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— Rachel Mellors (@rVmellors22) March 29, 2018

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@FirstAmongstEqu A short promo of our A Level Drama piece. Footage used from early rehearsals :) inspired by @GeckoTheatre https://t.co/QCM8fTvJxg

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@FirstAmongstEqu A short promo of our A Level Drama piece. Footage used from early rehearsals :) inspired by @GeckoTheatre

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Dialogue for the argument scene between Emma and Sam

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The Wedding

We are all married, bound by a contract.
But what are the terms of this relationship? And can we consider a divorce?

Led by Amit Lahav, Gecko's latest creation is inspired by the complexities of human nature: the struggle between love and anger, creation and destruction, community and isolation. In a blur of wedding dresses and contractual obligations, our extraordinary ensemble of international performers will guide audiences through a dystopian world in which we are all brides, wedded to society.

Combining movement, imagery and provocative narratives in Gecko's trademark style, our seventh touring production brings these contracts into question with an emotionally charged and spectacular performance.

We all want to believe in our journey, but where are we heading? Is it too late to stop, to go back, to fall in love, to start again?

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We are all married, bound by a contract. But what are the terms of this relationship? And can we consider a divorce? Led by Amit Lahav, Gecko's latest creation is inspired by the complexities of human nature: the struggle between love and anger, creation and destruction, community and isolation.

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another example of a Rape victim's story

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another example of a Rape victim's story

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Being a rape survivor affects every aspect of my life, but I won't let the trauma control who I am

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I am still myself, my personhood matters and I have the power to choose what defines my future. I have survived.

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Good actors borrow. Great actors steal! Hehe

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Good actors borrow. Great actors steal! Hehe

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Mine and Bellas ideas inspired by The Wedding

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Giving pardons to women who were jailed while fighting for the right to vote would be "complicated", Home Secretary Amber Rudd has said.

But she said she would "take a look", 100 years on from some women getting the vote in the UK.

Jeremy Corbyn said a Labour government would apologise to suffragettes and have criminal records overturned.

Helen Pankhurst, great-granddaughter of suffragette Emmeline Pankhurst, said the women had been pardoned by society.

Equality campaign group the Fawcett Society and some relatives of the suffragettes are among those who called on the home secretary to overturn the convictions of women who were imprisoned while fighting for the vote.

But Helen Pankhurst said the suffragettes would be urging women to "continue the fight" rather than "dwell" on their personal sacrifice.

"It was not them breaking the laws that were the problem, it was the laws that were constraining our democracy," she told BBC Radio 5live.

The Representation of the People Act was passed on 6 February 1918 and gave women aged over 30 and "of property" the right to vote.

In a speech in Manchester to mark the centenary of women's votes, Theresa May hailed the "heroism" of the suffragettes.

She also used the speech to criticise online abuse and intimidation of political candidates and representatives - often women, gay people and members of ethnic minorities.

"While there is much to celebrate, I worry that our public debate today is coarsening," Mrs May said. "That for some it is becoming harder to disagree, without also demeaning opposing viewpoints in the process."

The PM warned "bitterness and aggression" online threatens democracy and deters many people from engaging in politics.

Suffragists or suffragettes?

Mrs May announced plans for a Law Commission review of legislation to ensure that actions which are illegal in person are also illegal online.

She also promised an internet safety report will be published every year to assess how social media companies are dealing with abuse posted online.

Meanwhile, a cross-party group of Green, Labour and Liberal Democrat politicians called on the home secretary to make misogyny a hate crime.

In July 2016, Nottinghamshire Police became the first force in the UK to record harassment of women as a hate crime in a bid to tackle sexist abuse, but the scheme has not been rolled out further.

Other ways in which the anniversary is being marked include:

A public exhibition of life-sized images of the central figures of the suffrage movement in London's Trafalgar Square

Portraits of these people will also be in an exhibition at London's City Hall

A reception for female MPs past and present in Parliament, hosted by Mrs May

The Parliamentary Archives will display the 1918 Representation of the People Act itself for the first time

BBC Radio 4's Today Programme used only women contributors and an all-female presenter line-up on its show

Records compiled by the England, Suffragettes Arrested, 1906-1914 collection indicate there were more than 1,300 suffragette arrests and many women were jailed.

Emmeline Pankhurst, a founder member of the Woman's Social and Political Union, and leading suffragettes Emily Davison and Flora Drummond were among them.

Ms Davison was found guilty of placing a "dangerous substance likely to injure" in a post office letter box outside Parliament and sentenced to six months in Holloway Prison.

At the scene
By Francesca Gillett, BBC News
Women and men of all ages gathered outside the pop-up exhibition in Trafalgar Square on Tuesday morning.

In freezing temperatures, the passers-by stopped to look at the cardboard cut-outs of 59 campaigners involved in the women's suffrage movement, many of whom are unknown faces.

"We forget these women," said charity worker Lucy Rae, who came to see the exhibition with a colleague.

"I do think it's quite poignant. You almost want to stand in with them to be part of it and to be one of these women."

University professor Hazel Barrett, whose grandmother supported the suffragette movement, said people of all classes got involved, adding: "Just look at them, ordinary women".

Sheree Davey, who came with her young son to see the display, said: "It's incredible. It inspires you to learn a bit more.

"You know the basics but there's so much more to it."

Victoria Taylor, a tourist visiting from Australia, said: "It's a great way to engage people. It's not confronting but it's very prominent."

The Scottish Tory leader said she supported calls for posthumous pardons for the convicted women as they were simply "righting the wrong" of of an unjust law.

Writing in the Daily Telegraph, Ruth Davidson said: "Voting was a value judgement, not an intrinsic right."

Ms Rudd, who is also minister for women and equalities, said she would consider the issue.

However, she told Radio 4's Today Programme: "I must be frank, it is complicated because if you're going to give a legal pardon for things like arson and violence it's not as straightforward as people think it might be."

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Krista Cowman, professor of history at the University of Lincoln, said many suffragettes would "be spinning in their graves" about the idea of being pardoned.

She told Radio 5live: "It was a badge of honour and they were proud of it."

Radio 4's Woman's Hour celebrated the 100th anniversary by broadcasting the show from the Pankhurst Centre in Manchester, the birthplace of Emmeline Pankhurst and the suffragette movement.

During the programme Jenni Murray interviewed Mrs May - Britain's second female prime minister - whose late godmother was a suffragette.

The PM said getting the vote was "the first step" for women to be involved "properly in public life".

"It was the point at which women were able to start to feel that they could bring their experience, their views, their opinions, into the world of public life," she added.

Later in the day, Mrs May joined female MPs past and present at a reception in Westminster Hall.

The prime minister was cheered when she said she wanted to see more women in public life - saying it was now up to all of us to "carry forward the torch".

Meanwhile, as a tribute to the suffragettes, Scotland's First Minister Nicola Sturgeon also announced a £500,000 fund to encourage more women to become involved in politics.

A debate also took place at the Scottish parliament to celebrate 100 years of female suffrage.

Representation of the People Act 1918 - key dates

6 February 1918 - The Representation of the People Act is passed giving women aged over 30 and "of property" the vote

21 November 1918 - The Parliament (Qualification of Women) Act is passed and allows women to stand for Parliament

14 December 1918 - Women vote in a general election for the first time

1928 - The Equal Franchise Act is passed and all women aged over 21 can now vote

30 May 1929 - Women aged between 21 and 29 vote for the first time

30 April 1958 - The Life Peerages Act 1958 allows women to sit in the House of Lords as life peers

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Giving pardons to women who were jailed while fighting for the right to vote would be "complicated", Home Secretary Amber Rudd has said. But she said she would "take a look", 100 years on from some women getting the vote in the UK.

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Inspiration from The Handmaid's Tale

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Drunk scene - why do you only call me when youre high

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Drunk scene - why do you only call me when youre high

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Why'd You Only call Me When You're High - Arctic Monkeys (5% slower)

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Uploaded by Calynn Nordskøv on 2017-02-14.

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What he wrote - lift? or even somewhere else, reveal perhaps

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What he wrote - lift? or even somewhere else, reveal perhaps

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Song appears in Peaky Blinders, season 2, episode 5

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Laura Marling - Red Right Hand (newspaper scene?)

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Laura Marling - Red Right Hand (newspaper scene?)

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Peaky Blinders Season 4 EP6 - 0. Laura Marling - Red Right Hand

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This is a cover of Nick Caves 'Red Right Hand' By Laura Marling which was specifically recorded for the opening scene in Peaky Blinders Episode 6 so no full version of the track exists.

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Red Right Hand - Nick Cave (possible use somewhere)

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Red Right Hand - Nick Cave (possible use somewhere)

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Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds - Red Right Hand (Official Video)

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Ringing sound to play over opening lift.

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Ringing sound to play over opening lift.

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I thought I would mention that now that I've had tinnitus for a few years, I can say that as time has gone on, it's become less of a problem for me. I've gotten used to it by now, though I always have to make sure to be aware of the sound levels in my surroundings so that it doesn't get worse.

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Just an idea for the rewind scene

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we could do this at the end for the fight scene when lucas is on the box?

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acknowledge the story
'this is a reconstruction'
the media is what happens after the supposed event
inspired by The Handmaid's Tale

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Emma and Sam’s argument movement, more dialogue to be added.

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Fight Director Kate Waters works with the cast of Othello to create the fight sequence in Act 2 Scene 3, beginning with Cassio's pursuit of Roderigo and culminating in this production in a messy brawl. Kate works through the key moments of the fight with the actors, explaining how to create realistic effects on stage.

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A method used by Frantic Assembly to move furniture on and off stage.

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Things I Know To be True: Sliding Furniture or "Chair Olympics"

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A few weeks ago someone got in touch with the Frantic office to ask us a question about the moving set in Things I Know To Be True. They asked, "My students and I are keen to know how you make the furniture slide so beautifully?"

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This has key information of different types of mental health and how they can be recognized. this links to the multiple characters that have a mental illness of some sort.

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The final draft of Sam's monologue.

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Start of dialogue (access for everyone)

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The Wanderer- Dion
Laughing on the Outside- Bernadette Carroll
Older- George Michael
Free- George Michael
Right Behind You Baby- Ray Smith
Othello Music
Control- London Grammar
Big Girls Don't Cry- Four Seasons
Truth Is a Beautiful Thing- London Grammar
Everyone Else- London Grammar
Spinning the Wheel- George Michael

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Bernadette Carroll - Laughing On The Outside bw The Humpty Dump

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Bernadette Carroll - Laughing On The Outside bw The Humpty Dump

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+ need to add Bella and perfect/clean up

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I'm aware this makes me look like Joyce Byers🤷🏼‍♀️

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Masterclass: Building Blocks for Devising by Frantic Assembly | National Theatre

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Frantic Assembly Book of Devising Theatre - Chair Duets

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Frantic Assembly Book of Devising Theatre - Chair Duets

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frantic technique

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Devising Theatre at Kent State University creates choreography for a performance using Around/By/Through, a technique developed by Frantic Assembly in the UK. This is for an Alice in Wonderland-esque sequence.

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Could work well with the rewind/denial sequence at the end

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From the amazing 32bit Remastered album Older Track 04

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Just an idea hehe :)

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Agreed by the group on Wednesday

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Working progress of movements for the family introduction near the beginning of the performance

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The Wanderer - Dion and the Belmonts (Thomas song lyrics)

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The Wanderer - Dion and the Belmonts (Thomas song lyrics)

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The Wanderer - Dion and the Bellmonts (Thomas Song lyrics

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The Wanderer - Dion and the Bellmonts (Thomas Song lyrics

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Disgraced former celebrity publicist Max Clifford has died in hospital, aged 74, after collapsing in prison

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more sixties music

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"You've Got the Power" is a song written by James Brown and Famous Flames member Johnny Terry and recorded by Brown with Bea Ford as a duet in 1960. Released as the B-side of Brown and the Famous Flames' hit recording of "Think", it also charted, reaching #14 R&B and #86 Pop.[1] It was Brown's first recorded duet and his first hit B-side.

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Elvis Presley - Jailhouse Rock (Official Audio)

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Been listening to 60s music and think it can be turned on its head to become condescending and almost eerie.

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Big Girls Don't Cry - Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons

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Big Girls Don't Cry (1962) by Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons

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Monologues by wife

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(just another idea to try and piece the scene together a bit more and give things more context) please let me know what you think

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We are currently writing dialogue to work with this scene. It would take place after Liz's monologue at the table. Don't worry, we know this needs a lot of improvement 😂🤞🏼

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to be improved and continued

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Beginning of the daughter's firstmonologue. Will be edited and things need to be added to it.

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Beginning of the daughter's firstmonologue. Will be edited and things need to be added to it.

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Rosie's monologue from "Things I Know to be True" by Andrew Bovell.

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Rosie's monologue from "Things I Know to be True" by Andrew Bovell.

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The inspiration behind the daughters introduction monologue. Also inspiration for lifts and music.

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Things I Know To Be True: Digital Theatre + Show Teaser

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The scene in which we devised our performance on.

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Extremities by William Mastrosimone portrayed by Alexandra Carmel & Sorlie P. Reeves II A scene we had to perform for our movement final (Stage Combat) for LBCC

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If we do use the 'Right Behind You Baby' song I think we should have it play as the audience enter because it's a happy, upbeat song therefore will bring them into a false sense of security. When it's later played for the rape it will have darker connotations.
Also, there could be a slowed down/morphed segment in the song where the movement slows, allowing Beth to perhaps turn her head slowly to the audience or something along the lines. (this is all hypothetical)

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For the affair scene. Music starts on the line "And you know what?"

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George Michael against the black nobility

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idea: to be played when 'trio' is trying to get word out

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From new album of London Grammar: Truth Is A Beautiful Thing. (All rights reserved to the band!)

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From new album of London Grammar: Truth Is A Beautiful Thing. (All rights reserved to the band!)

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This is only to help out, nothing final at all.

Daughter 2nd monologue:

(This would be after she discovers everything via the media... this was just to help out starting it bc you said you weren't sure so THIS DOESN'T EVEN HAVE TO BE IN  THE PLAY AT ALL😊)

I can read.- I'm quite good at it actually. You taught me.

Do you remember that, Dad? Mum would try but I'd take too long on each syllable that she'd get frustrated and leave me to you. I'd feel embarrassed like I couldn't do it. But you didn't make me feel like that. You would sit down with me and help to pronounce each individual sound until I finished the entire Biff and Chip book. I must have been only four. Do you remember that?

You inspired me, Dad. After that I couldn't put a book down. Name any series and I'd read it. Harry Potter- of course. Hunger Games- read within a week. The Hobbit- demolished in a few days. Remember when you offered The Twilight Saga to me? Yeah, I think we both dodged a bullet by avoiding that one.

But, you see, Dad. Now I'm wishing you never even taught me.

Because now... now I don't like what I can read. It's newspapers and tv headlines and online tweets. It's Facebook posts, magazine articles and text messages. And it's all so horrible. You told me words were beautiful and they are... but they're also violent, Dad.

They're sharp, they're cruel and they just stab at you. And you know, it really hurts. I hurt.

It's not just you the knives are thrown at, it's everyone else. I can see it on mum's face when she hangs up on another threat call, it's bloody and the cuts are deep.

I see it on your friends' faces, on Uncle Ian's and Auntie Sheila. I think Grandma's face has taken the most though. Do you remember her, Dad? We were meant to go visit her two christmases ago but we never did; work got in the way. So, was it work? Or was it actually your affair?

Etc etc etc (just a starting point, sorry if I got a little carried away there)

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Piano cover to  "Truth is a Beautiful Thing" by London Grammar.

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Piano cover to  "Truth is a Beautiful Thing" by London Grammar.

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This song could be used for backing to all scenes and links to the lyrics said at the beginning of the performance.

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Truth Is A Beautiful Thing - London Grammar (Piano Karaoke LYRICS)

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Truth is a Beautiful Thing - London Grammar (Piano Karaoke) The title song from their forthcoming album OUT 9TH JUNE 2017 Lyrics made easy to follow! Original Key Bpm - approx. 70 (varies) NOTE: The slight pause they do at the end of each phrase of the bridge / pre-chorus has been lessened here to make it easier to sing along to.

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Effects of extramarital affairs upon the children

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Effects of extramarital affairs upon the children

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For an explosive new book examining why infidelity has become so common in modern Britain, relationships expert Kate Figes spent three years talking to unfaithful spouses, psychologists and marriage counsellors.

Here, continuing our serialisation, she reveals the devastating and enduring effect that an affair can have on children...

Look around today and in many ways modern parents have never been so tuned into their children's needs. They know that to thrive, children require enough sleep, additive-free food, and stimulation through the best educational toys, sports, music and after-school activities.

Yet, all too often, parents fail to provide what their offspring need most: a constructive and loving relationship between the only two parents a child will ever have.

Over the past three years, I've interviewed experts and talked to dozens of men and women who have experienced (or are still having) affairs. What resonated most for me was the emotional fall-out on the young.

There's something badly wrong with society when we put our entitlement to sexual stimulation and release above the needs of our children. If we then rush into a separation or divorce, we fail them at least as much as we fail ourselves.

Jean Duncombe, a sociologist who has conducted extensive research on the subject, says: 'I'm puritanical when someone tells me they're having an affair - because of the work we've done on the impact of divorce on the children.

'If people say to me that the children don't know, I say: "Are you sure?" or "Think about what you're doing to the children" - and I never would have said that 20 years ago.'

For parents who have affairs are not only lying to their partners, they are often deceiving themselves about the impact their infidelity can have on their offspring.

'The children are too young to understand what's happening,' they reason. 'In any case, it doesn't concern them. And children are resilient.'

All of the evidence points to the contrary. People don't just betray their partners when they shatter family life with a serious affair - the sad truth is that their children grow up believing their parents have been unfaithful to them, too.

There is substantial research on the short and long-term effects of divorce if it isn't handled well.

For children, these include low self-esteem, a sense of being abandoned, poor performance at school, anti-social behaviour and the heartbreak of simply missing the absent parent.

Separations provoked by an affair tend to be the most acrimonious. Each parent shoves the blame for the split on to the other, sometimes forcing the children to take sides by supporting his or her version of events.

By tearing a child's loyalty in two, parents can inflict profound damage. To make matters worse, research has shown that around half of all fathers lose contact with their offspring within two years of the separation.

An acrimonious divorce, according to research, doesn't simply hurt children at the time; it can also store up problems for their future.

So, even if their parents separated when they were small, they won't necessarily suffer the full effects until they become adults themselves.

It can contribute to their own marital problems - including affairs of their own - or hamper their ability to form lasting relationships.

Lesley was a schoolgirl when her mother discovered her husband had been having an affair with a work colleague. Most of the couple's friends already knew, so the humiliation was searing. They had to move to another town - which meant Lesley leaving not only her home, but also her school and her friends.

'I still find it hard to trust that when my boyfriend's late or not with me and doesn't answer his phone, that he's doing what he says he's doing,' she says.

'It's as if disaster is always waiting in the wings and he's going to leave me - even though all this happened when I was eight and I'm now 28.'

Of course, the last thing people involved with the thrill of having an affair are likely to think about is how their actions will play with the next generation.

When an affair is discovered, both parents are so anxious, angry and even traumatised that they have limited resources for dealing with more stress from their children, who are likely to be more demanding than usual.

In some families, sons and daughters are sucked into the emotional vortex. In others, they are given little by way of explanation other than: 'Mummy and Daddy aren't getting on very well at the moment.'

Lily says her adult children find it hard to trust and respect their father because he lied to them as children and still denies he had an affair with the woman to whom he's now married.

'My son went through a very bad time as a teenager, drinking too much and running away,' she says.

'Both children mind to this day that my ex has never come clean about what really happened.

'My daughter hasn't settled down with anyone yet - she doesn't trust that it could last.

'My son, who's married, once asked me if I thought infidelity might be in his genes because of the fact his father was serially unfaithful.

'He seriously considered not getting married at all because he didn't want to risk hurting his girlfriend in the way that he'd been hurt.'

So, is there any way of lessening the impact on children?

Yes, but only in cases where parents behave responsibly, putting their children's interests first. All the research shows that several specific things need to happen if they're to stand a hope of recovering quickly.

First, if there are marital arguments, parents must never descend into aggression and character assassination.

Instead, children need to see that their father and mother can argue their corner, respect the other's right to have another opinion, talk about the impact of their behaviour and resolve to work on their differences.

Second, if a couple separate, they need to present a united front when dealing with the children.

So, there should be no arguments about access in front of them and both parents should be involved in school activities and their lives.

Third, any stress, humiliation and rage must be unloaded far away from the children. It may take Herculean strength to avoid revealing your most negative feelings, but it's essential.

Use a family mediator ( ) to limit the acrimony and sort out your separation more civilly.

Fourth, it's important not to damage children's trust. This means telling the truth about what's going on by giving them information appropriate to their age - and answering direct questions.

This will reassure them the infidelity wasn't their fault and that they can always ask more questions when they're worried.

Yes, affairs happen. But if we're grown-up enough to have children, we owe it to them to deal with the fallout in a grown-up fashion.

That way, we can avoid handing problems to the next generation - problems that can strike different age groups in diverse but equally damaging ways . . .

When a parent is absorbed by an affair, no amount of pretence can disguise the fact they have less emotional energy for their children. At the same time, there are rows and tensions at home.

Sensing their parents' withdrawal, babies and small children feel anxious and resort to their only weapon: crying.

Their frequent tears are a desperate plea for more eye contact, more cuddling, more attention. However, their parents are likely to be so wrapped up in their own emotions they find it difficult to respond.

For children under three, this can be catastrophic. At this stage, it's crucial for them to be totally enveloped by passionate parental adoration.

If they miss out, they become anxious - and years later, when they become adults, they may have problems with intimacy.

AGED FIVE TO TEN

Over the age of five, children are more likely to think they have caused their parents' difficulties themselves. Their greatest fear, when they hear arguments and sense tension at home, is that their parents will separate.

As a consequence, they often have nightmares. Before going to sleep, they can also experience powerful flashbacks of Mummy and Daddy fighting. Many become over-clingy.

Behavioural problems at school are common, as well as other regressive behaviour, such as bed-wetting or thumb-sucking.

To young children, separation makes no sense. Without a clear understanding of why it's happened, they find their world has been thrown into chaos.

It's not uncommon for one parent to be involved with the father or mother of another pupil at the child's primary school. So, once the affair is out in the open, it can cause profound disruption to a child's social world.

Imagine what it must feel like suddenly to see your own father picking up someone else's children from your school or giving them presents. I've heard examples of both.

During the first rumblings of adolescence, things start to get considerably more complicated. For a start, teenagers are more likely to discover an infidelity - not least because they're so adept at finding incriminating evidence on mobile phones and computers.

And when they do suspect or discover something, they often don't know where to turn.

In adolescence, children are developing their own sense of identity and fumbling their way towards first love.

They can often be idealistic, highly moral and sensitive to hypocrisy. So when they find out that one parent has been unfaithful, they're quick to see the betrayer as a liar and a cheat.

This will hurt the parent, but it's also harmful to the child.

In order to grow up well, adolescents desperately need their parents to be role models - particularly when it comes to demonstrating the values of integrity, honesty and sensitivity towards loved ones.

They need a stable family from which they can gradually start to pull away in order to forge their own separate lives. The discovery of an affair explodes all that.

To make matters worse, some teenagers are forced to bear the weight of family secrets by acting as go-betweens.

Both parents may use their child as a confidant as they struggle to construct new lives apart.

Many adolescents get very angry, usually with the parent with whom they feel most secure - who is also probably the one being betrayed and least able to cope.

They can get into more trouble at school, have fights, start fires or play truant. Some become depressed, get sick, stop eating or turn to drink or drugs.

Meanwhile, given that the idea of their parents having sex at all is pretty disturbing, the discovery that one of their parents is having sex outside the marriage feels like a violation.

Consequently, some teenagers become promiscuous at an early age, while others opt to shut down sexually altogether. A parent's affair also causes problems in the community or at school, because teenagers are highly sensitive about how they are viewed.

When the straying partner is the father, the child's sense of betrayal may be mitigated by the general consensus that it's still considered more excusable for a man to have an affair.

But if a mother has been having an affair, her children are likely to encounter a new torture: hearing her labelled - by schoolchildren who echo their parents' remarks - as a 'slag' or a 'whore'.

Even when a child has left home or gone to university, the discovery of a parent's infidelity can have far-reaching consequences.

Sociologist Jean Duncombe says: 'Some parents seem to think that once their children have gone to university, it doesn't matter any more because they're adults.

'But they're still children within that context. So they're absolutely devastated. It's the lies, I think, that cause the deepest damage.'

For some, the disruption to their sense of security is acute enough to prevent them sustaining relationships at all.

But one of the more common reactions - which is rising - is to become rigidly condemnatory of any sexual betrayal.

This moral certainty sets an impossibly high standard for young people in their love lives. Indeed, people with zero tolerance for infidelity are likely to be less able to deal with the consequences of marital difficulties and more likely to end partnerships that could be saved or even improved.

Adapred from Our Cheating Hearts: Love And Loyalty, Lust And Lies by Kate Figes, to be published by Virago on May 9 at £13.99. © 2013 Kate Figes. To order a copy for £12.49 (including P&P), tel: 0844 472 4157.

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For an explosive new book examining why infidelity has become so common in modern Britain, relationships expert Kate Figes spent three years talking to unfaithful spouses, psychologists and marriage counsellors. Here, continuing our serialisation, she reveals the devastating and enduring effect that an affair can have on children...

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The effect of teen suicide on family and the people left behind

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It's hard to say how many young people attempt to take their lives each year. The way the data is reported and collected also means that exact figures for teen suicides are not readily available.

We do know that more than 1,600 people below the age of 35 kill themselves each year, according to suicide prevention charity Papyrus. For many suicide is still a taboo subject but Papyrus says we need create opportunities for teenagers to talk more openly about it.

Newsbeat's investigation started with the struggle of one teenager: 14-year-old Izzy Dix, who lived by the sea in Devon and took her life in 2013. But as time has gone on, it has become clear that there are many more people like her.

"I don't think it's something I'll ever, ever get over," says Izzy's mother, Gabbi. "A lot of people tell me that I'll have to find a new normal, that I'll never be the same person because Izzy was my only child, so there's always a huge hole."

She says she knew that Izzy was struggling with her feelings, but didn't think suicide was even "on her radar".

In a society which doesn't discuss mental health, Gabbi says teenagers - as well as older people - can feel "frightened" of telling people how they feel. She adds: "When Izzy died, I didn't want to be alive but I didn't dare tell anyone that in case I was judged."

Everyone has different ways of best expressing themselves and Naomi says you should try to find the right one for you.

"It might be writing a letter"

Specialists agree on the first step - tell someone you trust how you feel. If you have already taken steps to end your life then seek medical help immediately.

"Normality is the best thing when someone's struggling with their mental health," says Naomi.

"Be the person you always are"

"Your friend might already have mental health professionals already supporting them and your friendship can provide some 'escapism'."

Worried for a family member

Find a safe place that you know will make it easier to talk, Naomi suggests.

Talking about suicide shows you aren't scared of the topic. "If you're a parent, have the conversation as a parent. You'll help to keep things feeling normal."

A lot of people say, 'oh they died because they were bullied', or 'they died because they failed their exams'. That isn't the reason they died, it's much more complicated than that.

Alexis Hesketh

Suicide prevention coordinator

Some evidence suggests that sensational media coverage can encourage vulnerable people to copy suicidal behaviour.

Charities give journalists advice on how to minimise this risk. But when it comes to conversations with friends and family, charities say people should talk "openly and honestly about suicide". Research has been carried out which shows that talking about it does not give people ideas, says Alexis Hesketh, from Papyrus.

"You are not going to put that thought in their head, it's already there. By creating an environment where it's ok to talk about suicide, you are allowing that person to know that actually there may be someone that they can talk to," she says.

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It's hard to say how many young people attempt to take their lives each year. The way the data is reported and collected also means that exact figures for teen suicides are not readily available. We do know that more than 1,600 people below the age of 35 kill themselves each year, according to suicide prevention charity Papyrus.

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Politician: Thomas Ezra
Wife: Victoria Ezra
Daughter: Samantha Ezra
Secretary: Amber Clarke
Colleague: Rose White
Victim: Emma Johnson

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Carl Sargeant - Found Dead after Sexual Assault Sacking

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An ex-Welsh Labour minister who faced a party investigation into allegations about his personal conduct has taken his own life, it is understood.

Carl Sargeant, 49, lost his job as cabinet secretary for communities and children last Friday.

He was suspended from Labour after the first minister learned of a number of alleged incidents involving women.

A family statement said they were "devastated beyond words" at the loss of "the glue that bound us together".

Labour leader Jeremy Corbyn said the death was "deeply shocking news".

Mr Sargeant, who was married and had two children, was found dead at his home in Connah's Quay, Flintshire, on Tuesday morning.

He was sacked from his Welsh Government job after allegations about his behaviour were passed to First Minister Carwyn Jones' office.

Mr Jones had said on Monday he felt he had no choice but to refer the matter to the party. Mr Sargeant had vowed to clear his name.

The Welsh Assembly's business for Tuesday was cancelled as a mark of respect following his death, and meetings on Wednesday and Thursday will also not take place.

In a statement Mr Sargeant's family said: "Carl was a much loved husband, father and friend.

"He wasn't simply a part of our family. He was the glue that bound us together.

"He was the most kind and caring husband, father, son and friend. We are devastated beyond words, and we know our grief will be shared by all those who knew and loved him."

Analysis by Vaughan Roderick, BBC Welsh affairs editor

The Senedd, in the wake of the death of former Welsh Government minister Carl Sargeant, is a place in shock.

I do not remember an atmosphere anything like this.

There is, among some senior Labour figures, a growing sense of concern and anger at the process where the government or the Labour Party appear not to have exercised their duty of care over Mr Sargeant after he faced accusations about his behaviour.

There are people who spoke to Mr Sargeant on Tuesday morning who were told that he still did not know what the allegations were.

Carwyn Jones's future could be on the line here. This is a trauma that could become a political crisis unless he comes up with the answers that Labour AMs in particular want to hear.
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Paying tribute, the first minister said: "Carl was a friend as well as a colleague and I am shocked and deeply saddened by his death.

"He made a big contribution to Welsh public life and fought tirelessly for those he represented both as a minister and as a local assembly member."

The prime minister's spokesman said in relation to the "sad news" about the death of Carl Sargeant, that Theresa May's "heart goes out to Carl Sargeant's friends and family".

Mr Corbyn said the AM was "somebody who represented our party" and "worked hard to represent his communities".

The Labour leader said that all allegations must be examined and pursued but added: "There must also be great pastoral care and support given to everybody involved in these accusations, and also that we deal with them, all parties, as quickly as possible."

Speaking through tears, former local government minister Leighton Andrews told BBC Radio Wales: "Carl Sargeant was loved. He was loved across the political divide. He was loved by the people in his own community.

"Carl was a unique politician. He arrived in the assembly from the factory floor. He grew up and still lived in the council estate that helped shape his roots in Connah's Quay - he was still very much part of that community.

"My understanding is that Carl was still not aware of the detail of the allegations against him even though, I'm told, this morning."

Former Plaid Cymru AM Rhodri Glyn Thomas said Mr Sargeant "clearly felt he had been found guilty before he had a chance to defend himself.

"So I think we need to develop a system which is fair to everybody, which defends everybody, but doesn't place people in a position where they feel they have no opportunity whatsoever to fight their cause."

Tributes were paid across the political divide on Tuesday.

Conservative Welsh Secretary Alun Cairns said he was "shocked and saddened" by the news, adding: "My heart goes out to his family, friends and colleagues."

Elin Jones, assembly presiding officer, said Mr Sargeant "served the people of Alyn and Deeside with pride and determination" and that he had made an "enormous contribution to the development of this democratic institution".

Welsh Conservative leader Andrew RT Davies said: "Our Parliament has lost a stalwart and many of us have lost a friend."

Plaid Cymru leader Leanne Wood said: "Carl Sargeant made a significant contribution to Welsh politics, both as an assembly member and a government minister."

UKIP Wales leader Neil Hamilton described him as a "gentle giant" who would be "missed across the party divide".

Liberal Democrat Kirsty Williams, who was a colleague of Mr Sargeant's in the Welsh Government, said: "Not only was Carl a dedicated local AM, but he was an effective government minister who had a significant impact across political life at a national and community level."

FC Nomads, the Connah's Quay football team that Mr Sargeant was president of, cancelled all games this weekend in a mark of respect.

North Wales Police Supt Mark Pierce said police were called at about 11:30 GMT on Tuesday to a report that a man's body had been found at an address in Connah's Quay.

"The man has been formally identified as local AM Carl Sargeant. His next of kin have been informed and police are supporting the family," he said.

"North Wales Police are not treating his death as suspicious and the matter has been referred to HM Coroner."

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An ex-Welsh Labour minister who faced a party investigation into allegations about his personal conduct has taken his own life, it is understood. Carl Sargeant, 49, lost his job as cabinet secretary for communities and children last Friday. He was suspended from Labour after the first minister learned of a number of alleged incidents involving women.

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Ex-detectives who disclosed that legal pornography was found on Damian Green's office computer were in "flagrant breach" of their code of conduct, a former attorney general has said.

Dominic Grieve said their actions smacked of the "police state".

However, a former chief constable told the BBC the information was in the public interest.

First Secretary of State Mr Green denies watching or downloading pornography on his computer.

Tory MPs, including Brexit Secretary David Davis, have backed Mr Green - effectively Theresa May's second-in-command - saying it was wrong for such claims to emerge through the media.

The allegations were first raised last month by former Met assistant commissioner Bob Quick, who led a 2008 inquiry into Home Office leaks which saw Mr Green's Commons office being searched.

A Cabinet Office report into Mr Green's conduct - which ranges wider than allegations of viewing pornography on an office computer, and covers accusations of inappropriate conduct - was launched in November.

'Very worrying'

On Friday, retired Scotland Yard detective Neil Lewis told BBC News "thousands" of thumbnail images of legal pornography had been found on Mr Green's parliamentary computer in 2008.

Scotland Yard has confirmed its department for professional standards was examining allegations that Mr Lewis had disclosed confidential information.

And speaking on BBC Newsnight, Mr Grieve described the decision by the officers to release such information from a police investigation as "very worrying".

"They choose to put material that an ordinary citizen would be prohibited from acquiring under data protection rules into the public domain on their own judgment."

Mr Grieve, attorney general in David Cameron's government between 2010 and 2014, said: "If you think something is relevant you do it by proper official means. You do not go freelancing as these two officers have done...

"We give the police powers that other people do not have. They are not and must not be allowed to abuse those powers."

Former Gloucestershire chief constable Tim Brain defended the officers on Newsnight, saying they had come forward with what they considered "relevant information" to an ongoing inquiry.

Mr Brain added: "Let's just think about this as a workplace computer and to think whether we are happy that people, our MPs, can have this kind of material on what is an official computer...

"We need to have some answers now this information is in the public domain."

'Willing to resign'

On Friday, sources close to David Davis told the BBC the Brexit Secretary had warned Downing Street not to sack Mr Green as a result of a "wrongful attempt by former officers to do him down".

One said Mr Davis might be willing to resign over the issue, although another stressed no threat had been made.

"It's right that allegations of misconduct towards individuals are properly investigated," said an associate of Mr Davis. "But police officers have a duty of confidentiality which should be upheld".

What is the row all about?

The allegations date back to November 2008 when the Conservatives were in opposition and Damian Green was their immigration spokesman

He embarrassed the Labour government with a series of leaks about illegal immigration and other issues

Police raided his Parliamentary office as part of an inquiry into how he got his hands on confidential documents

His office computer was seized and he was detained for nine hours - sparking fury among Tory MPs

No charges were brought against the MP or civil servant Christopher Galley, who passed unauthorised material to Mr Green, although the official was sacked

The officer in charge of the inquiry, Bob Quick - widely criticised by Tory MPs for the raid - resigned six months later over an alleged security breach

But a month ago, Mr Quick disclosed that pornographic material had been found on the seized computer, adding that the police had not pursued the matter at the time or told Mr Green about it

The matter has since been investigated by the Cabinet Office as part on a wider inquiry into claims of inappropriate behaviour by Mr Green towards journalist Kate Maltby

The inquiry is believed to centre on the ministerial code, which sets out the standards of conduct expected of government ministers.

Other MPs to criticise the action of the former officers included the chairman of the Commons culture committee Damian Collins.

He told BBC Radio 4's Any Questions the "Cabinet Office is running that investigation. They should receive and see any evidence that's pertinent to it."

The DUP's leader at Westminster, Nigel Dodds, said "police are not above the law" and their actions had been "totally wrong".

Speaking to reporters at his Kent home on Friday, Mr Green said: "I have maintained all along and I still maintain - it is the truth - that I did not download or look at pornography on my computer, but obviously while the investigation is going on, I can't say any more than that."

is also looking at a separate claim that Mr Green, made inappropriate advances towards a female Conservative activist in 2015. He also denies that allegation.

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Defence Secretary Sir Michael Fallon has resigned, saying his behaviour may have "fallen short" of the standards expected by the UK military.

He told the BBC that what had been "acceptable 15, 10 years ago is clearly not acceptable now".

He is the first politician to quit following recently revealed claims of serious sexual abuse in Parliament.

The BBC understands fresh claims about his behaviour were raised on Wednesday, but Downing Street refused to comment.

Political editor Laura Kuenssberg said that sources close to him do not believe he is "some kind of predator", but that he had not felt that he could guarantee that he would be able to account for every encounter in his long ministerial career.

Theresa May said she appreciated the "serious manner" in which Sir Michael had considered his Cabinet role.

She also praised the "particular example you wish to set servicemen and women and others".

'Below high standards'

In his resignation letter, Sir Michael said: "A number of allegations have surfaced about MPs in recent days, including some about my previous conduct.

"Many of these have been false but I accept that in the past I have fallen below the high standards that we require of the Armed Forces that I have the honour to represent."

Sir Michael told the BBC it "was right" for him to resign and said: "The culture has changed over the years, what might have been acceptable 15, 10 years ago is clearly not acceptable now.

"Parliament now has to look at itself and the prime minister has made very clear that conduct needs to be improved and we need to protect the staff of Westminster against any particular allegations of harassment."

When asked if he thought he should apologise, Mr Fallon said: "I think we've all got to look back now at the past, there are always things you regret, you would have done differently."

He added that it had been a "privilege" to have been defence secretary over the past three and a half years.

In response Mrs May accepted his resignation and paid tribute to "a long and impressive ministerial career - serving in four Departments of State under four prime ministers".

Profile: Michael Fallon

Sir Michael Fallon had an interrupted parliamentary career that spanned four decades and two constituencies.

In March 1983, he lost the Darlington by-election to Labour's Oswald O'Brien, only to win it 77 days later after Margaret Thatcher called a general election.

But in 1992 his career in government stalled after he lost his Darlington seat to Labour's Alan Milburn in the General Election.

He returned to Westminster in 1997 after being selected as the Conservative candidate for Sevenoaks when MP Mark Wolfson retired.

During the coalition government he was appointed minister for business and enterprise, and then minister for energy.

He was then appointed minister for Portsmouth in 2014 by David Cameron - a post which was created after the loss of jobs in the local shipyard at arms manufacturer BAE Systems.

In the same year he succeeded Philip Hammond as defence secretary.

The resignation comes a day after a spokesman for Sir Michael confirmed that he was once rebuked by a journalist, Julia Hartley-Brewer, for putting his hand on her knee during a dinner in 2002.

The spokesman said Sir Michael apologised when it happened.

Ms Hartley-Brewer, a former political editor of the Sunday Express and regular political commentator, told BBC Radio 4's The World Tonight: "If he has gone because he touched my knee 15 years ago, that is genuinely the most absurd reason for anyone to have lost their job in the history of the universe, so I hope it is not because of that."

Former Conservative leader Iain Duncan Smith said he was sorry to see Sir Michael go, but it showed leadership from the prime minister who "read the riot act" to her cabinet.

He told BBC Radio 4's The World Tonight: "Theresa May made it very, very clear... that it was simply unacceptable that people in positions of power over others should then abuse that position to solicit things that otherwise would not be granted to them."

Labour MP Ruth Smeeth told the BBC: "I think we're all very shocked this evening, however we've got to look at what happens next. For me, it's who is going to replace him, how quickly.

"There's a lot going on and this is not the time for instability at the top of the Ministry of Defence."

General Sir Mike Jackson, former head of the British Army, said members of the armed forces would be "sad" to see Sir Michael go.

He told the BBC: "It's clearly a personal decision he's come to, and so be it."

Following a range of recent allegations, including claims of a lack of support for those making complaints, Mrs May has written to party leaders calling for the "serious, swift, cross-party response this issue demands".

The prime minister said a "common, transparent independent grievance procedure" for all those who work in Parliament was needed and that it "cannot be right" for policies to vary between parties.

Labour, meanwhile, has launched an independent investigation into an activist's claim that she was discouraged by a party official from reporting an alleged rape at a party event in 2011.

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Defence Secretary Sir Michael Fallon has resigned, saying his behaviour may have "fallen short" of the standards expected by the UK military. He told the BBC that what had been "acceptable 15, 10 years ago is clearly not acceptable now". He is the first politician to quit following recently revealed claims of serious sexual abuse in Parliament.

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1. “He cheated on me several times. I stayed with him because every ounce of confidence I once had was gone. I wanted to break up with him but felt as though he was the best I could get." —Kasi, 23

Another confession:

"According to this Whisper woman, she confessed that she is having an affair with a married man and she does not feel guilty about it. She than asks, “what does that say about me?” Unfortunately, to a majority of the population, not many people are going to say kind things about your character. If you put yourself in his wife’s shoes, maybe, then, you’ll feel what it’s like to have your loved one mistreat you. But on the opposite side of the spectrum, maybe this Whisper user has never felt love before. Maybe she doesn’t know what it’s like to love a person so much later to find them cheating on you. Either way, both sides are guilty here, and I hope this person learns a lesson in respect or empathy sooner rather than later."

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It's selfish...sleeping with him.

I know what I'm doing. But I don't care.

I'm aware that every moment with him I'm stealing. Im a thief, a cheat, a whore. I'm unravelling the family ties right under their noses. And I don't care.

I don't care that his wife is sat at home, old and lonely and wondering. Let her wonder!  Let her imagine all those things he could be getting up to! Because that's not me! He likes me! He likes me.

His wife's boring, always has been. Their relationship is cold! He'd get frost bite if he went near her! But not me. I'm different, I'm young and I'm exciting.

And you know what? It feels so good!

When I see him at public conferences side by side with her but looking at me... it makes me feel so... powerful, knowing something that she does not. I feel like a teenager again.

I see his daughter with him. And I, I try not to think about her because if I think about her too much I start to think about what I'm doing and how I care, how a suddenly really do care.  But I'm selfish.

I see them standing there, cameras flashing, a family- a broken one but... a family. I've always wanted a family.

But no, I can't think that! That's such a stupid, stupid thought... and yet I think it.

You see, I'm the affair. I don't get to think up fairytales of babies and busy homes. I'm his distraction, just like he is to me. I knew this when I signed up for it! And yet I fight to ignore it.

He's cheated before. I'm not that dense. A man who's cheated once is prone to doing it again. I'm aware of that. But he likes me! He likes me.

And what was that? Tonight. He was with me one moment then gone the next. It was as if he was distracted. But I am the distraction! Me!

Is this what his wife must feel like? The paranoia? The self doubt?

Because something was on his mind. Someone...

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