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You asked me what I truly feel when I think of you. Honestly, I feel grateful. You are someone who has brought so much sincerity, kindness, and warmth. The way you care, the way you notice even the smallest changes, and the courage it took to send me a message like this. Those things mean more to me than I can put into words.

If there’s one thing I wish for, it’s simply this: please don’t carry the weight of every silence on your own shoulders. Not every quiet moment is caused by something you did or didn’t do. Sometimes it’s just life asking us to slow down, Kakak. As for everything we’ve built together, I treasure it deeply. We’ve created something real, and I don’t take that for granted. I wouldn’t want you to doubt its value just because we’re in a calmer chapter. And maybe …, this is exactly what it means to choose each other, not only on the beautiful, effortless days, but also on the ordinary ones, and especially on the difficult ones?

Thank you for giving me the space to be honest. Your honesty doesn’t push me away. And thank you for your beautiful words. Knowing that I’ve been a part of your happiness is something I’ll always hold close to my heart.

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First thing first, I never thought about how you’ll exactly master this kind of magic, in which I’m naturally able to wrap my finger around you. This writing may be filled with so many “I never thought”-ism but nobody could actually blame me. I must say our type of loving doesn’t come from an unrestrained discomfort where we both just throw empty “I love you” to each other. Rather a type of loving that gradually surfaces from an unyielding root where you let the cold, rough wings of yours keep me warm. I find a lot of disregarded piece of myself gently getting gathered by your immense care, no other word other than faultless depicts your love towards me. You carry me with a love that grow within me, despite countless disbelief I bear for the sake of cruel thinking that I myself won’t able to just let the love be around me. Then the other thing is, I’m utterly amazed with the sparks you relentlessly pepper on my unhealed wounds, just with a mundane care. One that feels too bare, but too undeniably whole to be called mere. It’s like you already draw me whole before my veins even pulsing, if that makes sense. You spoke to me and held me so wholly that any intention you made is supposed to make my grief ceases to grow. You grasp the idea of me like a skin, nurture the essence of me like no sin, and I wonder what path yet you lighten with your tender cherish. Your existence became my new kind of independence, where no war I fought through is unworthy of the prize I’d cheat to win. Called your love. Bury me with your longing and see how my bones long for your name, Suhra.

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no matter how far we reach, there will always be a time to untie our fingers, ya, abang. please keep in mind that the truth is you're never losing me.. or losing us. instead, i found you, you found me, we found each other. and that is enough happiness to warm my heart.

thank you for being my one call away during this best two days. you made my day, you did it so perfectly. please keep the light in every sweetest smile of yours and don't dull the sparkle in your eyes, abang. you look much more gorgeous with a joyful look on your face.

thank you for your letters, the picture of us together, your never-ending sweet words, and for this cute, adorable little teddy as well.. i will never be able to repay all the brightness you bring to my side. :–( terima kasih udah jadi orang yang bener-bener baik, ya, abang!

if you apologize, then i have forgiven all of it, but you must remember that no mistake remains as i enjoyed every moment that we etched. also, there must be words or attitudes of mine that are unpleasant for you, i also convey my apologies since i have no intention of doing so to the person who has sincerely accompanied me so far.

the days spent with you are already firmly embedded in my memory. two days that felt like they lasted a long time. thank you for accepting me, abang. thank you for being my lover, my hamster, my black cat, and my heart. thank you for all of you, suhraward! ♥️ until our path crosses again. 👋🏻 sehat-sehat terus, and please keep going. =)

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To my dearest Suhra! Thank you for spending your days with me. I honestly had such a wonderful time with you. You're such a warm person, you know? I really mean it. And the way you talk... you're so good with your words. You're genuinely such a lovely man. I also think it's really cute how you always tell me about your day. It makes me happy for some reason. And whenever you talk about cats... it's honestly the cutest thing ever. You somehow always bring up all the little things I love the most, and I think that's so adorable. I don't think I'd ever get bored spending time with you because you're just such a fun person to be around. Being with you feels so easy and comfortable. And I swear you do have such magic hands, because the artwork you sent me yesterday was so beautiful. Please don't be this talented and this cute at the same time... T____T I hope God always keeps you safe, protects you wherever you go, and blesses you with so many wonderful things. You deserve them all. 🤍

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being with you is honestly the best feeling i have in these past gloomy days, youre just so easy to be with 😢 i even don't know what im about to say anymore since i probably always say how i enjoyed your presence hahahah, thankyou so so much for your company once again.. please expect me to be around again? ;P

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Boleh ga confession okay itold my friend about you and even she could notice how warm and loving you are. Yah apalgi aku yg ngerasain lgsg 😭😭✌🏻✌🏻 sori ya kakak banyak unseriousnya, kelihatan immature bgt loh ya ✌🏻 jujur lg boleh ga hehe i tot you wouldnt listen to my rambles krn jujurlohya if i were you ngapaen aku dengerin bocah 😭✌🏻 but you're such a good listener!!! You make me very comfortable talking to you! I told you almost everything even the smallest thing loh ya dan somehow you still responded to all of it loh ya 😭✌🏻 gokil ga ges 😭✌🏻 🥹💕🗿 youre really a good father figure! You know when to joke and when to encourage me sori aku banyak unserious shouldve responded more seriously sori ya😞😞🙏🏻 SORI maaf aku gprnh ngobrol serius kayak sm papa which is bgs lohhhhhh krn you took me seriously loh, aku gk di underestimate ges 😭✌🏻bnrn loh ges aku cerita cinta monyet pun ditanggapi dgn serius looohhhhhhh pdhl kalo aku yg diceritain gitu aku buli sori sori. Maaf guys banyak omongan g penting sori sori tp aku genuine loh ngetiknya ini dari hati very raw lo berarti artinya perasaan aku yg asli gak diedit this is how i TRULYYYYYYYYYY feel. Aku bnrn hepi loh ya seakan akan br dapet 1M sori gak lucu, funnier in my head maaf pke defense itu trs. Makasih ya papa 😭💕 Hhuhhhuhuhuhu 1 hari plg berkesan 😭💕

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Hi, Mr Mael! First of all thankyou so much for these two days (almost three) So, these past two days with you have felt soooooo faaaar thaaan I ever expected! //< It's meaaaan, I'm beyooond happy to meet you, Mael! ᢉ𐭩 you’ve been MORE THAN I ever imagined, somehow even more than I knew I was looking for. It’s a little sad that I’ve been busy lately so we couldn’t we couldn’t fully savor all the time we had together.. :[ (maafin aku serius..) but even so, I’ve cherished. every. moment. with. you! ^___ I truly enjooooy who I am when I’m around you #sangatserius soalnya aku tuh emang lagi minat minat pakai banget waktu mikirin plot ini, and you done it so well! Aku bahkan senyum-senyum (gak bohong) cius. I’m glad that i choose you :3 so i can feel my butterfly era again with a little bit of bittersweet at first. It’s really my dream FomoAuTikTok maaf hehehe. So, once again thaaaank you, Isamel Halbram. Thank you for being you when you're with me. Thank you for letting show your silly and weird side, but somehow it only makes me love you mor e! ❤︎ i hope our paths cross again somehow, so i can running into your arms again. Be happy always, and don't forget to eat ya, Mael!

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halo my mantan kesayangan. senang sekali bisa balikan dengan kamu meski waktunya singkat.. terima kasih juga sudah lebihin dan dengerin aku yang lagi mood yapping itu :< lalu aku tinggal make-up an :< huft, semoga kamu tidak begitu drained, kalaupun drained, semoga energinya cepat kembali.

bamie, mayel, mael, ma love, terima kasih banyak sudah kasih aku banyak hadiah, banyak waktu, banyak kalimat manisnyaaa.. jujur aku engga ngarepin banyak hal untuk 2 hari yang aku minta, cuman pengen ngobrol sambil sayang-sayang aja sama kamu, tapi ternyata kamu punya banyak hal untuk diberi ke aku, bukan cuman waktu dan sayang-sayangnyaaa... terima kasih banyak, yaa? kamu tahu aku selalu kalah kalau menulis-menulis begini, tapi aku selalu tulus dengan semua yang aku sampaikan untuk kamu. aku senang, 100000 juta lima ratus triliun senang!! bahagia, 18.800 bahagia!! terima kasih sudah memenuhi dua hariku dengan baik :( menemani aku sedari kerja sampai tidurrr..

terima kasih juga sudah mengajak aku nonton hari lalu. i enjoy it a lott, aku juga samaa, banyak banget ketawanya! aku kasih lala land 7 karna ekspektasi tapi karna nontonnya sama kamu, jadi 10!

ah seperti yang aku bilang, kedepannya kita akan putus nyambung, jadi aku harap kamu gak lelah menjalani hubungan toxic ini bersama aku ;). sekali lagi terima kasih banyak, bamie.

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My prettiest man, Maeng. Thank you so much for showing me that i deserve to be loved. The happiness i feel whenever i think about you, the excitement that hits me every time i see you it’s all so overwhelming in the best way possible. You’re not just a small part of my life tho, somehow, you became something far deeper than that, something rooted so quietly and so completely inside my heart that even i can’t measure how much space you’ve taken there. You’re amazing, truly. I love how connected we are. Ngobrol sama kamu mau ngalor ngidul atau yang serius feels so comfortable in a way aku sendiri kaget kok bisa seperti pacaran beneran dan seseru itu. I could be my self around you, kalau kata comfortable itu jadi orang mungkin bentuknya kayak kamu. Banyak banget selera kita yang sama, and i can finally nerd out about my secret genres to someone, the ones most people would probably find strange or hard to understand, tapi sama kamu rasanya kayak semua aku dirayakan? Makasih sudah mencintai aku se-nadin mungkin. Hatiku seberat dunia, semua bentuknya kamu rayakan, gils setuju nggak. And you’re so soft with me that sometimes i get embarrassed for acting so brainrot around you ya tapi kadang kamu sekalinya alay bnrn mengalahi gw sebagai king brainrot (agaknya). The way you choose your words to express love, the way you speak is so gentle and beautifully that i literally blank out for a second trying to process it all. You put sooo much effort in our session, aku suka banget bacain menfess menfess yang kamu kirim itu di base :V aku react diem diem and deep inside i feel so so loved with your words. Terima kasih buat semua hadiah yang kamu kasih, knowing that in the middle of your days your thoughts still found their way back to me. I surely appreciate and treasure it in my heart. A biggest pat pat for my cute samoyed, the person who love me the way i need to be love. I leave a piece of my heart on this diverging road, hoping you’ll find it when our steps cross again, bye bye.

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Aku agaknya akan ngetik honest review kali ini sambil nangis setengah hari soalnya apa, ya, aku seneng tapi juga sedih banget. Let me explain the reasons behind them, starting kenapa aku sedih banget.

Jadi, aku sedih karena it's finally our end again for this session. Jujurly, kali ini berasa banget singkatnya apa kah boleh kalau aku mau kita stuck di time loop aja biar bareng tiap hari? .jk Apa, ya, aku beneran ngga sadar we spent 4 days already? HUHUHUHU. Lately, aku ada trace our chats back using the search button right, and aku langsung kayak every time spent with Ais was the best of my days. Sampai-sampai aku lupa udah berapa lama we're spending it.

Selain itu, aku juga sedih karena I want to prepare more gifts to you tapi: 1). Seller-nya udah seen a month ago(?); 2). AKU MAU KASIH CHIBI JUGA TAPI AKU GA PD SAMA SKILL MENGGAMBARKU; 3). Aku juga mau kasihin another gambaran ke Ais yg kemarin aku bilang mau jadiin kita each other's obat(?) https://t.me/Damascenas/220 cuma aku blm ada mood buat gambar. Sedihhh banget and now I know how frustrated you are on our last session. :[

But, on the other side aku juga seneng. I was so happy to spend more time with Ais! Aku juga seneng karena antara sesi sebelumnya dan sesi sekarang Ais tidak pernah berubah ke aku. Bahkan klo boleh jujur, kata aku Ais improved so much! And I'm happy to see that improvement or maybe be part of it, xixixi.

Kata aku yak, Ais sekarang juga PDA-nya makin gacor aku dugun-dugun setiap hari karena kayak antisipasi dan persiapan mental cowok gantengku ini lagi nyiapin gebrakan apa. Wkwkwkwkwk, Ais juga selalu punya topik buat dibicarain!

Oh, and I love how you are always letting me take your time. Maaf, ya, pacarmu ini agak maruk. Aku suka ga enak karena bikin Ais begadang atau bangun sampai jam 12-an? Karena kita lupa waktu. I just don't want you to mengorbankan waktu istirahat kamu. But, if you ask me, obviously aku seneng dan juga thankful for that!

Aku udah pernah bilang sih ini kalau nulisin soal Ais bisa panjang dan juga banyak! Karena aku ngerasa nyaman sama Ais. Di sesi yang lalu mau pun sekarang perasaan aku ngga berubah ke Ais. Bahkan klo aku bisa mengekspresikannya perasaan aku kali ini semakin membuncah kayak kembang api, aku makin sayang sama Ais, makin cinta sama Ais, dan juga as much as Ais always bring comfort in my life aku juga berharap banget klo sesi sama aku brings comfort in yours.

Dari semua hal, aku mau minta maaf kalau selama sesi ada banyak hal yang bikin Ais uncomfortable atau pun aku ternyata tidak sesuai dengan form yang aku tulisin. Plis jangan kapok, ya, Ais. Selain itu, aku mau minta maaf kalau ada salah ketikan atau perkataan juga saat kita pacayan.

Sekali lagi, terimakasih banyak, ya, Ais. I've had a fun time with you kayak beneran se-fun itu! Aku berharap semoga aja kita punya waktu di bulan depan atau pun in the near future to be together again! Ini aku ngga akan pernah bosen bilang tapi jangan kapok, ya, Ais buat ketemu aku. Xixixi.

Like how we always interact, please keep casual with me. I ... have ... menganggap kamu as my friend the one I will never get tired of to keep in touch whenever we're free. If you don't mind with that!

Maaf, ya, Ais kamu jadi menunggu lama. Actually ini masih bakalan lebih panjang karena I forgot to also explain about our game date. MAIN BARENG AIS TUH SERUUU. Selalu seru, dan bahkan aku bisa lupa waktu karena eksplore Teyvat with a good companion was the best. Over all, please, jangan kapok aku ajak mabar, okay? Udah berapa kali yak aku ngetik gitu tapi beneran.

I love you so much Ais Oreo-Zen. My Ismael Halbram. Semoga kamu selalu sehat, ya. Bobonya juga jangan kemaleman, dan segala urusannya dilancarkan termasuk magangnya minggu depan. Please remember that I'll always be here for you! Semangat Ais. <3

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Maeng, thank you :( thank you for seeing me that deeply—it genuinely moved me, i mean it. Thank you for being such a good malewife boyfriend, for being thoughtful, affectionate, and sweet toward me. It truly hurts that our session ends here—but it’d hurt even more if i got too comfortable with you. Still, i want you to know how grateful i am to have had you in my life during this time. Thank you, seriously, because with you, all i want is to be spoiled endlessly and to spoil you just as much. You’re such a crybaby, my babygirl. Thank you for always praying the best for me, i pray the same—that you stay happy, with or without me (damn sedih). Thank you for being patient, for asking how my day was, for listening to every story, and answering my silly questions. You’re just as insane as i am ( and i love that :p). Thank you for making me feel like i’m the only woman in your world, well, second after your mom, of course. Thank you for never making me feel lonely (meskipun kamu sering ketiduran) (bercanda). And i’m truly sorry if i wasn’t always able to keep up, or if i ever made you feel uncomfortable in any way. I hope the world knows how amazing you are at treating me, and i hope someone out there gets to feel what i’m feeling right now (sedih bat dah). I always pray that God will takes care of you, always. Amen. And also, here i thought you weren’t the type to go in that kind of thing (ykwim), but you seemed a bit more willing than advertised, seems like someone broke his own disclaimer a little? I’ll take that as a compliment HAHAHAHA. Ekhem, please say my name three times whenever you feel like you need a kiss :p (not joking)

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thankyou for being such an amazing boyfriend, again :) im always happy whenever you're around. it's like you bring me the desire to love again and again. you never fail to see and understand me better. i feel like you're bad for my health but i like that kind of pain so hahah what am i even talking about.. thankyou so so much for being the perfect boyfriend i always wanted mael ❤ i cherish and adore you with my whole heart <3

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MHMMM.. first of all, where should i even start ya.. i'm not good with words but i will try my best to give it, okayyy! i had a lot of fun spending my time with you, like really really a lot of fun! you're such a comforting person and i'm more than happy that i decided to spend my time with you, really! you're genuinely sweet and treat me so well, not gonna lie. i might be the one who is awkward but it was only for a while since i immediately feel comfortable around you. i don't have any.. criticism or anything, i'm geuninely feel grateful for it! ah.. it's getting gloomy now that the session is ending.. i really had a lot of fun with you, kakak! i'm so sorryy that i might be attacked with some chores that be the barrier for our time together.. huhu t____t

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OF COURSE! But first, I want to say thank you, a bunch of it, for you. For accepting my request to be my boyfriend and for bearing to be my boyfriend. I've never put myself to a kind that easy to bear but you bear with me soooooo good. I love how everything clicks when I'm with you. You're the perfect amount of asbungitis and the perfect amount of softness. The smallest things you've done always caught me off-guard in a good freaking way. Our jokes fit each other's so good. The way you always make sure I'm okay, the way you always teases me, the way you always compliment me like nothing else worthy of it, the way you worshipping our relationship, actually... It's just the way you love, so beautiful and sooooo comfortable. Your way of loving made me feel like the luckiest one ever. You take every jab and give me the equal jab back, and that's what I want. I love how our thoughts lined up perfectly for each other. You're a funny-guy, and I adore you for it. You've handled me so good to the point that I feel like... Too lucky. And that's good. I like that feelings as a human-being. Please keep everything up, I don't have any advice other than that. I'll keep rooting for you, Ismaeeel. Keep being funny king. WKWKWKWKWK.

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this is the 3rd time I've been with you and it's honestly my best decisions ever! i mean having to do the stranger to lovers trope with you feels amazing, it's all feels natural with you, the sweet gestures, cutely flirting and many things. i really, really enjoyed my time with you, i feel like our atmosphere of love is in the air the moment you asked me hahah. i feel safe expressing my abg like feeling when it comes to dating with you, youre also such a great companion maelcyang ❤ there's just so much i wanted to tell you and i eventually will, so please do wait for that moment ya 🤭thankyou, pacar :p

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Aaaaah. 🥺 Ternyata udahan ya sesi pacarannya... (Sedih) (Cry). First of all, Thank you for the time we spent together. 2 days weren’t enough I truly loved every moment with you. <333 I swear, being with you feels like pure sunshine. Sampai engga kerasa, ternyata udah selesai aja sesi kitaaa. ;)))) Still the same, huh? You’re still the Ismael I know, soft, so sweet, and way too kind for this world. I seriously can’t believe someone like you exists. #BestBoyfriendEver. Deserve dikasih five ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ eh! Tambah satu deh ⭐. Soalnyaaaa, kakak best baaaaanget. You just… Know how to love me right. The way you treat me, the way you give your all, it’s everything. You know exactly what makes me the happiest. When I’m with you, it’s like all the empty parts of me finally feel complete. You bring so much love, cheer, and light into my world. Bener-bener deh, dia tuh ada aja gitu tingkah lucu nya yang bikin cengar cengir. One of the things that made me fall so hard for him. The way you’re dramatic, chatty, and soft all at once… It just keeps making me fall for you over and over again. Engga ngerasa canggung sama sekali pas sesi soalnya Kak Mael bener-bener selucu ituuuu???? Jadi, ngalir gitu aja. DAN BENER BENER AKU ENJOY BAAANGET. Asik banget tau selama sesi aaah. 😭😭 Love loveeee banget. :3 Sangat amat memenuhi ekspetasi. Bahkan, aku gak nyangka.. He is more than I ever dreamed of! Ril! Cius! Ismael Halbram is truly perfeeeeeeeect in every way. He knows exactly how to show love to the ones he cares about. <3 Yang bener bener bikin kita ngerasa disayang baaaaanget, jagonya deh dia maah! Thank you so soooo much, kakak. Sorry If there any mistakes, yaaa. ♥

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:[ Aissss, thank you for giving me MUCH MORE than I should have. Gimana, ya, cara jelasinnya tapi Ais tuh the best part of my days! You caught my eyes from the first time I see you. 🥰 I think ... aku beneran kepelet deh .jk I mean, who didn't have a crush on you Ais. Everything about Ais Oreo ini sangat perfect.

Let me tell a long storyyyy!! At first I was really scared we could be awkward at our sudden changes of title. Friend to lover they said ... sounds soooo awkward. BUT Ais keep bringing the real me, keep talking to me despite ... maybe his busy schedule? I think I'll be the one to cry today but I'm gonna continue the story. Oh, I just remember that I received 2 .. not one but TWO new nickname from Ais (I won't let anyone call me by it, those two nickname reserved for Ais only). He is so sweet aren't he? NOT ONLY THATTT, Ais was soo precious like ... when can you have a boyfriend who would cry because he thinks you're cute. I just feel loved and safe under Ais presence! Also, I'm grateful because Ais respond to all of my ... random thoughts/saying/rumbling/chats.

I've spend ... 4 days? Or more? Or less ...? I can't even tell the time when I'm with him because I'll always crave more! I want to be on his side every time. I think at this rate when I say I can be a koala, it means I'm clinging to him instead of the tree. 😫 Anyway, in this paragraph I want to tell about how time is meaningless because it can't be counted when I'm with Ais. And that's proof of how safe I feel around him, how he comforted me, how he respond to me (as in my jokes), and how he always spare his day to have quality time with me. This was another thing that I'm really, really grateful about. Ais will always be with me despite my class, or homework, even in game?

Talking about game. I'M ... SPEACHLESS. Ais ... thank you for giving me princess treatment in game. 😭❤️ What can I say, my man was really a gentleman. That he told me to just watch him defeat all that hilichurl. Everytime we do daily commision he'd go first and then defeat the enemy for me???? 💐 And that one time when I can't even reach the top of some stonny photoshot place ... he come back so I don't feel alone when it's me and my noob skill is the problem and he might have to wait for long. He is so patient that I think I grow bigger love for him. 😫

Ais also ... always gift me something special like sending menfess after we playing? Putting my face all over his account?? SKSKSK when he ask me why I love him this dearly much ... now I could confidently tell him it's because he also love me a little too much that I feel comfortable in showing it—try to give it back double or even much more that he give me. ^^

I just hope that as much as I enjoy these days. Ais would also enjoy my presence too, I hope that everything I do can genuinely become a good memory on you too. Ais, if somehow I was the one who's different from when I told you how I was—or how I could behave, I'm sorry 'kay?

This long, long paragraph is an appreciation because Ais always do his best. And I'm sure everyone around you can feel how genuine you are on everything you do. Thank you for giving me a chance to be your special one. I love you infinitely, can't express my feeling at this point because it's unmeasureable. Ais thank you for being an existence that could brighten my days. I never regret meeting you even one second.

I think I should ... end it here? I mean this long letter .... Over all, Ais really tried his best to fulfill my wishes on the form that I write. And he nailed it. Every single little tiny details. He might even exceed my expectation! I would love to spend more days with Ais but maybe we should make some time when both of us free? So we could have the time in the world for us ;] ANYWAAYY, I also wanted to say that Ais' service troughout the duration was exceptional! I'm so happy to found someone who could match me the best way possible. Now that I write it all ...

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please don't say sorry. gift aren't mandatory and i enjoy nothing more than your presence around me bram. youve been so nice to me this whole time, still the same scruffy silly and sassy bram! i can tell that youre not being different from the last session we've had together because im happier! you never pushed or being too aggressive, i like the way you re texting me just because youre concerned. also your newest addiction hahah 😭 i feel in awe because youre willing to take deep dive to my (not so) favorite game just to relate and play with me 🥺 the man you are, ismael halbram ;p

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alright, *tarik-nafas, 😮‍💨. sebelum aku me-review, aku mau ucapkan terima kasih banyak dulu untuk my fineshyt 'cause you're always doing your best for me, for us. thank you so much ismael halbram, untuk tidak wasting my time dan bener-bener ngasih afeksi yang aku perlu dengan berbagai cara warbasya.

11:02, i'm looking back at your very first message in our chat. just to look back and make sure you get the honest review you deserve. ─

hari itu, girlfriend's day dengan ribuan drama (lah, bukannya 1 agustus?) 😂. you seemed kind from the very beginning, and you really are. kamu nawarin aku "lagi mau apa?" supaya kamu bisa ngasih itu ke aku :3. also, hari itu kamu udah berbagi tmi 😭 tmi nya beneran kayak yang aku mention di form (tmi kecil pun gapapa) TAPI, ya... beneran kecil sih, tapi? terlalu besar untuk di bilang kecil, #ytta #hahaha.

aku selalu nulis form yang panjang, tapi tetep aja bawaan dari diri pasti sulit untuk mengikuti, so i never set my expectations high, then i wouldn't be disappointed, but when i'm with you, i'm always surprised, you're just too good to be true.

first, ternyata kamu bisa banget di ajak quality time. engga ada sedetik pun aku ngerasa di tinggal kamu, kecuali pas Smartfren jelek kayak kemarin *fr*, bahkan mungkin aku yang ninggalin kamu kerja terus. menurutku kamu fast respon banget :(, you always keep me updated, bahkan kamu selalu nemenin aku kerja, dengerin keluhanku yang loyo-loyoan itu.

nah, karna dia selalu punya waktu, obrolan kita juga nyambung terus :(. bayangin dalam 24jam sudah punya 900 bubble chat? terus 48jam nya, kami punya 2k bubble chat? i still can't believe it… this is the first time i've had a partner who's so good at spending quality time and who clicks with me in every conversation. (ini lebih ke contoh, 2 manusia yang chronically online).

obrolan? obrolan aku sama mael tuh ada dari yang ringan sampai yang deep :( (maaf, lagi-lagi cannot stop memble). dari yang ibu-ibu berantem di antrian, sampai kemungkinan kita di kehidupan lain :(. sampai bertukar pikiran tentang hal paling abstrak di dunia ini & hal paling kompleks. i really-really enjoy our conversation, mael. aku ga bohong waktu bilang aku mau menghabiskan banyak waktu untuk obrolan-obrolan tanpa akhir bareng kamu.

he pays attention to every detail of me, every little thing, so i never have to repeat myself. sometimes, he even understands the things i can't put into words. ketemu mael tuh, kayak ketemu "the one" #serius. kayak, akhirnya aku ga perlu menjelaskan, akhirnya ada yang bisa menerjemahkan bahasaku dengan cara-cara yang aku mau. aku sudah pernah bilang ini, dan aku pikir, ini penting buat aku kasih tau ke semua orang... he's deeply caring, he'll understands the things u might not even be able to explain.

secondly, his words surpass anyone’s, above anything. he is words of affirmation itself. lagi-lagi aku mau bilang, kalau kalimat-kalimat mael selalu aku baca dari awal sampai akhir, bahkan aku baca berulang kali :(. aku udah bilang di form kalau aku ga suka longtext, tapi kalimat mael tuh, ga peduli seberapa panjang pun, aku akan tetap jatuh di buatnya... kalau biasanya aku baca longtext dengan mimik 😒😌, tapi kalau long text dari mael, aku bacanya sambil 🥹🥺. kerasa, kerasa banget tulusnya... kayak, dari hati pasti sampai ke hati (i'm glad if the affirmations you give me truly come from the bottom of your heart.). aku yang biasanya kalau baca longtext buru-buru biar selesai dan habis itu #yaudahaja, pas baca dari mael... aku rela screenshot, sensor namanya, nyari template untuk pamerin & repeat.

JADI, kalau dia bilang "i'm not good with words" jawab aja "kentut". i don't know if you merendah untuk meroket or u really think you're not good with words ya, mael... but, KENTUT!. YOU ARE REALLY GOOD, gue teriakin sini.

11:36, aku di tanya ngetik apa dari tadi... guys.... he... is...watching... me... museowo... jadi aku pindah ngetik ini ke save message :p.

oke, lanjut kali ya... lanjut apa ya sekarang... jadi bingung...

OW, the.... giving services & gifts :3.

he always makes sure to return everything i give him, and even more. he remembered my words when i said, 'kalau aku kecintaan, pasanganku harus lebih kecintaan' and he lives by it. kemarin dia kasih aku gifts lucuuu, video highlight instagram gitu, seakan-akan main bareng aku :3 dan semuanya bener-bener sweet banget, i'm tearing up in my corner. sejujurnya, mael.... kehadiran kamu aja sudah menjadi sebuah hadiah buat aku (anjay)

ah, ini juga harus di mention... HUMOR (eh, apa tadi udah aku mention ya...) POKOKNYA, humor mael perlu di beri applause yang terpisah 👏👏👏. "Shakespeare could never slurping seblak demi pacarnya", " Malaikat x Pacarku", "Dalam dua jam lagi kamu bakal denger berita Bekasi banjir, ini bukti air mataku nangisin kamu".

dia bisa jadi beberapa versi, versi kalem kalau lagi ngomongin hal yang serius, kalau lagi soft-hours... tapi bisa jadi versi yang hiperbola kalau lagi kecintaan sama pacarnya. loh, tapi versi kalem tuh juga versi kecintaan.. dia kecintaan terus.

.... ini aku masih scrolling yang di tanggal 01 Oktober loh, belum sampai tanggal 02...

jadi sebenarnya, sebelum ngetik ini, aku check padlet nya mael. aku sebelum rent dia ga pernah bener-bener merhatiin dan ternyata aku beruntung karna yang aku pilih ini mael. dari kejujuran customer yang lain, dia ini beneran se bagusssssssssss itu... tapi kayaknya belum ada honest review super-panjang kayak gini.

sebagai customer yang aku tuh selalu ngeliat panjang-engga nya testie sebagai "beneran bagus atau engga" aku pikir, ismael halbram pantas untuk testie panjang tiada ujung (meskipun ini tetap ada ujungnya)

so, yeah, none of my criteria, not even the smallest should or shouldn't, was missed. he really did whatever it takes to make me feel loved. i'm trying to explain the 4 days we've been together, but it would take a whole book to tell the story. i think this is… enough, kan?

si mael ini beneran jago banget ngimbangin aku. pokoknya selama sesi, aku terus-terusan di buat kaget. kaget dengan cara berpikirnya, kaget dengan effortnya, kaget dengan humornya, kaget dengan kepribadiannya, kaget... karna dia kayak aku versi kagebunshinojutsu! alias, kayak lagi ketemu aku versi laki-laki. 😔 SoUlMaTe! 😔 i love you.

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don't know where to start omg... I just wanna say that I enjoy my time with him! I consider myself lucky to have him :> Gimana ya... Aku bener-bener nyaman banget sama Mael, cause we get along too well, I think 😅 Anyway, that's such a good thing! He fulfilled my criterias, bahkan melampaui! #TepukTangan. I'm truly glaaaad I found him, karena menurutku cukup susah nemu orang yang bisa seklop ini sama aku ;) But Mael did it. Keren banget, I know... He's really good with words, and that, always made me smiling like a silly girl. He also has that sense of humor lol, aku banyak ketawa pls. Pokoknya dia imbangin energiku dan match my freak so well. Ga ada kurangnya alias FLAWLESSSS bgt bro. He's one of a kind I love him sooo much <3 Annnd that's all, I guess, though I know he deserves more... But I hope this shows enough how amazing he is :]

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being with you feels like light rain… gentle, not too much, but it stays with me. i didn’t notice it at first, but little by little you’ve been soaking in. you’re not loud or flashy, but maybe that’s why ill keep waiting for you, like waiting for the rain to come back.

although im not a big fan of the rain now since it made you sick. please take care of yourself and be prepared for your busy schedule, hurts me enough to know that youre sick on your birthday. also, i know that im late to say this properly but happy birthday, ismael halbram! i cherish the cheesy and cringe texts from you. i wish you nothing but joy and love throughout your live. i hope you enjoy your life and live to fullest! you have so much time to explore and do something new. and please say thankyou for your mother from me because she raised such a good companion, a well mannered soft hearted man hahah. im so thankful for bram, ma! 🥰 and for your friends that made you the way that you are right now, im thankful for them too. and for you to making it through another tiring day as a WNI😮‍💨😶‍🌫️ you definitely deserve better bram.. wishing you luck with the 🇯🇵 plan, im rooting for you (and waiting for you to change your name to kento ismael lololol bercanda ya onichan)

i like our light conversation, keeps me wanting more and more to be honest.. gotta say that youre fantastic at this hahah. no critique! youre a 10/10 already :P

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Hubbyy, barusan aku baca chatnya lagi, it feels like you poured your whole heart into it. Itu bikin aku diem sebentar, mikir, karena jarang ada orang yang bilang segini tulusnya sama aku. Soal review yang kamu minta, aku jawab jujur aja yaaaa. Dari awal kita ngobrol sampai sekarang, aku ngerasa nyaman banget. You don't hold back, kamu bisa playful, bisa serius, bisa manis, bisa lucu, and somehow it all feels natural. Bukan dipaksa, bukan dibuat-buat. Itu hal yang paling penting buat aku, karena aku nggak tahan kalau hubungan cuma kelihatan manis di permukaan tapi kosong di dalam (The important thing is that you meet my criteria!) Aku juga suka cara kamu nunjukin rasa sayang. Sometimes it's extra, sometimes it's random, tapi justru itu yang bikin aku ketawa sendiri. Kamu punya energi yang bikin aku nggak bisa terlalu dingin, even kalau aku coba. Kalau ditanya ada masukan atau hal yang perlu kamu perbaiki..... honestly, nggak ada. Aku udah nyaman banget sama cara kamu jadi pasangan aku, even kalau ini baru satu hari. Kadang orang butuh waktu lama buat adaptasi, tapi kamu bikin aku gampang aja nerima ritme kamu. Jadi nggak ada alasan buat aku minta lebih, karena sekarang aja rasanya udah cukup banget sumpah. Aku makasih banget, Hubby. Thanks for being this open, this generous with your feelings. You made me feel wanted and cared for dalam waktu singkat, and that says a lot. Aku pengen kamu tetep kayak gini aja, jangan nahan diri, jangan mikir terlalu keras soal gimana harus bersikap. Because the way you are right now, works for me. And I like it

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For a few days I spent time with Ismael Albram, I catch myself smile more often and more longer than before. Ismael sangat paham bagaimana membuat saya tersenyum lewat celetukan jokes asbun ditengah keseruan obrolan kita. Ismael juga pintar mengembangkan topik, sehingga obrolan menjadi dua arah dan sangat menyenangkan mengetahui Ismael sangat perhatian terhadap detail kecil aktivitas saya. Ismael juga sangat afirmatif, dia sering memberikan ragam kalimat penyemangat yang tidak pernah bosan saya baca berulangkali. Selain kalimat penyemangat, Ismael juga sangat ekspresif dalam menyampaikan kalimat kasih sayang, senang melihatnya selalu memamerkan saya di base. I'm so glad I could meet with you Ismael, I hope happiness will always come for you.

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Aaaah, I can’t believe it’s already over.... SEDIH MEEEEEN. Okay, okay… First of all, I just want to say thank you, Kak Mael! Thank you for being the very best for me. So.... I will give you...... ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ fives stars! Mau bintang atau cinta......? Eeeeeeeh. ADUUUUH KAKAK GANTEEEENG. Kakak tuh lucu.. And, match my energy jugaaa! Jadii, aku super duper enjoy selama sesi. SERU BAAANGET. Sesuai sama ya aku mau tau ini reaaaaal banget. I’m so inlove with youuuu. Si ganteng nan keren ini! (Tergila-gila). You’ve truly done your best, I swear! The criteria I wrote in the form match you perfectly...... Gila keren.. Makin cinta... I honestly can’t believe it… I’ve found… my soulmate  Aliaaaaas, klop, klop, klop baaaaanged! ;) I adore when you shower me with love and praise… Aku sesaltingan ini loh kak... Kasihani aku ini, please.... it only pulls me deeper and deeper.. You’ve made me fall completely, and I’m savoring every second of our session together. Kakak juga enjoy baanget pas sesi sama akuu. Jadi-jadiii, aku engga kaku jadinyaa hehehe. INTINYA SERU DIHHH. Teruuuuuus, kakak juga incredibly good at lightening the mood! And that’s one of the things I adore most about you. <3 It’s what I admire the most! Heheeeee. Segitu ajaaadeh, yaaa. Sorry if there any mistakes yaa, kakak! Once again, thank you sooooooo much for spending time with me yaa, kakak. ♥