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What am I noticing in the outside world now

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What am I noticing in the outside world now

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I listen more for sure. When I'm not listening to music outside I try to listen for small things that I'll usually miss, and this is just from the Listening practice. I notice small noises like the jingling of keys of someone's notifications on their phone. I also feel like I have a better appreciation for scenery in general. It feels like every image out there has a larger story to tell. It makes me happy but is at the same time too much for me. Observing this much isn't something I'm used to, and probably will take a while for me to actually get used to.

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The practice that I think made the most impact onto my writing was the You Are Not You.

It's just such a fresh and unique way to write a poem that I think really bled into my other work. I want to make more poems from the perspective of an inanimate object again. It's just a form of poetry that I feel forces creativity out of the writer.

I notice now that when I write I try to hit the bar of creativity I think that I reached when I wrote the You Are Not You poem. It pushes me to try harder with everything I write, since the mental bar I've set for myself is so high.

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creating a poem based on artwork is something I never really thought about doing. There's so much more to pick apart in certain images than I think usually meets the eye. I thought the ekphrasis poem was cool, but it was the you are not you poem that I really loved. It felt so fresh and interesting to write a poem from the perspective of an object(this one being an apple). It's something I would absolutely never think of, and is so much fun. I spun a story about the apple and gave it its own consciousnesses through the power of poetry, and I think that's pretty great.

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EKPHRASIS YOURSELF: The fairy and my surroundings

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EKPHRASIS YOURSELF: The fairy and my surroundings

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the sounds I heard were all really new to me. I usually will just listen to music everywhere I go no matter what. Be it at school, on the skytrain, or even at home. Actually sitting there for such a long amount of time and actually listening to the word felt like I was using my ears for the first time. When I was on the bus I thought the voices of people would be what stood out to me the most, but in reality it was the actual sounds of the bus itself that were the loudest. The rhythm of the bus stopping, the announcer lady voice speaking, and the doors opening became a sort of bus ritual to me. Sportchek was probably where I gained the least info, since a lot of the noises I heard are ones that I'll usually her when I'm on the clock, but I also noticed the music for the first time in all honesty. Usually the music is just white noise for me since I work here all the time and hear it all the time, but this really felt like the first time I actually listened to the music.

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I go back to this poem from time to time (I have it saved in my phone) whenever I'm feeling down about life. It's such a simple poem but is so powerful for me personally, and has such an easy and admirable message.

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I don't know why but I've been watching more soccer with my dad recently, and it feels poetic in a way? Just everyone working together to do something so simple, shoot a ball into a net has became so layered and complicated over time. The fact that such a simple concept for a game like soccer could become so complex but still easy to watch for someone not so used to soccer (me) feels poetic.

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I'm currently rewatching Naruto, and this scene where one of the side characters, Rock Lee, takes off his weights during a fight feels weirdly poetic to me. He fights the entire fight with weights on, nerfing himself, but once he takes them off, you'd assume he wins the fight right? No, he still loses despite taking off the weights. This subversion of the usual last minute power-up trope felt so interesting, fresh, and poetic.

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other poetic stuff im noticing right now

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other poetic stuff im noticing right now

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making this deck made me realize how undescriptive I really am. I struggled to find 10 words for the senses when I thought it would be a cake walk. It also made me realize how vast the English language really is, and how many different ways of saying things there are. It also made me realize that there are so many different sights, smells, sounds, etc out there, and we have so many different words to describe so many of them. That might sound a bit wordy but I can't really find any other way to describe it.

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after creating all my words, I mixed and matched them with the ones that felt most opposite or made the most sense to be connected to each other.

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I'm just going to be straight up with this one. I left it for last thinking that I'd be able to do it within a few hours, but it ended up being much harder of a commitment than I thought it would be. So instead of trying to half-ass a deck, since I don't have any cards or markers, I found a website online that could help me make a personal universe desk called universaldeck.org.

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This was my workplace for a lot of the practices of attention, my work. It just works out for me since I work Saturdays, which aren't very busy, and it's quiet and easy for me to think. I can also bounce ideas off of my coworkers quite easily which helps a lot.

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This is also the period of my life where I was playing volleyball/ I stopped playing after highschool, so thinking about these times when I did play makes me very nostalgic. I invested a lot of time into the sport, so it's a little bittersweet

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This was also around the age where I first got a job, and realized the importance of money. Working for the first time was a very interesting experience for me. It was tough, but seeing the money come into my bank account was an amazing feeling as a high schooler.

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I had always liked drawing throughout my whole life, but this was kind of the point where it became a huge thing for me. Events would hire me to create art and graphics for them, and it was when I thought it could be a real career path for me. As I grew older I realized this was a little more unfeasible than I thought.

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I played a larger amount of video games than I’d like to admit during this period of my life, and it’s important enough to me that it wouldn’t feel right to not include it here.

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This was around the age that I first got into buying different types of shoes. Before this I just wore what my parents bought for me, but I started being more self-aware about fashion and the different types of shoes out there around this time. It might not seem super important but it really changed my style for the better I feel.

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Pizza feels weird to include as a part of my childhood, but I think it’s an important part for me personally. I was probably the kid who ate the most pizza as a kid, as well as our school having a special pizza lunch once a month. I looked forward to those days so much, and they always got me so excited.

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During my childhood I was completely addicted to Thomas the Tank Engine. I would watch the show whenever it aired on TV, and owned a ridiculous amount of toys. It’s hard to forget your childhood obsession, even if I don’t really care about the series as much as I used to. It’ll still always hold a special place in my heart.

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I mentioned it above earlier, but the sweater from our school uniform had an interesting smell that I really don’t remember now since it's been so long. Just seeing it though, does make me oddly nostalgic.

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I went to a religious elementary school, and this was basically our bible. I have both bad and good memories associated with this book, since I had to read it a lot more than any kid ever wants to read a religious book. I won competitions for reciting the passages in this book, which made me happy as a kid, but thinking back on it just reminds me of how much time it feels like I wasted reading that book

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played soccer a ton when I was around this age, never really played again during high school, but it was so much fun and I do sometimes wish I could go back to those days

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The photo smells faintly of cheese pizza and crackers. I’m not sure how to explain that but it’s the first thing that flies into my head. I remember it being quiet, since this was our school photo. It also gives me a sense of unfamiliarity, since I can’t remember a lot of the people around me, and haven’t talked to them in many, many years. It makes me a little sad since these were people I used to talk to every day, and called good friends, and they’ve basically been removed from my life entirely. The picture feels like an old sweater, mostly because of the black sweater I’m wearing that is from our school uniform. I haven’t worn it since elementary, and it gives me a pretty intense feeling of nostalgia. There’s a feeling of longing when I look at this photo, but also a feeling of relief. The longing comes from me missing my elementary school days, where I didn’t have a care in the world and was oblivious to everything in the outside world. The relief comes from the fact that I wasn’t the best person in elementary and am not exactly proud of the way I was. Knowing that I’m a better person now and have changed for the best is a good feeling.

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This photo is from a very fun day in 2019. It was me and my friend’s secret santa. We couldn’t find a venue to host all of us, so we ended up doing it in a parking lot near my house. Thinking about this picture just fills my nose with the smell of wet cement and fresh snow. My toes tingle just thinking about how cold it was that day. Just thinking about it makes me wish I was wearing gloves that day so badly. The main detail that I go back to from seeing this photo is how amazing my secret santa gift was. It was a hair dryer and a massage gun, and a bunch of extra goodies, basically everything I’d asked for on my wish list. When I close my eyes I see nothing but warmth, and happiness in all honesty. This was a pretty good time in my life, and I don’t think I have any negative feelings towards it. My only desire really when thinking back to this, is wishing that I could have moments like this with my friends more often. Everyone's a little busier now due to being in university and getting jobs. It’s rare whenever we actually get to hang out as a group, so I’m happy I have this moment I can always reflect back on.

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This was another Gamecube controller I have that I took a picture of, thinking that I'd use it for this practice of attention. I ended up going with the other picture because it felt more genuine. Just a simple unprofessional picture of it on my desk felt like it had more heart than the one I took on my white table. It seemed more raw and in the moment.

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Not trying to nerd out, but this is a shot from one of my favourite anime, Dragon Ball Z. Every time I see this shot it's just poetic for me personally, since I get flooded with nostalgia from watching this for the first time when I was very young. It's also just a very powerful moment in the series where this character has a major breakthrough and basically changes the hierarchy of power in the entire series.

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The plastic cover of the controller has a comforting shine that attracts my hands. The rubber on the gray and yellow control sticks has a familiar feel to it that I don't think I can ever forget. The multi- colored face buttons are an appealing mix of red, green, and yellow. Just seeing it fills my head with the desire to play some Melee. Even though the controller isn't alive, it feels like a friend to me, closer than a lot of people could possibly be.