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I opened an email from my advisor who wondered why i was doing a single case study rather than a multiple case study. I don't have money to pay for research with one case. :( Now, I am spiraling...

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I’m so not focused so much of the time.

Procrastination is the thief never charged with this crime.

This week was the opposite. I am reaching my goal.

Production is the heroine that recharged my control.

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SOOOO.. Doing this writing retreat has actually been a good way to reconnect with my work and to feel excited again about why I am doing this work.  I must remember - give myself GRACE- that I will not just jump right in with loads of writing.  BUTTT I did and AM writing.  Its far from ready but its on a page now.  So I will just keep on trucking.

Congrats to all who are making strides and to those who like me maybe showing up was the first big step!

SI SE PUEDE!

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Thanks for providing amazing structure and support for our writing this week! I appreciate you Nic!

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I fear (and know) that if I do not flit between work emails and my writing, my brain is swiss cheese and I will drop the ball on something. That worry/anxiety keeps me away of dedicating time to a solely writing task and gives me an excuse to not focus and face the hard writing parts. Because I keep my inbox read, then if I don't read things right away, there's an issue with never getting back to them. [Cue Nic's voice in my head: you need to make a plan.]

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I have too many things to do and I am so overwhelmed that I can't attack any of them!

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I managed to write up almost my entire interview guide today (6+ pages!!). Prayers answered. ~ Sara

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I'm so drawn to productive procrastination and just want to read more articles, or search for more literature, or try making another outline. It's not NOT useful, but it is distracting me heavily from actually doing the writing.

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Do other people like co-authoring articles and papers? I usually write alone and right now the idea that other people are going to look at this while it's still in progress is making me second guess everything I write and stressing me oooouuuuttttttt.

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Can I do it? Should I even try? I need to push all these negative thoughts AWAY and just freaking. write.

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I keep forgetting things. Then I feel scattered, distracted, mad at myself. I never used to be this way until I went to grad school. ;) Then it's hard to get centered and start writing, but that's my practice, eh?

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I'm so confused with trying to analyze transcript data. I feel like don't know what I'm doing. (I'm not totally convinced that any of us do.) What is this thing where I'm taking people's words and extracting some kind of knowledge from them?

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I have been avoiding writing up consent forms because I'm just unclear on what to write for the student assent and guardian consent forms. They are not the focus of my study, and yet...???

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I needed a citation, so I started looking up information. Now, I can't remember what I originally was searching for, but I have found several articles!!

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Once I started flitting, I cannot get back on track. The things I'm checking off are important, timely, but not writing. I am trying to make a plan for my week but I am just daunted by how many punctures there are to my week, when I make efforts to preserve the writing time (like how do I turn away a research interview?!?!... I don't...)

So I am feeling productive but in the wrong arena.

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Ok, got to power through. Just...one...more...writing...block. Does 50 minutes suddenly seem like a really long time?

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I look at the work of others as models of the kind of writing I want to do when I feel “stuck” with my own writing tasks. But I sometimes spend more time analyzing their work instead of writing.  It leaves me feeling like “god, I wish I could write like that. Can I even do that? How did I make it this far not knowing how to write? Like, GIRL (inner critic) shut up!” 

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I look at the work of others as models of the kind of writing I want to do when I feel “stuck” with my own writing tasks. But I sometimes spend more time analyzing their work instead of writing.  It leaves me feeling like “god, I wish I could write like that. Can I even do that? How did I make it this far not knowing how to write? Like, GIRL (inner critic) shut up!” 

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anyone else struggling to stay focused for the last 10 min or so before lunch? trying to keep my commitment to myself and stick with it even though restlessness is setting in

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already off task after checking into work stuff over lunch. Damn.

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I'm so tired today. Only ~2 hrs sleep last night. I set an ambitious goal and will be lucky to get half-way through it. Goal for the week seems way far away now.

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I'm really angry that I worked for MONTHS on my dissertation proposal, and I didn't even get an email acknowledgment from my advisors saying they received it.

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I keep feeling like I am not enough to write my prelims (or do anything else, honestly) and I'm fuckin' tired of feeling like I'm not enough to finish this PhD. UGHSDLFKJSLDKFJ.

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No hope for this paper... why even bother?

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No hope for this paper... why even bother?

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This paper will never get accepted into a good journal. Makes me want to give up and stop wasting my time.

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I can't seem to edit this abstract down to 250 words and it makes me want to scream. I just want to check my email.