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Finished taking the sketch photos and edited them so now everything is ready for assessment, now I can rest until the exhibition.

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At night I realised something while listening to Helena Obersteiner talking, about her course "Desenhos Feios", that it is more important for me to have a confident stroke than a realist shape. I want to judge my progression based in this truth, if I am doing it with confident without being afraid and paralised by the fear of not getting it the way I idealized, it is a valid drawing experiment, something I want to remember about Helena's talk is "We have to get used with disconfort and stop being scared of our results" keep doing even if it is strange for us in the beggining, is by doing, keep producing, that we have the only validation we need I have to keep coming back to this advace.

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This morning was very productive! I was able to finish all my tasks, add all my bibliograph in the document, sign the authentication, made the text to post the teaser so now the only thing missing is take the sketchbook photos, with that I will be ready for assessment, my plan is running smoothly in this last weeks of course.

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Today was a boring they I do not like to work in Premier in this editing parts and after all the work an error happened in the rendering so I spent a lot of time trying to sabe the teaser and couldn't, because of that I spent another loong time with Luiz to discover the problem, an effect that enter twice in the same frame was making the error.
The most interesting thing about the day was Yule (solstício de inverno) I spread lots of candles around my room at night and spent hours looking to the shadows the light produced in my wall, it is curious how I keep finding those connections with my concept, those threads keep appearing to me in so many ways and the most interesting thing is the Yule is a date to reflect about rebirth, about the ciclic aspect of life and that after death, comes life again.

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This morning class was the last of Foundation, this is too nostalgic, I can't believe its ending, in some way I feel really gratefull for everything I've learned but in other hand I feel sad that I could not experience this in real life, I couldn't spend time with tutors in the studio, have this real interaction, I feel that now we know each others a lot better and at the same time I don't even saw all the tutors together in the studio for this whole year of classes...really weird.

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Today I started experiment with the teaser ideas, I decided to create a gif made with real painting (the last technique I was testing in the end of the animation itself) so I can combine this with scenes of process, I chosen not to use the teaser I produced already as I think the animation is too short to show only scenes of it in the teaser, would ruine the surprise, I don' t want this to happen.

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Today I literally did nothing, I reckon my brain stopped working after seing the site done, now that I am reflecting about that it is a common reaction in myself, it happened in others projects too, I work hard with no breaks (it is the way I prefer) and when I finally see in front of me the job done, I have a concrete proof that I have all the things under controll to my deadline, that it is the time my brain refuses to work, and takes a break of everything for at least a entire day kkk

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Today I had a tutorial with Carlos to discover how to solve details about Hotglue this helped me to finish my site, now everything is done to the presentation of the project, I will begin thinking in the teaser for instagram and the documentation of my sketchbook for assessment. I will leave this last days without too much work to be prepared if anything went wrong.

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Today was a really nice day my animation get accepted in "Festival do Minuto" I am really glad to have this opportunity of spreading this work in specific that I worked so hard in the concept and that change my way of looking at life, it turned into a belief after all...Now I can share this with at least one new person in the world, I value that feeling a lot, I hope it makes others feel something with it too

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I was reflecting about my concept, what I want to write in my website.
The act of weaving means to interlace the thread, a endeless repetition, when untied returns to it's primal format, a continuous thread. To weave only exists with interaction, acting together with something. While exploring this symbolism I comprehended life as a process, built almost imperceptibly, of observe those subtle conections that surrounds us and the ones living inside ourselves.

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Caos day,  a parent broken her finger feet, we had to go to the hospital so was not a productive day I will compensate tomorrow my work!

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Finally subscribe in everything now I can focus only in the presentation and start organise the porcess of documentation that I kept in my archieves. >.<

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Today was a busy day, I had two doctor appointments and had to reschedule my japanese class to the afternoon, so after subscribing in some international festivals I only worked at night in some refinements of the animation, I really need to promise myself that I will stop now to focus in this kk...But something really nice about subscribing was to think about ways of showing my animation, this made me produce a poster to the project and now I am thinking in use as a opening for the film.
As discussed today with Monique in the tutorial, it is the time to prioritize the presentation now, test some arrengments in the hotglue of the animation. However, the day was not only focused in the work I reckon it was productive, I have to leave sometime to take care of my health too, the result of the exame showed I have a significant Endometriose for my age and now I finally discovered the reason of the pain I was having every month, it is a relief.

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After having a tutorial with Cezar I realised I can have a better finalization to the animation less abrupt, also we were talking about how to present and in his opinion the animation should not be together with the making off, but I am not sure if I agree, since I am a curious person, always interest in knowing more about how things were made, so I love when I have the opportunite to buy books of animations processes. Consequently, for that reason, I reckon it is very nice to leave there this information about the process, since my collaboration with my mother, the backgrounds presented in the animation and the whole concept developed in the project are a huge part of the work, so to the people scroll and can see this trajetory in comparer with the final result of the animation seems very interesting to me, something that I would enjoy to see in someone's work that I liked.

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For a coincidence both me and my mother waken up very early today so we decided to test recording the music for tomorrow, the cuts worked good and my mother played a lot of times and turned out the sound was with a good quality when I placed the phone inside the piano. Then, I leaved her playing alone because she feels less nervous and in the end of the morning we had planty of nice records already! Tomorrow I'm planning on puting the music with the animation.

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The advice Lauren gave me really worked, I finally discovered a podcast that I like and I spent one hour listening while working in the final refinement of the animation, the time was really calm, I didn't get tired doing the repetitive work bacause I was paying attention to the podcast too, I loved, and also the podcast gave me interesting information about a animation that I admire called Nausicaa, it is a really old animation and was made with 8 frames per second and I think it's so well done! This information impressed me because I realise how similar it's to my animation and that we don't need always 24 frames per second to the animation work well.

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Today I will take the day off since yesterday I almost finish everything

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This morning we had class with Lauren and my dayy was like a bunch of tutorials, one after another, first in group with Lauren and she suggested me to think in ways of entertain myself while I am doing the animation like put a podcast what I tried in the afternoon and helped me to stay focus+not feeling so tired by only focus in the animation all the time, then I had a individual tutorial with Carlos that helped me a lot to stay motivated also, we were discussing ways of making a animation in real paintings which excites me more to continuing producing not loose my rythym of work like last week. Finally, I had another tutorial with Lauren but this time individual and I asked her for advices in where I should focus to add more in-between frames in the animation, her tips clearified a lot of doubts and were really important for me in the begging I was thinking that everything need to be improved, everything was too fast and not smooth, but she showed to me parts that were working and the ones were needing this refinement and this was good for me to leave the perfectionism and see the charm in my rough animation also. After all of that, I spent the rest of the afternoon working in those frames we discussed and I reckon it is working a lot better yaay! :)

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How it looks like in the animation

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Today was more productive I realise something nice while a trouble appeared in my animation, after putting a analogue element to make this the boots the light of the photo were different so to solve this I started making a layer of brush paint on top of the photo, turn not solving totally the different of color but I discovered a intersting technique that I want to explore more in future illustrations, the layer I painted looks very interesting itself, de erased elements I could play with this lack of color

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In the Academic support I realised that I am not happy if my process, I am exausted of being online, spending the whole day looking to the pc screen, it seems to me a contradiction with the concept of my project itself, the idea of pay more attention to life's details, conect with nature. The digital enviroment gives me the feeling of artificial and ilusion, something that it is not human, so I decided to experiment more with my analogic backgrounds, to put more real textures to the animation and see if it makes me feel more satisfacted about it.
This week was not very good for me, was not very productive and I was not emotionally that well...I feeling that I need changes, I am tired and missing so many things, so many people that can not be part of my life anymore, it was a nostalgic feeling about memories and how we tend to be caught by past and the things we know we can't repeat. This music made me feel a bit better, the perception that it is okay to be this way sometimes and to appreciate memories but not live in them, but carry them with me, this I will not lose. It always impresses me when something, a piece of art of anytime bring me this feeling of peace, made me think of my project, I would love to bring this sensation of calm and acceptance of ourselves.

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Finn & Jake Time Adventure Music Video | Adventure Time | Cartoon Network

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This morning I did a tutorial with Monique and she suggested me to present this project separated from the other works I have (create a specific site for this) but I am in doubt about that, creating a new site, I don't know, everything seems to separated to put in the portfolio, I'm still thinking about it. We were also talking about the archieve I have called "fundos" of scanned old papers, photos, textures, it was a really good strategy to help me in the animation, gave me a more real conection, more human touch to the work, I want to add more of that. We were also discussing about how I will record the soundtrack, maybe invest in a device specific for that will be a good idea, my idea until now was to choose a sunday morning that is more quiet and put the cellphone inside the piano to see with would work.

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I took the day to organise my documentation of process for the backstage idea, I recorded my mom playing the music again, she is playing much more faster now, even though the whole music last 4 minutes! It is impossible to me to animate a too long animation like that in my timeframe, we were discussing cuts in the music, she tried to play it faster also, we are still coming up with strategies to the final record, the last time today that we recorded was ending up with two minutes. I don't know yet what I can do, but for now I will only continue with the work.

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Store photos and docs online. Access them from any PC, Mac or phone. Create and work together on Word, Excel or PowerPoint documents.

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Today I worked adding more frames only specific the scenes when the hands playing the piano, until now this is the most hard part to animate, because I can not reuse the previous draw I have to re draw each frame from the start to make the movement look more real, it is kind of boring because in the end of the day it seems I spent hours and nothing really new was added...but I know it is necessary and makes different even if it is sutil. I am realising the job of the animator is very unfair kk you spend hours doing the same scene and in the end it is so fast that most of the people will not even notice the difference >.<

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Today we started the day with Carlos and Monique in the HOW and after spending a time in class with Monique she released us to work in our projects and book tutorials with her. I was feeling strange, my eyes were stinging (ardendo) I was not feeling that well, I decided to rest before lunch and compansate in the afternoon. It was okay I woke up feeling a lot better and could focus in the animation, adding more frames, make the in between frames of the girl climbing the piano, looked a lot better then before when I stopped to attend check out session. I reckon I'm uderstanding how to be organised with time and still respect my limits which is good, my plans are kind of open, not written and stone what makes me work better then when I used to think in planning as a pressure and something I could not change, or adapt, in my case I do not worry of relax to much and loose my deadlines or something like that, because I'm the kind of person that nerve is too relaxed kkk I'm always trying to managed everything, so this type of plan that I'm using is helping me to be more balanced and understand my time as a whole.

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I was kind of lazy today I only did a few new frames of the girl climbing the piano while the piano keys are falling and also study japanese which I enjoyed, but besides that the day was not that productive, I think I am tired after this week's work and progress tutorial together, I think it's okay to take a time tomorrow will start the weekend I will re charge to be prepared to begin the new week of work.

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Everything ready to the progress tutorial! I'm in a good mood today, wake up early and went to the japanese class always make me happy, and now I am prepared to present my work. After that I am planning in taking a break today.

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The front page of my pdf :) I think it's great

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Today we had a workshop with Monique of bookbiding was very interesting, I learn a more complex sewing and using my kit (corrupiola one) was very usefull a good investment I made sometime ago, that made possible for me to make the holes more precisely and the biding turned great in the end! I was very happy I want to test more, and with more kinds of papers too draw, use watercolor. Very usefull knowlegde. In the afternoon I worked to finish my pdf for progress tutorial and I was remembering the advice of Dora to have attention on how we present our works that is important in BA and in the end I agreed after making carefully and choosing the desing, making little doodles to the oppening and ending of the pdf I realise I was really happy with it, and gives a nice touch to show what I have being doing until now in my project, I will take this advice for life from now on!

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Since Carlos told me that we would have a class with Lauren I was very expecting for that day to talk to her, ask for more reference and here opinion about my animation, since she knows a lot about stopmotion I was aiming to listen her perpective and I have to confess I was really happy and she said she was impressed with the path my animation was going especially the transition between frames, how creative they were, this comment was important for me as my animation is all about observe nature and how one thing can have a unexpected connection with other one, so this transitions are a huge part of my concept. The most important part of the tutorial was to receive her references and to discuss how could I present in a nice way the animation, maybe built a atmosphere around it, this gave me a lot insights! And also made me clear my mind to de fact that I preferer to built something online, as for me, one of the only advantages of this pandemic is explorer this online world, made use of the fact people are more focused in this area since is the only possibility avaible now, this makes us achieve more public that can acess the work from anywhere. I want to make use of this advantage.

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Today we had class with Roger and it was very nice to talk to him, we were discussing how my grandmother actually define my art giving me materials to work with (her amount of old papers, cards, and all things she kept in huge boxes at her house) because of that I made a document in my computer of "backgrounds" and this is how I bring analogical and textures to the digital, I was reflecting how artificial and perfect looks digital colors, that is why I do not like it alone, I like to bring those textures and irregularities to my illustrations, looks so much more interesting. I also talked to him about how I like to be an adult, to have independence, I do not want to went back to the time I was a child but I reckon the problem in being an adult it is the lable society puts that "now you are an adult you can't: wonder, play with toys, like children's animation, be silly ..." and a list of restrictions that goes on and on, I don't give a shit about that! I still play with toys and like the aesthethic of most of kids toystores, love colorfull and shine things and dress a lot of pink skirts kkk I think that makes me a more imaginative person, that connects me with the idea of appreciate things as they were new again, I do not want to lost that, I want to be even closer to that idea. It helps me always and helped me in this project, to see things as they were a discover, this result in comments like "the piano looks like a flower in this scene" from tutors and I found interesting this different perspectives of daylife objects, is refreshing.

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I can conclude with today's work that animation is a slow torture that as progresses pays off the hard work...I am really enjoying this process now, and as I said to Carlos in our quick tutorial I found a inspiration for my animation that may increase visually one of my scenes enphasizing the change of perspective inside the animation (the interior of the piano) and might also save sometime for me in the process, I will give it a try at least, I really want to mix materials, after seeing this reference of Nancy Liang (on her portfolio site) I really think it gives a special aspect to the work.

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What the flower made me feel

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Today did not work again as I planned...I was not able to wake up early to work I was feeling a lot of stomachache (tomorrow I am going to the doctor to discuss the medicine I can take for my Endometriose recently diagnosticated) whatever, besides that I went to a workshop of Manuela Eichner of plant collage it was very nice to take out the focus of the project itself, and actually she was talking about nature, and how we humans think nature, how we are connected (it's amazing how my interests leads me all the times in many different ways to the same direction, the same topic) after the end of it I immediatly start working in the aimatic again, it was inspiring for me. Even not producing what I expected today I am happy with my day and my progress.

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The day was not at all as I planned...I had a emergency with my dog and lost almost all the morning in the vet, so I couldn't do the morning research exercise, then I engaged in my animatic and suddenly, when I looked the clock again, I was very late to Luis's workshop! However, I managed to get in the class and watch haff of the information about brushes and digital painting techniques, was very usefull. I regreted loosing part of this specific knowledge, but it is fine, the day was an unpredictable mess, out of my controll at all. At least I was able to progress a little further in the animatic.

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Today really worked for me, I had the tutorial with Monique and refine my new action plan now more detailed and divided with the animation tasks (took from the BA Student timetable) this helped me to calm down now that I have a new plan to not loose track of time! So I updated the action plann document to send tomorrow.
Besides that, we had a tutorial in group to discuss our last week experimentations which was very nice, seing my collegue's experiments gave me insights of references to my own project and also I could notice a lot of links between what I am willing to talk and theirs work, for example Malu's project are going to a similar path as mine in terms of reference and perspective so I will schedule with her a conversation so we can enrich one another's project!. Also, I was able to start the animatic and to see thinks running made me a lot satisfied in general and less anxious, now I am more confident that I can manage everything.

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I am a nervous with the deadline for the project, I am feeling I am moving slow to the work I have to do, but I talked with Monique and she helped to calm down a bit, I am going to schedule a tutorial with her on monday to talk about my action plan for the work. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed with how much pressure I put in myself, the feeling of not do my best scares me...I take things too serious all the time, it's exausting I don't want to anymore.

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In the morning I had a tutorial with Carlos that actually messed up my timetable...It was not a bad thing as he suggested me a way of going deeper in my storyboard and try to solve emotions visually through out my animation style, which is something essencial in my project and even further one of the bases of illustration, but it really delayed my action plan kkk Now I can see the action will not work anymore with the deadlines I planned.
Something very important about that talk with him was the contact he gave of a BA Animation student, she gave me acess to the timetable of a project in animation, this can help me a lot to now re organize my messed up time for the project, I am anxious that maybe will not have enough time to finish.

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Today we had visiting with Monique to Volusia Press, risography is a technique that interests me I like the flat colors and those charm "mistakes" of the machine, I also the price were not expensive, I will took as a reference of place to visit physically, to use in future works. Despite the visit I didn't work that much today, I was in a bad mood, that bothers me a lot, to allow myself to not be productive one day is hard, I felt useless.

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Today we had class with Ana Calvazara, she always give me good insights and references, in the morning I  finished my storyboard to watch 11 am the BA Live event (was nice to see the works of some of the students, also I want to search more in Pictofolio, seems to me a very interesting plataform for illustrators). In the beggining of afternoon, I talked with Ana about my project and she conclude as me, that now it is a matter of hard work, something time consuming, of course, but to have the work set up in mind it's a relief, even if I'm going to do a lot of work now and run out of time to finish until the exhibiton. So now I'm starting the bases of the animation!

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Roger suggested us to reflect about what makes us anxious about planning? But actually I reckon I solved out how to deal well with planning, creating my own system. What makes me feel bad it is the feeling I already described here many times about when I accomplished a lot of tasks in a day and nevertheless still being unsatisfied with myself and feeling like I am procrastinating not doing enough, not doing my best and etc...
What helps me sometimes is check the plann and see how much tasks I did and repeat to my self I did a lot or that I can do better in the next day. Also, I'm trying to make myself aware that I'm too hard with myself and this overwhelming expection sufocates me and prevates me from enjoying what I am doing, I have to stop that or this is always be a torture even when I am doing something I chosen to do. In the weekend I was able to do something that helped me, I start drawing my storyboard not expecting to finished that day and not anticipating how would look like, if I would like or not the result, worked surprisingly well, and turned out a result I truely appreciated.

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Today started okay and then I talked to Jennifer in the end of morning session about wanting to do a animation to be also an idea more open to people out of the art field, she give me good advices about planning myself and define to myself deadlines to the tasks as animation is very time consuming I have to be strict with my time, so I'm focus now in the script of the story so then I can start making the story board. Until that part of the day I was dismotivated, even though I really relate to my theme and I'm choosing to do something I want and think is relevant I was not feeling happy about it, I don't know if it is only sabotage or depression or both things together trying to push me back...
Then, now at night I decided to talk with my mother about the idea and the music that she is going to colaborate with me and even being tired after working the day she talked to me, invite me to listen to her playing the piano for me to decide which music would fit better with my ideas, and I asked her to play a music she never played before, we think this one is going to fit and she is going to practice to be good for recording. This really made me felt a lot better and to see her so open to be part of that project and imagine us creating something together thrills me so much was the best decision I took, I reckon something nice will come out of this collaboration. I realise that is why I thought about doing this with her in the first place, I believe connect with my family and the emotions they bring to me makes me a better artist, the best results I had until now are the ones I thought about then, about the memories we shared and try to somehow bring those roots to my work, this is something important about my process I make better works when I emotionally connect to them, that is one of the reasons I think I belong to illustration and not design kkk.

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Today being honest, the best thing was to went to japanese class, despite being able to finish almost everything in my schedule I got the old feeling of insatisfection again, somehow felt not enough and I had the sensation I was not doing my best and procrastinating, I don't know exactly how to explain...I will only try to do better tomorrow.

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Yesterday was a busy day but I was happy that I was able to fullfill almost every task in my calendar, after talking with Monique she gave me tips of refinement of the brief and the most important thing adviced me to continuing generating ideas of what in nature brings me the feeling of contemplation even though I already had some other ideas. It was a good advice, sometimes I tend to stick with an idea I liked, but in FAD it was much more then proved it is always better to have/test the maximum quantity of ideas we can and then decide after which one we want to develop. When Monique remind me of that I found another idea I also really like, that relates with sound (something I am certain I want to make use of in my work).
Make a scene of a pianist playing and the strings inside the piano moving, each string triggers a "memory" or scene of life, of that connection I am willing to talk about. A flower blooming carefully, a rabbit running that turns into a jaguar, a drop of rain falling, the sun light touching the human skin, a baby holding the finger of a parent, and at the same time the music playing. (maybe this one is a good idea because my mother plays the piano at my house, she could play the music for me, would be a very nice experience of collaboration, I believe in the power something created with affection brings to the art).

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Looking at the places untouched by human hand they seem to have more the sensation of plenitude then the artificial ones changed by men, so why to go even further in this artificial way? When the levels of depression and anxiety are the highest, when they are know as the "ill of the century". Don' t get me wrong, I'm a supporter of technology evolution and cientific discovers aiming human logevity, however, I believe we should make better use of this tools to increase the experience that is "living", observe the ciclic nature of all things alive, full of processes, creating atmospheres or pieces that awaken those sensations, calm, the feeling of contemplation, recovering our connection and humanity.
This was my reflection after watching the documentary "Quanto Tempo o Tempo Tem" I can not say I like the film (had some ideas I totally disagree and some an explored areas of time such as the physics itself) even though, I found it very usefull, making me think further and take those conclusions. Despite that, I generated some ideas, looking at nature time lapses I thought, why not  use the appearance of nature itself to do the work? I made a list of which thinks give me the feeling of plenitudy in nature, so I will start from here. Tomorrow I am planning to buy some fabric to experiment my ideas.

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Today was much more helpful then I was expecting, we had a workshop with both Rogers about action plan and the feeling of being overwelmed with the amount of research and information I collected was solved, they gave a lot of tips in a more detailed way that made me realise everytime I'm feeling lost I should go back to planning and list the things I have to do to clear my mind and check the already done works to have a visual prove to my brain of the process and how things are developing, this give me a sense of security and control and I have to confess I need as I am such a control freak sometimes...kk Whatever, the relevant part is that I built what I'm calling "The giant calendar"!

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Today I was thinking what kind of feeling I want to transmit with my project and I remembered about important references to me, one is The Weather Project by Olafur Eliasson, it astonish me, mostly because of the contemplative feeling it has, it involves me completly, as well as, the game Gris, in my perspective it is about creating a atmosphere, make use of our senses, a explosion of color, an inspiring soundtrack or maybe a big space with essencial details like a japanese painting. I don't now exactly yet but I do know it has to do with the hability to mix those different aspects of art, and techniques (music, color, a philosophy behind, even geometry and science).

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Today I tried to sythesize my idea and answer why it's a relevant topic for me? why it keeps coming back? Somehow I keep finding connections inside my interests that links to this concept I'm building, besides that I reckon I need to live by doing something I strongly believe, some kind of "code" or faith. This project it is about understanding better what exactly that maybe. Only study religions don't seems to fully convice me until now I have the necessity to take my own conclusions and the symbolism of the red thread touches me and keeps relating to my life and thoughts, I trying to deeply answer why.

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Grab some cutted wood, and branches maybe their textures can give me some insights

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Looking for materials to work and inspirations, trying to follow my own advices and search in what sorrounds me

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Today I made progress, talk to other human beings helped me. Everything started yesterday evening with me trying to explain my main concept to my parents, this was fun, made me realise how huge it is and complex because I want to develop a philosophy for life, my own code for living, "muita viagem" they said and liked it. I also thought that I can include a series of texts of analises if I want to, I do not need to produce only visual works, I can act in both fronts. I'm actually not excited about a piece that I will specially produce, it's much more about understanding a perspective of the world that I want to have, build and clarify what are my beliefs and motives for living and do what I am doing, build this consistence.
Thinking about the actual theme that follows the thread and sewing through history, time and space, the symbol of "putting things together", stablish conections deciding our destiny, that can be found behing that ancient technique/material, I talked to my colleagues and with Carlos and that more then reflect only with my self gave me insights, new ideas and expanded my possibilities such as when Carlos mentioning to me physics, that openned my mind to explorer quantum theory and maybe apply to my analises of the thread as a self-supporting structure that connects everything and everyone, we sustent one another in this structure, as much as we can be connected with something beyond our own space and time. That, I believe, can drag us to interests of cultures, places and people we never visited or met before.

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Prepared my pechakucha slides today and experimented yesterday in the sketchbook, let's see how it goes, my idea seems abstract for me until now, I don't exactly what I want to experiment

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Today I talked with Monique about my research until now, I made a collage to synthesize my references better. She gave me the advice to make research always visual, try to put the knowledge into draws, anotations in my sketchbook, I will try that since I made most of my research in the padlets

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I am starting research now for Part 3, making it wider, decided to read about historical meaning of weaving first to understand better the whole passage of time

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This days has been crazy, something else to my life, this theme, this part 3 project put me in a path I never expected to be, connected me to a faith that sourrounded my hole life until now and I didn't realise and it's only the beggin . I've been reading about myths and about paganism culture and their connection to nature, the faith in a ciclic life, a life connected to the energys of Earth and nature, how collective we are, part of the same thing, surrounded by a energy that belong to us and we do not explore well. A real thread of symbols and collective memorie.

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FAD Part 2_Everything ready for assessment 04/04/2021

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FAD Part 2_Everything ready for assessment 04/04/2021

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This week was calm, I could plan everything with a lot of time and refine little details since I had the essencial of every topic ready, I also had space in the schedule to do the last paint of End of The Worlds project without being estressed about it, I rest and now I feel good to transition to part 3 in a good position :)

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FAD Preparing for assessement week 29/03

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FAD Preparing for assessement week 29/03

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Made my weekly action plan and a list of things to check for assessment. I don't no why I thought I had more time assessment looked so distant but it is not! Better to finish everything early to not worry.

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The morning was a bit stressfull I went crazy trying to transfer my teaser for my phone the archieve was too big, I really need to work out my knowledge of technology! Despite that, the crit went preatty well, the works were incredible our class is good, I reckon we all will turn into amazing artists, my hard work in this project was compensated with a nice outcome and amount documentation of process what pleasant both me and the tutors :) My main reflection about this project is about the organization, I think this time I really managed to work with a schedule and organize myself to fit the time and all the amount of work I took at the same time, it turned out a good thing to make the previous mistake of participate of too many things in this project, it gave me the push to deal with time  and planning really hard.

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I worked until the night in my pdf and thought it was ready but when I made a tutorial with Monique and Ana Calzavara they gave me a lot of suggestions to improve the presentation! rsrs my gosh I'm tired but I agreed with all they said so I will worry up to finish until 5pm. I realised that being in my perspective (having the phisical work with me) I made a presentation that did not showed all the manusiation and angles to explore the work and the materiality of it, Ana did not understand well the object, big problem. So, I took more photos, explored the perspectives of the objects, the hole in the page, the transparence of the acetate. A big change was to enlarge the images in the pdf , trying to make them minimalist I turned it difficult to the viewer to perceive all the texture and texts in the art, something not that good...the concept can not be against the clearly understanding of the piece!  Fortunatly, I delivery a much better version of the presentation thanks for the help of my tutors <3

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Cezar gave me the tip to work with an pdf and grid. I reckon I will stick with that to try new things and exercise making diagramation (something I not that good at) in my opinion I already made too many websites I do not want to do another one for this project.

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Today I manage to complete all my plans and also work in the visual id for the group, I'm happy that I could do this tasks so I'm in good time for the project end, hopefully things will run smothly from now on. Make the schedule on the weekend was a smart decision as I did not loose time with this today when Monique ask us to do the exactly this, and I was prepared for the printing part and aware of my time when I had to put a extra task of the visual id in my plans.

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This week I am crazy working in millions of things, but it feels good, today I send my personal statement for Monique to see if she have a suggestion to change my beginning. I follow all my action plan and produced the digital format of my self publish. Sometimes I feel very low and sometimes I have an endless energy, so I'm pulling everything out of this moment of "extra productive Julia".

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Planned the whole week now I am more relaxed to rest a bit

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Today I decided to test printing my photos in acetate, I'm doing the planning so on monday I can go print. Something I learned as key in this project is time management, I took so many tasks at the same time because I am not that organized, if I had a better plan I would known that was too much, in that sense I decided to focus more in the planning part now to have a good last week of project.

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I don't know why I choose to do so many things at the same time, joinning the visual id group at this moment was not the best choice between organizing stuff to travel back to Rio, making and buying material for my own project and making the visual content to the fair made me crazy. Even more when the class do not make it easier, complainning about everything without given a suggestion to solve it...It is not easy to discuss things with a larger group of people.
However, I managed to make a poster for the fair and put in the class group to see their opinion and we can decide tomorrow what will be the chosen one, I was inspired by the color palette of Brand Budapeste Hotel!

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I was looking through instagram to see what approach I wanted to apply in my post, I decided to divide my long pinture in two, to make a effect and I again realise how bad I am with technology I spent hours to understand how to do it perfectly kkk ridiculous. I reckon it looked great in the end. I thought a lot about Helena's talk about what puorpose I was doing it, so I want it to have a pattern in all my images and to make it simple but bring the reflection about the routine empytness, the fraction moments of loneliness in a normal day or even good day.
When I was thinking about what I would paint I decided to do the meaning of "home" more I thought about what means home to me less clear was visualy, but something stucked in my mind was a window, soft clounds, maybe that is the confort that never changed to me, something warm.

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Talking to Monique today helped me open my mind to other publishing ideas instead of making only a zine I could experiment with different surfaces and produce separate pieces out of my photos, not necessarly a sequence. Now I feel more confident to follow a path and not lost in the process. She gave me also, a really good idea of using the materiality to be part of the work and not only a surface.

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Like Monique would say "today was a nightmare" lot of working in the project but at the same time stuck making things out of compass and not focusing in one at a time. I'm packing my stuff to move and thinking about the visual identity too. So much! I have to organize and talk to tutors to not lose track again.

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Experimenting with text and image, trying to make "sincere poetry" an approache to not make things look only beautiful, do not correct the mistakes, let the work be what it is

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Thinking a lot about the discussion with Helena (Curso dos Desenhos Feios), she made me wonder what motivates me to do what I do everyday, to hold closer my tresures my main interests to make life bearable in the tough days.
"Be careful my darling
Be careful of what it takes
From what I've seen so far
The good ones always seems to break"_Florence and the Machine

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Today I made my first sketch of my personal statement text, first it was weird to make a list about my self, finding interestings and skills, I thought it would not work well, but then I decided to sit down and only write "my truth" my perception of myself and my art this small fragments that together compose me, it remembered me about museum of me project the beggining, it is curious the fact that more the time passes more I come back to the beggining and realise "me" is a collection of stories I live, the ones living in me and the ones that left me. Some how they turned to be one thing or one being, to be more kind with myself kk.
Who Am I?

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We wrote one idea per minute in 30 minutes today, normally I do not like this exercise, it is too fast and we can't focus enought time to have good ideas, but this time worked, I had a significant amount of interesting ideas I can develop further, the only concern is it is too many ideas and now I'm a little bit lost in a ocean of possibilities, I reckon for now I will stay in the research nothing is definitive.

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FAD Part 2_Self publish kickstart_08/03/2021

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FAD Part 2_Self publish kickstart_08/03/2021

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Just doind reaserch in that inicial moment but I will hold close this Zine, really impresses me the way Alfonso de Anda mixed this images and his daily art process thought very sincere.

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Today's show was a good experience to interact online at the same time hard showed to me the importance of reharsal more times before, something that miss in our group...Besides that, I reckon we manage well with our deadline and our class show was very highlevel in general.

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Today I win this battle! Finished all my part in the project and helped Malu to organise the info page, productive day!

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I carry this rests of my self, traces of memories and feelings reusing them now and on in different places, this time I have to take everything I have and discover how to express better my opinions in a way it doesn't seem agressive I realise I can not be political like talk smoothly in society patterns, what really affects me in my group and what I have to think about to the live event. How to present my self better to people?

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It is all about balance, but do I want balance at all or I preferer my intensity?

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Somedays we only need someone to be there

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Today we work as a group being able to finish the project brief and deliver in a good time, I'm proud of this.

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The words seems to float in my mind alone but mixed, when you have a strange day is something but when everyday turns strange and began to be a hole massive undistinguish thing it no longer more a single event.
Since I don't have the words I decided to follow Carlos's advice and write in my wall, make it more visual the questions and the floating answers.

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Showed my portfolio page for Cesar and he things the typograph is not matching and I have to use my actuall name and not my artist name of social midia. I will try more but I was hoping to stay with the portfolio and the shop at the same site...I will take a look again in two artists sites (Ana Toyoda and Nadine Reinhard) that inspires me, to make my look more "clean". The focus is the work don't do "frufrus" but I was thinking if I could make the guide bottons be a new illustration, like a piece of the portfolio (ask to Monique with it is a problem).

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Idea generation in group was productive, now searching for references

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Today we read the project brief together and asked questions about how to fullfill it.

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Dead after hours of illustrator x.x   17/02/2021

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Dead after hours of illustrator x.x   17/02/2021

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Making my hover image to portfolio page and solving questions with the domestika illustrator course

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Fineshed my first piece for I do I Undo project, it has been a long path but precious to me, I discovered a lot about my poetry in conversation with materiality and loved. I considerer successfull the idea of representing the river and the fluity of water with the fabric, what creates this environment to my poetry to come.

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It has been hard to stay this days out of class, class maintain me occupaid and focused. I've been doing online courses to improve my portfolio with illustrator and looking for the bibliograph of the new project, but I'm a bit worried with the fact of still have this old feeling when I am out of normal routine, makes me depressed and feeling unproductive even in productive days if that makes any sense...
Also, I have been thinking in what Monique said to me as feedback, about thinking in the way that works for me to do reflection, and not to be something mechanic, maybe the way I am doing now is not working well in the normal routine.

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Everything ready for Progress tutorial

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Tutorial with Monique