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Accountability and being in the practice of anti-racism

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Accountability and being in the practice of anti-racism

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I've noticed that in the past week I've been able to disrupt my own patterns of IRS as well as with others (even if that is sometimes after the fact). I know that pausing and resting has been a big supporter in my ability to think clearly and make those disruptions. So today is for pause in my other to-do lists (rest comes after caucusing!)

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coming back from a long break this is a time to pause and be intentional about how I'm showing up in my work as an anti-racist leader. There were portions of the holidays where I felt so busy and so stressed that I didn't get a chance to reflect on how my IRS was showing up so I'm grateful for this chance to do so.

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To have a place to practice anti-racist work and reflection as an ongoing and personal journey

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IRS makes it easy for me to think that I can transform society on my own, but I can't. I'm here for the connection and the community of being with others on the journey

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reverting to right or wrong, black and white thinking, judgment, pull toward a desired "standard" in how to work, communicate etc.

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Being present with other staff members in this space. I've had more solo work time this week so getting to be in a space with people I haven't seen yet and to think through our work together feels important

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I am committed to practicing disrupting IRS

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I am committed to practicing disrupting IRS

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I have felt heavy lately. A money stress situation at home and pending change at work has me up at night sometimes

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Schools are chaotic, the pandemic is chaotic, my brain is chaotic. I've felt a lot of anxiety lately and have had a hard time finding hope and optimism. BUT I have been finding optimism and hope too!

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For the first time in a long time I felt like I had energy at work. Crazy how a 3 week break that has plenty of time for rest can do that

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sense of urgency and hyper responsibility

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Hyper responsibility in my work definitely came out right before break as well as perfectionism.

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Team meeting. All Staff meeting. Feelings of disconnect.

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Different level of exhausted. Changes/uncertainty/ the future.