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why cant people be friendly....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

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https://padlet.com/s127689/never_too_small
HELP THE ENViRONMENT

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Sorry if this doesn't make sense I just wanted to do it
alsO I think its true

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(This is going to sound pathetically melodramatic ToT)

so um sometimes people in my family fight, and I feel like I need to stop it (particularly between my sisters... sorry guys), but this thing happens when people are yelling or crying around me (not even at me), i kind of freeze up and can't say anything, and so I'm just stuck there while the living room blows up

(not literally, no one has blown it up yet)

(I think)

(seriously though, every conversation with ANYONE in my family is a minefield)

and then while I'm still thinking about what I could have done I hear awful things happening in the world, it's like if the house is on fire and I'm trying to get out the window, but then there are spikes outside (I was trying to find an Age of Calamity image to represent this, but couldn't find one)

AND I'm always worried about what people will think of me, even though I keep saying I don't care what people think

and there's no one who I can really talk to about all this since I can't go to a therapist or anything

my mind has mostly just been stuck in kind of a bad place for a while, some things help but others don't so much

sometimes I wish I could go back to being a little kid when I was blind to all of this

i'm worried about my own safety and sanity (I joke about my sanity all the time, but this time I'm serious) as well as my family's and my friends'

especially because I know that around this time is when a lot of parents get divorced and I want mine to stay together (they don't argue as far as I know, but my dad gets angry a lot)

I knew coming out of quarantine was going to be hard, but this is getting close to unbearable

i guess what I want to say is thank you guys for having this, and can someone please explain basic science to half the people in this country?

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Life is Fun - Ft. Boyinaband (Official Music Video)

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I HATE OUR GOVERNOR
PLEASE ALLOW MASK MANDATES. DO YOU WANT US TO FEEL SCARED THAT OUR FRIENDS OR FAMILY MIGHT DIE BECAUSE OF STUPID PEOPLE NOT WEARING MASKS? I GET IT THAT SOME PEOPLE HAVE HEALTH REASONS, BUT THE WAY PEOPLE ARE ALL IN EACH OTHERS' FACES WITH THEIR MASKS OFF KIND OF DEFEATS THE ESSENCE OF THAT ARGUMENT.
HAVE SENSE Y'ALL

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for all you aspiring writers out there in need of an epic playlist

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Share your videos with friends, family, and the world

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I am seeing my teachers for the last time, and I am very sad, it is like after you finish BoTW and those last notes of the epilogue song play... and you just wait until BoTW 2...
I am feeling very sad right now ;(

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Yes, im using this face as a sympathetic smile, i dont think :) is as sympathetic, but what i want to talk about, i have 2 links
This link is to invite "Collaborators" bassically you can edit this playlist (Please dont delete things added by others unless its a troll ex a rick roll) https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLdrlS6lw7pcNJyDsoDXnT9r_ezY85i54Y&jct=5ovAcAROxbkNQz2yArpexbLI6nNanw
and this link is simply a link to the playlist
https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLdrlS6lw7pcNJyDsoDXnT9r_ezY85i54Y
This playlist is for songs to cheer you up, to relate to, or songs with lyrics that you just need to hear. try and make sure all the songs are non restricted for people on school laptops, and there is mild cursing in some songs, and posibly some triggers.

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so uhhh... my parents are going through rough times and recently had a worse than normal argument, and from what was said, i think soon they are going to seperate and i am worried, and i am worried my family is falling apart with what happened with mommy brandie a while back, not seeing my family on daddy patrick and mommys side for multiple years, and what happened when i was born, and i think that is re-surfacing, since my mom and dad seperated when i was born for reasons i do not understand, and this is worse since now i understand what is going on with it, and 1 half of my brain is the *text here* panik, *text here* kalm, *text here* PANIK meme.

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😭 (!Girl Topic!) (Though you can still read if your a boy idc :/)

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😭 (!Girl Topic!) (Though you can still read if your a boy idc :/)

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Hey guys 😭😭😭 Right now im having REALLY bad period cramps and i cant focus on anything, plus my pad is kinda uncomfortable 😭😭 AND GUESS WHAT?! I cant take Ibuprofin for my cramps because SOMEONE had the bright ideo to move the ibuprofen my mom got for me SPECIFICALLY for period cramps 😭😭. It hurts so much D:

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Hi
People are terrible
people in general, privileged land-owning white men especially.
People will blow up a sunday school and kill little girls just to keep them from going to school
not to mention we're destroying the earth RIGHT NOW with no plan for afterward
Why????
Where does all this hate come from???
Sometimes I wish I was older so I could do something about this
Sometimes this is for the sake of gaining more of that corruptive paper that has been mentioned before, but other times it is just pure hate and fear and evil
I don't know what to do about this, this is the reason I don't sleep
I can't
Not when there are people literally being denied their human rights in some countries, or people getting hurt or killed even here because people are scared of the color of their skin or their identity
LIKE DUDE NO NEED TO GET VIOLENT JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE'S NOT LIKE YOU
i need some help, also maybe an insomnia gummie

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so i finally finished Dust Rising! Check it out, you might find your name in the acknowledgements! If not, I am SO SO SO sorry, deadline brain -.-
warning: some kissing involved jsyk
this is good bc I really needed to finish something to relieve stress

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It's okay to cry! If you need it here is some music

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It´s okay to cry - Calm and sad Nintendo music to cry

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Uhhh January 2020 - ( ( WARNING TRIGGERS ) )

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Uhhh January 2020 - ( ( WARNING TRIGGERS ) )

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Aight this was NOT recent, it was like January 2020 but still- so wanna know what happened in January 2020? Well, i got my FIRST FELONY :/ My dad has told me Mrs. Kawthron said to him he HAD to put me in a mental hospital or she would put me in a school learning at a 1st-grade level and it would "Be torture to me". She said that right to my dad's face. We went to your average hospital and we did a mental check-up, I was singing a lot when I was waiting for the people to come back, I ordered food (They bought it for us) and ate, then they were ready to take me in an ambulance, I think? It seemed like one. I layed in the bed singing and fell asleep singing uh Blood // water by grandson - uh moving on when i woke up we were at the mental hospital (let's just say CC bc its Cedar Crest). They showed me what I was allowed to take in like I couldn't have my magic cards in my pocket but I could keep the jacket since this IS a mental hospital they took my shoe ties so I wouldn't uh choke myself to death with shoe ties or hurt anyone else. I mean it makes sense this little girl was usually happy but when someone hurts her she went all suicide mode, i hope she's okay, it was her 5th or 6th time at CC so she probably recently got out, probably around Christmas. when they finished taking my stuff i couldn't have and letting me keep some stuff, seeing as it was 11 pm or later (I wasn't sure) They took me to the only room with space that had a girl my age in it. Oh no i forgot her name.. she was really nice :( oh i think it was hailey, so i went to bed on the bed she wasnt on, when we woke up i was confused as to what to do but she helped out, also ms angel also helped. On my first day everyone was too loud/being to inferior. We had breakfast brought in trays and ngl the breakfast there was kinda gross if they brought it, if not it was great. we watched a movie, talked and played a bit, there where 2 girls me haily and someone else (Who was not there for bad behaivor, its also an orphan home) when lunch came we where able to go to the cafeteria and boy oh boy was i suprised. they had the BEST Gravy for mashed potatos and awesome food in general, whenever we could go to dinner we would get like a piece of small pumpkin pie or something equally yummy. i was pretty shy for the first couple days there, i made my best friend there on the 4th day, his name was Alix, and we made up a cool game with a football , so i would sit on one end of the room and he would sit at the other, we'd hit the ball and roll it and try and hit the wall on the other side to get points, theres no end until your bored again, and lemme tell you my blocking skills are on POINT! The ball cant be thrown either. it can be 2 or 4 players if you want teams, maybe more if its big enough area. Let me explain a bit, so my room is in a hall, and way dwn the hall is where we go when we finish our morning things like teeth brushing and changing and hair ect. we stay in that room until 15 before breakfast when everyone gets their meds, then goes to breakfast (If we do) then we go back to the room, and do whatever or maybe we get outside time, theres big walls tho so we cant run away ;-; if its after lunch/breakfast outside time is outside our building and in the area we go through when we head to cafeteria, if not then its a little backyard outside our building on the other side. later on we go to lunch (Maybe) and after we eat awesome food we get to go to the gym, its like a gym kind of like a giant school gym. Ive been typing for 40 minutes-  in the gym we have a bag of balls like dodge balls basket balls ect, i usually liked to run around doing various things, if a soccer ball runs away ill kick it towards the user(s), play a little basket ball, or prefferably football catch although i suck at throwing it ;-;. i think ill stop at typing for one hour, so 20 minutes to go. after gym we go back to the "Playroom" and clean it all, except i dont clean my ePIC chalk drawing, thats gonna be zaidens job, btw Zaiden was the worst person there, someone says hi and hes like "you wanna fight?!" although he was kinda chill with me ngl- he had daily outbursts and too many shots (injections that make you fall asleep, he was like 7 btw) After we cleaned it was room time so we went to our room for an hour. my friend was a VIP so she had a couple books and plenty drawing stuff, so we didnt get bored, tho before anything i did 100 Curl ups xD Yes. Every. Day. Atleast. 100. Curl. Ups. IM OP. the first day they sampled some of my blood, and the next time they sampled it they went brrrrr and took RIGHT FROM THE VAIN. TvT. Every couple days youd see a therapist or something THe room across mine had a gay couple :D Or i mean if they werent a couple then bro how the hell you not- Wanna know a secret? When i first came i had to do a pee test so i had to pee in a cup but i didnt know what to do so i didnt ever bring the cup to anyone- ahahahah -Nervous laughter- DID YOU KNOW i only had 1 outburst while i was there, despite the odds of everyone being so obnoxious i did only 1! and it was because JARON was cheating in musical chairs ;-;. Im out cya ill add more tommorow

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I had an experience that i have only ever had twice today in avid, it is where i start getting upset and scared when someone is talking for a long time and i can not talk. the good news is, i now know what causes it. it is caused by me not being able to express myself and it happens when someone talks about something i do not really care about much, i think the reason is that those bored emotions pile up with no way to release causing them to overflow, i also know how to combat it. take a break in the moment, and take a nap after.

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hi! I am here to vent on something good.
It is W I N D W A K E R
here's why:
This is Link and his little sister Aryll.
Now most of you know that I really love the Legends of Zelda games, and especially Link himself :3 But! I think Windwaker is easily the best (maybe second-best) Zelda game, because of Aryll. Not to mention the fact that Zelda is a pirate and Link has really funny expressions and the game starts with him in pajamas which are hilarious ngl. Also hey it starts on Link's birthday
Plus the music is awesome
But mostly it's Aryll.
also i have something else to put brb
nvm

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it just... disappeared?

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hewo!
i have so many ideas, but i'm overloading myself.... I feel like because I'm working so hard on my projects I'm neglecting my friendships. I need reassurance that I'm not ignoring you guys
Thankssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

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why is our society dictated by a piece of paper which people will do anything for, and coins that lose us money (specifically pennies and nickels), and then people born with that piece of paper can do basically anything with no consequences, with the people who have no money, and even just those born different from them, suffer heavily at no fault of their own, having to resort to being criminals at the mercy of our terrible justice system, and it seems to just be a never ending cycle of terrible that the innate greed in society, and people in general, has caused. and it seems like these days that piece of money has deteriorated everything, spreading like a disease, destroying what was once amazing, and it is one of those things you really cant stop. it has come in, corroding everything that was once fun into dust, and ash. and it may seem like i am being a drama king (which i kinda am) but still, with what is happening, i think being a drama king is kinda warranted here.

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UnU I had something to put on the do whatever padlet and now it's g o n e

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i can't remember what I was going to put, I'll check back when I remember lol
[some time later]
Hey okay I remembered. It's actually two things tbh
AAAA this is embarrassing-
Okay i'll do the short one first
so I have been having some recent uhhh bedwetting problems, so my mom gave me some pads-
No I haven't started I just- aaaa :P awkward
so yeah, I have to wear them to bed now so I won't go through 3 pairs of underwear every night-
OKAY YEAH SO THAT'S AWKWARD-
Longer one: I may have mentioned occasionally that I had a boyfriend (kinda sorta) literally RIGHT before covid, and I will never speak his name again (idk why just being d r a m a t i c ) but there may have been a minor incidence-
okay tiny text time again-
he kissed me
It should NOT still be bothering me literally a YEAR after it happened, but it does, and i uh-
FEELING NOT YES
YET AGAIN-

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Id say this padlet is getting a lot bigger then i thought and hoped it would be, so for everyone FREE HUGS! Hope the hugs help :>

....And hugs as in the verb, not the chocolate, sorry lol

Oh, also tommorow theres some things i plan on sharing, too lazy to do it right now, but it includes the entire story of the cup attacking me and giving me a big bruise and cut on my chin..!

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Remember that anonymous post a while back?
Yeah that was me
I am having some weird feelings lately
I don't know why but it's not too much of a problem... yet.
It may be related to puberty (probably) and um I am doing things that make me happy so it's probably gonna be OK.
Your support is very appreciated.

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can this even be called something that can be put on the vent padlet? aw well i am doing it anyway.

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can this even be called something that can be put on the vent padlet? aw well i am doing it anyway.

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for some reason, right now my classlink is not working but i have no clue why it is not working, it for some reason keeps telling me there is an error and to try again, but it wont say what error, so i have no clue how to fix it.

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So this weekend was very up and down for me
On friday in world cultures we watched this very... intense documentary about north korea, and I got pretty scared by it
LIKE I COULDN'T SLEEP IN MY TENT THINGY ON MY BED because it reminded me of invasion tunnels, and there was this very traumatic thing about electric fences
And I don't even know if that was rated for kids bc on top of that they LITERALLY SHOWED AN EYE SURGERY-
plus y'know it was n o r t h  k o r e a
So that was bad, and I feel like I couldn't sleep very well the whole weekend
then it happened to be a weekend where it was just my dad bc my mom was going to play a concert, and wElP my dad is a bit anger issues, although this weekend was actually kinda okay, we didn't have any giant episodes
and then of course rowan came and gave me my skittles so that was good
and y'know it was mostly the movie :/

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my last post, just completely disappeared for some reason

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Soooo how do i say this,..... so, i was banned from roblox for three days. Why? I said "ABC for trust trade!" i guess that they saw the chat but didnt see what happened. typically trust traders are scammers, but not me ;-; so, i trust traded with this person. they gave me there lamb, then i traded them again and gave their lamb back AND gave them a lady bug (199 robux for ladybug btw-). i guess they only saw what i SAID and not what i DID. Thanks roblox moderators ;-;. I mean atleast its only three days :/

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here i am again, i really hope this does not need to be a regular thing. well i was kinda wondering why is money so important that people would LITERALLY KILL EACH OTHER OVER IT, hooo i need to breathe *breathing* it seems like everywhere you look, there is greed money and power, and unfair differences between those lucky enough to be born rich, and anyone else, it is kinda sickening when you think about it ;-;. it makes me feel sad and upset how much greed there is and what people will do OVER A FREAKIN PIECE OF PAPER ;[. and the cherry on top of this sundae of terrible is that people who are rich only get rich, while people who are poor just get destroyed and become poorer. and i guess there is one more thing that once you get into adulthood, 99% of all really good seeming act's have this one piece of paper in the center of it, circling back to the greed and gluttony that seems to be the basis of society. this was really hard to write because it is true.

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I have recovered from feeling NOT YES
this helped so much TwT thank you, plus I have a more... unconventional style of bed now which helps me sleep somehow??? idk
but thank you for all of this rowan :)
I do still expect those skittles lol

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Soo, this isnt like something bad happened that causes pain, but theres a few things i wanna share.
So, first of all, ive noticed that the medications i take can cause irregular hormones to be set off. like, if i get frustrated, it makes me start to cry without tears, if you know what i mean. It feels like what its doing is making my anger into sadness faster. my anger always ends up as sadness but im way to stubborn to let it happen fast. The other thing is, at equine therapy (Or Horse Therapy) I got a new trainer. its not all that bad, but she is somewhat rude and obnoxious. I told her my steropes (A thing used for riding horses) were to low, but she said it was just fine. with them too low it has a higher chance of me falling when im trotting ect. she always uses western saddles and that itself isnt a problem, but dude those things are UNCOMFORTABLE on your but. Like i was almost at tears from how uncomfortable it was. i hate being taught things i already know, and shes acting like i dont know how to 'Woah' Bo and Prince (The two horses i ride). By Woah it means stop, btw. Im scared of her seeing me cry, honestly im always kind of scared of people feeling bad because of me (Mentally, i dont care at all if i hurt some specific people, like my sister. Sinliing rivalry hehe). Im worried shell make me explain why im crying and well i cant make up a lie THAT fast, and i dont want her to think i dont like her way of teaching (She is a cool person just like that one obnoxious friend). But i do like it a little, but when she corrects me for doing something the way my old instructor taught me just makes me snap. I guess thats all. later ill talk more about my meds and some things i hate about them ;-;

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this is not really a bad thing i am sharing, just need some tips

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this is not really a bad thing i am sharing, just need some tips

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I have trouble understanding others sometimes, and it turns out i got lucky and have mostly been sheltered from the horror some people suffer through, and it turns out i need to work on being able to see what they are going through and have empathy for them. any tips for that?

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Life (DO NOT FEEL BAD FOR ME I CAN HANDLE THIS I JUST WANNA SHARE I REPEAT DO NOT FEEL BAD)

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Life (DO NOT FEEL BAD FOR ME I CAN HANDLE THIS I JUST WANNA SHARE I REPEAT DO NOT FEEL BAD)

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So, theres alot of issues in my life. I like to try and hide it though, so nobody worries for me. i can deal with them so i dont want anyone to feel bad for me. But i feel like i should share some. so.. Well, i think i should start off with my mom. in 2015 my aunt got married and my family was there. from what my dad told me, when my mom and dad were alone my mom was very drunk, and my dad was a little drunk also. my mom kept hitting and picking on my dad (She never really cared much about him, she cheated on hime multiple times). when my dad had enough and hit her back, she called the cops and an ambulance. woman it was JUST a black eye. Long story short my dad got 1 year in jail and 24 months of probation or 200 hours of community service. For a while after that i lived with her, and she was getting new boyfriends every month or so. there was only 1 decent guy i can remember, his name was chad. fast forward, shes living with shane (Her now husband) and they fought alot. i couldnt get much sleep ever. Her "friend" named Love (What a bad name for someone like her) came over a ton, and now Love is in prison because she was a Dr-g dealer. My mom was addicted to drugs and alcohol, and crushed ice. after she got pregnant with my now almost 3 y/o half sister, the police found drugs in her car. she wouldve been arrested, but due to her being pregnant she got out after a day. my mom doesnt know i know all this, but perks of my dad being a cancer and sometimes too honest. she lost her house and car, and she lived in motels for a while. while she was living in hotels she was doing errr... unholy things to earn money. maybe you know what i mean, maybe you dont. fast forwards to now, since my step dad shane and my mom are now married my dad cant make shane go against her in the lawsuit with evidence he found, lowering odds of my dad being able to keep us. im worried if i move back with my mom she might become an addict again because the state wont be watching her anymore. I also will get more severe punishments, if i do something really bad, my dad would ground me for a few weeks, my mum would possibly send me to a mental hospital again. the worst thing is that shes best friends with the principle, because mrs kawthron gave her attention before she told my dad ANYTHING. like if i have a tinnnyyyy outburst shed call my mom and not my dad. im scared of being back at this school IN PERSON, because i can really be arresting for anything, like "Criminal Mischief" if im checking a notification from my phone in class, or just turning notification sounds off. Its dum how such a small thing can get you arrested, but its hard truth. im worried ill become that kind of person who never finishes things they start. im just worried about my sanity, to be honest. i have special needs because of adhd and aspergers, but people dont understand that stuff alot. i have my 5th grade special ed teacher Ms (katie) yoder to lean on if something bad happens, but ofcourse there wont always be someone who can help, and while ill lead anyone into battle, i wont fight it myself. Ill need supporters, and helpers. im strong but nothing without my friends, helpers, and supporters. thank you for reading, i have to know someone knows what im going through. sometime ill write something about my life in the place im at rn, with my dad and future step mom.

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I'm here again-
dude is this going to be a daily thing
sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
I may have mentioned that I have trouble sleeping, and I also have been getting hungry more (like I ate five snacks yesterday and still ate my whole dinner and dessert) and I got hungry at 9:00 after eating breakfast at 8, and for some reason I can't listen to music on youtube without it being turned down just above muted, or else my head hurts (more than it normally does)
so um also my stomach hurts on a normal basis (due to either overeating or being hungry), and I have absolutely ZERO IDEA why all these things are happening
and about the music thing, pretty much any major sensory input (bright colors, loud sounds, strong smells) make me uncomfortable (which is why I love this padlet so much, it's neutral colors) and I'm worried that maybe this is all a mental health thing? which activates my weird ability to make my body THINK i'm sick or hurt or whatever, and then I get psychologically depressed or headaches with no reason AT ALL
and yep guys I definitely think something's wrong

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this may not reach you today, but i need help

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this may not reach you today, but i need help

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help me, you are my only hope

I am debating in my head talking to daddy patrick, i fear it may heavily backfire. it is nothing big, just a basic thing.
I want to know you opinions on if i should do i, since if it backfires it could be cat-astrophic (seriously though) seriously though, i need to know, the thing i want to talk about with him is that he needs to stop and ask me if i am okay if i look like i am on the verge of crying.

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It's not about needles this time
it's actually about that president we had earlier who um sucked but somehow still had lots of support (kinda)
so some of my friends are black and I support them and stuff, but it makes it hard sometimes to do some things. Like getting sleep at night, and like protesting in theory sounded cool but...
...
guys I'm chicken okay? I wanted to help but there was also a part of me that'd rather just stay home and be safe
then I learned that people's windows were getting shot if they had BLM or Biden signs in their yards or whatever
and then people started not wearing masks and I felt scared whenever I saw somebody without one
and I already knew about abuse and stuff and I get scared about that too because my dad yells and swears a lot, but he's still really fun most of the time but then it can be hard to talk to him because one thing and he's off the wall
and on top of that, I'm scared of babyish things like needles and spiders and the dark and heights and water and drowning and fire and failing my classes and scary movies
oh plus I use the internet a lot more lately to do schoolwork, but sometimes my photo searches bring up scary news stories or inappropriate stuff, plus there are always hackers to worry about
AND our house is falling apart and so are our cars and I'm worried we'll end up with no money because I already know that the bank AND our grandparents needed to give us loans to pay off stuff and I'm considering not asking for anything big or store-bought for my birthday or Christmas or any other time tbh unless it's my own money
and Grammarly seemed like a good idea when I got it but it's so annoying tbh :/
and I just feel really scared right now and if I find out one more thing that scares me I'm going to just melt down and cry forever
I need help

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thank you SO MUCH for making this padlet, I have just posted for the first time, and tbh it was kinda liberating talking about it with friends lol.

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i um don't know what to call this i'm just writing feelings down

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i um don't know what to call this i'm just writing feelings down

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so... like I said earlier I'm afraid of needles, and I found out that I might need to have surgery over the summer instead of in the fall, and I just had a nightmare last night about IVs (those horrible things they stick in your hand at the hospital so they can give you medicines directly to your bloodstream, if you have no idea what they are count yourself lucky) and I've been getting around 3-5 hours of sleep lately anyway so I'm always kinda spacey and not really paying attention, and I feel like all my friendships have to be on solid rock all the way to the earth's core, otherwise they're going to all fall apart which I know is melodramatic but that's what I feel. I also feel like I need to conform to some social mold of a sixth-grade girl but let's face it I don't really know anything about roblox or minecraft youtubers and I just want to be myself but then I go back to "if you aren't the kind of person people like, no one will like you and you'll lose all your friends and are you showing that you're smart too much and how much is too much" and that just makes me feel fake
plus in fifth grade all the "popular" kids were also kinda inappropriate, they cussed and talked about weird stuff a lot but they were cool so-
also I'm not one hundred percent comfortable with the way I look either, I feel like I'm fat (even though I know I'm not) and no matter what length my hair is it STILL doesn't look the way I want it to and I feel like my clothes aren't good enough either.
so basically yeah I'm not feeling very good right now in general :/

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this is a bit of a personal thing that i am sharing.

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this is a bit of a personal thing that i am sharing.

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so umm... this is actually the first time i have posted on this padlet (i guess that is a good thing) but i actually have something to talk about
so in social skills we were learning about choices and consequences and she made it sound like it was that you always had control over everything about you (which we all know is not true) and at some points it sounded like she was saying that you control if you are bad or good, and whether or not you do good and bad things, and that there is only good and bad choices (which again, is not true), so it made me upset since i have been not in a good state recently, i still have not fully recovered my self esteem, and i do not want to make bad choices, i did not choose to be made, or to cause problems for my parents, and i feel like they are forgetting that (and by they i mean the curriculum the people who make it, not the teacher). (to be fair, i guess that is just society, instead of cherishing our differences, they booby trap the place for people who need help to make them feel bad about themselves). i still feel really upset about it, and I am not sure if my parents will understand fully, and i know you will. idk if this all makes sense tbh, i am just kinda sharing my problem out loud.

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I need support right now. My life has been cruddy and I am struggling. I need support please.

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for some reason, mother nature has been mad for the past few days, but idk why, it has been on and off raining i think since friday.

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A WHOLE lot!

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I am hurting a lot right now because of physical stuff :c I am also freaking out about the covid-19 vaccine because I hate needles and getting two in two weeks sounds about as fun as falling off a cliff into lava. And there are unspeakable horrors in the lava. I need help :c