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MENTAL HEALTH IS NOT QUIRKY

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Being uncertain about what to do in the future is a common and inevitable fear. This is like the doubt that you find yourself in when someone asks you what you want to do 10 years down the road. You will never predict exactly what you will face or will your drive or passion in something die down, leading to failures that could have avoided. Is planning for the future even a thing successful people do? Or, it is really down to gut feeling and luck? (Logic: Black Swan Theory)
With that said, when others around me say something that I only plan to do a few months or even a year after, am I even prepared for the future. Missing out opportunities that are given or were there for you but never taking it for one reason or other, it is both disheartening and scary. What if it is a key experience you need for your future prospects?
After this, there comes the problem of not having a true fully-bloomed passion. Kind of like those that like job-hopping (idk…. if this is a good example). What if you want to pursue two largely differing passions? Do you have the time and means to do both?
All of these is what I worry about single day: Uncertain future, opportunities wasted, finding solid goals.
On a side note: proving myself to people is a secondary concern that affects 40% of my decisions.

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I feel a bit overwhelmed with many projects and expectations to meet at the same time. Also troubled over family issues.

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spend too much time on other things to avoid studying

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- doing well for o levels exam, at the same time debating abt which jc would benefit me the most etc.
- parents’ relationship hasn’t been the best and i have always been the middleman to pass on their msgs to one another
- future seems really uncertain because i still have no idea on what career or pathway i would like to pursue in the future
- my parents don’t stress me too much about results, however i have high expectations for myself so as to not disappoint the people around me
- there has been a huge change in my household recently, and we hope this new change can really work out well and not create even more chaos within the household
- at times, i don’t necessarily have someone whom i can fully open up to, due to the fear of being judged etc.

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my efforts feel unappreciated or futile

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- having to constantly put on a facade not being able show how i truly feel

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unable to go to the jc i want after seeing my results

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i’m quite sensitive so i would keep all my emotions in, that stresses me a lot too because i’m constantly thinking abt these negative thoughts

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olvls

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not having anyone there for me

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o levels and expectations of myself
trying to find a method to study each subject

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struggling to keep a healthy mentality

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i feel like i dwell too much on words or actions of the people around me to the point where i would overthink and not be able to focus on anything else. this often leads me to insomnia or no motivation to complete my work, which indirectly affects my results too. i'm also afraid that i wouldn't be able to do well for my o levels or dsa successfully + financial situation

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i have a lot of troubles with my mom with our communication and things since her expectations and views or opinions aren’t as open as i hope for them to be and sometimes she can be very hypocritical and unempathetic as well

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My mom said to get 6 A1s and 2 A2s as a joke but I still feel pressured.

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-Self Validation to make sure i am doing what i aim to become(academic validation)
-O levels
-Perfectionism and how it has shaped me as a person to aim for perfection but the despair of never achieving it
-The inability to balance my work-life (too much burden)
-This thing has been bugging me out lot and i realised that i become too hung up on previous mistakes i made. I tend to judge myself for my past actions, “why did you say that”, “what is wrong with you”, “you’re never good enough”, “who do u think u are”. It made me ponder why i even make certain decisions. I would think long and hard about my friendships and terms with people and i struggle to satisfy myself. Its as if i can never become who i really want to and it’s sickening to expereience the dissatisfaction over and over again; it’s almost never enough.It feels as if i’m never enough

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o level is a challenge because i want to do well and get into the school im aiming for but somehow i just don’t feel motivated enough

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Not knowing where i can go after o levels

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I’m stressed by my academics as my parents are looking forward to my o lvl grades.
I’m also stressed as due to many reasons I keep my emotions and they accumulate

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o levels
pressure to do well
Unsure of career choices
overthinking

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When I feel like I’ve already tried my best but people telling me  otherwise and try more

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not being good enough

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Not understanding the topics in class

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my future looks so bleak I can’t find anything to look forward to

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Always comparing me to someone else and saying im never good enough or am useless if i dont do well

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expectations

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unable to manage my time properly

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stressed about being unable to communicate with parents about their expectations

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- olevels
- meeting my own expectations
- financial problems at home
- relationships with my friends
- ability to cope with my own stress
- managing my time
- unable to find time for my self

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stressed to keep up with school work and parents’ expectations

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Challenge: finding a balance between studying and  spending time with my loved ones

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arguments with family over results

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procrastination

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O levels

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school

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o levels

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the ability to stay motivated

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Parents expectations for exam results

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Being told that I’m not doing enough when I’m trying my best

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O level

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O levels

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Stressed to improve and do well for my exams

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stress to do well

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Exams