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30/6/23

you asked me trick or treat

i picked treat but then got tricked

is it that hard for you to commit?

you turned me back into a clueless kid.

the poisonous apple you fed me

you made me drop on my knees

i can't move

i can't stop

i begged for your fogiveness as you laughed it out.

before i decide to let you go

you left me out there in the cold

unpredictable

unstoppable

my heart is rotting out with the animals

thought you are always prince charming

but  your heart can be cold as snow

in your wrinkled white shirt as you put on a show

didn't know snow white could be so cruel sometimes.

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13/9/23

day 85

i'm watching the movie you told me about

again,

i regret not asking you your favorite scene

this movie is supposed to be funny

why am i crying so much?

day 254

a girl asked me out today

but in her eyes, i see myself missing you

and in a distance, sometimes,

just sometimes

i would catch a glimpse of you,

of us.

day 576

m sitting here eating our favorite food

but,

there's no scent of you anymore.

i miss the constant giggle,

i miss the hugs,

the kisses,

why do i feel so empty?

day 890

it's our annual anniversary today,

i just bought your favorite cake from the store

where are you?

i'm blowing the candles

you are the wind that wiped the fire away

are you here with me?

day 1000

i dreamed about you again;

i don't know what's real what's not anymore

it's so familiar for me

i've seen this scene too much

with you coming to me,

saying hi what's my name

and i just

cried,

like a little child.

and even if i live t'il millions days later

my life already stopped when you left me,

haha!

funny,

you told me to meet new people

but they all see me as a grumpy middle age man

i couldn't careless though,

because without you

i'm

just existing.

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12/9/23

i dreamed of you today

and in my dream

i still felt the same euphoric feeling with you lying by my side

we giggled and talked about the simplest thing

but even if it's simple, with you i would never be bored

we didn't hug or kiss

but oh my why did my heart skip a beat

why did i dumbly smile like a little kid

but then you stood up

left me alone

it's the empty feeling again

fill up the room

i woke up

and i miss you

i miss you

i miss you so much u couldn't imagine

i'm living my life like it's nothing

but at night

its me and you in my thoughts

you interfere every of my dream

just a glance

just a feeling

just a non existent scent.

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having choices complicate things
it breaks relationships
it breaks her.
she gets along great
but not too great where she is in the priority
is she being petty or just normal jealousy?
oh please...
crying for help
refuse help
wanting attention
reject them
what's wrong with her?
is it their fault?
she would never be good enough.

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26/3/23

the moment i laid my eyes on you

and suddenly you are every song i listen to
another scenario right before i fall asleep

and again, there's you in my dream

i love you too much it isn't up for debate

everyday I pray just to be near you

but you are just a hopeless little crush

because we all know reality crushes

why does the truth always hurt?

even though i would burn for you

you will never noticed, never cared
i guess that's why life is never fair

honestly you know what, nevermind

since you will never be mine.

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14/1/23
the shared reel that was never meant for her,

being pushed out, not together

walking with ghost, talking alone

called it a trio, but she’s on her own.

even if she doesn't get the inside jokes.

she knows she should be pleased
the silver looks good on her,
however she craves the gold of that trophy

the trophy that was never meant for her.

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8/1/23
I went fortune telling today.

and as the fortune teller was reading my own future
through those sweaty palms

I can’t stop but wondered

So it’s my bare hands that will decide my fate?

So it’s those weird wrinkles will choose my identity,
who am i,
what is my role in this world,
what will I contribute to this society?

I went fortune telling today.

The more I know about my future, the more problems i see.

I'm no protagonist, I'm just here to find answers.
but I'm back home with more questions than I've ever had.
I went fortune telling today.

The more bucks I paid,
the better picture I see

But all I saw was just me,
standing alone,
facing a rotten world.

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a long poem i wrote out of stress from those exams i was taking

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a long poem i wrote out of stress from those exams i was taking

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13/12/22
looking up, looking down, taking notes

revision til midnight

bad scores

cry through midnight

repeat the routine

what does it mean?

mistake is key to succeed people said

but no matter how many keys you find, there’s no door

you keep thinking of excuses for your scores

but it’s just you running away from your responsibility

you keep thinking if you try harder, your scores will improve

but those are just thoughts and not reality

you will skip this subject you thought

but every subject you skip is every chance you loose

you are so sick of tests

you want to cry, to vomit, to drop everything

you want a new life where you can redo everything

that teacher is still talking

you don’t listen to them anymore

their voice are flies to your ears

zzz

your eyes feel heavy
you feel heavy
you hate school.

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26/12/22
we crossed paths, exchanged gazes

no chat just walked away
one stayed, the other splitted
that left me with your secrets.

we were young and stupid

big laughs between small drinks

was more than just a fling

but strangers who shared secrets.

our old matching bracelets
were my best of best friends

different places, same planet

we are strangers with secrets.

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23/12/22

You wore your best suit

mouth mumbling familiar tunes

asking me if am I ready

I’m not, I never will be.

you are now on your knee

hands reaching your pocket
and I can't bear this
1
2
3
i'm sorry
i wrote and cherished our love story
but they are just paper with words
i walked past you with a knife to my chest
you are the one that's bleeding though
through your brand new suit
through the ink and paper that made up our journey
sorry.

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13/12/22

I won’t survive if there's an apocalypse

i’m no main character in those film

you will be saved though

because you matter more than me.

without you, i’m no one

none of them will wait for me

they will for you though

as long as i’m with you, i’m saved.

i’m crying as i’m writing this

but you’ve always have it easy

i’m no stranger in your life

still, i envy you, i really do.

you do things so effortless

how is that even possible

you’re just so wholesome it’s strange

i could never be as kind as you.

what’re the differences between us

we are both human beings

but you're always being valued more than me

no matter how hard i tried.

perhaps it’s me being immature

but isn’t it normal to have those feelings

i bet you wouldn’t like that, would you

you are too good for that.

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11/4/2022

Will I ever be your princess

Or nothing but a mistress

your heart beats, you're heartless

cruelly stabbed me in the chest.

our gazes meet, you quickly look away

leave me faded alone in your dark empty room

i wear a silly costume, hand holding a champagne

but i know for a fact you'll never look at me again.

in my dream you still appear everyday

you look like what i imagine, holding a bouquet

and now real life world sounds like nightmare

since i’m nothing but only your affair.

one day if I die

i really want to see you cry

don’t care if it’s hell or paradise

cause all i want to see are those turquoise eyes.

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ft Khanh Phuong
24/7/22

vẫn chưa tới mùa đông, lại chỉ còn hơi lạnh

lòng tràn đầy vết cắt, vì chiếc băng anh cài

vẫn đó hàng mi dài, ở đâu hai dòng nước

dù ở ngay phía trước, lại cả thước thương đau.

hơi ấm trên vai em, vẫn còn đang vương vấn

trong cơn gió xe lạnh, kìa bóng hình ngoài sân

tà áo dài êm đềm, tựa như những ánh nắng

mái tóc đen dịu huyền, cô gái tuổi tròn trăng.

Trời thu buồn Hà Nội, cứ đến rồi lại đi

để lại bao kí ức, một tương lai mờ nhạt

Ngọn lửa nhỏ sáng lên, trong màn đêm tăm tối

Mối tình em dẫn lối, kết lại bằng đôi môi.

vẫn đó hạt bụi bạc, bám lên trên màn kính

em đã từng rất thích bụi hoa cúc trước nhà

ngày bụi hoa nở ra, là ngày em biến mất

vầng trăng hay mặt đất, sợi chỉ đỏ còn đây.

gió nhẹ cuốn theo hồn, mang qua hàng nước mắt

hỏi trời sao lại bắt anh một mình nơi đây

đời người thật trớ thay, toàn mưu mô cạm bẫy

vầng trăng vàng nơi ấy, che phủ dưới tầng mây.

tà áo pha vệt đỏ, in sâu mãi trong lòng

biển xanh sóng ào ạt, em một mình khoảng không

dù đưa hai tay ra, chỉ nhặt được không khí

tình yêu hay lí trí, anh nguyện chọn mình em.

ngày mắt ta chạm nhau, con tim anh nở rộ

giờ mắt ta chạm nhau, trái tim anh héo tàn

một mình đến dự tang, về với bao nước mắt

ngày đời anh tắt nắng, là lúc em rời đi.

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14/7/22

I was the girl believed your eyes

Was that same girl, crushed by your lies

Every night, you held me tight

But then it's you, left me aside.

Wiping my tears, then made me cry

Covered your act by sick wicked lies

Promised to god won't leave my side

Now you're gone, tears left my eyes.

Closing my eyes, oh there you are

open my eyes, sparkly stars

cigar we shared, below the dark

my once healed heart, is full of scars.

Locked your eyes, I saw all you

Now lock your eyes, i see just blues

You were the guy, I fantasized

Looking at you, I memorized.

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7/10/22
my aged telescope

reach out the sky, look for your blue

bare naked eyes

dark secret truth under white ice.

frozen flesh and bones

build a kingdom with your lonely throne

you’re on your own

since you’ve been born.

oh dear my Neptune

your beauty is not wrack nor ruined

my sanguine moon

my solar noon.

you wear silverly rings

early summer until late spring

aura-ing light

far from my sight.

short day in long year

spend all your life coping with fear

clear crystal tears

it’s okay dear.