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Jaycee Dugard was kidnapped at age 11 by Phillip Garrido. She spent 18 years in captivity with Garrido, who raped Jaycee repeatedly, fed her countless lies and impregnated her twice. Learn more at Biography.com.

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Jaycee Dugard Part 1: Recalling the Day She Was Kidnapped

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Jaycee Dugard Interview: Flourishing After 18 Year Long Kidnapping

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Jaycee Dugard Interview: Flourishing After 18 Year Long Kidnapping

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July 10, 2011— -- Jaycee Dugard has powerful memories from the last 20 years, 18 of them spent as a prisoner of kidnappers Phillip and Nancy Garrido.

Yet, some of the most overwhelming memories come from her first two years of freedom which she and her children have spent reunited with her mother.

"Wow. Now I can walk in the next room and see my mom. Wow. I can decide to jump in the car and go to the beach with the girls. Wow. It's unbelievable. Truly," Dugard said in an exclusive interview with ABC News' Diane Sawyer.

Dugard was kidnapped by Phillip and Nancy Garrido when she was just 11 years old in 1991 and held captive in a backyard compound.

She was subjected to rape, manipulation and verbal abuse. She gave birth to two daughters fathered by her abductor in that backyard prison.

Dugard lived in virtual solitary confinement until her first daughter was born three years into captivity and wasn't allowed to spend time outdoors until after her second daughter was born, more than six years after her abduction.

She writes that the closest thing to freedom she ever felt in the compound was when she was allowed to live in her own tent and plant a small garden.

Now, Dugard is telling all in a new memoir, "A Stolen Life," and in her exclusive interview with Sawyer.

She's taking an unflinching look at the horror she's overcome and giving an unsparing account of the way a predator operates and how she survived.

"Why not look at it? You know, stare it down until it can't scare you anymore," she told Sawyer. "I didn't want there to be any more secrets...I hadn't done anything wrong. It wasn't something I did that caused this to happen. And I feel that by putting it all out there, it's very freeing," Dugard said.

Dugard, 31, remembers the first night after she and her daughters were rescued in 2009.

They spent the night in a motel room just down the hall from Dugard's mother, Terry Probyn.

Both Probyn and Dugard had held out hope throughout their nearly two decade separation that they'd find one another.

They had no idea that they'd been only 120 miles from one another the whole time.

"That night, I woke the girls [my daughters] up and I just said, "I'm so happy. I'm so happy!" Dugard said. "I ran down the hall...the girls are following me and knocking on the door...I walked in, 'I'm so happy! I'm so happy!"
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Simple firsts have brought healing to Dugard and her family: learning how to drive from the sister who was just a baby when Dugard was kidnapped, eating family dinners around a table instead of the fast food that Phillip Garrido fed her for 18 years, and even just saying her name which was forbidden by her captors.

Still, the sounds of her imprisonment haunt her.

"That lock. Hearing the lock...for some reason that and the bed squeal. It was a squeaky bed...I guess the noise, the sound. Weird what sticks in your head," Dugard said.

Dugard remembers trying not to cry when she was first abducted because it was too hard to wipe tears away with her hands cuffed behind her back.

"I didn't really want to, because then you can't wipe them away, you know? Then you get all sticky and ...then they get itchy," Dugard said.

She says she had no choice but to endure.

"There's a switch that I had to shut off," she said. "I mean, I can't imagine being beaten to death, you know? And you can't imagine being kidnapped and raped, you know? So, it's just, you just do what you have to do to survive."

Two of the most challenging moments for Dugard were giving birth to her two daughters in 1994 and 1997.

"I knew there was no hospital," she said. "I knew there was no leaving."

At just 13 years old, Dugard noticed she was putting on weight but didn't know why.

On a Sunday in 1994, the Garridos told her she was pregnant.

Before her abduction, the little girl who sold Girl Scout cookies and wrote stories, knew nothing about sex.

Dugard writes that giving birth was the most painful experience in her life.

"And then I saw her. She was beautiful. I felt like I wasn't alone anymore. [I] had somebody else who was mine...and I know I could never let anything happen to her. I didn't know how I was going to do that, but I did," she said.

The Kidnapping

Dugard remembers the last time she left her family's Tahoe, Calif., home to walk to her fifth grade classroom on June 10, 1991.

She'd packed her peanut butter and jelly lunch, worn her favorite kitty shirt and a butterfly ring given to her by her mother.

In all pink, she started on her walk.

"And [I] walked up the side of the hill...that was the safe way to go against traffic. And halfway up, my world changed in an instant," Dugard said. "I heard a car behind me."

Creeping behind Dugard were Phillip and Nancy Garrido. Phillip Garrido rolled down his car window.

"His hand shoots out and I just feel numb. My whole body is tingly...I fall back in the bushes," Dugard said.

Garrido had shocked her with a stun gun. Panicked, Dugard scooted back towards the woods. She remembers grasping a sticky pinecone, the last thing she touched while free.

Now, she wears a pinecone charm around her neck to symbolize her freedom.

"It's a symbol of hope and new beginnings and that there is life after something tragic."

After shocking her, the Garridos stuffed her into their car, hid her under a blanket in the backseat.

Nancy Garrido sat on her while Phillip Garrido drove to the couple's Antioch, Calif., home.

"It was so hot," she said. "I remember my throat felt very dry and scratchy and like I had been screaming, but I don't remember screaming," she said.

Dugard remembers hearing Phillip Garrido laugh and say, "I can't believe we got away with it."

"It was like the most horrible moment of your life times ten," she said.

When they arrived at their home, Dugard was stripped of her backpack, her pink clothes and her name. Garrido took her to the bathroom and told her she had to be quiet.

"I guess he wanted me to be clean...very scary. I was scared," Dugard said.

Dugard was forced to wear nothing but a towel at first and was locked in a semi-soundproof room that had only one window.

Somehow, Phillip Garrido missed the pinky ring her mother had given her. She'd hold onto that ring throughout her captivity. She'd also hold onto the hope that she'd see her mom again.

Clinging to the Memory of Her Mother

"I wondered if she found out what had happened to me, if she was looking for me," Dugard said.

Dugard worried that she'd forget what her mother looked like. She'd keep journals referring to her mother as just "her" because to write "mom" was just too painful.

Her mom, Terry Probyn, carried out a frantic search for her daughter, making tearful pleas on television.

She'd continue to hold vigils for her daughter when public interest in the family's plight waned.

"I feel like I spent my lifetime looking for her and dreaming about her and talking to you and you were always there. You never left me," Probyn told Dugard during the interview.

The two women, clinching hands and with their bodies turned toward one another, share a remarkable bond.

"Being a mom now, you know, I know that she never forgot about me because I could never forget about my kids. But...when you're a kid and you think you're easily forgettable and you're not important. But she kept...her hope. I don't know how she did that. You know? How did I keep my hope? How did she keep her hope," Dugard said.

Dugard still fights feelings of anger towards her captors, but tries not to dwell on them.

"I don't feel like I have this rage inside of me that's building," Dugard said. "I refuse to let him have that. He can't have me."

Dugard's mother can't forget what the Garridos stole from her daughter and her.

"I think I have enough hate in my heart for the both of us. I hate that he took her life away and that makes me sad...I hate that he stole her from me. He ripped out a piece of my heart and he stole my baby," Probyn said.

The two women look at one another. Probyn tells her, "I'm sorry, baby."

She goes on, "He stole your adolescence. He stole high school proms and had pictures and memories..."

Dugard smiles and tells her mom, "But he didn't get all of me."

The Manipulation

The Garridos mercilessly manipulated Dugard.

When she was first kidnapped, Phillip Garrido kept a stun gun present whenever he raped her, a way to remind her of his power.

After abusing Dugard, sometimes for hours in drug fueled sex binges called "runs," he would sob and apologize.

He'd tell her that he had a sex problem and she was saving him from hurting other little girls.

While Philip Garrido was her main tormentor, his wife Nancy was equally adept at playing with Dugard's emotions. She would bring Dugard things like a purple bear, a Barbie, chocolate milk, a Nintendo.

But she never stopped her husband from abusing Dugard.

She'd even keep Dugard locked in the compound when Phillip Garrido was away serving time for a parole violation.

"In some way, she's just as manipulative, because she would cry and say, 'I can't believe that he did this. I wish he would have got a headache that morning he took you,'" Dugard recalled.

"In some ways, she's...just as evil as Phillip," Dugard said.

The Garridos manipulated Dugard until the presence of a stun gun and the use of handcuffs were no longer needed to keep her from fleeing.

It was classic manipulation, Dugard's therapist, Dr. Rebecca Bailey, said.

Bailey is a family unification therapist.

Phillip Garrido's power over Dugard grew by being "responsible for everything from time to food to human companionship to your clothes to your identity," Bailey said.

When Dugard had her daughters, she didn't flee because Phillip Garrido had convinced her the world outside their compound was unsafe, ironically full of pedophiles and rapists.

Even now, it's still hard for Dugard to fully understand why she didn't leave.

"I've asked myself that question many times. I know there was no leaving. The mind manipulation plus the physical abuse I suffered in the beginning, there was no leaving.... I don't know what it would have took. Maybe if one of the girls were being hurt," Dugard said.

Coping With Captivity

Dugard coped with the manipulation by keeping journals, writing stories and dreams that allowed her to imagine herself in a life outside of the compound.

While the Garridos stripped her of her innocence, they could not strip her of her imagination.

She would come up with stories about the tree outside the window, she named the spider in her room, she wrote in her journals about falling in love one day, riding in a hot air balloon, being a veterinarian.

Throughout her captivity, she would take care of several cats and other animals.

When she became a mother, she turned a corner of the compound into a school for part of the day.

She remembered how she used to play school as a little girl, but now she was responsible for actually educating two little girls.

She made a regimen of classes during the day with worksheets and lessons she found online.

She mothered her girls even though the Garridos forbid the children from calling Dugard "mom."

Nancy Garrido, jealous of Dugard, required that the children call her "mom."

Even with access to the computer, Dugard said she never searched for her mother or for news accounts of her kidnapping.

She was scared to because of the Garridos' manipulation.

The Rescue and the Future

Dugard and her daughters would be rescued in August 2009 after an increasingly paranoid and delusional Phillip Garrido alarmed two campus police officers, Ally Jacobs and Lisa Campbell.

He'd shown up on the University of California, Berkeley, campus with the two daughters he'd fathered with Dugard.

The campus officers, both moms, did something nobody else had done.

They saw a man haranguing and they talked to him, engaged him and then acted on their suspicion.

A background check revealed he was a convicted sex offender.

When they called his parole officer to ask about his two daughters, the parole officer didn't even know that Phillip Garrido had children.

Over the 18 years Jaycee Dugard was in captivity, parole officers had visited the home at least 60 times and never reported anything amiss.

Phillip Garrido was called to a meeting with his parole officer on Aug. 26, 2009. He brought his wife, Dugard and the two girls.

At first, Dugard lied for Garrido, still under the spell. She eventually confessed who she was by writing her real name down.

In her memoir, she says that writing her name was like an extinguished flame reigniting.

"The light came back...it was very dark for so long...but that light finally came back on," she said.

Dugard is savoring her freedom and planning for the future.

"I would like to study writing, you know? Really, because I love words and I love mythology...the way metaphors work and how [you] can see things differently with words," she said. "It helped me get through a lot of days, my imagination."

Dugard wants her book, her story to help people realize there is a way to triumph over tragedy and survive. And for her captors, both locked away in prison, she has a message.

"[You] can't steal anything else," she said.

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Jaycee Dugard Interview: Flourishing After 18 Year Long Kidnapping

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Jaycee Dugard has powerful memories from the last 20 years, 18 of them spent as a prisoner of kidnappers Phillip and Nancy Garrido. Yet, some of the most overwhelming memories come from her first two years of freedom which she and her children have spent reunited with her mother.

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She woke up and she felt the baby coming. She walked over to the next building to wake Phillip and Nancy up. Phillip pawned all his music equipment for drugs. Nancy and Phillip wake up and rushed to get everything ready. After a few hours, the baby was born and is named S. Dugard lost trust in the law enforcement because they wern't there for her when she needed them

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When Dugard tuned 17, she was pregnant once again. After being kept captive for 6 years, the things around her have 'normalized' and became more stable. Phillip also promised to not ever touch A (Angel) sexually and he has kept that promise. Her room now has a mini fridge plus a working sink and toilet. She was also given a red bunk bed for her and A to sleep on. "I am pregnant again. I was so afraid it would happen again."

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Guard started to watch a lot of parenting videos along with Phillip. Phillip started to watch birthing videos with Dugard. One day she was having sharp pains but payed no attention to them. She had pain before but she said this pain was different, this pain was severe by the afternoon that she couldn't even move. Phillip and Nancy finally find Dugard and prepared her to give birth. Dugard's birth was successful. "I'm watching many baby shows to prepare myself to take care of a baby."

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In this chapter Dugard reviews all of her journal entries that she took over the years. This was her way of keeping all the good and bad memories with her written on paper.

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Dugard did not want a a therapist at first but later wanted to be able to talk to someone about what she felt. Dugard had to learn how to be a proper parent such as give her kids shots and take them to the dentist. The media wanted a photo and statement really badly. She wanted to back out last minute but was not able to. Rebecca wanted Dugard to not hide what happened to her and to publicize it.

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Therapeutic Healing and Meeting with Nancy (28-29)

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Therapeutic Healing and Meeting with Nancy (28-29)

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Dugard was not immediately released back to her home and had to go through therapy first. She was given money from people because they felt sorry for her. In her state of mind, she is confused on how she really felt about Phillip. Dugard later wanted to meet up with Nancy and confront her for what she and her husband did to her. Nancy told Dugard that she knew something was going to happen that day they were at the police station. Nancy asked if the girls remembered her but they do not

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The Difficult Parts of Life and Finding Old Friends (26-27)

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The Difficult Parts of Life and Finding Old Friends (26-27)

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Dugard is very cautious when it is dealing with her kids. She wants her children to stay away from the public eye because she wants them to be safe. Dugard was able to have a reunion with her old friends that included the police officers that helped her. All of Dugard's animals were returned to her family.

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She is now with he own family and her human rights have been returned. She caught with old friends, learned to drive, and was in a happy life now. She is slowly healing from her past experiences but she is also bombarded with paparazzi. Dugard remembered how Phillip wanted to teach Dugard how to drive but she refused.

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Surviving and Discovery and Reunion (22-23)

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Surviving and Discovery and Reunion (22-23)

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Phillip went to the police with the girls and Dugard agreed. Phillip wrote about his discoveries and turned them into the law enforcement. Dugard was really hopeful that she will one day see her mom again. Phillip later got arrested and Dugard was crying because he got taken but once he was returned he was she cried again because of anger. Dugard was taken into the police station. She found that her mom and step dad have separated and she was able to call her mom but her sister picked up. Dugard broke down once she heard her moms voice. Dugard was taken back to her own house and she tole her mom everything.

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This chapter took place on the 4th of July and they all sat on the roof watching the fireworks. Phillip and Nancy now took Dugard to the beach for the first time in awhile. Dugard has never went out before after her capture. They eventually go back to the house. They later went to the nail salon on another day and went to Jack-in-the-box. Dugard slowly went out more and more.

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Raising the Girls in the Backyard and Nancy Becomes a "Mom" (18-19)

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Raising the Girls in the Backyard and Nancy Becomes a "Mom" (18-19)

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Phillip wants Nancy to quit her current job and help out with the babies. Dugard was able to move into the studio along with Phillip and Nancy. S was not suitable for a name so they called her G instead. Dugard wanted to stop breastfeeding A but Phillip didn't want her to. Dugard learns about Phillp's disorders being bi-polar and having ADD.

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Phillip bought a computer and a printer and is planning to start a business. He got fired from his old job because he came in late too many times because of drugs. Phillips cards were made but were not good so Dugard was allowed to use the computer to help make his business cards. While doing so, her cards drew more people in and they were able to get a lot of jobs.

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Her child names A is not a toddler. Dugard is still not able to leave the room and Phillip was working on fencing in the backyard. Dugard got a bird named 'Sarge' because he marched back and forth in his cage like a Sargent. Sarge was left overnight outside one day and the next day, he was found dead. "I saw my beloved marching bird dead on the bottom of the cage."

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Phillip was informed that someone was going to raid his house and forced Dugard and her baby into a trailer. Phillip reassured Dugard that her baby would be safe. She was taken to a house like trailer and this was her first time that she saw amenities such as running water and a flushing toilet for the first  time. "I asked what was going on, but he ignored me and said that he would make sure the baby and I were safe and that I needed to listen to him."

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Christmas and Learning I Was Pregnant (10-11)

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Christmas and Learning I Was Pregnant (10-11)

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Nancy and Phillip came home one day with a Easter basket filled with candy along with a m=nice meal. Phillip and Nancy also pointed out that Dugard was putting on weight. They told her that she was probably pregnant. During the months she was pregnant, she learned to love the baby inside of her and did not want to giver her up. "...no one to talk to me unless Phillip comes in. He gives me hugs sometimes and makes me feel loved. But am I really?"

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Nancy and Easter: Phillip on an Island (8-9

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Nancy and Easter: Phillip on an Island (8-9

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In this chapter after Jaycee's 'first run,' she was able to move to a larger room which they both called 'next door'. Dugard was introduced to someone named Nancy for the first time. Nancy was a quiet person and Phillip said it was because she was jealous of Dugard. Phillip hinted that he wanted a threesome with them which disgusted Dugard. On her 12th birthday, her present was Nancy getting highlights in her hair and she was very dissapointed. "...Phillip would tell me that he was encouraging her to talk to me and be my friend but that she was jealous of me."

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In this chapter, Jaycee was given a cat that she named Eclipse. Since that day she has kept journal entries of her everyday life. "He says he is going to get me a kitty."

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Alone in a Strange Place and The First Time (4-5)

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Alone in a Strange Place and The First Time (4-5)

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Jaycee Dugard talks about how she was kept in that room for a very long time. Over the time she stated that she grew fond of the man that was keeping her captive and began to want to see him more. Everyday the man would visit her and bring her food but then one day he came in and told her after a week that 'it was time.' Jaycee Dugard was raped by the man she grew fond of many times over the years. In her reflection she states that to endure this suffering she goes to her dream place and pretends that nothing is happening. She states she enjoys this mans company only when he did not rape her. On page 31 Jaycee Dugard states, "He forces my legs open and inserts his hard thing between his legs in me. It feels like I'm being stretched apart."

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In this chapter, Jaycee Dugard describes what the 'man' did to her after she was taken into the house. On page 17 and 18 she states, "He pulls down my pant and takes off m shirt. i am naked and very embarrassed...I do not want to touch his private part, but the man insists, so I hold it in my hand." After this Jaycee Dugard is taken into a house located in the back. She was handcuffed and locked in this place for years.

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In this chapter, Jaycee Dugard explains her life before she was kidnapped and her experiences of how she remembered being kidnapped. On page 9 the text states, "His hands shoots out so fast I barely register that he has something black in his hand. I hear a crackling sound and I feel paralyzed."

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Dugard, Jaycee Lee. A Stolen Life: a Memoir. Read How You Want, 2017.