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Today I came in on Monday 5th of June to mainly focus on editing so that I can hand in my project by Wednesday which is the extended deadline for me as I have an english exam on tuesday and lose out on some time. I achieved more than i thought i would today which is absolutely great because it means that's i am not behind schedule. i manged to complete the editing of my scene 1 and my scene 2 and start of scene 3 which is good because i only have a couple more scenes after that and they shouldn't take too long to edit as i have chosen to edit my piece in a very long and tedious way but at the start it was difficult to manage and figure out what was needed to be cut out and what i wanted to stay but as i have progressed with scene 1 and 2 i feel more confident in this editing style and am comfortable with the technique that i feel like i can take that knowledge and use it for future projects. I do feel myself slowly start to lose focus in this tedious task however what i thinked helped a lot was being in college on my study day where no one is around to distract me and i can just sit there and focus on what really needs to be done and have no distractions. I do always find myself sitting away from my other class mates because i know

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In todays lesson I mainly focused on completing some promotional material for my short film as I was going to start editing but when I went to start I realised that I left the footage on the SD card at hone and didn't have any footage to edit so now I am going to need to come in on my study day in order to finish the editing by the deadline. I have started making a website and I will include my final piece when it finished on the home screen and I am going to list every mental illness with information on them on the website so anyone can go on and research them and have a look at where they were included in my short film. I need to work on my organisation skills in order to stay on top of everything for this production and for future productions, forgetting my SD was a really bad mistake as it has delayed my editing by one day which isn't good because i am always busy on the weekend so it means i am going to have to come in on my study days and stay later in order to finish my editing by the deadline.

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Today I have booked out equipment to film within the motion room for my light scenes which I will include to show the emotion of the character throughout the duration of the film. I filmed these scenes in the afternoon and I think they went very well as it was pretty smooth interns of setting up the camera and other equipment however while filming the scenes I regret not making a separate shot list just for the lights and including which colour light to use and what action to have it do, I overcame this by reading over my narrative and storyboard and I managed to figure out which part is linked to which colour light and I completed it this way. in the future I will think bout this next time for sure as it would make it easy and more professional.

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In todays lesson I started off the day with helping out Beth William with her neon paint photoshoot which was a fun experience for me as I've never been in a photoshoot before and I was really interested in the whole neon paint look so I was excited to be apart of it.Although being in this photoshoot was using up precious time i could have been using to complete more pre-production and making my documents better, I came back to class and caught up on doing my personal target for the day and had a small meeting with Lorraine about where I am in terms of production and told her about when I am filming and where. I then continued to go back to my station and work on a production schedule which I will update everyday of how filming went and if experienced and problems with filming and the stage I am up too. This will ensure i stay on date to what i have put down to make sure i leave myself enough to edit and film etc.. so i don't fall behind on anything and miss the deadline, i will stay on target due to this production schedule. On the schedule I wrote when I am filming, when I am editing, the different dealings throughout the rest of the project and when I will start to make promotional material,. On that topic I started thinking about what promotional material I could do and I thought about making a website dedicated to the different mental illnesses included within my short film so that if the audience wants to know more then they can go to the website and have a look at the mental illnesses and leant more about them, i think this is especially effective for the audience's sake because it's somewhere they can go if they have questions about the film and want to know more on the mental disorders.

My influence for my film is a cinematographer called Casey Neistat, the reason he is my influence is because he makes these amazing short films full of amazing cinematic shots and manages to tell a story in a such an interesting way and thats what I've focused on telling a story in a way that will make it interesting for the audience to watch and learn from. I haven't really faced on the cinematography side of things as much because its being told though first person and it would be difficult to get cinematic shots in the POV angle.

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Todays lesson was purely focused on getting my task 1b completed. I had a look at the feedback Loraine gave me on showbie and it was just a couple spelling mistakes that I changed and I had to do my action plan which I decided to re do as it wasn't good enough to hand in and I added a bibliography full of the research I have completed over the past couple weeks. In the action plan I added: what I will be doing, what I need to complete that task, how long it would take etc... I put in all of the information relevant to that task. Once I finished the action plan and everything on task 1 I read over both documents making sure they are all ready for submission and done to the best ability and ready to get a merit which is what I am hoping to get. I also had a look at the pre-production documents I completed and had to re do my equipment booking sheet because the original file corrupted and I had to re do it, I could have overcome this by making copies of the document and uploading it to pallet or showbie but unlucky enough the equipment booking sheet was the only document I hadn't uploaded. As I have mentioned before in previous diary logs I am going to make copies of every document I do and make sure to save it properly and eject the device the right way to avoid things like this happening again.

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Research Portfolio of survey monkey results

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GODFATHER OF THE SWISHPAN; https://www.youtube.com/justinsuperstar CAMERA I SHOT THIS VID WITH; http://amzn.to/2miQWWS DRONE USED IN THIS VID; http://amzn.to/2d6cP7v BIG CAMERA; http://tinyurl.com/jn4q4vz BENDY TRIPOD THING; http://tinyurl.com/gw3ylz2 YOU NEED THIS FOR THE BENDY TRIPOD; http://tinyurl.com/j8mzzua WIDE LENS; http://tinyurl.com/jkfcm8t MORE EXPENSIVE WIDE LENS; http://tinyurl.com/zrdgtou SMALL CAMERA; http://tinyurl.com/hrrzhor MICROPHONE; http://tinyurl.com/zefm4jy OTHER MICROPHONE; http://tinyurl.com/jxgpj86 DRONE; http://tinyurl.com/h4ft3oy OLD DRONE (cheaper but still great);http://tinyurl.com/zcfmnmd EXPENSIVE CAMERA I DON'T USE ENOUGH; http://tinyurl.com/hurfrub follow me; on http://instagram.com/caseyneistat on https://www.facebook.com/cneistat on https://twitter.com/CaseyNeistat Music by https://soundcloud.com/dcuttermusic

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The Man Who Loved The Number 12 (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder Documentary) - Real Stories

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The Man Who Loved The Number 12 (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder Documentary) - Real Stories

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A remarkably intimate and moving film that offers an insight into the extreme Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Hugh is trapped in a world of endless order and repetition, where each day is spent with the same ritual placing of objects and counting in 12s. His condition places a huge strain on Hugh and his family.

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In today's lesson I caught up on the work I missed yesterday as I was unable to come in and got familiar with what pre-production there is and I singled out the pre-production documents that I believe would be useful towards my production, I did this by going through the documents and making a list on paper so I can tick them off a I go along and stay organised, I also made another folder on my USB full of the documents I want to complete and a folder where I will put my completed documents so stay on top of everything. I started by organising everything and I complete a crew profile for me and a production schedule which isn't finished just yet but these were two documents I manage to complete today as after lunch we had a workshop with dave on after effects which I personally found very useful, he went over the basic tools, 3D text, Colour gradient, some animation and some other small things on after effects. The workshop was really useful and interesting because it gave me an idea for an intro to my shortfall which I think will look much better than just a plain background and still text. I spent the rest of the afternoon experimenting with the animation and figured out something which I really like and am currently rendering at the moment and once its finished I can show this as an experiment and a test intro.

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This is an email I wrote to the clinic to try and get some first hand research from people who personally suffer from OCD

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[SURVEY PREVIEW MODE] OCD short film. Questionnaire for year 2 FMP. Survey

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This is a test version of OCD short film. Questionnaire for year 2 FMP., a survey I designed using SurveyMonkey: https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/Preview/?sm=otanyYjF6GNC_2FlbAYb0qGvuuHNREPyC1S_2BqS6yOhfvrUCITrU2vFrNXEpOfF2cCH66rausvQVJy3jeynrcHZOg_3D_3D I've sent you this test version so you can preview the survey.

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In todays lesson I started off the day with finishing my academic report for task 1, I mentioned a lot of research that I have already done and mentioned within the report how the research is and will be useful within my final project, doing this early research on OCD will help me establish a more factual understand on the mental health issue so that it is an educationally correct for the audience. After lunch I added the links to my bibliography and uploaded the updated version to padlet. I then went on to research OCD clinics and tried to find a helpline or email that I could get in contact with to have a interview with so that I can get a real perspective on what it is like living with OCD and the struggles it may cause on a day to day basis this interview if I am able to make it happen will be very good for my project as it will be more research that is linked to making my project more realistic and more enjoyable for my audience because it is all true facts instead of me making factual short film with nothing but guessing and false research. I have taken down the URL of the website and added the URL to my padlet page on the research section to evidence the research I have done, over the weekend I am going to come up with a survey to post so that I have some research gathered over the weekend and since I am busy over the weekends I will be doing some small bits of secondary research in my spare time. I will also start planning an email to send to the OCD clinic which I need to do as quick as possible since the deadline is this Thursday.

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https://www.ocduk.org/media

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In today's lesson we had another really useful workshop but today it was on photography and learnt about the contextual awareness of photography and how important it is to make sure that you can get the best grade possible, this means that you had to justify the visual, technical and contextual properties of the photography and for this you had to look out for many different ................ i

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In todays lesson before lunch i started to do some main research into OCD and to try jotting down some ideas and links which will help when i start to write up my secondary research, this helped because i started looking into some of the symptoms you get and the different things that people suffer with when they have OCD this helps me during my project because it gives me more opportunities to make my video as correct s possible. After lunch we had a workshop with dave where he basically went through different lighting we could use for our productions, the different settings on the camera such as Shutter speed, aperture, ISO, focus and white balance then he went over the different equipment we have available and showed us how to set them up and the different techniques we could use them for.

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A Day In The Life of OCD - Art Installation

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This was an art installation project used for a Visual Communications project at Humber Lakeshore in the Film and Media Production Degree Program. OCD was researched and people who live with OCD were interviewed to get the most accurate depiction. Enjoy.

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In todays lesson i focused on doing very small amount of research into mental health and learned about all of the different kind of disorders there are, this will be very useful to ward my final product because it means i can produce a more of a real representation of what it is like living with a mental health issue, this research also helps me decide different aspects to include in the video which people with mental health issues may find hard or struggle dealing with which will also put a nice professional aspect into my short film

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OCD- Through the eyes of someone diagnosed with it.

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OCD- Through the eyes of someone diagnosed with it.

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For too long, a vast majority of people in society have considered obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) to be all about hand-washing. It's time we talked more about OCD and spoke about the debilitating torment this illness can have and how hand-washing is in fact just one part of it all.

I've had OCD since the age of seven, but it was left undiagnosed and untreated until I turned 22. For years prior I had lived a secret life of ritualised hand-washing, hair pulling, counting syllables and trying to maintain a balance between good and bad.

I can only describe the 'OCD part of my brain' as noisy, and it is this noise that us who suffer with OCD can be scared to talk about. This might be through fear of what someone may say to us or through not wanting to admit there's even a problem. That was the case for me - the noise I had in my head, which I know better now as intrusive thoughts, was unbearable, yet admitting that they were a problem was something I was afraid to do for years of my adolescent life. I would lay in bed, night after night, going over each and every situation that I had encountered throughout the past day, frustrated at where I hadn't followed my rituals of handwashing, moving a certain way, or punishing myself for things that had gone wrong. The torment was awful. If things hadn't gone how I'd planned for them to, I'd punish myself in any way I could, just to 'get the balance right.'

As I grew older, my OCD symptoms were exacerbated by general life experiences, and I found my fear of contamination became stronger by the day. I wash my hands so vigorously and so frequently that they are now dry, cracked and very sore some days. I rely heavily on hand sanitisers which dry my hands out even more. I now also pull the hair from my eyebrows and eyelashes, and I'm left with noticeable gaps (thank goodness for make up!). Furthermore, I count syllables during conversations with my fingers - as you can imagine, this can be incredible annoying and I often don't seem as though I'm listening or that I've 'zoned out' when in fact I am repeating the sentences that have been said to me over and over in order to count the syllables correctly.

In terms of intrusive thoughts, these have changed and adapted also as I have become older. Some thoughts I still can't bear to share with anyone, but they make me feel like the most awful person in the world. Sometimes they are strong images, so vivid in my mind that I fear they will truly happen at any moment. On many occasions I have had to sit on the floor, shutting my eyes and turning my music up loud, in the hope I can drown them out. I suffer from severe panic attacks because of these thoughts, or if I haven't followed out my rituals as I need to. They leave my exhausted and drained.

There is still so much stigma around OCD. A lot of individuals consider it to only be about germs and being untidy, yet this is so far from the truth. In fact, I can be a very untidy person, just ask my partner! And these misconceptions anger me, for they do not represent what it is truly like living day-in, day-out with this illness. Yes, my hands look as though they belong to someone three times my age at times, but this is only one segment of the chaos in my mind that is OCD.

Now that I have come to terms with my diagnosis and have learnt more about this illness, I have decided I want to talk about it more. I want to work towards breaking down the myths surrounding OCD in the hope that individuals who speak out about having OCD are treated with the same respect as they would a physical illness. Treatment for OCD can be difficult enough without adding stigma into the mix. Thankfully, I am now about to start some intensive therapy that will work out where my OCD originated and start to change my thought processes in the hope of easing symptoms.

If you suffer with OCD, I urge you to speak out and seek treatment. There are options out there including medication and talking therapies. Some things will work for you, and others won't. But I still have hope that one day I will be able to live alongside my OCD rather than it live my life for me. The stigma in society is a big enough issue in itself, but by not talking about the true reality of OCD, we are adding to the stigma too. So speak out, be proud, and believe that things will one day be better.
Kimberley Giles blogs regularly at musingsofananxiousgirl.blogspot.co.uk, and you can reach her on Twitter @LittleKimmyJane Read more personal stories >

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For too long, a vast majority of people in society have considered obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) to be all about hand-washing. It's time we talked more about OCD and spoke about the debilitating torment this illness can have and how hand-washing is in fact just one part of it all.

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Today was the first day of FMP and in todays lesson we didn't get much to do other than we got introduced the assignment brief for the FMP and went through everything as a class. After that we were told to go back and look through the brief independently so we can really understand what the project is and to start maybe noting down some idea for our final product and to start thinking about the research, proposal, pre-production, production and post. I decided to go through the whole assignment brief and highlight all different aspects of the project so if i wanted to go back and look at the brief its easier to fins the really relevant information that it is I'm looking for.

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