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"I tried to protect myself ... by hiding" (40).

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- "walk or cremation, the choice is yours" (39).
- "I tried to protect myself from the blows by hiding behind others" (40).
- "I was terribly hungry, yet I refused to touch it" (42).
- "It was enough to never sign up as a skilled worker... until the end" (44).
- "He was not moving...there was no longer any reason to live any reason to fight" (98)

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"Don't lose hope...have faith in life, a thousand times faith... Help each other. That is the only way to survive" (41).

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"I was terribly hungry and swallowed my ration on the spot... there was nothing left of my ration, he didn't even start his own" (44).

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"I was leaving my mother and tzipora forever" (29).

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"We immediately started to switch" (37).

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"The only thing that keeps me alive," he kept saying, "is to
know that Reizel and the little ones are still alive. (45)

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I kept walking, my father holding my hand. Behind me, an old man fell to the ground. Nearby, an SS man replaced his revolver in its holster. My hand tightened its grip on my father. All I could think of was not to lose him. Not to remain alone" (29 to 30).

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"His eyes were shining with greed" (55).

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"For the first time, I felt anger rising within me. Why should I sanctify His name? The Almighty, the eternal and terrible Master of the Universe, chose to be silent. What was there to thank Him for?" (33)

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"I could use all of my strength to fight for my own survival, to take care of only myself" (106).

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“we were ordered to turn left” (34)
through chance and luck Elie and his father
are not walked towards the crematorium to be
incinerated.

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"I had new shoes myself. But as they were covered with a thick coat of mud, they had not been noticed. I thanked God, in an improvised prayer, for having created mud in His infinite and wondrous universe" (38).

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"I thought of pretending to be sick" (52).

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"But deep inside I knew that to sleep meant to die. And something in me rebelled against that death" (89).

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We are all brothers and share the same fate...Help each other. (41)

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"Behind me, I heard the same man asking: "For God's sake, where is God?" And from within me, I heard a voice answer: "Where He is? This is where—hanging here from this gallows… " (65)

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"In a few seconds, we had ceased to be men" (36).

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"I became A-7713. From then on, I had no other name" (42).

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"All that mattered to me was my daily bowl of soup, my crust of stale bread. The bread, the soup-those were my entire life. I was nothing but a body" (52).

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"Hey, kid, how old are you?...Do you hear? Eighteen and forty." (30)

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"I was terribly hungry, yet I refused to touch it " (42).

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"I had ceased to pray" (45).

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“We were naked, holding our shoes and belts… And we ran” (36).

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"He was not moving...there was no longer any reason to live, any reason to fight" (98).

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"He had been given the news. The
real news" (45).

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"Two boys came to join our group: Yossi and Tibi, two brothers
from Czechoslovakia whose parents had been exterminated in
Birkenau. They lived for each other, body and soul" (50)

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"The third day, I was eagerly eating any kind of soup" (43).

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- "The beloved objects...my hand" (29).
- "could this be a nightmare" (31)
- " We did not know yet...which to crematoria" (32).
- "I became A-7713. From then on, I had no other name" (42).
- "What a shame, what a shame...with their mothers" (33)

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"These words oof encouragement, even coming at they did from the mouths of our assassins, were of great help. Nobody wanted to give up now, just before the end; so close to our destination" (92).

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"Still lost in his Kabbalistic dreams, Akiba Drumer had discovered a verse from the Bible which, translated into numbers, made it possible for him to predict Redemption in the weeks to come" (51)

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"Never shall I forget those flames that consumed my faith forever" (34).

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“Stein, our relative from Antwerp… from time to time, he would bring a half portion of bread” (44).

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"And he began beating him with an iron bar...I had watched it all happening without moving" (54)

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"I knew nothing about them… Since 1940, my mother had not received a single letter from them. But I lied: "Yes, my mother did hear from them. Reizel is fine. So are the children…" He was weeping with joy" (44)

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"Thank god! You are still alive!" (35).

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"I thanked God, in an improvised prayer, for having created mud in His infinite and wondrous universe" (38).

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"One day when Idek was venting his fury, I happened to cross his path. He threw himself on me like a wild beast, beating me in the chest, on my head, throwing me to the ground and picking me up again, crushing me with ever more violent blows, until I was covered in blood" (53)

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"he would bring a half portion of bread" (44).

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“we began to wander about the crowd, finding friends, acquaintances. Every encounter filled us with joy” (35).

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- "Farmer I heard myself saying"(32)
- "perhaps one should try to appear sturdy...though the opposite" (35).
- "It was enough to never sign up as a skilled worker...until the end" (44).

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"Once again, the young men bound and gagged her. When they actually struck her, people shouted their approval" (26).

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"What a shame, a shame that you did not go with your mother ...His voice was terribly sad” (33).

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"he had been forced to place his own father's body into the furnace" (35).

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"Strip! Hurry up! Raus! Hold on only to your belt and your shoes..." (35).

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"The baton was moving
constantly, sometimes to the right, sometimes to the left" (31)

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- "we must do something...we must revolt" (31).

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Then, as if waking from a deep sleep, he slapped my father with such force that he fell down and then crawled back to his place on all fours. I stood petrified. What had happened to me? My father had just been struck, in front of me, and I had not even blinked. (39)

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"Never shall I forget the small faces of the children whose bodies I saw transformed into smoke under a silent sky.

Never shall I forget those flames that consumed my faith forever.

Never shall I forget the nocturnal silence that deprived me for all eternity of the desire to live" (34).

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“Meir, my little Meir! Don’t you recognize me… You’re killing your father… I have bread… for you too… His son searched him, took the crust of bread, and began to devour it” (101).

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"but their fate was
not on our minds" (36).

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"Never shall I forget those moments that murdered my God and my soul and turned my dreams to ashes" (34)

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“Therefore, muster your strength and keep your faith. We shall all see the day of liberation… Help each other. That is the only way to survive... Those were the first human words” (41).

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"In a few seconds, we had ceased to be men" (37)

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"My soul had been invaded—and devoured—by a black flame" (37).

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"Are you crazy? We were told to stand. Do you want to get us all in trouble?" (38).

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"My feet were running on their own. I tried to protect myself from the blows by hiding behind others" (40).

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“Dozens of inmates were there to receive us, sticks in hand, striking anywhere, anyone, without reason” (35).

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“At the start of the third week, our Blockälteste was removed; he was judged too humane” (44).

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"The same smoke hovers over all our heads. Help each other. That is the only way to survive" (41).

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"He was weeping with joy. He would have liked to stay longer, to learn more details, to soak up the good news" (44).

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"I was not denying His existence, but I doubted His absolute justice" (45).

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"Ahead of you lies a long road paved with suffering. Don't lose hope. You have already eluded the worst danger: the selection. Therefore, muster your strength and keep your faith" (41).

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"Some of the men spoke of God: His mysterious ways, the sins of the Jewish people, and the redemption to come" (45).

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"God is testing us. He wants to see whether we are capable of

overcoming our base instincts, of killing the Satan within ourselves. We have no right to despair. And if He punishes us mercilessly, it is a sign that He loves us that much more..." (45).

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“The student of Talmud, the child I was, had been consumed by the flames” (37).

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"Yisgadal, veyiskadash, shmey raba... May His name be celebrated and sanctified..." (33).

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"My father suddenly had a colic attack. He got up and asked politely, in German,"Excuse m e ... Could you tell me where the toilets are located?" (39).

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"Nobody dared raise his voice, even though there was no guard around" (37).

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"I thought of us as damned souls wandering through the void, souls condemned to wander through space until the end of time, seeking redemption, seeking oblivion, without any hope of finding either" (36).

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“Bite your lips…Keep your anger, your hate, for another day, for later” (53).

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"They lived for each other, body and soul" (50).

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"Take care of yourselves, you must avoid selection. Eat! Anything, anytime. Eat all you can. The weak don't last very long around here..." (45).

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"In fact, I was pleased with what was happening to him: my gold crown was safe. It could be useful to me one day, to buy something, some bread or even time to live" (52).

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"I had watched it all happening without moving. I kept silent. In fact, I thought of stealing away in order not to suffer the blows" (54).

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"Every bomb that hit filled us with joy, gave us renewed confidence" (60).

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"Bite your lips, little brother...Don't cry. Keep your anger, your hate, for another day, for later" (53).

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- “He didn’t answer. He was weeping. His body shaking. Everybody around us was weeping. Someone began to recite Kaddish, the prayer for the dead… men have never before recited Kaddish for themselves” (33).

- "Never shall I forget those things, even were I condemned to live as long as God Himself" (34).

- "Have faith in life, a thousand times faith. By driving out despair, you will move away from death" (41).

- "Oh God, Master of the Universe, give me the strength never to do what Rabbi Eliahu's son has done" (91).

- "if only he could have kept his faith in God, if only he could have considered this suffering a divine test..." (77).

- "And in spite of myself, a prayer formed inside me, a prayer to this God in whom I no longer believed" (91).

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- "His voice was terribly sad. I understood that he did not wish to see what they would do to me. He did not wish to see his only son go up in flames" (33).

- "My head was buzzing; the same thought surfacing over and over: not to be separated from my father" (35).

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- "I was terribly hungry, yet I refused to touch it...My father swallowed my ration" (42).

- "Take care of your son. He is very weak, very dehydrated" (45).

- "I had watched it all happening without moving... In fact, I thought of stealing away in order not to suffer the blows" (54).

- "But seeing that his advice had come too late, and that there was nothing left of my ration, he didn't even start his own" (44).

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"Where is merciful God, where is He?" (64).

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"At that moment, the others did not matter! They had not written me down" (72).

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"It's over. God is no longer with us" (76).

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"You have betrayed, allowing them to be tortured, slaughtered, gassed, and burned, what do they do? They pray before You! They praise Your name!" (68).

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"He was not alone in having lost his faith during those days of selection" (76).

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"He must have died, trampled under the feet of the thousands of men who followed us.

I soon forgot him. I began to think of myself again" (86).

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"The idea of dying, of ceasing to be, began to fascinate me. To no longer exist. To no longer feel the excruciating pain of my foot" (86).

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"My father's presence was the only thing that stopped me" (86).

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"Sons abandoned the remains of their fathers without a tear" (92).

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"Suddenly, we felt free of the previous nights' terror. We gave thanks to God" (27).

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"The instincts of self-preservation, of self defense, of pride, had all deserted us" (36).

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"The student of Talmud, the child I was, had been consumed by the flames. All that was left was a shape that resembled me" (37).

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"My father had just been struck, in front of me, and I had not even blinked. . . . Only yesterday, I would have dug my nails into this criminal's flesh" (39).

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"The choice was in our hands. For once. We could decide our fate for ourselves. To stay, both of us, in the infirmary, where, thanks to my doctor, he could enter as either a patient or a medic. I had made up my mind to accompany my father wherever he went" (82).

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"After the war, I learned the fate of those who had remained at the infirmary. They were, quite simply, liberated by the Russians, two days after the evacuation" (82).

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"Listen to me, kid. Don't forget that you are in a concentration camp. In this place, it is every man for himself, and you cannot think of others. No even your father. In this place, there is no such thing as father, brother, friend. Each of us lives and dies alone" (110).

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"You cannot help him anymore. And you are hurting yourself. In fact, you should be getting his rations . . . " (110-111).

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"How could I say to Him: Blessed be Thou, Almighty, Master of the Universe, who chose us among all nations to be tortured day and night, to watch as our fathers, our mothers, our brothers end up in the furnaces? Praised be Thy Holy Name, for having chosen us to be slaughtered on Thine altar?” (67)

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“I did not fast. . . I no longer accepted God’s silence. As I swallowed my ration of soup, I turned to act into a symbol of rebellion, of protest against Him” (69).

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“I suffer hell in my soul and my flesh. I also have eyes and I see what is being done here. Where is God’s mercy? Where’s God? How can I believe, how can anyone believe in this God of Mercy?” (77).