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My full name is Athena Gabrielle Villanueva Panaguiton, I was born on November 1, 2007. My birth place was in San Juan, Manila. Yes, you heard me right, I orginally came and grew up in Manila for 10 years.

My mom had met my stepfather, who is much better than my dad, he's a big green flag. Both of them went and are in Singapore, so my stepfather decided to fly me to their hometown, which is Digos. I graduated Grade 6 and my JHS Years at Cor Jesu College. After that, my mom just randomly thought of moving me to ADDU, and that's how I got here. Right now, it feels okay to be all alone here in Davao, since I already am used to it. But, I can't help to miss my former school and my friends there.

Well, mostly that is all hehe.

My Likes? Well it would be:

Travelling, I like visiting other countries.

Food!! I love to eat hehe.

Playing the guitar, I have my very own electric guitar.

I love the color Blue, I just love it.

I love Music, I cannot function if I do not have my airpods with me.

And lowkey… I am a geek?

I also love the movie Hunger Games and the anime Demon Slayer.

I love to talk about Science, Politics, Perspectives, and History.

I also am into sports, we won the BBall Girls championship in Intramurals back in G11.

I personally do not like…

Disrespectful People, tight spaces, bullies, people who lack emotional intelligence, enablers and tolerant people. I have more to not like but I rather not share anymore :)

That’s all!! Thank you!

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This is my introduction photo as it is one of my old pictures that I find very cute, it reminds me of my innocence and playful self.

Also! For the written work compilation, please follow the arrow with the label "Written Works", Thank you!

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During this stage, my parents told me that I was well behaved as an infant, and that I really liked listening to nursery songs. My parents would always bring me to their outings at the beaches, and I would always like to play on the sand. My parents would always consider me as their blessing, as doctors would always tell my mom that she is incapable of birthing a child. Her statement always remind me why my life holds such value. At this stage, I wasn't really much of a trouble to anyone who would take care of me, maybe since I am a girl? My mom would always carry me everywhere she goes, that is how much she loved me. For the earliest memory I remembered as infant, I sadly cannot recall anything. But all I know is that I was a happy baby.

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At this stage, I was sure that I have gained consciousness. It happened when I was in the kitchen trying to get a biscuit on the counter, that is when I realized that I had full control all over myself. It takes a lot of courage to tell what I remembered from this stage, as it is something that stained me. My early childhood was simple, I behaved like what a toddler should be, but my experience was far from my age. I had to deal with the fact that my father is a terrible partner who kept cheating on my mom with his co-workers, my mom kept forgiving him for the sake of my life. At that age, I already knew how cruel life can be. I tend to get bullied a lot since rumors spread that my parents are not even married or even together anymore. I was lucky enough that my uncles, my relatives, and especially my mom was always there for me. Oh to tell you, I am not rich. The reason why I do not judge anyone by their status is because I know the feeling of both sides since I have lived both lives. But despite that, my parents tried to make up for the sake of having a proper childhood.

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At this stage, my talents started to bloom. My parents, well, handled it somehow? I was at the top of my classes, many called me the prodigy of my family. I excelled in Science a lot since it was my favorite subject, my mom made sure that I would win the competitions I was in, and I had obtained so many awards. I was really into drawing, sports, and quiz bees. I was happy since I made my parents proud of me, this stage was far better than the last one, as it seems alright for now. But the trauma and everything still lingers, it is like a wound that would not stop bleeding. I was also very interested in space and dinosaurs for some reason, I had remembered every type of dinosaur you can imagine. All I know is that I was making a place at the top.

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This stage is supposed to be all about striving hard in your academics, yet having fun while still being a kid. But I am not sure if I obtained that kind of standard, as elementary was not really fun for me. Although, I did polish the talents I was aware of, and determined to still collect awards, I was still haunted by the past. It added more fuel to the fire when my mom had left to go work in Singapore to cope up everything financially, my support system was cracked. I found my relatives problematic, I had an unwavering hatred for my father still. Stressed, I ended up having a habit to eat always. I ended up gaining lots of weight, and I was very prone to bullying at school. Despite being one of the smartest, the one who is capable, I was always cornered into something small. I was fat and ugly, I was called weird for my interests. My relatives did not even paid any attention to me, my mom is out of reach, so as my dad. I was all alone, I had to cope up with everything alone. Nobody came to my awarding ceremonies, I was still being beaten up by my bullies. Despite these kind of experiences, I still made sure to stand back up and continue with my academics. At least I can prove to my parents that I am the eldest daughter they imagined to be. It is my responsibility to achieve their expectations, so I continued to polish my talents further.

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Before graduating elementary, my mom made me transfer to Mindanao, specifically in Digos. I then studied at Cor Jesu College, and that is where I spent almost 5 years of my life before moving to Davao. By entering high school, it was not easy, as it was during the pandemic. I did not quite had the freshmen experience, I was obligated to stare at a digital screen almost everyday. I was very isolated, hoping to see my friends once more. Pandemic really took a toll on me, and the consequences showed in the middle of 9th Grade. The early years, I was friends with the popular and smart students of our school, they had another side that I manifested too. We would subject to online bullying, making fun of "weird classmates", and having the blast of sneaking out and get drunk. It continued after opening schools to do F2F, and that is when I realized how much of a bad person I was, it felt like I did not belong there or to them. I then was subjected to shame to my whole batch for "defying them", as we were the body of the school's student council, they made sure that they made my Grade 10 the worst as possible. This was also the reason I was always at every other country, in hopes of catching a break. It was the worst time of my life, but at least I had my mom and my loved ones. I am just glad that they made me move to ADDU, as it finally felt home. I truly believe in "everything happens for a reason", if that did not happen, I would not have been aware of what was right and wrong, and who truly I am, and the person I want to be. I made sure to love photography, love art, to embrace sports, to love to listen to music, and be myself out here. I will make sure to seize the day.

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Dear Future Self, I hope you achieved everything that we promised to obtain, I also hope that you are doing much better now. I hope you managed to get through the medical field, and I hope you are enjoying the job you have. Please love yourself more and stop worrying as always, I hope you finally let go of every pain we carry, please stop referring yourself as a burden to the ones who cares for you. Always pray to God for the better. I hope that when you were in College, we were already with mom, I really want us to be a family again. I just hope that you continued to live, despite everything we had faced. Rielle, continue to give out love no matter how cruel the world is, always seize the day.

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I will conquer every challenges despite how many times life is testing me.

NEVER BACK DOWN NEVER WHAT?! NEVER GIVE UPPPP!!!!