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so many lives.
so many people with so many goals and dreams.
all it took was one person.
then we were exposed to this insufferable virus.
when will it end?
will I ever be able to be safe outside without a mask?

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see you later
14 days, only two weeks
now a couple of months
I´ll see you eventually
It been a year

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to may death
riot everywhere
fire spreading
20220

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We are fine
It not that serious
shuting down school
calm down
well be fine

# data[].attributes.body
Covid whats that
a virus
no school thats great

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Insecurities.
Something we all got, but nobody will talk about theirs.
I think about it often because the saying "we are our own worst critics" is always in my mind.
We can't help but think about how others see us but that ruins our own self image sometimes and can result in a loss of self love.

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Worried.
I am always worried about what is going to happen next.
Paranoia steeps over me at all times.
Too scared to explore new things I miss opportunities all the time.
Maybe I will get better one day.

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Until I See You Again, Warning, Virus, and Break Down-Kyla Sinclair

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Until I See You Again, Warning, Virus, and Break Down-Kyla Sinclair

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I'll hold the pictures we took in my hands As the memories warm my heart, and I cherish making them with you again. The day will turn to night and the night will turn to day but as long as we take solace in our memories. That's where I will meet you anyways.

Warning. Please beware. There's a virus killing people outside, but it's not any safer in here. First a cough, then a sneeze then everyone holds a bated breath." He has a  high fever" they announce. Then our hearts drop what a way to announce our death.

People claim that I am a virus that I brought this tragedy to their land. I am no longer a human being but a mock dummy for racist antics on their end. I hurt, I cry, and I scream in pain. Why? Because I'm an alien in my own home such a shame.

I wanna break down the windows. Break down the walls. So that everyone can hear me throughout these empty halls. Locked inside I feel caged away, while the big bad virus runs around taking people without delay. Now I must stay inside these four- white walls or someone might die unwillingly before night falls.

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The city shuts down
No one to be found
It sucks being inside
With no one by your side.
Everyone is sick and hopeless
I just want to see my friends

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in class sleepy
i cant stay awake
the teacher has to teach from home
how long thats going to take

# data[].attributes.body
Now we are growing Happier and
We are feeling more joy

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Modern generation,
Creation of virtual reality,
But to me it seems like a fatality,
To human,
Why do we need this virtual world,
To make worlds look real,
To experience something,

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Once, we used to live well.
Meeting with my loved ones,
our families and my friends.
Today, we are forced to remain confined to our home.
No schools, no churches, no meetings.
Everyone is obliged to wear a mask and respect the prevention tips in order to fight against this disease which is called coronavirus.

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Joining class then going to sleep

Teachers asking questions but not a peep

Blank screens all around

Nothing heard not a sound

Multiple missing assignments

Wishing we could already put this behind us

Promises of finishing it tonight

What’s the harm in waiting till tomorrow right?

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A new hair color

A different skin routine

I have become my best self during quarantine

I’ve learned a lot about self care

But going on lockdown again I couldn’t bare

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On an anxious excursion to shock the town
In very bad need of a talk down
the outcome was brutal
With plans rendered futile
The year of the soul-crushing lockdown.

# data[].attributes.body
On an anxious excursion to shock town
In very bad need of a talk down
the outcome was brutal
With plans rendered futile
The year of the soul crushing lockdown.

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I feel tired
I wanna be able

To go out
Have fun
Be free

Without

Wearing masks
Having people stare
Being social distanced

I feel tired
I just want to have a normal

Conversation.

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I wanna go home

I scream it to the window
From the comfort of my bed
To exhausted to pull the covers over my shoulders

I whisper it to the shadows
At another building I've tried to call my own
Another family where I'm a puzzle piece
That doesn't
Quite
Fit

I breathe it out as I pass your house
Do you still live on this street?
Are you still there, playing games and drawing?
Are you still going on without me?

I think it as I retrieve my sister from school
This building wasn't so tiny back then
I will never sit criss cross in these classrooms again
I have never be that free

But home isn't anywhere I look
I don't think it ever was
It's not in the room I sleep in that's full of storage boxes
It's not in the bed against the corner of another kids wall
It's not in my old friends house
Nor is it hidden under school desks

Being alone made me think
Home is where the heart is
But I broke my heart off one piece at a time
To give to others in hopes of getting back
Home is in someone's arms

But his arms are now ashes
And she cares for me not
Their limbs are nothing but pearly white bones
And I want to go home.

But we can't go anywhere right now, can we?

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there was a point when i got teary eyed
but i held it back
i had went to my grandma house for the first time in a while
and she didn't want to hug
like i was a living disease
and i realized that covid got me messed up
hugging my granny was the one thing i always did and to not do it almost broke me.

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my first time back out the house i went to walmart
i didn't realize how desocialized from society i had became
i was dodging everyone like one touch would kill me
i was uncertain of what to do in that place because everything felt weird
i just adjusted overtime

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I'm bored all day.
what is there to do,
In the house all-day
like a coop.

Feels like the same day
over and over.
I wish I could find a
four-leaf clover.

With each day passing by,
I'm closer to being satisfied.
Almost like a goodbye
to this terrible quarantine tide

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What started out as a two week break

Turned into an almost 2 year wait

Arguments on whether or not to mask

Struggling with school trying to pass

Covid has changed me in many ways

Because no one wants to work I get a pay raise

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i heard that phrase a lot during quarantine
that this is the time to care for yourself and nit others
well i think i took that too far
i took a lot of time caring for myself with too much sleep and too much food
but i was just tryna follow the trend

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My life changed,
my perspective changed,
covid changed me.

I will never be the same,
again.

Thank you,
Covid

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All locked up,
Almost no
humans out.
work shut down.

Now,
turned to
A chance of healing.

After so long,
damage by mankind,
Earth
was able to
heal.

But,
Not anymore.

Will it ever have a chance to heal?
Again?

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Covid hit,
everything shut down,
couldn't even go back,
to my hometown,

Got a face mask at all times,
gotta be indoors all the time,

covid took all our freedom,
people ask me,
how you doin,
i tell them im fine,
but im not fine,
i say that,
so i can be left alone

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Yelling the constant yelling
People becoming sickly and dying
The corrupt greed is showing its teeth
and the blood on its hands

The smoke in the sky
coughing
wheezing
falling.....

Dying...

Its been only a few weeks and we lost
we lost everything
we lost 3.7 billion people

most decide to live underground
they won't last though

Their sins will be their own undoings
and I'm just here to watch them suffer
as these meaningful tasks turn grey
and my world fades into insanity

And I watch knowing that we're all done for

-File Archive 2140

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school is virtual,
the start of the end

no faces,
no voices,
only chats.

teachers giving work,
making videos for lessons.

school is not the same.

I want to go back,
but not at the same time.

senior year,
parents say I'm not going back.

what does this mean?

early graduation,
Sign me up.

I guess it wasn't
the start of the end.

It was the beginning to
new opportunities for me.

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Self Care is the best care
Self Care is like the vaccine

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This can't be happening
it's definitely not, or is it?
Nope not at all
I refuse to believe.
My heart is telling me one thing,
but my mind is telling me another.
A devil on one shoulder,
with an angel on the other.
Who do I trust,
what do I believe
It's definitely not happening it can't be!

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Happy then sad
mad then glad
excited then disappointed
woke then tired

# data[].attributes.body
Now is my time,
working hard on myself
completing the obstacles,
with many challenges.
Making sure my mind is healthy
and my thoughts are clean.

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Lost and confused,
not sure what to do.
So many questions,
with not enough answers.

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Meeko SuaveA is my favorite rapper
I mean he is just so talented and so exiting
I just can get enough of his music.

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Too tired to think
too tired to do anything
all this since quarantine
mood changes every time I blink

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I've never seen their faces
Avery loves to get work in on time
Mark does good work but doesn't care about showing up to class
Mako and Justin have been friends since 5th grade
I've never seen their faces
Joy has health issues but loves to express her feelings in her work
Kori likes to goof around, he just wants everyone to laugh
Malik wants to be a doctor one day
Page is scared of the future even though she has wonderful talent
I've never seen their faces
Kailey has a soft sweet voice and has a pet cat
Majesty is good at hair but loves history more than a lot of things
David likes to rap but it sometimes messes with his focus
Tina could conquer the world she just doesn't have the confidence to do do
I may never see their faces

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Months of working behind a screen
Makes you want to scream
Struggling to wake up
Thinking everyday a dream

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Dancing
is a way to express yourself

when things get tough
dancing makes you feel free

Dancing can be the key

Sometimes Dancing Helps
dancing can be for fun

just being
yourself

# data[].attributes.body
What is wrong with lying sometimes
when it feels good, when you hide it, when your safe from a near punishment.
Also to cover severe judgement

Whats wrong with Honesty, When it shows what type of person you are, when it leads to skepticism, when it helps know whats the side of things.

Why does Honesty hurt sometimes
but lying hurts worse, all I ask is to remain the best ploicy once you live throughout this life

HONESTY

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Exhausted, lonely
Alone, empty
I'm just over it
I'm tired
Bored but busy
But it doesn't matter.
Keep going and going
No matter your mental health
Is what they say
I can't I reply
Why?
I'm tired.

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How do we take care of ourselves?
How do we consistently wake up in the morning knowing how to start the day? Waking up positive.
Sitting still at the edge of the bed wondering how your day will stand.

# data[].attributes.body
the most important year of my high school education was the worst year of my high school education.
I was never an A+ student,
but I did pretty good in school
until there was no school to go to
because a disease spread and the  world couldn't overcome it
now I'm in school and doing better
with only the goal to graduate since colleges won't look at senior year grades.

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My family is coming over this weekend.
Am I going to have to hug them?
I haven't given anyone a hug in a while.
I think I forgot how to properly hug someone.

What if I don't hug them correctly?
How can I mess up a hug?
It's been over 100 days since my last hug.
They won't stop hugging me.

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No,
the little bakery down the street is still open and selling strawberry filled goodness
No,
My friends are still outside waiting for me to join them with my bike
No,
My grandma is still happy and planning on what to cook tonight
No,
I just caught a simple cold and my mother is waiting for me to come home
Yes,
My world is ending because of one word

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Remember my touch
the way you hold me while I was upset
Make sure the love we had never fades
The moment we share stays with you
Until I see you again

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on my heart, there's the girl
on my mind, there's the booty
on my head, there's my hair
in my room playing call of duty
on the shelf my past life
I retired Pimpin
but I ain't simpin
I'm just waiting for covid to do some forgiven
you know the vibes
but do the vibes know you

Dead Poets Honor🌶️🌶️🌶️.

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People exercise while I lay here
My bed my favorite place

From Tiger king to On My Block
It felt as if I'd finished every Netflix show there was.

Procrastination at an all time high.

Pandemic fatigue a new normal
almost like a sickness
no motivation
little happiness
hope lost

At least there's t.v.

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The fourth lines ending says hard drive

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Be happy they say, live life they say.
When how could I live knowing that life is limited?

Be happy they say, make the best out of this. Why should I be? What will change in the mist?

Be happy they say, Think outside of the box they say. It's almost like I'm stuck in a box. same cycling air. With no space. No change. Matters are only growing worse.

I guess I will just understand fate.

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These walls are closing on me
Why am I so dizzy
Please Help
I have no memory of what Outside feels like
I just need to be out there
But I cannot be.

# data[].attributes.body
Reality is nothing but a dream manifested.
Someone manifested this curse.
The old and ill.
The animals and extinction.
The countries and unnecessary sacrifices.

# data[].attributes.body
Here ye, Here ye.
Maybe I might be.
Outside ye must go.
Is it just me or these months go by slower.
Maybe I need to buy something.
Maybe.
I will be back.

# data[].attributes.body
The reality is that it´ll be a while
until we´re able to smile.

Who really knows how long it´ll be.

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Seeing nothing but art,

Crowding around a table

with lots of food for thanksgiving.

Saying prayer before feasting

and gaining 10 pounds.

Mashed potatoes and gravy fill my plate,

As we make our way

to put our Christmas tree up.

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Blew at the fact that life changed.

Blew at the fact that everything only got more stressful.

Blew at the fact that life feels like a game of live or die.

Blew at the fact that everything that I ever knew is different.

Blew that this is the new norm....

What's next?

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It was my time to shine
But I guess rona outshined me

# data[].attributes.body
Until I see you again
physical touch has now came to an end
talking only on video calls
seperated between walls
in this room that was once loud and warm and filled with love
is now cold and emtpy
i sit here alone waiting
until i see you again

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Break from school
Break from teachers
Break from Emails
Break In general

# data[].attributes.body
Glistening and gleaming,
Showing and revealing
Open and trusting, never dealing.
I am the sky.

# data[].attributes.body
I'm tired
but I'm not giving up
some how I need
to get through
all this discomfort
covid nineteen don't stay
in my life

# data[].attributes.body
I saw black screens
every single day
monday through friday
all I could see was one person
the teacher, talking
I would just close my eyes
& went back to sleep

# data[].attributes.body
Depressed and low

But then I see your text
I felt bright and happy
I felt like you loved me
Hugged me
Made me feel like I was yours

You saved me..

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Where do we go now?
Do we go left? maybe right ?
Cant go back, wont go.

# data[].attributes.body
Words that can't explain
themselves

Feelings that can't express
themselves

Love that will never be
revealed

Pain that will never be
healed

My heart's true
heartbeat
want's to stay hidden

Because it has no one to showcase its true self to.

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I am strong, no weight to heavy
but what weighs in my chest I cannot lift
from 400 pound leg presses
to
200 pound benchpresses
no conditioning
training
sports
can prepare you for the heaviest weight of all
not even the strongmen of the world can lift this
Loss is the heaviest weight of all.

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"life put on hold"
people scrambling for answers
panic and worry spreads thoughout
when will everything get normal again?

"stay at home"
imprisoned in your home
early curfews and long days
how will i survive?

"schools in closure chaos"
from classrooms and learning
to zoom calls and barely passing
where do i go from here?

"under chaos!"
people arguing over preventions
shelfs emptying and stores rationing
when will this end?

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a void in which your mind can escape
anything can happen
you can imagen something and it will appear
wish for something to disappear its gone

# data[].attributes.body
Told me we would always be together
No warning
Told me you would always love me
No warning
Told me I was your everything
No warning

Now you're gone
No warning
Sleeping with the earth
No warning
Leaving me cold in our sheets
No warning
No longer feeling you breathe in union with me

No warning

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trust
trust in family
trust in friends
trust is what you had
trust is going to end
trust no longer available

# data[].attributes.body
It was easy.

I wasn't going to school
Or leaving my house
I could do whatever
I wanted.

But then it became
The same thing
Everyday.

Make breakfast,
Go to school
Make Lunch,
Go back to class
Do homework,
Make dinner,
Go to sleep.

It was easy
at first.

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It nips at the edges
bites at your ankles
tears at your ribcage
and sinks into your heart
but I am not speaking of the Corona Virus.
But one of love.
It spreads just as easy
and can kill just as swift
It strikes when your vunerable
and sieges when your fortified.
No matter your immune system or your vaccine
Love will always find a way
to enter your bloodstream.

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Ugh another day of school
This screen hurts my eyes
Too many days of just
a bright screen can be a pain
in the optic nerve
only person I see is a teacher
along with black screens

# data[].attributes.body
Man I could use a break
You must think that Im talking about hard work
or long hours
No
Im talking about break.
I want a break from the break.
I miss people, I miss touch
I miss going out to walk
I miss going out to talk.
Please oh please
lift this break before I snap
and get out of place.

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From Afar From Afar
Did you think we would get this far?
Like twins separated at birth
or lovers whos light burnt out
but this relationship has no love at all
because learning from afar
is not love at all
so I will keep away doing it
From Afar From Afar

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I have a quartz.
Its rough around the edges.
Its center is smooth.
That's how quarantine feels.
Rough yet smooth.

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Over 365 days.

I've been in my home everyday,
For over 365 days.

Alone but with my family.

The same
5
People
For over
365 days.

Coming back to school was the first time
I had been in a large crowd
In over 365 days.

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Every sound
Every touch
Every little inconvenience
Causing my blood to pulse through my veins
Choking back the frustration
Unable to speak
I consume my emotions to spare others
My bubbles turning red
Vision becoming blurry
As i sit by and let this anger devour me

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denial
denial to come back to reality
denial to deal with socializing and doing school everyday
denial of leaving paradise we call home.

# data[].attributes.body
goals
quarantine made me rethink my goals,
rethink my reality
rethink my morals,
rethink my future,
i feel better than ever

# data[].attributes.body
reality
back in school
with kids
everyday
i forgot how to live in this reality.

# data[].attributes.body
It changed the way the world
works

Made you realize things
you should already

Gave you distance you
probably didn't want

And took away some
of you love ones

Covid changed and ruined a lot of things.

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So far 2020 has been a pain throughout
from death and sickness that cause harm

waking up, to virtual school every morning due to the alarm

Wonder if next year would be different and this year would be gone

Its causes introverts to be happy
It causes extroverts to become introverts

I haven't been myself lately
my hair has been curly to dreads
my eyes were looking out each way
to them seeing the same wall every day

My hair grew entangled and dirty,
I soon looked at the pick near my bathroom sink, thinking once I use it
It'll be a pitchfork pulling out my hair

I walked outside with a napless head of hair
reminding me of doubts that I've lived through
Dang!
life is like an afro

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Uncertainty about when this pandemic would end
Uncertain when we could go back to normal
Uncertain when we could go in public places without a mask
Uncertain when we wont have to worry about quarantine

# data[].attributes.body
People talk about the virus
staying away from others

But what everyone craves is
attention

being alone for so long
because of this

virus
trying to get things back to normal

# data[].attributes.body
Covid this covid
That, Quarantine made me fat
Now we're over that

# data[].attributes.body
A room is not a room without walls
A day is not a day without the sun
Outside is not outside without people
life isn't life without sadness
And you are not you without sleep

# data[].attributes.body
Once we live with no worry
Now wakes up not seeing our friends and family
We are force to stay and work from home
Hoping the world would go back to normal

# data[].attributes.body
We learned about a two week break on march 13th 2020

An entire month for spring break brings excitement to the school

The last day comes on march 17th and small amounts of fear builds up as people begin to wear masks

Virtual school starts as we get word that were not able to come back

Hope recedes

Fear radiates

Break

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Waking up everyday

to an alarm, just to turn on my computer

to “learn”.

Around the screen is just the teachers face

and a bunch of profile pictures.

“Turn on your camera”,

no one listened

Snow days are now virtual,

Ruined fun days.

Senior year now,

until I see you again sophomore year.

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The whole world as we know it changed before us.

No more hanging out.

No more visiting grandmas on sunday for our sunday cookouts.

Like a Zombie apocalypse had broken out.
The air we began to breathe was now unsafe.

Death roome amongst us and only is getting worse.

Who knows maybe this is how the world would end.

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Sometimes dancing helps
I dance by myself
I dance on a shelf
I dance with rage
my dawg dance in the cage
I dance in France
but only when I can
I dance like a pimp
I don't dance with simps
I dance with a milf
Her nickname is wilf
I told the girl don't yelp
become sometimes dancing helps

Dead poets honor🙏🙏.