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by holadal " Wed Aug 30, 2017 12:15 pm

Hello,

I am posting in this forum in the hopes that the perspectives of others may help me adjust my perception of reality, as I feel it has deteriorated to the point of delusion. If you have some time, please read my story, and make a comment. I appreciate it.

Let me give you some background on my situation.

I am a 25 year old straight white male, born in Europe, but have lived in North America over half of my time on this planet. I have stayed with my parents my entire life, except for one year in my early twenties, when I was studying engineering at a school in Europe. Through my school years, I was near if not at the top of my class, but my success deteriorated tremendously after my first year of university, most prominently due to the declination of my mental health. I suffer from depression and am diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia.

Through my adult life I have suffered through paranoid thoughts and persecutory auditory hallucinations, both sober and not, that cause me tremendous amounts of stress. It has completely affected my ability to function socially, as it is difficult for me to judge the true nature of the situation thanks to my paranoid frame of mind. These paranoid delusions and thoughts do not only affect my patterns of thinking, they also elicit physiological responses as well, such as increased heart rate, and sweaty hands, for example. I frequently perceive every negative stimuli in my environment to be in some way, shape, or form, linked to or directed towards me. Even innocuous comments which, upon later review, are completely harmless, at the time seem to be malicious or hateful. I react accordingly and this unnerves people and I am sure I come across as strange. I perceive that my behavior has deteriorated all my personal relationships to a point where I can no longer say with any conviction that I have a true friend. Although I am able to operate fairly decently in my everyday work and life, the rate of my evolution is extremely slow and my quality of life very low. I doubt my ability to create a life for myself that is fulfilled and happy in the long run, and view myself as a social burden and a toxic agent that can not consistently maintain healthy relationships with other human beings.

Two years ago, I attempted suicide through *mod edit*. Approximately an hour after I had fallen unconscious, my roommate found me and I was transported to a hospital and put on life support. I survived the ordeal, with all mental facilities still in order, and no lingering medical problems, as far as I can tell. I was transported to the hospital's psych ward, and spent two weeks there until being released. The doctor's with whom I had contact with in the hospital assessed and diagnosed me with paranoid schizophrenia, and I was prescribed anti-psychotic medication.

I have attempted to change my life through counseling, exercising, eating healthy, changing my lifestyle, taking prescription anti-psychotic medication medication for months at a time, all with minor positive effect for a short period of time, but I always recede into a paranoid downwards spiral, and my pattern of thought is still to this day worsening.

I grow tired of this constant battle, and am wondering, are there others out there who are going through or have gone through something similar that could offer some wisdom on how they are dealing with, or how they healed themselves of this illness?

Thanks for reading.

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I have moved this post to the Schizophrenia Forum, but have left a shadow so that it can be seen from both forums.

"There's an Asian expression that 'a burden shared is halved.'"

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by Tyler " Wed Aug 30, 2017 1:36 pm

I still go through things like that. I work at a grocery store, and will deal with a customer from time to time. If they don't say "thank you," or something after I help them, I view it as "they're going to come back and kill me," or "I did something wrong," but mainly the first one. I'm so paranoid over the whole thing. If I actually do get someone mad at me, I breakdown, I get really, really depressed and paranoid, to the point where I can't even function.

I know what you're going through, and it's hard. it really is. The thing that helps me is having things I can go to, to get my mind off of stuff, such as hobbies. Do you have hobbies? I will use video games, mainly, to get my mind off of things. I'm only a year younger than you, and grew up with them and the internet. Another thing I do is YouTube. There's a lot of stuff on there that you can spend days, if not weeks watching (series and such). I also like to read and listen to music.I don't have many friends either. I have coworkers that I can talk to and tolerate, but as for actually doing something with outside of work, none. I have a boyfriend, who suffers from a personality disorder. He's always been there for me. That's something else that can help. I know you said your personal relationships are fading, but do you have any family that you could talk to? A cousin, a sibling, even a parent. Talking to things can help.

Another thing I can recommend, if you're able to, is trying a different medication. Be honest and upfront with your psychiatrist. If the medication isn't working, asked to be put on another one.

Also, you mentioned going through hallucinations, "sober or not," I do not recommend doing any sort of drugs. Alcohol, marijuana, hard drugs, abusing prescription drugs, all of them can make your paranoia and hallucinations worse, and except for alcohol, will do so with even a single use.

But you are not alone. I moderate the Schizophrenia forum here (where I'm posting this), and I see this all the time. Young people suffering with their mental illness.

May I ask what medication you've tried and what medication, if any, you're on?

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Childhood abuse and trauma has been known to be the root cause of several psychosomatic disorders. Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD), also known as Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) or split personality disorder, has its origins in disturbing childhoods and perturbing upbringings. There are cases where people are said to have three or even 100 separate personalities. Much research and discussion have taken place over MPD. Let us find out the 10 most shocking cases of split personality disorder.

10. Lurancy Vennum:

Lurancy Vennum was given the name 'Watseka Wonder' for alleged spiritual possession. The study of this case by psychiatrists several years later concluded that it was perhaps one of the very first accounts of Dissociative Identity Disorder. She is believed to have been possessed by the spirit of her neighbor, Mary, who had died some time back. She lived for a few months as Mary at a stretch and later had no recollection of it. After that she had occasional "messages"from Mary and is believed to have led a normal life.

9. Roseanne Barr:

Roseanne Barr is an American actress who in her blog, Roseanne's World, divulged the fact of her being diagnosed of Dissociative Identity Disorder. She also claimed to have been abused as a child that resulted in her developing the multiple personality disorder. Her claims, however, were dismissed by her family. But she later admitted to have developed a personality that just wanted "to drop a bomb" on her family.

8. Billy Milligan:

Billy Milligan was charged with having committed several felonies including armed robbery, and later arrested for three rapes on the Ohio State University campus. His defense pleaded that Milligan suffered from split personality disorder and the crimes were actually conducted by two of his alternate personalities. He was actually the first person who used this disease as a defense. He is believed to have had about 24 personalities.

7. Christine Beauchamp:

Christine Beauchamp was the pseudonym of a 23-year-old woman was one of the first persons diagnosed as having Dissociative Identity Disorder. American neurologist Morton Prince, a noted American physician, studied her between 1898 and 1904. The multiple personalities materialized first during hypnotherapy and later during consciousness. She is believed to have had three different personalities which Prince treated by reconciling into each other.

6. Robert Oxnam:

He is a Chinese scholar who led financial-cultural tours of China for Bill Gates, Warren Buffett, and former US President George H.W. Bush. In his 2005 autobiography, 'A Fractured Mind', he revealed that he suffered from dissociative identity disorder. Once during his session with his psychiatrist, Oxnam thought that the session had just started when he was told that the session had been in progress for about an hour when he had talked to the doctor as Tommy.

5. Herschel Walker:

Herschel Walker is a former American college and professional football player. In his autobiography, 'Breaking Free' he revealed that he is suffering from split personality disorder. In fact as a result of the disorder his memory of the season he won the Heisman Trophy is blank. Still undergoing treatment for the disease, he is also believed to have held a gun to his head in a fit.

4. Chris Costner Sizemore:

Chris Costner Sizemore was diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder in the 1950s. She had witnessed a horrifying accidental death and two serious non-fatal accidents within three months as a small child. The doctors attributed that as the reason behind her multiple personalities. The book 'The Three Faces of Eve' by her psychiatrists depicted her case which also made into a film by the same name. She had as many as 20 personalities which presented themselves three at a time.

3. Kim Noble:

Kim Noble, who lives near London, is a woman who has been diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder. She has about 100 personalities among who are Salome, a devout Catholic; Ken, a depressed gay man; and, Judy, who believes that she is an overweight. A mother of a 14-year-old daughter, Kin claims she had a disturbed childhood.

2. Truddi Chase:

Truddi Chase was a woman who had developed 92 distinct personalities. She has a history of being brutally abused by her step father while her mother neglected her during the formative years if her life. Her autobiography 'When Rabbit Howls' (1987) details her experiences. What was more shocking was the fact that the abuse she was subjected to started when she was just two years old. Certainly one of the most heart touching cases with multiple personality disorder, Truddi Chase was also a guest in The Oprah Winfrey Show.

1. Shirley Ardell Mason:

Shirley Ardell Mason was an American psychiatric patient who rose to prominence due to her multiple personality disorder. Having been abused by her mother, she had a mental breakdown resulting in multiple personalities as a coping mechanism. She had developed a total of 16 personalities during the period of her therapy with Dr. Cornelia Wilbur. Her case was made popular by the 1973 book 'Sybil'that was based on her life. It was her case that suddenly led to multiple personality disorder diagnosis become widespread. Though there are several controversies surrounding her, nevertheless she is certainly the most shocking case of all.

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Dissociative identity disorder Definition Previously known as multiple personality [1] disorder, dissociative identity disorder [2] (DID) is a condition in which a person has more than one distinct identity or personality state.

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Third reaction suicide. Because of physical exhaustion or dissatisfaction with things, patients of personality splitting choose suicide. It's a 25 year old straight white male, when he for one year in his early twenties, when he was studying engineering at a school in Europe. Through his school years, he was near if not at the top of his class, but his success deteriorated tremendously after his first year of university, most prominently due to the declination of his mental health. His suffer from depression and am diagnosed with paranoid personality split. Through his adult life he have suffered through paranoid thoughts and persecutory auditory hallucinations, both sober and not, that cause him tremendous amounts of stress. Two years ago, he attempted suicide through *mod edit*. Approximately an hour after he had fallen unconscious, his roommate found him and he was transported to a hospital and put on life support. From that example, people can get the conclusion that people would become very manic and finally choose to commit suicide under the pressure of personality splitting

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The second reaction is crime.Some people have this illness as the reason of crime So it will make people into a cycle of crime.Such as Billy Milligan was charged with having committed several felonies including armed robbery, and later arrested for three rapes on the Ohio State University campus. His defense pleaded that Milligan suffered from split personality disorder and the crimes were actually conducted by two of his alternate personalities. Was actually the first person who used this disease as a defense. He is believed to have had about 24 personalities. According to the analyzing, people can tell personality split would really let people go to crime, people can not control themselves when they get personality spilt.

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The first reaction is borderline personality. Multiple personality is the main feature of borderline personality disorder (BPD) which is a prevalent pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships,self-image, and emotions. People with borderline personality disorder are also usually very impulsive, oftentimes demonstrating self-injurious behaviors (e.g. risky sexual behaviors, cutting, or suicide attempts).In the United States, recent research has shown that 1. 6% of the population have BPD. That number may be small, but when you consider about just how large the population of the United States is, you may realize that 1. 6% represents quite a large number of people. That percentage means that over four million people have BPD in America alone. Some of the most sobering borderline personality disorder statistics come from the research literature on BPD and suicide. About 70% of people with BPD will make at least one suicide attempt in their lifetimes. (Rebecca J. Frey 2003)Because of some outside factors, such as improper education, the tragedy of marginal personality splitting is gradually increasing.

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If you're at risk for this devastating mental illness, perhaps you've asked yourself, "What will life be like if I have schizophrenia?" A few years ago, National Public Radio (NPR) ran a story about a program called, The Sights and Sounds of Schizophrenia, in which a drug company (Janssen Pharmaceutica) created a simulation of the effects of schizophrenia - what it's like experiencing the symptoms of schizophrenia.

People don headphones and goggles, during the simulation, for a trip into the virtual world of someone living with schizophrenia. Here's a video by the same drug company that will give you a taste of what life with schizophrenia is like. Warning, it's a powerful video with a look into a patient's reported experience with the mental illness. You may not want to watch the video if you think you may have schizophrenia now or have had a psychotic episode in the past.

"I have schizophrenia," says movie siren, Megan Fox

Did Megan Fox really say, "I have schizophrenia"? Sort of. After Transformers director, Michael Bay, fired her from the set of the third sequel in the Transformers series, Revenge of the Fallen, Fox is quoted as saying, "I constantly struggle with the idea that I think I'm a borderline personality - or that I have bouts of mild schizophrenia." This just goes to show you that anyone can develop a mental illness like schizophrenia. Of course, no one knows if Fox really suffers from this devastating disease, but the fact that she openly admits that she believes something is wrong and that she needs help is commendable.

The Effects of Schizophrenia

The effects of schizophrenia can prove devastating if left untreated. Imagine having both visual and aural (sound) hallucinations in your everyday life. You feel you have special powers - perhaps magical powers - or that you're friends with the president. To you, it's not a fantasy; it's real. You may hear voices that no one else hears. These voices may say negative things to you, like saying you're stupid or worthless. They may tell you someone is trying to harm you or those that you love. The voices may instruct you to protect yourself or those you love by taking action against those who want to harm you or them. You may even see things and people that aren't there.

Living With Schizophrenia When Properly Treated by a Doctor

People living with schizophrenia process information differently than a normal person does. If treated with medications and therapy, life with schizophrenia can look just like anyone else's normal life - with a few differences. Some days you may need to leave work early because you're just having one of your "bad spells". Other days, your different way of looking at and processing the world may cause co-workers to value your creativity and ability to recognize patterns across large swaths of data.

There will be times when you might pick up "extra information" about the people around you. You may feel like everyone can see into your mind. But, when treated properly by a physician, most of the time these disorganized thought processes just reside quietly in the back of the mind.

It is possible to live a fairly normal life with schizophrenia. To do so, you must follow your doctor's orders and take your medication as instructed and when instructed. Get some support from community groups in your area and attend any counseling sessions ordered by your physician.
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Fear is very ordinary for the public . Fear often appears when there are something very scared, and people tend to have a lot of different reactions, such as screaming, crying, escaping and so on. Suicidal tendency, mental disorder, depression and personality split are more serious symptoms. Personality split is a typical response to fear, and it will cause some effects such as borderline personality, crime, suicide.

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The effects of schizophrenia can prove devastating if left untreated. Imagine having both visual and aural (sound) hallucinations in your everyday life. You feel you have special powers – perhaps magical powers – or that you’re friends with the president. To you, it’s not a fantasy; it’s real. You may hear voices that no one else hears. These voices may say negative things to you, like saying you’re stupid or worthless. They may tell you someone is trying to harm you or those that you love. The voices may instruct you to protect yourself or those you love by taking action against those who want to harm you or them. You may even see things and people that aren’t there.(https://www.healthyplace.com/thought-disorders/schizophrenia-effects/living-with-schizophrenia-effects-of-schizophrenia)