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She asks herself these questions and more - what if he (was) "growing resentful", "wreaked havoc on campus", "committed suicide"- which links to the idea that Miller would "feel responsible" for any harm done. She would blame herself if anyone got hurt because of her situation, as she was the on that pressed charges on him.

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This sentence formatting helps the reader to understand the rhythmic nature of the witness examination process, and the sheer amount of extremely specific questions that Chanel was expected to answer at a moments notice

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She showcases her emotional distress while attempting to cope with the various struggles she has encountered as a result of the sexual assault incident that had occurred to her on the Stanford campus. This is evident when trying to discuss her experience in which she begins huffing and puffing "My words were breathy, I felt ugly, making a mess of myself"

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Readers are able to understand the paranoia and subconcious defense mechanisms victims experience. The repetition of those questions emphasize how these thoughts are impossible to escape

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Through this, Miller represents the process of living with trauma as one with a lot of anxiety due to her intrusive thoughts. Because she was raped by someone she does not know, she is scared of what she does not know (ie. others emotions and incentives)

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Miller represents the process off living with trauma as an incredibly stressful and mentally taxing experience.

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"glow of the porch light disappeared"
"silent panic"
"my head dropped forward, my thought scattered"

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Miller's inability to recount all of the night causes her to panic in the courtroom as she is unable to answer the attorney's questions.

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She asks herself questions like "is he growing resentful", "what if he committed suicide"
-> Because Miller does not know how Brock is reacting, she is scared that he going to commit other irrational actions
--> She is scared that his resent and anger is going to harm her more and can't trust that he will be able to control his emotions

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"How long did it take to drive there (7 minutes), when did we arrive (11:15), who was I with, where were we dropped off, if we'd gone to any other parties, how many people were there (60 people, 20 minutes later there were 100), how far outside I'd walked to go to the bathroom (15 yards).

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While testifying, Miller discusses her experience in court, on the verge of crying, striving to construct her sentences in the most optimal manner in order to underscore the series of unfortunate events she has encountered.

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"What is he poisoned the seeds? What if he's a pervert and rubbed his penis on the bell pepper to watch me eat it?"
-> Her conception of people has become assuming the worst of her safety or being extremely cautious of others
--> She has lost her ability to trust strangers and accept small acts of kindness from them

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Miller uses long sentences with excessive punctuation in order to represent particularly stressful moments. Particularly ones in which she felt pressured by authority figures.

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Through the quote "My voice was tiny, dim. This wasn't how it was supposed to go" as Miller was testifying, she acknowledged the fact that she was finding it complicated to fulfil the mental toughness required to testify due to the trauma that surrounded her on a day to day basis.

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Rhetorical questions are used to emphasize how victims often question their safety due to her lack of trust in others

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This helps the reader to understand the paranoia and fear that she had to live with as a result of her trauma.

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Miller uses short, disrupted sentences to represent her disjointed and intrusive thoughts.