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"This is not the Olga I knew. Olga was as meek and fragile as a baby bird." (1)

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"I'd rather live in the streets than be a submissive Mexican wife who spends all day cooking and cleaning." (13)

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"We don't hug and say, 'I love you,' like on TV shows about boring white families" (4).

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"She is always apologizing to white people, which makes me feel ashamed. And then I feel ashamed of my shame." (7)

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"and tells me I'm going to have a quinceañera." (16)

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"She hasn't blames me directly, but I can see it in her big sad eyes every time she looks at me." (9)

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"'What kind of girl doesn't know when a tortilla is done?'" (32)

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"There's a picture on her dresser of both of us in Mexico. Our parents used to send us every summer, but it's been years since we've gone back" (19).

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"I want Ama to tell me that she loves me and that we'll get through this together, but she doesn't. I stand there like a dope, waiting and waiting for her to say something that will make me feel better." (14)

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"What kind of woman are you going to be if you can't even make a tortilla?" (33)

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"Olga was the perfect daughter--cooked, cleaned, and never stayed out late." (20)

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"'Privacy! I never had any privacy when I was a girl. You kids here think you can do whatever you want." (26)

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"Sometimes I love her and sometimes I hate her." (27)

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"My cousin Victor is turning seven today, and my tío Bigotes (yes, 'Uncle Mustache') is throwing him a big birthday party to celebrate, but I think it's just an excuse for him to get drunk" (76).

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"But Amá says no without even bothering to look at me. Maybe she thinks that if she leaves me alone, I'm going to orchestrate a giant orgy or overdoes on heroin. I don't know why she doesn't trust me. I keep telling her that I will never get pregnant like my cousin Vanessa, but it doesn't matter to her" (76).

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"What kind of girl hates parties?" (77).

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"if I don't kiss each and every relative on the cheek hello and goodbye, even if I don't know them, Amá calls me a malcriada, a badly raised daughter" (77).

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Doesn't like her relatives, especially her tía

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Doesn't like her relatives, especially her tía

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"Her husband left her for a woman half her age a long time ago, and she's been salty ever since. It's hard to take her seriously, with her red perm and eighties bangs, but it pisses me off that I've become the target of her passive-aggressive cracks. something about her just makes me angry. She is always sucking her teeth and what I'm wearing or making some comment about my weight, even though she's more floppy and misshapen than a sack of laundry. She loved Olga, though. Everyone did" (79).

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"I watch my cousin Vanessa feeding her daughter mashed-up beans. Only sixteen and she already has a baby. That would be the worst thing that's ever happened to me, but Vanessa seems happy somehow. She's always giving Olivia kisses and telling her how much she loves her. I wonder if she'll ever finish high school. What kind of life can you have when you live with your parents and have a baby to take care of?" (79).

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Admiration for those who have moved up in the world

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Admiration for those who have moved up in the world

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"I've always been fascinated by them. Freddy graduated from the University of Illinois and works as an engineer downtown, and Alicia was a theater major at DePaul and works at Steppenwolf. They are always dressed like they stepped off a runway. Alicia has the most interesting outfits--dresses made of bright, crazy fabrics and earrings that look like they belong in museums. Today, two silver hands dangle from her ears. Freddy wears dark jeans and a black blazer. There's no one in my family like them. No one has ever gone to a real college. I always want to ask them a million questions" (80).

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"I don't know what Freddy means by people like me.... What am I like? Why would anyone care if I go to college or not?" (81)

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"Like always, they sit around the dining room table, passing the tequila and talking about how great it was to live in their hometown of Los Ojos" (82).

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"'Buena para comer,' tía Milagros says, eyeballing my clean plate. Normally, I wouldn't be offended by a comment like this -- Mexicans are always saying that about kids. It's meant as a compliment. 'Good eaters' are people who who'll eat anything put in front of them with no complaints; they eat with enthusiasm. It means they aren't picky or entitled brats" (79).

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"Always crying about Mexico as if it were the best place on earth" (82).

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"Thanks to my upcoming quinceañera, my budget is only forty-five dollars, practically nothing" (106).

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Still judges people based off their money

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Still judges people based off their money

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"We may be poor, but at least we're not this tacky" (50).

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"'It shows your chest too much,' Amá says, scrunching her face as if she's just smelled something gross" (Ch 9, pg?).

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"I don't understand why we have to do this, pretend I'm Daddy's little girl when he hasn't paid attention to me in years." (155)

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"I wonder how much it would cost to stay here. Probably hundreds, maybe thousands." (292)

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"You know Olga never wanted to leave your parents. She would have done anything for them. She always wanted to be a good daughter." (295)

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"Don't work like a donkey like me." (121)

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"Lorena missed her period this month and is terrified she's pregnant." (299)

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"And there's no fuckin' way I'm going to have a baby. I mean, I'm trying to get the hell out of my house and do something with my life, you know?" (300)

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"I see my cousin with her baby, and it seems like the worst thing that could ever happen." (300)

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"The protesters gathered outside scream at us when we approach. They all hold idiotic signs that say things like Abrotion is murder and Mommy, why do you want to kill me?" (301)

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"Where would I get five hundred dollars?" (302)

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"I already suspected that Lorena wasn't going to like him because he's white and lives in the suburbs, but I'm still surprised by the amount of side eye she gives him." (305)

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"Okay, I get it, but do you actually believe he doesn't look down on us? You don't think he sees us without thinking we're ghetto? I just don't want you to get hurt. You can tell right away that he's rich." (307)

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"Julia, sometimes in life you don't get to do what you want to do. Sometimes you have to deal with what's given to you, shut up, and keep working. That's it." (315)

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"'Que buena, mija,' Ama says, even though she looks heartbroken. 'I'm very happy for you.'" (322)

After she gets into college

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"this Jesus stuff is all a sack of crap." (5)

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"Ama and I also argue about religion all the time. I told her that the Catholic Church hates women because it wants us to be weak and ignorant." (21)

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"I'm not, like, super-fat or anything, but I have thick legs and my stomach is definitely not flat. Oh, and my boobs are much too big for my body-- two pendulous burdens I've been lugging around since I was thirteen." (22)

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"There's no way I'd try touching myself with her yelling and lurking all the time." (26)

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"'Jesus loves you.' He doesn't, but I smile back anyway." (47)

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"Then Ramiro puts his hand on the back of my head and leans into me. I never imagined my first kiss to be this way, but I guess it could be worse." (74)

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"I'm wondering if anyone will ever touch me like that." (115)

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"I never tell him I'd rather clean toilets than be some man's assistant." (121)

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"she's a virgin, you know?" (128)

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pg 147

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"But if this is what it means to be a woman, maybe I don't want to be one." (155)

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pg 161

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166-167

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"If--when-- I become rich..." (169)

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"Guys never talk to me, unless you count the creeps on the street who whistle and say gross things about my body." (172)

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pg 180

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"Every once in a while, I do have moments of joy, thought, like when I get to see Connor." (183)

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"I have six dollars to my name, and he's going to buy something as a joke. I know it's not his fault, but I can't help feeling a little annoyed." (189)

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(193)

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"these people must be rich as fuck." (196)

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pg 198-200 - her first time

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pg 204-206

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"Why would you talk about a woman like that?" (224)

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"you used yo love going to Mexico when you were little. You always seemed so happy." (228)

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"Because she probably wouldn't believe me, and if she did, I think it would destroy her, in a way. The thing is that Olga was perfect to her. How could I tell her she wasn't?" (235)

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pg 244

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pg 249

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"We've always been poor..." (251)

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pg 258

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pg 274

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pg 279

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pg 283

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pg 289