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meowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeow

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I don't understand people

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I miss my mama

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I’m so tired of everything

I hope it works this time

I hope Elise comes with me

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Bl00d 0n my wr1sts, and 1 want t0 d1e
1'ma make sure that you never leave, 1t's y0u and 1
Y0u're s0 t0x1c, y0u always g0nna make me cry

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Just saying random shit basically, need to be problematic rn :33

Don’t take it personally

Everyone keys rn I hope you all diе and suffer in hell I hate you all fucк you

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I tried to kms last night

3 times

I wish it worked

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Why do I have to be so stupid

I’ve already had 342 calories today and I haven’t even ate lunch yet

I need to learn how to stop

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Just found out I’m a dress size 2

I hope I can get down to 00 🎀

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I feel like I should make another acc for when I’m acting childish so no one gets mad at me :/

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Me when my friend lied about her sh scars and I believed her for the longest time and then when she finally opened up to me about it I accidentally turned it into a joking matter and now she doesn’t even take it seriously anymore 🎀

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I hate school so much

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I hate my mind sometimes lol 🎀

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me when I involuntarily regress and then my imaginary friend comes back and starts making me mega uncomfortable 🎀

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lol i wish i could do the same thing as Kangel 🎀 /srs

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my whole friend group in my class is sitting together except for me 🎀

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へ ♡ ╱|、

૮ - ՛ ) (` - 7

/ ⁻ ៸| |、⁻〵

乀 (ˍ, ل ل じしˍ,)ノ

^

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me and my imaginary friends

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BRAO NO WAY IM IN LOVE AGAIN >_<

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grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I need sleep

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BRAO THE WAY MY EYES FREAKING DIALATE FROM THAT IS CRAZY

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I developed an imaginary friend to help me sleep and be happy, she turned evil on me in the span of 5 days. So I can't talk to her anymore and every time I catch myself trying to I have to stop myself from talking to her.

So no more cuddle buddy :(((

And no more color buddy :(((

and no one to help me pick out my sleep music for the night :(((

(I usually use sleep music w/ jellyfish on the cover)

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The worst feeling is when your favorite person doesn’t really care that much about you

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If you need to be mean

Be mean to me

I can take it

And put it inside

Of me

If your hands need to break

More than trinkets

In your room

You can lean on my arm

As you break my heart

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Why is everyone leaving me?

I know their lives are worse than mine and they have good reason to do so, but I'm so sick and tired of being abandoned. Dazxuuu keeps ignoring me, and I know he probably doesn't care much for me, but I care about him and I want to keep him in my life. My ex fucking ignored me the moment we broke up, Oliver left and can't be back till april or so, Akemi is leaving forever, Atsu won't be on as often next year, two of my irl best friends have been gone for a while, and my crush has as well. I just feel so separated from everyone.

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I'm actually so fucking tired of this shit.

I don't even feel like i'm allowed to be happy anymore, my dad goes through everything, I can't even have my own privacy. If I do one wrong thing it's just going to be another argument.

It's almost summer and I'm still on bad terms with my parents, I don't know how I'm going to handle that.

I've also been alone for the past few weeks, one of the only people I actually care about is gone and now the other is as well. I only have people I have to be fake around now.

I'm also incredibly worried about my physical coming up, I know my weight might be a concern and they're going to get me tested for ADHD. If I don't have it then that just means I really am lazy, I don't want to face that if that's my reality.

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I wish I didn't like people.

Why do I always like people who I can't like?

Like, I don't want to like you, so why do I?

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Can whoever the fuck ⛧ is please stop sending lyrics

I'm already fucking overstimulated and upset because i forgot my headphones at home

I don't need a constant reminder that i can't listen to music.

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Today is a really off day.

I can't tell what's going on around me

And I can't move my hands properly.

Even my tics are acting weird.

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I decided to burn myself today.

I chickened out before I could even touch the fire.

It still hurt.

I wish it was her that was hurting me.

But it was just her candle.

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I want so much physical affection from literally all of my friends

But I also feel like I would cry if they did

I don’t know what I want

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why tf am i gonna cry over something so stupid?

god, why am i so sensitive today?

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Why’d you come? You knew you should have stayed

I tried to warn you just to stay away

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I’m so cute >_< (for once)

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Guys I think I’m tweaking

I just found a self-harm cut that I genuinely just don’t remember doing???

Like I have no idea where this came from???

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I'm actually going to kill myself

My simple opinion can't even be respected apparently

I don't even get considered when people talk

And then they twist the story?

I was the one being the asshole?

All I said was to shut up, and someone else said it too, and then they personally attack me for it?

Why can't they see that I was bothered about how they were acting and not their opinions.

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i actually hate fluffy and hanako so much

i can't fuckin handle them

i was just trying to make a silly comment and they instantly attacked me for it

it didn't even have anything to do with them

what the fuck

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ew ew ew ew ew ew ew

that was so gross

i hate this

ew

ew

ew

ew

gross

omfg

eew

ew

ew

ew

i hate fluffy

ew

ew

ew

i feel like throwing up

ew

ew

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I think I need someone older

Just a little bit colder

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I tried to drown myself last night.

It hurt so much.

I give up.

I don't want to be here anymore.

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when it gets so bad that you don't even feel the need to vent anymore <<<<

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i got access to a knife over spring break :3

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I hate fights sm sometimes

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aha...

i almost pulled up my sleeve multiple times during class...

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I actually hate everything.

Why the fuck did I fail classes, I was passing them when grades were due.

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So um…

I started to do sh again…

I need some serious help fr

Also my stomach hurts

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Holy fucking shit I’m so fucking dead

I just carved lines all over my arm with a(surprisingly sharp)pen, my parents are going to kill me

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HOLY FUCKING SHIT I ALMOST JUST OUTED MYSELF TO MY PARENTS AND I’M DYING INSIDE NOW

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My legs are numb again.

I hate this.

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<This is an Mizuki Akiyama based pad>

<Character is from Project Sekai: Colorful Stage>

---> !characters!

-> Kunikida Doppo

--> Collei

---> Emu Otori

----> Tsukasa Temna

-----> Mikaela Hyakuya

-------> Mizuki Akiyama

————-> Megurine Luka

-----------> Chuuya

-------------> Spinel

---------------------------------------

---> !other nicknames!

-> Kuni

--> Mika

---> Bug

-----> Mizu

------> Zuki

————-> Megi

—————-> Meringue

----------------------------------------

[This is not a joke pad]

-> My ratings are in another pad, if i know you, you can request a rating.

--> Anonymous are not allowed to comment, it gives me paranoia.

---> Don't talk to me if i don't like you.

----> I apologize if I offend you in any way.

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why is everything blurry?

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I'm scared

What do I do?

Everything hurts and I cant do anything.

I want to cry.

I want to go to sleep.

I don’t want to wake up.

I don’t want to die like that.

It will all be fine.

No it won’t.

I can’t keep lying to myself.

None of this is real.

I can’t even feel myself typing this.

I don’t know what I’m doing at this point.

It’s never gotten this bad before.

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anyways

time to de-realize everything

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I hate you

For what you did

And I miss you

Like a little kid

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Lie bye baby

My my my life

Will never change

So why not dance away the night, right?

Bounce back to our little chat,

Got a secret on me

I’ve been holding back

My life’s been behind a mask,

And I know I sound insane

For saying that

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I’m so sorry everyone.

I ruined everything.

I don’t know what to do.

I probably won’t be talking as much for a while.

I don’t deserve to.

I hope that everything goes well for you.

I might apologize on chat.

But I don’t know who even cares.

I don’t know if anyone reading this knows what I’m talking about, but if you do, I know I just made it worse.

I’m sorry.

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I’m not even human, am I?

I already forgot the feelings I had.

I’m not mad anymore.

I’m not even sad.

I don’t remember what my feelings were before.

I’m sorry.

I don’t want to be mad.

I don’t know what to feel, or how to feel.

I don’t want to be like this.

I ruined everything just for me to feel nothing?

Am I really that pathetic?

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I hate everything and everyone so much right now.

I just want to be happy.

I wasn’t expecting to get cheated on today, but it happened anyway.

I feel like crying.

I’m not even mad, well I am, but it’s just at everything. They don’t even think about what she does before she does it.

She doesn’t even consider anyone when she makes decisions.

I don’t want to be here anymore.

Today has already been horrible, I left my headphones at home, my brain has been foggy all day, I got a horrible night of sleep, I have a headache, my whole body hurts, and I feel like I’m about to pass out.

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i feel so brain dead right now

i can physically feel something smothering my brain

i just want to go home

like, this is actually a struggle to type out

i can't do anything right

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everything is so loud

it wont stop hurting

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everything hurts

i think my body is trying to kill me

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my wrist hurts so bad

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I actually feel like I’m going to throw up.

I don’t get it.

Why does it make me upset?

I want to do it.

It shouldn’t make me upset.

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i can teach u how 2 be just like me >_<

crying all night, sleepin till 3

i can teach u how 2 be just like me

just listen carefully!

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I don't know what to do anymore.

I don't know what this assignment is and I'm genuinely scared of failing.

I don't know what the point of anything is.

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I hate when people don't take what I say seriously.

I don't care if I'm obviously joking, but I don't want people making fun of me under my posts, I just want to be able to say anything without worrying about that.

This has already been a bad day and now my math grade is going to get worse because of one stupid test and no one even cares.

I don't want to be here anymore, I want to go home and curl up in my bed and sleep for the next 3 days, maybe I'll starve if I'm lucky.

I already got upset over such a stupid thing like people not knowing what something was, now I'm getting upset over this?

I don't get myself.

I just want this to be over.

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gonna s|it my wrists and i wanna d!e!!! >_<

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Why can’t I bleed?

Does my body hate me that much?

It hurts so much

Why won’t it let me make it worse?

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I want to kill myself so bad

I need to cut myself open

I need my body to be covered in lines

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Why am I crying? I don't have any reason to. I've never had to cry before. Why does my throat hurt so bad? Is that why I'm crying? It doesn't feel like it.

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I think I'm developing an eating disorder. I don't want to, but everything about me is forcing me to.

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I just threw up after dinner. I didn’t mean to. But I did. I had a last bite and apparently I went pale. I’m surprised I made it to the bathroom. I feel better now. Kinda.

My dad made a joke about me having bulimia. I don’t. But it made me uncomfortable.

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Ew oh my god no

Please don’t please don’t please don’t

Oh god I hate that name

Please stop

This is horrible

Please stop

I don’t want to see that every time I talk

It makes me so uncomfortable

But everyone else is having fun with it

So I won’t say what this is about

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We have to start working in groups again in biology.

I got put with all of the kids who don’t work.

My grades will be bad in that class again.

I don’t know if I can handle that.

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I want to drown myself

I want the feeling of my lungs flaring up and filling with water

I want to pass out

I want the water to overflow and seep under the door

I want to slit my wrist before I do so I can see the water turn red

I want there to be no warning

I want this to be a sudden death so no one knows I’m doing it

I don’t want to get help

I want this to get worse

I want the feeling of adrenaline

I want to ignore it

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Why do I always have to push myself away from others? Is it because I don’t feel anything for them? Or is it because I’m afraid they feel that way about me? I don’t know how to help them and that makes me feel like a bad person, if I can’t help them what am I here for? Why has life thrown me in the bin? Has it given up on me? Did I give up on myself? Did I give up on everyone else as well?

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It's been almost a month. I feel like I don't know who he is anymore. maybe he hates me, maybe I hate him. I don't even know anymore. Do I still like him? When will my feelings for real people be strong enough to know? I'm detached from reality and this life doesn't fit me. But I know I have to live through it anyways, and I'm trying to make the best of it, but it's not working. I know what I want to do with my life, but I don't think I will achieve it. And what if I do? Will I even want it anymore? Do I still love him? I might never know. And I think I'm okay with that.

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Yesterday, I had an anxiety attack. My day was already bad, i didn't understand any of my classes and my English teacher didn't catch me up even though I was gone last time. On the way home my mom had to slam on the brakes a couple of times, and it made me hyperventilate, my mom passed it off as me being dramatic. Then my friend came over to help me with algebra, and I didn't understand it. That made it worse. When she left my dad walked in and asked me what i wanted for dinner, I didn't want to eat, but I did anyway. And I ate all of it.

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I've been debating killing myself for years now, but it's only getting worse. At this point I'm about to cry in the middle of class because of this. I won't do it because it would make me go against myself, but i won't stop hurting myself, when I hurt myself it makes me feel pure joy, and when I don't eat it makes me feel accomplished. I don't know what's wrong with me, and I know i need help, but I don't think i want it.

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one time i hallucinated being ra/ped and didnt realize it was a hallucination for like a month

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I’ve been shaking so hard all day

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I’m so close to just having a mental breakdown and nothing has even caused it but I’m running out of energy so I might just sleep it off

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My body hurts so bad it’s not even funny anymore

It doesn’t matter though