy and the message: 'Don't overthink the future.'

A pin board for ideas that are forming, guided by her. Possible studio / atelier, area, colours, smells, sensations. What does her home look like? What does she do with her time?How does she unwind?

Beginning to piece the textiles together: patchwork, simple shapes, monochrome.

Small canvases: Banner style.

Also clothing, to begin to sketch out some ideas. Graphic and simple.

Georgia O'Keefe as a guiding light!

Words you used:

Overlapping pieces.

Unity the earth needs

Universe

Plants

Big Canvasses

Distillation

'my first language is visual'

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I've tried lots of things: worked on creating lots of ideas as quickly as possible then chose 6 to put into larger real world paintings. Tried some other stuff - more embroidery, weaving and clothes making. I think the variety, the quick transformations and the turning something 2d into 3d of making clothes appeals to me - especially as it transforms / protects / enhances / transports the female body - much like how masks work in the story of female oppression/liberation and the Inanna myth. Maybe there is something shamanic/totemic in it to explore wearable art as I'e seen some artists do as the idea of the full body mask and how it could be used to liberate and connect with the universe. A few days ago I made my daughter an iridescent leatherette twirly skirt - she immediately fell in love and has been transported into being a rock star ever since. I don't think she's stopped dancing in it. She now gets up straight out of bed with no whining to do 15 mins dancing in the morning before breakfast. She gets lost in the dance and says it's the best way to start the day.

As an aside I was listening to a podcast interview with The Black Farmer about fitting in to society. He said at some point (paraphrasing) you have to decide whether you are on this planet 'TO BE' or 'TO BELONG'. As belonging is to conform and to be is to carve your own path at the expense of social norms. I really resonated with this idea and why I've always been unhappy to conform.

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Six large-ish (A1) work on paper and stretched calico and play with machine embroidery.

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Sketching 1: Making as many ideas as possible on the theme

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Sketching 1: Making as many ideas as possible on the theme

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Our next session is: 27.10.23 11am

To do this month.

Using the work made so far at ESOP as the basis for a body of work. Develop it.
Possibly keep the colours the same but try different materials.

Questions: Where can this work go?

Observe when you are working in the flow.
Go between painting and sewing and other creative projects that bubble up into your awareness asking to be made.

Notes

Thoughts that are percolating from the future self.
Having a space  and bringing people together.
Multidiscerplinary - working with materials and the joy and peace that working with the hands can bring.
Becoming a guide.

Things I mentioned.
Maya Luna Inana song (linked below)
5 rhythms dancing
Ecstatic dance.
Leeds will definitely have these.

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I took the whole summer off and then last week made some clothes, a picture for my hallway and played with my sewing machine.

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Our next session is 18th September 11am.

Notes from the session.

Time now to restore.
If it feels right, to work on the house, to spend time in nature once a week and with the sketchbook, but only if that feels calming and rejuvenating to do.

What you would say to a friend.
Withdraw to where you get energy.
Make things around you beautiful.
Protect your social energy.
Sit quietly in nature.
Allow the world to feed you.

The image from the visualisation.
Happy place.
An old farmhouse in a valley, warm colours, evening, trees, warm, dusk, food and wine.
Lean into what is tender in the work, the physicality and flow of it.
Keep it simple. Meditative. Not rushing.
Beautiful studio. People around, but you can be quiet.

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Below is my website which shows the work for the exhibition and the words I've written about my work/statement. I really enjoyed the creative process for this. It felt very purposeful, meditative and ritualistic.

I got some career guidance on what to do as next steps from Laine at ESOP. She said to make as much work as possible over the next year and concentrate on developing relationships. And only apply for opportunities that will fuel the development of my work - like funding and online residencies (rather than exhibitions etc). She also suggested I try printing (and making friends with printers) especially monotype, chine colle and aquatint. So I suppose as a next stage I need to understand who to develop relationships with, how to develop my work and what opportunities there are and when.

Alongside physical work for the show, I have done quite a bit on looking at strategies on how to deal with stress, negativity and associations of 'good things only happen when you suffer'. I've got a deeper understanding of what drives me and I'm really surprised that a lot of the strategies that I've started to identify - like creating a beautiful home as a space to recharge, protecting my energy from external energy sappers and ensuring I have creative outlets outside of work so that I can allow my primary desire to bring beauty into the world. So I feel a bit more happy on the personal work I need to do to develop as a human. It has seemed to have a positive impact in that I have been able to breathe without a tightness in my chest for a few weeks now - which feels amazing.