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1) After doing this emotional intelligence assessment, I have come out to see that I have a strong sense of self-awareness, with a score of 41/50. If I'm being honest I didn't see that I was aware exactly of what I could feel and what things make me feel a certain way. Once I took this assessment, and thinking about the results, and reading what it means to be self-aware I realized that I can be very aware of how my emotions play out for me. I think this is important to keep having and maybe expanding on it, because I know that in order to understand how other people feel, it's important to understand how I feel and what makes me feel certain ways.

2) My total score for managing emotions was a 31/50, which is stated to be a growth area, which I do agree with. In the past, I have had problems with controlling my emotions. Not that I have acted out in violent rages, or fits of depression, but it's more like when I am angry, I tend not to hold back all the things I am thinking. To me, I bottle up a lot of my emotions, and when I have too many emotions, I tend to explode in ways that are unseen. I've lashed out at people before in ways where they knew I wasn't okay. I have definitely gotten better at managing my emotions, but I do know I do still need to work on it a bit more.

3)My score for motivating oneself was at a 32/50, which means its a growth area. This I know is a problem area for me, and I have known this for nearly 6 years now. Sometimes I just find it difficult to stay focused on something, especially if I feel like something isn't really going to teach me something new, or if I think that something is going to be uninteresting. I'd most likely find it difficult to just tell myself to do something. I find myself though, that once I have motivated myself to do something, I am able to get through it fairly easily. This is something that I need to work on by reminding myself that life isn't always going to be full of things that I want to do, and that sometimes I'm going to need to do things that I won't want to do.

4)My total empathy score was a 35/50, which is labeled as a strength, but just at the border. I think that this is something that I definitely used to see as an area where I could use growth, and I am happy to see that in this assessment, it says that I have grown more in having empathy for people. My past experiences do allow me to have empathy for people that are from similar backgrounds to me, but my main problem has always been when it comes to dealing with people that are stubborn when they have a belief that I don't necessarily believe in. Something that I have done, is trying to understand their side of the belief, and since I do like learning about people and what made them the person that they are, I think this helps me best understand what makes a person think the way they do. Through this I'm able to not judge people based on stereotypes, and instead get to know people. This is something that I hope to continue growing in.

5)My total social skill score was a 41/50. This would have surprised me about a year or two ago, because I used to think that I was more of a "traditional" introvert, in that I used to think that I didn't know how to socialize with people, and that I just wanted to be alone. I learned over the past couple of years that this isn't the case for me. I learned after exposing myself a bit more to people that I do genuinely like talking to new people and getting to know others that I don't know. What I learned is that I like listening to people's problems, and that I can be friendly with many kinds of people, it's just that after a while I need to recharge myself so that I don't start getting overwhelmed. I think I'l continue growing in this, because the career that I'm looking to, will require me to continue building connections with people that I don't really know, and familiarize myself with them to advance myself.

6)Overall, I know that having emotional intelligence is something that many people don't think about all the time, but it's something necessary to know and be able to work on, as we humans are social beings. We thrive on being around other people, and we work best when in conjunctions with others. If we don't know how to interact with people, there isn't much that we can do by ourselves. I used to not think that being able to understand feelings and emotions was that important, but after studying them in a way that other's don't normally do, I have learned there's more kinds of intelligence than people think.

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Looking back within my own life, I start to see things that correlate with the findings of Erickson's Psycho-social Theory. I feel like when I was going through the Trust vs. Mistrust phase of my life, my parents did a good job of giving me a sense of trust in people. I can see this, because I do feel a bit more at ease when I'm out in the world doing random things. I'm not scared to walk outside or ask a random person for directions. Things that other people that may have trouble having a bit of trust in other people may not do. Once I got to the Autonomy v. Shame and Doubt, I think this is where I had a bit of a misstep. My parents admit to me that they think that they coddled and controlled me a little too much. They have seen that I had been a quiet kid, and that I have lacked self-confidence a lot during my life. I tend to depend on other people a little more than should be normal, and this is something that I know and that my parents recognize. At this point, it is mostly up to me to change the way I do things so as to grow more. It's up to me to recover from this misstep so that I can become more responsible by keeping myself accountable. I think during the Initiative vs. Guilt stage, I had a mixed time during it, as though I did continue to get more criticism, I also did try and take the initiative to do different things, whether it be in school or with friends. So I did struggle with low self-confidence, but I also did do my best to try and be a leader among my peers. I think the best way to have more self-confidence is just by having a more positive outlook on things and events in life. I feel like I sometimes think I can't do things, but I just need to learn to believe. In the Industry vs. Inferiority stage, I think I also had a mixed up time. I still went through times of low self-confidence, but I also had some great encouragement from my parents and teachers. I had 2 teachers that I remember fondly that I think had a great affect on me. It was from them that I learned that I really liked school, and that I was actually a very well-rounded student. They showed me to enjoy being in school and look forward to every day. I also had support from my parents who pushed me to try and get good grades, and though they may have criticized me a bit much, when I didn't do too well in a class, I still was able to become a good student. In the Identity vs. Role Confusion stage, I know that my parents did a good job guiding me through this stage. They didn't try and lock me down to one career path, and tried to be supportive of the things that I liked. When I went through a stage where I thought about being a teacher, even though I could tell that they didn't think it was the best job for me, they allowed me to explore the idea and told me they were happy with whatever I did with my life. This support is something that helped me not feel pressured to find a career choice that I liked, and because of this, I was able to find something that I enjoy now, that being the world of politics and law. Now that I have entered the Intimacy vs. Isolation stage of my life, I am finding myself feeling, a bit hollow. I realized a couple weeks into college, that I don't really have that many friends like others do. Like, one of the things that people find during college is their friend group. Like a posse or just a general group of friends that one would hang out with after classes. I realized that I didn't really have a friend group in high school, and that though everyone liked me, and I considered a lot of people my friends, I came to find out that I really considered people acquaintances, and had a very small group of people that I truly considered friends. Now that I'm in college, I find myself sometimes not really knowing what to do with my spare time. I have a girlfriend, but sometimes I feel like I'm held back from making friends because I have a girlfriend. Not that I don't want to be with her, because it's quite the opposite, but I sometimes feel like if I was single, I would have a friend group. It's a weird feeling to think about, and honestly I don't know what to make of it. I think I just need to stop being afraid to make new friends, and embrace if I change a little bit. After all relationships and love is about dealing with the changes that happen in life. Isn't it?

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For the Brain-Dominance Questionnaire, I came out to have a +3 score, which means that I have a slight preference toward right-brain dominant thinking. This means that I can have random thoughts, I like varied input and new ideas, while also processing information entirely instead of in bits. It says that I make decisions based on feelings, and that I can solve problems by being imaginative and creative. I could agree with the majority of this statement, except that I think I do my best to make decisions using logic, and making sure that I go through all my available options that I have at my disposal.

It took me a while to think about a decision that I made that took me a long time to try and get to, but once I had one, it became so clear to me what exactly was going on.

My senior year of high school, my final year playing soccer for my school I had to deal with a difficult situation to be in. Ever since my freshman year of school, I was a varsity player, and I had played with players that were unbelievably good. At the beginning of the season, I was placed into the freshman team because the coaches thought that I was small and weak (admittedly I was about 5'1" and a defender, so I do see where they came from). I worked my ass off during the season and I got my chance to play for the varsity team near the end of the season. I proved my coaches wrong over the course of a couple of weeks. The next season I actually became a starting player for the varsity team and I was a player that worked their ass off always. I was a player that wasn't the most skilled but I made up for it with effort and heart. Though, I had become mistake-prone during that season. The school didn't do to well in the season. Then next season (my junior year), I still was seen as that starting player, and I did my best to keep my spot. I was seen as a leader within the team, and I did my best to step up to the plate. Although over the course of the season, my coach and I had grown to have disagreements, because I spoke up about an issue that the team had with him and how the way he wanted to play the game wasn't the best way to get the most out of the rest of the team and get us to preform at our best. So when I made a mistake that cost the team the game, I became the scapegoat for the team by that coach. I didn't play for the rest of the season. Junior year in general was a tough year for me, and this resulted in me getting out of shape before the next season. So at the beginning of my last season, I had to catch up with the rest of the team, and unfortunately, I wasn't fit enough to be a starting player. Over the next 2 weeks my fitness was getting a lot better, and I started playing better. The problem was that I had to start on the bench, and my replacement defender was doing well. So I had to wait for my opportunity. What happened though, is that I started losing touch and the sense of awareness that comes with consistent playing time, so when I did play, I wasn't ready for the tempo, and I made mistakes. The coaches tried to put me in a new position that I have never played up to that point, and though I did okay, it wasn't enough to win my spot back. Since that new position wasn't my natural position, I once again started making mistakes. My relationship grew sour with my teammates and especially my coaches. Since I had begun to become mistake-prone again, this made my relationship with my teammates go wrong because it felt like they were faulting me for what was going wrong with the team. My coaches no longer trusted me, even though I had shown in the past that I am still a hard working player, and was in fact playing better than the player, that they had replaced me with, at that point. I knew that the coaches just didn't believe in me anymore, and that really hurt. All during the season, my senior year, my last year in high school, I had to endure it on the bench. A couple of my teammates tried to stand up for me, but to no avail. I was growing to feel really bad about myself, and since I felt like I wasn't happy anymore, I decided to quit the team a little before the season ended. This was a very difficult decision to make. I was getting pressured by my dad to quit the team because he couldn't stand to see me be wasted on the bench.A couple of my teammates wanted me to stay on the team because they were my best friends, while others wanted me off because they labeled me as the scapegoat. The coaches obviously didn't believe in me anymore. I didn't want to leave because I loved the team. I loved playing the sport, and I loved that I was able to represent my school. All of this made my decision extremely difficult. Before my self-implemented final home game, I didn't tell my coach that I planned on quitting soon, but instead I asked if I could get the chance at playing that day. He promised he would put me in. All during that game I waited for my chance, because I had never, in my 4 years of playing for that coach, asked him to put me in the game. I wanted to see what he would do if one of his most loyal players, the player that would do anything for the team, asked to play. I waited for the entire game, and nothing. I didn't get to play, even though it was the worst team in the conference and we were winning at half-time. At the end of the game, my heart shattered. I went to shake hands with the opposing team and with my teammates, and I stood at the center circle. I took in my surroundings, and I looked across my school's stadium. The stadium that I had poured my heart into, that I would have killed myself to make proud, and started to cry. I looked at the stands, and saw my dad and he also had tears in his eyes. I looked at my teammates, and they looked at me as if to say "we know man, we know." I started to cry internally even harder. I walked up to my coach and he just said, "we'll play you next time." That hurt so much. I walked out of the stadium with tears streaming down my face. I knew what I had to do at that point. I quit the team, and I have never stepped foot in the stadium again. Ever since then, I stopped playing soccer, and though it has been difficult, I feel glad that I experienced that all. I was in a situation that I wasn't growing in, I wasn't changing, and I wasn't improving. I knew that I wasn't happy with my situation, so I took the initiative to leave. That's something that Father Boyle tried to instill, that in order for someone to change their situation, they need to want to do it first before anything

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From the results that I got from the leadership assessment, it says that I am near the top range in terms of having leadership skills. The top ranges from 53 - 90, and I ranked at 64. What I take this to mean is that it says that I have potential in becoming a leader, but have a couple things to improve on in order to become an effective leader. The assessment concluded that I need to work more on having a positive outlook on things, and also being more transparent and concise with my team members, so as to manage them in a way so that they can best improve. I find this to be true for myself, because in the little bit of managerial experience I have, I have seen this be an area where I could improve.

I then took the personality, and it came out with me being a INFJ (Introverted Intuitive Feeling Judging). I find this to be eerily familiar, because I identify myself to each of these personality types. I do identify myself as an introvert, in that I can interact with other people, and when I do, I can be perceived as an extrovert, but I also much prefer to keep my most inner thoughts and beliefs to my closest friends and family. I am also a passionate person, and I care a lot about people in general. I work hard when something is available to present to people and if I know it will help people in general. I can sometimes be a bit of an idealist, but I do my best to keep a level head about myself, and try and be a bit more realistic about things in the world. I do things so that other people can benefit, and I will go about things in a way that has people's interest as the main focus. Overall I do agree with being an INFJ.