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At the time of the first Padlet, I had not actually tackled anything underneath the umbrella of pandemic theatre. I realize after being so out of it for so long (acting, directing, writing AND creating in general) that I need to approach it in a different way.

I still believe in trial and error,  second and third opinions, and collaboration tables (and now zooms) but I do believe in creating with a different mindset.

Being mindful of time, space, advantages and challenges:

When I first look at any project I'm apart of now I make sure to create a list of when we start and finish,  definite rehearsal dates that work for everyone, when and if we will be using zoom or any editing softwares and techniques and how we can use that to advantage in certain scenes, being aware of covid guidelines, tests and vaccines and marking down the complications and challenges we might face like, not being able to work in person or someone missing to take a test for a clear in person day etc.

An example of this is I recently became inspired to write a play and there's a specific scene where a couple is supposed to be in bed and looking at one another being sweet and sharing a romantic moment. I MAY not be able to actually shoot the couple in a shot where they're looking at each other and laying closely in bed and smiling at one another. A advantage that may be more impactful and following covid guidelines that I have thought about is taking up close shots of each person doing things that can *show* they're having a sweet moment without actually filming them close together. Like a zoom in of one of the pair's eyes with dilated pupils and crinkles in their face from smiling, isolated shots of a person laughing or a frame of someone's cheek rosey and blushing as they talk.

I have become more aware of how I develop ideas and projects due to the pandemic and making sure I am covid safe and doing the best I can with showcasing feelings and emotions without endangering anyone's health.

examples of sketches of isolating shots below!:

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The title of my screen-play/short film is called GO:OD AM and is a story about my real life past relationship and a specific night we had. The plot centers around a chaotic up and down night between the couple (us) and their transitions throughout the night are guided by the hour and music. All of the music is by artists that actually influence my ex partner and I's relationship and what we would listen to together and artists we look up to or shared with one another. The title of the short film is actually named after the album GO:OD AM which is my ex's favorite album by mac miller whom is both one of our favorite artists. Which I felt also fit perfectly considering the show is transitioned by the hour. I felt like sharing this because it's the second project I have been apart of in the pandemic but the first I created by myself and the entire show is shadowed with musical influences I look up to and that I referenced in my first Padlet under influences.

I realized when creating my own art especially with personal stories that detail is important and my influences can help showcase that. These little details of what's constantly playing in the background on the record player in certain moments shows what the mood is of the moment or what "Nadine's" taste is or "Colson's" and what kind of people that may make them. Considering the characters are my relationship, I want them to BE real and FEEL real. Which means showing their quirks and feelings and what fuels those feelings which for us was strongly music a majority of the time. Everything in the show is real dialogue and events so It only made sense to make music a big factor of the show as it was in those moments.

My ex's constant love language was taking me to the record store and finding stuff to take home. We both collect records (new and old) and fun fact, every time we broke up he would leave some random sad love song record from the 70's on my car windshield or in my mailbox. and yes, we got back together every time he did it. I think my influences help set the tone or mood and I'm actually really excited to film these scenes with their subtle cameos.

the current Spotify playlist of songs in the show (so far): https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1EQd0ysaazUnbCS3k2JFig?si=dac9186be6a74e15

the song from this scene: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVzOo5equVg

EXAMPLE from my play:

NADINE clicks ‘end call’ on her phone. The conversation between her and COLSON is over. She walks to her fridge and pops open a bottle of cheap pink alcohol and begins to chug it. Her and COLSONS's signature drink. She exits the kitchen, walks to her bedroom and then enters the bathroom and begins to strip off her clothing. The bathroom is large. As she turns on the shower her phone begins to blow up with calls from COLSON. She steps out and walks to her record player at the marble counter, unfazed, and puts on a record from a nearby shelf. I Got A Letter by The Stylistics begins to ooze from the player. While she begins to shower, the sound of the constant phone calls is drowned out by the music. She breaks down in spurts of cries only to collect herself in sporadic moments and turn into a pattern of- drink, cry, sing, and wash out the night like soap in her hair. Overall, the water hitting the floor drowns out all the noise.

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I think that when writing this column originally I was very optimistic and motivated to just attack attack attack and work and create and then I realized oh yes, depression exists.

I went through a lot these past couple of months and I think that I do still want to get my degree and my masters and become a professor and director. I do still want to also have my own type of company and dabble in music. BUT I also am coming to understand that I need to start making my mental and physical health a priority. I kind of always just put it on the back burner because I was so eager to do art related things but without any gas, like a car, I can't function.

I have made the decision to focus on one project at a time. I work in doses and not over hours that will knock my balance of sleeping and workout out of whack and taking care of myself by creating in safe spaces and taking care of my thoughts, worth and needs before anything else. While I do think that my pain makes for great work-- I would like to not suffer anymore lol.

What I have to share as a creation of what I've been doing for this category is a painting I recently did to calm myself out of a bad panic attack (which is the background I chose for my padlet) and a screenshot of the script I've been doing. Painting is now something I do for relaxation but creativity and my script is work that will be a film soon (but fun work). It's currently 35 pages. :)