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For my book I’ll be producing it on a website called Photobox because they do alot of things eg. canvas, photobook, printing pictures.
I choice the photobook because Similar to a publisher I can structure my book so I picked A4 Portrait for my book layout.

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~contritum=

Broken.~

Crushed.~

Shattered.~

Torn.~

Defeated.~

Fragmented.~

Explore the deepest..

We have to lose grip and lose ourselves to realise things, accept the changes even if it takes someone so precious to let go and break you in pieces.~~~~~

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The last picture of my grandad before he past away.

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The reason why I create this image is because it’s not no ordinary it is very personal and it’s about my grandad who is very special person to me and I knew I had to do something about him in my final task knowing  he has been a big impact in my life, the fact I’ve never done something like this but with my past experience of doing double exposure I used the same technique to create this image.
Overall I think the imagine create has been successful.

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A picture of the Sea front in Southend.

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Within the picture you can see I’ve messed up in part of the arm when cut the figure out, I didn’t smooth the edges.

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I used photoshop to cut out the figure from the original picture meaning he would need a new background.
Then I used the second picture as the background within that I had turned down the figure picture opacity to 45% to blend in with the background.
After i decreased the contrast to get to a perfect tone and make it look more effective and blend as one within that background picture I had to turn up the saturation to bring the colour to life and more abstract.

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Born in 1968, A living photographer in Edinburgh
He spend his time doing commercial and project which shows the passion he has for photography but his photography isn’t like no other he reflects on creating images that a world where all you do is imagine which makes it logic that has been transformed to a mythic.

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Drifting away just like the

leaves of another day

where would i go away from

the pain that i know

drifting away just like the

shadows of a lonely night

where can i find the love that

used to hold me so tight?

drifting away like the shadows

of a lonely night

where can i find the love that

you promised that would last till

the end of time

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I was young,

Confused,

Exposed,

Running around like it was in the Disney movies

The beginning episode of a series

Living my life with you

like a

Fairytale

Having enough confidence

We would last forever,

Not knowing it will be a long time

You made me believe

Brought me the courage,

Serve me a new dish I never tasted,

Experience moments I never imagined,

Taught me how to love

To the fullest

My painful Goodbye

My dream seller

I call you my "Idealistic Love"

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Young,

vulnerable,

Still exposed,

I've accepted to let the 1st go

Scared to live another cycle,

But confident

You are the one

It wasn't a fairytale no more

It was reality

A storyline full of drama

A rollercoaster ride that's goes

up and down

Round and round

You were the kindest love that hurt

Expectations was high

Manipulated by you

Letting me go was easy for you

Trying to get you back was the hardest

Expressing myself to you was the easiest

But words wouldn't make it

Just tears with million meaning

I was lost,

Broken

With the deepest cuts

Vodka solved my pain without feeling it

I call you my

"Hardest Love."

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Recovering, Broken, Lost, Vulnerable,

Fu*ked up?

Hidden away from the world

No one would understand

Reality was the pain

Till you

I thought you would be the same

But I guessed wrong

You came in the wrong time

but

Made me realise what I was worth,

Who I was,

Patience is what you had

Pain is what I had

You made that pain turn to pleasure

I taught you how to love, You taught me how open up And love again

instead of covering up

Love was just a word.

You was there

Beside me

When there was no hope

You saw the dark side within me

And shined the light in me,

It was never planned

It was unexpected,

I let my guard down for you,

You were different from the
1st 2nd

The best so far experienced

You accepted me , Till I

fu*ked up. Selfish of me,

I didn't see,

How you Loved me to the fullest.

And I let go..

I was your idealistic Love, I was your hardest Love, You was my unexpected love, But changed me for the better.

I call you my  "Unexpected beautiful Love"

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All these people

With pain in their faces

Bruises on their souls

And cracks in their hearts

We found ourselves

Trying to survive the death

Of what we thought was love

Fighting to make sense of a reality

That is now a lie

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Where do I go now?

Everything colliding all at once

Where do I go now?

Lost once again with no plan

Where do I go now?

No directions just disappointments

Where do I go now ?

So many pathways

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You asked me to "Hold on" I let go You asked me to "Stay" I left
You asked me to "Fight for you" I couldn't
You asked me to " Prove it" I didn't You asked me to "to tell the truth" I lied
You asked me to "hold on once more" I still let go

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I'm like a clock I go tick tock
I am the big hand
You are my little hand
I wait till we reach 12
I know you'll be there
I'll cover you and you cover me
But Where did you go ?
I'm always ahead
What have I done?

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drifting away when my sky would

look so dark

where would i go to cry and

share the pain inside

drifting away just like the

leaves of an autumn day

where would i go away from the

pain that i know

drifting away when i don't

understand the world surrounds me

where would i find the love and care

i've always dreamed.

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Boats and boating--Equipment and supplies

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"Help

Help

Please

Please

Fire

Fire"

They shout as loud as they can!

You watch them face judgement day

Fire service spraying their water

To stop the process of hell continue

Saving people that can be easily be reached

Innocents souls burn

As they beg for mercy

You hear every agony they scream

Blink once

blink twice

The devil rages!!

Eyes wide open seeing his work of evil,

Within the fire you see him smirking,

While they cry and

Do everything they can do to escape

Judgements day misery.

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Old friend this is your season

where you drop each tear with force

the grief that they caused to you

will pay for their wrongs.

Old friend this is your season

express yourself with the light that brings epiphany

you my friend deserve eternal love.

Old friend this your season

pour it all through eternity

the pain you feel so furious

strike once again heavier than before

let them know its your season

thundering through the streets unknowing,

when will you strike again

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Reckless,

Stubborn,

Selfish,

Careless,

Wild

That man I've become,

I still haven't learnt from the past

There's so much I see,

But one thing I missed

Was the outcome of myself

Words and action have been fired at me

Ive dodge every one those.

Avoiding the destruction I've caused

Knowing there is nothing I can do.

Is it to early?

I'm not ready to become the man they want me to be,

For Better for worse

The man I've become

Hasn't been the pleasant

It is to soon?

Knowing the time I have now

Is no longer is free,

It's reached a point

where there is now a limit,

A timer been set since the day

I avoided it,

It's on me to overcome destruction that I once avoided.

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My mind was battling the truth

my eyes were blurred,

the truth was discovered

the dark soul within

has been uncovered

if i did lie the flame could of have gotten thicker

the truth was never, suppose to be exposed.

Yet I still don't know?

Guilt

Suspicious

So just

Blame me for the mistakes

I'll take it

Shame of me to hurt you

That's my fault

But

Losing you was something I never imagined

I saw you in my future

And losing you now

Will change everything

I blew my chance

But chance can always change to opportunities

Forgiveness will take a while

And apologies won't fix anything

Yet you will have a scar

that could never be

Healed

Just pain and regrets

Hoping for the next to help you heal.

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The hardest feeling is

Seeing someone you love

smiling but you are not the reason anymore

instead it's someone else that is making them smile

its used to be YOU

The hardest feeling is

Having to think about that person you love

wondering to yourself

"if you crossed their mind"

knowing that their happy and your still looking back at the moments with them

The hardest feeling is loving someone that will stay a history for you, hoping it will be them again..

While your feeling empty and your wondering if they feel the same

The hardest feeling is having no one to understand how your feeling

Hoping you have a clone to express it too

and realising "no one will ever understand you but yourself"

The hardest feeling is having to let go of the person you been dreaming of.

planing the future together

The moments that were once important to you and them

Now it's time for you to stand back up

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Tears sliding down her cheeks

You broke her

You emotionally hurt her

You tore her heart apart

You gave her hopes

You made her feel like she's was the one

You turned your back on her

You left

You lied

You never looked back

You didn't realise what you've done

You made it seems so real

She's still suffering from this day forward

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For my final I was thinking about putting everything I’ve learnt throughout the year
eg. Studio, Long And short dept of Field, Light painting, Photoshop, trying to do a gif but not physically moving different images to show it after taking those type of pictures, I’d try to publish it like a book but no ordinary picture book I would like to add on something about me  something I like doing beside taking pictures, which is poems that I've written reflecting on the images.

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Wherlyn Jr. Gońzales B

Evaluation

For this Final Unit I produced a book but before that I had a different idea of which was just images I took and print it big and display it

but that was to simple and I also wanted it to be personal meaning something that relates to me,

So knowing that I write poetry as a hobby I wanted to relate it and use part of it on my final unit which was producing a book within that book I had one theme which was ‘Broken’ in latin which is ‘Contritum’ ended up being the title of the book  and ‘contritum’ means someone in sorrow and pain which relates to me

because recently I lost my grandad which actually made me feel broken so thats why I change my idea to produce a book which was different from everyone because it’s a published book within that my images I took and my poems I wrote and the both will be relating to each other, so in my book Each will page contains one poem and with a pictures that relates to brokenness, Pain, lost, sadness, depress, regrets.

Within all of that I needed inspiration so I did a lot of research eg. Artists and authors also galleries that can give me inspiration.

The Tate modern where I saw a lot of exhibitions like

Bruce Nauman who is an artist that does a lot of different range of photography eg. NEON lights, Videography, Photography.

I also visited the Photography gallery

which I saw this exhibition which I found very unique and different and the artist name was

Batia Suter where creates iconographic transformation of images.

Within that all the artist I researched relates to text and techniques eg.

-Laurence Winram an artist that does double exposures photography which I’ll be doing some off in my book,

-Lorna Simpson an artist that does a lot of different range of photography that relates to her past and takes pictures of memories that relates to the those moments.

-John Miskelly an artist that travels around the world and takes landscape photography.

Authors that’s inspired me:

Pierre Alex Jeanty who is author that writes poem an inspiration to men’s meaning the male side of emotions.

Mary Doria Russell who is a novelist that had a lot of different imagination of writing her stories.

In this Book I include a lot of techniques of taking pictures and basics of photography and which includes different types of editing on photoshop.

Techniques used:

Light Painting

Self Portrait

Photoshop editing

Opacity images

Saturation and contrast changing

Short and long dept of field

Landscape photography

Double exposure

Continuous photography

Gifs

The company where I publish my book is called PHOTOBOX and instead of those ordinary small portraits books I decide to go with an A4 portrait book with hardback. All together their are 27 images and 14 poems which I had to splits the images which all relate to each of the poems in the book.

Yet you might find 6 images that looks different and old but I purposely was going to use for my final because I wanted to start earlier knowing from past experiences I’m always so slow when it’s comes to deadlines and I never finish on time so my final I want to actually be finished and have enough time to annotate and go through my work.

Overall I think the book I produce was actually a success knowing that I’ve started my final earlier when it was actually given to me, Just knowing I’ve actually produced a book makes me proud because to me it wasn’t a rush, it was meaningful because I particularly shared my emotions in that moment that I felt all in one book.

Something I think i wish done was save my pictures on desktop because My USB corrupted meaning I lost some images that was apart of my book and everything else like artist research’s so I had to re-write and explain some of the contact sheet that were missing.

For my final exhibition I’m planning to keep it simple and place my book on a table or something similar, where my book is visible at the same time easy to access  without someone work having to be in the way or near it, I want the exhibition relate to my book too which will include isolation. I want it to be like a book signing but throughout the exhibition I want it to be passed around and be read by different people.