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come to think about it, it's all in my head

fuel tank blink, it's been running in the red

praying for a green light, looking straight ahead

nothing else seems right, you know what i said

told myself to calm down, listen, understand

somewhere, i had god stuck in between my hands

everything I want was never in your plans

And now it's hard to think

I've been running in and out of dreams

Repeating everything you ever said you see in me

So am I not a ghost?

Passing through these walls I used to call a home

I left my body lying on the door mat

Turned away, decided not to go back

I'm not the one, I look around and I see nothing

Reach through the walls, I tried to scream, it won't come out

Sorry for dying, I just wanna hold you without haunting

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I've got one for you!

a man walked into a bar;

that reminds me of my ex wife;

Knock knock who's there?

Tell me a joke

a familiar shadow that everyone knew

reached through the walls, you saw right through

laughing at you,, i had so many things left to do...

and it's funny, you said it's too soon

stuck in the red, came out the blue

All i could hear were the crickets...

funny the joke is on me

i tried hard not to miss it,,

everything i couldn't be

knock,, knock,,

laugh to the grave

Knock knock who's there? Tell me a joke.

something feels off, was it words that i spoke?

or was it something else? the door must've broke.

how can it be.

its the setup, the punchline is me

over my head,, i couldn't see

reached through the walls, felt for a key

i'm a social experiment

aren't you relieved to be hearing it?

all of the cameras were pointing away

All i could hear were the crickets,

funny the joke is on me

knock knock,, laugh to the grave

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Don't mind me

I'm somewhere in between

Closed eyes and a dream

Comb through the pictures

Search and seizure

A coma and some anesthesia

Closed eyes and a dream

Don't mind mе

I'm somewhеre in between

Opening boxes

Looking for closure

You point to the sky

If only you knew, I'm so much closer

It's alright

I'm right by your side, just over your shoulder

I came here to handle my business

I came here to dust off the sofa

Have you canceled my Hulu subscription?

You opened my drawer and went through some more

Some letters, a few of the pictures

You made a collage, a souvenir version of me

Curated, perfect and neat

Rebuilt the memories, re-said the words that I speak

Reborn through the dirt and the weeds

Formaldehyde, maybe you don't have to cry

Get the scraps, piece me back to life

Ignore the static, getting more erratic

Close the boxes up and put that shit up in the attic

I'm running out of space up there like you won't imagine

I'm running out of space up there, I don't know what happened

I don't know where I went, I don't know where I went

Left for some air, tied to the wind, out through the vent

Somewhere in between

A coma and some anesthesia

Somewhere in between

Closed eyes and a dream

But I'm somewhere much closer

And now it's hard to try, I could cry

I'll help you

On the other side

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Touching the ground

Pick up my hands

Then I turn around

Covered in skin

It's that room, it's the wall, it's the poster and all

And the lamp was still swinging its chord

It's the shadowy weight and the footsteps I take

Made a mark through the dust on the floor

And I saw

My mother's eyes

For the second time

Same carpet I crawled in, same bucket I was washed in

I gave all that time to you, I was tryna figure out the faucets

Tall marks on the wall charts, it's the wrong parts getting longer

I was standing so far away, I don't wanna go another day

I looked up and down, didn't wanna make a sound

I was so far away, I don't wanna go another day

I trace back the ground, flip my placemat around

Try to call, but the dog runs away from me nowwwww

I was staring at the ceiling, I was fucking terrified

I been tryna get these feelings out, inside, I'm paralyzed

Same old tree, seen it all peeking through the blinds

I can't do it, how I used to climb, gravity been getting used to my weight

Follow me closely

I wanna know the place you've been

Lazarus skin

Picked up my hands

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I wasn't born yesterday

I think you're goddamn lying

You said I'm in a better place

I got a new birthday to celebrate

Those candles that you couldn't light

You threw them out and you wondered why

Don't know why I blew them out for me

Until I forgot how to breathe

I popped a vein and I made a wish

I made a wish that'll never be

I  wasn't born yesterday

I think you're goddamn lying

But now I'm here

Been in so many tears I try my best not to count it

I've been in so many hearts

So many prayers

I've been in so many couches

I've been in so many lies, I've lived so many lives

I've lived in so many houses

I've been subject to change

I keep circling dates, I keep thinking about it

I've been trying to unsee how you moved on from me

Because it feels like without me

I've been ripped from the floor

The umbilical cord is still sorta around me

I wasn't born yesterday

I think you're goddamn lying

It gets so bright I disappear

It's been 12 nights and a million years

That weight gets heavy when you're breathing

You gave me something to believe in

You said it happened for a reason

I swear to god I think

You're goddamn lying

I wasn't born yesterday

I think you're goddamn lying

Those little things

I should've said out loud

All those little things

I did to make you proud

i had just a hint of doubt

i wish i let that hint become me

just a little doubt,

couldn't figure out how to outrun me

and i'd be free if i just saved the date

I'd be here with you right now

and that day plan should've stayed delayed

Because the only thing I want is out

And it's all those little things....

I should've said out loud

All those little things

I did to make you proud

I wasn't born yesterday

I think you're goddamn lying

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you don't grieve?
so what about me?
I haven't slept
Since I was rest in peace

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First things first, can we get shit straight?

I've been alone since you left me in your wake

I've been alone to reflect on my mistakes

I've been alone since

When you offered me your forgiveness

I was begging you not to breathe in

Tried to yell at you from a distance

Could you tell when you let me seep in?

Put my feet on the floor

Over each, every board

Heard a creak, turning weak

Turn the heat up some more

It was spreading, you said, "It's house settling"

It's nothing, a howl in the wind

Rationalize me away if it helps

Home sweet home, I can't stay anywhere else

I cuddled up in the vase on the shelf

Ashes, ashes, a place to myself

Anything

Give me anything

Can't let you be

House settling

Cracks in the wall, frames that hide it all

Dents in the rug, aging cytosol

Breathe in the air, laced with my withdrawals

Taken by a god, breaking my alarms

Dead to me

Let you breathe

House settling

Lock out the pity, you been dizzy, you been tired

You been busy, keep yourself busy, let the paint dry

I feel guilty, I feel guilty, I can't say why

Words you see through the CO

Breaks my heart, but I'll give it a try

Dead to me

Let you breathe

House settling

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not ready for heaven

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gone gone

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i walk around with knots on my neck and my chest

i'm an open book in a closed casket

you told a story and you got to my name and it made you flinch

i became your stutter, i became a knot, i became a glitch

i walk around with knots on my neck and my chest

i'm an open book in a closed casket

i don't fade to black i cut to static

tightrope, try to make it back, it's acrobatic

i hope you could get some luck from scratching at it

i walk around with knots on my neck and my chest

i'm an open book in a closed casket

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cry to sleep, wait a week

counting sheep, crossing streets

everyone's dead ends

and i'm bored

i could be so much more

than i am

than i am

i need to go

i heard there's a place for me

one that nobody knows

one that goes away with me

so i drove

mountains away

to a place that ain't real

to a place that ain't real

and i drove

mountains away

to a place that ain't real

that's where i wanna stay

that place over the hill

where you dream about crossing

it's not a cry for help

to rethink your options

it's your mom's bakery in maine

it's that cabin in sweden

it's the going offline

it's "next year, i'll go vegan"

it's not a "woe is me"

it's a hold the door open

that's a fantasyworld

that's the one that I've chosen

Somewhere over the hill

Where you cry without speaking

Leave your door slightly creaking

It's all leaking away

When there's nothing to say

There's no point anymore

The words touch your mouth

And they fall to the floor

So why try to move a hair

When you barely exist?

That's a fantasyworld

That's where I wanna live

and i float

mountains away

where no one can stay

and i go

not in a rush

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When's the last time you let yourself think?

I might be gone every time I let myself blink

I wouldn't say I was surprised

On the eighty-second time

When's the last time your love was unrequited?

I know I showed up to the party uninvited

It's getting hard for me to hide

Running out the light

Tell me

You think it's all in your head

You might be already dead

It's funny when you think about it all again

Been afraid of nothing for so long

That's why I'm stuck with it

But nothing is gonna change

Until I change what nothing is, and it's

Fractions of infinity

Show me how you'll sentence me

Divided divinity

Tell me

You think it's all in your head

You might be already dead

It's funny when you think about it all again

Every time I miss you

I hear a voice without a face

And every time I'm with you

The clock hands wave me out of place

Those words don't do you justice

Tell me

You think it's all in your head

You might be already dead

It's funny when you think about it all again

I see my life inside your hands

Walls cave in when you start to pray

I've seen all I'll ever understand

Wouldn't make sense in another way

I think I hit my target weight

Got exorcised while I stood in place

Got every time that I couldn't trace, yeah

Got restless eyes, they don't look away

It emphasized that I shouldn't stay

Based on what?

Ripping up projector screens

The director screaming "Cut"

Based on what?

Take twenty-three, let's get this scene and then it'll be enough, right?

Throw some grain on if you can, and that is that

I'm in that space between your hands about to clap

Those walls are caving in, and, they say, "Congratulations, that's a wrap"

Tell me

You think it's all in your head

You might be already dead

It's funny when you think
THOSE WORDS DONT DO YOU JUSTICE

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under your skin

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being yourself

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By this point, I thought I would have answers

I thought that was the universal consolation prize

Thanks for playing, this is what the game was

Unspoken agreements that make perfect sense until you say them outloud

You took out that film too soon

There was light bleeding in the red room

I'll do anything but stand in front of the projector

I'd watch it all again

3:41

You came out of the room and you were crying in a way that nobody could hear

I stopped kicking and screaming when you turned the lights on

You woke me up

I felt naked, I felt exposed

I felt like for the first time, I was intruding on something

You woke me up

You

Filtered out grain, filtered out static

Filtered out me

And I'm so proud of you

That presence that I've tried so hard to make known

It was there, regardless of whether or not I was

And you were showing me that

I wasn't blinded by the light, but by everything else

So let me go

Let me go and don't let go of me

Let me, let me go

And don't let go of me

And I'll do the same

I've been trying to move past the crackles and dust scratches

But that's what I am, you know?

An accidental side effect of a blank canvas

Think about that glowing dust

That destroys the night sky's dream of

Just being nothing

Beautiful, but born to be in the way

That's why all we want is peace, all we want is to stop thinking

All we want is this enlightened silence, it's in our code

That's why it's all so ironic, maybe that's the punchline?

The void... weighs on me

Only because I push away from it

It wavers with the light that follows me like a curious moon

The static that floods every room

Stacks on top of itself until it blocks out the picture

Maybe that's the perfect void that's begging me to join it

Begging me to let you go, without letting go of you

So I can make that void just a little bit brighter

For when you see it, until next time

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spring summer fall

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dustcutter