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My name is Carl Adorsa, but to be honest with you that doesn't really matter because there's a saying that goes "If you know a person's name but not their story, do you really actually know them?" so by the end of this blog i want to make you say to yourself that in a way you know a thing or two about who Carl Adorsa really is. I'm gonna start this all of by saying that, I never had a normal life. I never had the life that most of kids have. because at a young age i already faced a lot of hardships that i genuinely think no kid ever deserves. I have a mom who thinks so highly of herself but I don't i would ever find someone in this lifetime that could love me the way she does. I have 1 older brother and a younger sister who never complimented me my entire life but they're the one's who's behind me in every success and accomplishments I've had. You're probably confused right now because no one would ever talk about their families this way, but for me it's not the activities we used to do and the fun times we had that matters. It's the hardships and pains we decide to face to together.

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What keeps me going is my loved ones. It really is one of the many reasons why we keep on going, we fear that if we don't keep on going we may not give them the life, or whatsoever that they want. but as for me, a student, what keeps me going through all these hardships i am experiencing and facing right now not only in school matter but also mentally and emotionally is my partner and my parents. They always remind me to not give up easily and there's a reason why things happen. Especially my mom, whenever she feels that i am feeling down or something, she always tell me to not think about negative stuffs and to not do things that could hurt myself. I thank my my for that because she may have the most hurtful mouth, but she really cares. And also my future keeps me going, knowing that my future depends on me, it makes me not give up easily to life's challenges. It makes me try and try to be better. Even tho i sometimes don't do good in school or in whatever aspect it is in life, i still genuinely care about what would happen to me in the future, so that's the reason, the main reason I keep on going.

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The biggest fear i have in this lifetime is not having to live my life to the fullest. I fear the future, for what it brings to us is yet to be known, it really fears me just by thinking of it because what if we don't get the life we want? what if we don't get to have the life that we always prayed for? it really scares me knowing that life is unpredictable, today may be our last day, nobody knows about it. It just scares me knowing that one day we won't be able to wake up and we don't know when is that day gonna happen. I also fear having to live a life without my parents, i am a Mama's boy and i really genuinely fear having to lose my mom even tho i know that's just the way life is, I know i h

should cherish every moment with her while that day hasn't come yet but just by thinking of it makes me tear up. Losing my family would be the Biggest fear among all the biggest fears i have.