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This fitness test was a grand time! My anxiety was really hard to manage but the fitness portion helped. I was able to get rid of that fight or flight symptoms inside.

I have been dealing with my aging father. 5 girls and 2 boys and im the baby... im the only one who is helping my father. I am under so much pressure. The fitness assignment truly helped me keeping going when I felt like giving up on my dreams.

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Terrible picture…. My dads truck lights as he drive away to start his morning. Drives from Braeside Sand Point to work and always stops in the morning and at night. If he can’t in the morning he will at night … or reversed.

He’s been lecturing me about getting into trouble…. I’ve been hanging out with kailey  and Lydia but the age difference in the things they worry about feel like high school. Getting them to sit and do homework… it’s like taking the teeth and the hooves from a donkey…. Completely impossible. The ladies want attention, boys, alcohol and etc. I’m over that… 8 years ago lol Uhg

I get anxious. Especially our ASL video I was so annnnnnnoyyyyyedddd they waited til the day before. I wrote the paper, I made the video, I signed our activity and I did the presentation…. But got a lame 17/20
I had to use my words cuz someone didn’t finish their side and only made an activity ?! Obviously we have to sign it’s called ASL presentation?!  Was floored I was put on the spot… thankfully I’ve been in the field and learned.
Portfolio assignment…. Uhg …. Hate group work with people who don’t do homework right away. I puke so hard and dry heavy with anxiety of failing… I have so much to fall down if I fall…. It’s a lot for me.

Dad talks me through this, reminding me to be patient… I am at work but I expect more from individuals outside of work….

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Tobin trying to meditate in his moms room, ran in laughing forgetting. . . 🤣
His smile because Bowser is jumping on the bed, I did and so was his moms dog too.

This January will be 13 years, no breaks … old fashion love xo

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Brought Bowser to the vet and he’s 6 months this week and 80lbs. He has 100lbs to go. So happy to have a X-Large breed to sleep beside me and keep me safe on walks.

He’s highly submissive, awesome with cats… little dogs he lays on the grass to see them, and elders he lays down with his head on his paws…. Never trained him but the intelligent bump he’s hardwired to be smart with commands.

On my bad day this week, Bowser stayed with me and cried. As I was crying Bowser would put his head on my shoulder and lick my braid.  I had all my pets rubbing up on me…. They’re all sensitive to my feelings.

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Walked early in the morning to the river to watch all the birds take off.
I usually sit with my canon in Mud Lake taking pictures … so I know where the animals like to hangout.
Showing Bowser different animals and that we sit….. and don’t chase animals.

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Dads words before I left “watch where you’re going, pull over for the tractor levelling the trail and NO SPEEDING!!”

Well, I’m a need for speed person (outside of work)

Pulled to a full stretch and opened up passing the house… dads arms up. Lol did a 35 min walk in seconds. I use to race snowmobiles but not on dads machines.

- Christmas every year I sit outside waiting for anyone to come out go for a ride. The kids I stay in the field where there are no ditches between the fields.

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Head to the gym with or without anyone. Pushing my social anxiety to the back of my locker lol

I’ve been running the stair master L10 50 flights in 4:34… listening to David Goggins haha if you listen he’s awesome but the swearing is over the top.

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November 30th - had to come off the medicine made me feel… odd. Went to centre point for 4 hours to talk to my person.
I’ve been dealing with so much stuff, I’m shocked I’m passing. Usually I cannot focus on school when my home life is crazy. Tobin and I have a quiet home, just my family. Been a mess 4 people passed in a year and everyone’s fighting over stuff.
While I’m not apart and holding on the responsibility to care for my elder father.

Reason I get so emotional. Couldn’t imagine my dad not getting the care he needs.

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Total Steps: 57,319

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My screen shot reminds me why I’m in school.

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Cry at the gym if I need to… can’t stay home when Tobins not there. Been feeling really depressed inside.
I experienced a jumper from the apartments beside me …. Between my no smoking pills and this I’ve been struggling inside to not feel sad. I feel so bad the person came to that point and couldn’t ask for help.

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Total Steps: 74,463

Thursday I was really sick from changing to my new non smoking pills. Was very anxious, crying, depression stuff and more. I was a real mess that day… worth the struggle.

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The total will be on the next picture for the rest of the week for week 9

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I found myself in places and with people I was not looking for. I lost 10 people in two years, and before that, I was abused. Global Affairs of Canada investigating clearance for the minister's floors. I was sexually abused so darn much...

Between my abusive childhood, foster care, finding myself, losing myself at GAC, and losing all my family/friends... was so rough. East Way explosion and my 230LBS Cane Corso family dog passed in April this year truly wrecked me. Coming into September I sat hyperventilating wondering if I was going to have passed marks considering my pain.
I came from a very long and scary path to be where I am now. I am not going to lose myself again. I am not going to smoke cancer sticks anymore. I will not drink anymore. I will not eat something because others will be hurt if I don't, not worth my GI pain. I will be better for my family at home and for my dad. I cannot smoke while caring for my elder father who is trying to stop himself because of our talk about self-harm.

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I no longer feel gross, smell gross and taste gross poison inhaled. Starting to use all the machines! Went alone this time to go start my own good routine.

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Buddy System!!!! Kailey and I have been going to the gym this week a lot and having fun after. Having a friend with me during the symptoms for the medicine... dizziness and puking have been my go-to apparently. Kailey has been responsive when I felt dizzy and sick at the gym. DSW friends are honestly the best people to have in a circle.

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Out for a walk in the country with Bowser. Spot where nobody will ask if I am okay...

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My puppy was not feeling good. I was taking my medicine. I have been unable to do anything these past few days.
I cried a few times feeling overwhelmed by the discomfort.
I was upset that I had to go for walks with the dog mid-puking and dry heaving.

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Total Steps: 47,256

I did not count the days below 10,000 steps. This week I was unable to do anything to do the requirements.

I started taking 'varenicline' medication to stop smoking. Huge step for me, and it is helping. I could not stop myself... the older I get the more I notice how old habits can die with us. Made a huge change!

The symptoms made me unable to stand to go for a walk. Spent most of the days feeling sick to my stomach/puking. I always try but the medicine made it difficult the first few days.

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Dad planted a bunch of veggies for me in the garden. Brought me a massive garbage bag, and a few small bags.

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Total Steps: 68,051

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This week on Thursday after class. . .  I walked to college square to look for dog food. The main goal was to find a bag without chicken. My puppy hates chicken!

I could not find anything for 'Large Breed Puppy - No Chicken.' Everything for puppies with chicken in each bag. So I walked to Walmart on Baseline and Merivale Road without the bus. Waited for the bus without seeing one come. I kept walking thinking I'd be picked up soon. No bus to Walmart and back to Algonquin bus station. Got on the bus and walked another 20 minutes home.

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Bored waiting for my dad to finish a meeting. I do hang out with my dad a lot to ensure things are going okay. I love dad with my soul. . . he is my best friend. My passion for caring for others, animals, art and my mind from my dad.

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Went home for the night to fix the front steps for dad. Making it easier when the snow and the ice come. Next summer I will rip it apart and do it the right way. For now, the step will be good until the summer. I was so warm; I get waves of sweating... I blame my multiple anxieties.

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Dad and Bowser having a nap together on the floor after doing handy work. 60 years old, I was doing a lot of the lifting and chainsaw. Had to drive 3 hours back for dad as he slept in the passenger with both dogs in the back.

Was a chore... stopping to let each dog out being so big and strong. The new area for them to smell was distracting but Bowser needed the ground. First real long truck drive to the cottage. No accidents, just a lot of droll and soaking kisses.

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Outside coming back from a long walk off the Algonquin Trail passing in front of the farm.
Crossed over to go into the yard instead of the driveway.
Max- Hound Mastiff Corso
Bowser - Red Fawn Cane Corso Mastiff
Both purebred, but both rescued

Dad rescued max from a guy trying to sell a dog for weed. Dad had to go around at his flooring job in a goverment building to gather weed. The drugie refused cash... Dad does not smoke weed. Found what he needed and got the dog. Was a trick to say its stolen and wanted it back to do that deal again. Using the dog. But they came to the wrong man. Dad just said " come to my farm and get him" - they never showed up and max was safe at home.

Bowser was my best friends' grandmas' dog had babies by accident and had 16 Cane Corso puppies. Her grandma needed people to take them as having XL puppies can be a lot. Gave me a deal. First litter and only litter; was happy it was not a breeder. Being vegan and all that jazz.

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Bowser just adores my dad so much! Every time dad comes around, Bowser acts like I am not his owner. Pays no attention to me, while he sits with dad looking like "with my owner... you can leave lady."

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Yup early on the farm 4AM to help with chores and clean the wood pile. Dad wakes me up by turning on my light as he continues down to the kitchen.
5 girls and 2 boys not including me... I am the one dad calls or asks for help. Turning on my light is dad asking me to help him outside.
Went into the garage to work on the vet and replace the gas line/fuses.

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Dreaming of the day dad lets me use his bike, after my Algonquin bike course.
ZX 1200 R Ninja Bike -extremely fast.

Dad just came back from a ride into Arnprior and back. I drive all offroad machines, but this is my dream. Use to race with my dirtbike with friends in the field car field, and snowmobiling traveling. I use to drive a fourwheeler when I was really young on french line, Lanark County. Most kids drive in the dirt at young ages, and we travel on trails.

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I found the bird after I moved the car out, put the parts on the ground... I went inside quickly to wash my hands. When I returned all I could hear was wings. Using a bag i found to hold the bird and protect us both. The bird was so beautiful! This is the 4th time I caught a bird stuck inside the barn or garage in 1 year.

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Found a bird in the garage

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Cutting the small trees down. It all must go! I forgot to take a after picture but next time I will.

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At the farm checking my kale and the rest of my veggies. My corso's wondering around the yard being my protectors.
Was amazing bringing Bowser out to the barn and showing him all the places I hangout. Walking on the back property, crossing fields, hoping the neighbors do not hear or see me. Went for a cold swim in the pond and lightly tossed Bowser in. Both dogs playing in the water.
Was told my dry stuff was in the barn- not to come into the house wet.
My dad gave me a look when he saw the dogs got wet too.... bath time for everyone.

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Off to the village to grab some groceries and stop at the trading post to see Dawna. Bought some bear root (osha root), fresh lavender, and dolls with no face- all the colors.
Was given a ceremonial dress to attend the next pow wow, so I will blend with the crowd! 26 years later! :)

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Went to Blue Sea Lake, Maniwaki, Quebec with dad. Had not been up much this summer and went to clean before closing it up.
Max and Bowser loving the cottage. I spent time cutting trees down, while dad cuts the lawn. Both dogs inside freaking out with us using machines in the yard. Bowser has never been out in the country until now. Spend Saturday - Monday night to return back to class Tuesday.

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After each adventure outside we both get smoothies, and yoga.

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Total Steps: 92,024

Great week!

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Week 6, this Satuday will be included in the next picture for the full report.

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Total Steps: 76,252

I forgot to post week 5, marks have already been assigned. I am posting this just to keep it organized.
The start of the week on Saturday for week 5, I was doing readings and did not walk much.

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Got all muddy and came back to get gloves as mine broke when I fell off

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Cannot go in Mud Lake with a dog due to it being a conservation area. I bring Bowser near the area. A lot of my steps are from walking the dog and wondering. When I go solo, I take Bowser off the path into the bush. I refuse to let him swim in the Ottawa River... just up north. Down stream from Arnprior makes my stomach turn.
Native reservation family pond and rivers up there... up stream from the dirty water. Blue Sea Lake in Quebec is really clean and clear.

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Brought Bowser to the beach and let him play around in the sand. All my yoga was done outside while Bowser playing.

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Total Steps: 83,893

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The app goes by weeks. Saturday October 8th, when the step day starts. Posting two pictures. I tried to get the pictures together, but it cuts out the dates out.
The total will be on the next picture with the rest of the weekly steps.

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Dad and Bowser cuddling on the floor. Dad wants quiet time, which means the dog lays on the ground head on dad's arm. But Bowser just wanted to lay down and wiggle around.

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Turkeys trying to find a break between traffic. Bowser and I running during the big break of traffic allowing them to cross safely. Well, safe but I'm sure they don't with a Cane Corso running behind them.

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One room needed to be done. Dad said to take a break from sanding. I decided to stay on the ladder and take my break listening to our music. Put a song on I love, and dad could not stop laughing. Being bush rednecks with a slice of first nations. We all learn outdoor skills, driving and gardening plants.

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Went to the site to finish putting the outlets back on, and other things that are done at the end. Really tired from reading PSB book, and my puppy.

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Total Steps for week 3 = 81,522
Saturdays are my off day from steps to sit and do homework, study, and paint.

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Bowser on a walk with Max. Bowser learning the rules by watching Max respond to commands and getting treats when showing me the command.
Bowser is 18 weeks and 19 on Thursday

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Getting cold outside but working outside makes the blood pump. Did not need to lift weights. Shoveling crushed stones, dark sand, white sand and grass seeds. But we were throwing in sand into the pond for the bottom. Finished it up before the first frost warning.

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So much painting was done. Came back to finish a child's room to covering crayon that shows through. Listening to music with my dad, my little redneck. When I am not at school and my homework is done; I can go follow dad around.

Carried so many tools up and down 7 flights of stairs into the condo. Cleaning and break time meant going up and down. During construction elevators are usually not in service. So, when dad says " I forgot the square" I have to go down and get it. ** But this time the elevators are working perfectly for the finishing touches.

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Dad was asked if he needs a guy to come carry our buckets to the truck... Dad says " nope dolly is here"

Carried 4 buckets of mud, 6 buckets of hydraulic fluid for the backhoe. Which for the backhoe that is not a lot of fluid; it can take way more than I thought. Just enough to get front and back arms moving. When it's needed, one can tell like steering fluid in a car. Without it you will need to crank the wheel like heck to get around a corner.

Not Dolly Parton. Dolly with heels that gets under dressers to move them. Carried a water tank out of the condos we were doing, with the bottom full of junk inside. Saw a man carrying one solo. Dad smiled seeing the man using a dolly. Dad pointed to me and said he has his dolly. I am also not a dress or a girly.

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All the open field use to be trees. The far tree line takes me 15 minutes to walk to the line of trees from where I am standing.

We go in the truck. I sit in the log truck to the left. We chop trees down. We hook them to the log truck, and it gets lifted by machine to the parking lot here. The wood gets split and made into any Home Hardware cheap wood.

We did have to bring three trees in to make a countertop with bark on the edge, and a sliding barn door for the basement. The wind out there will make my grandchildren hate the cold. I always dress well for the weather vs being cool. My soul gets so cold out there. I don't like to bring the dogs with us. I end up watching them... While my dad stands around talking to the senior chief... as I am doing the loading of the wood. In both trailer and the bed of the truck, counting each size bundle.

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Rocks I found while avoiding smoking at the site with the guys. Brought them back to the barn to find some tools used for smashing rocks.

Don't mind my hands, working around the house, bike, and backhoe hydraulic fluid buckets.

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Outside the barn painting as dad works on the bike. Taking a break from my readings for the following week.

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Renovations being done inside for Dawna's trading post. I did a lot of lifting wood and passing it up to the second floor. Using a ladder, passing it to Man.
30 minutes walking behind the post is our cottage and where we get lumber from first nations.

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Drywall sanding. So hard with the arms doing the ceiling, and just about anything. I went too far on some spots and had to start over with wet mud. Dad being 60 years old, most of the work is me and lifting.

Does not seem like a working doing this handy work, as I am not in a gym. But it is a hard workout carrying, lifting, backhoe work, and shoveling.

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I had so many questions. How can he burn this without causing a fire on the non-firewall drywall? It won't catch with light exposure to the flame it has non-flammable mineral called gypsum pressed between two thick sheets of paper. Preventing it from going up in flames.

After I was asked to go around burning the wood that needs it before I brush them and paint them.

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Dad taught me to put a wood stove in a wall that has not had one before. Mudding the wall around it, finishing the last corner of the room to mud.

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Dad taught me how to rip the basement apart and the staircase. Making floating staircase. It sat for a few months and on Sunday, I finished it. Finishing the steps as they dry, I can tape and mud the drywall.

Let me tell you, firewall drywall is the worse job! Exhausting lifting it up, let alone above my head.

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The land had a natural spring that would flood the yard. Making it impossible to cut that section of the lawn when needed. Decided to make a hole, giving the water a place to run. The neighbor has the same issue being close the mountain as well as us. Fixed the water flooding the neighbors, as it was a senior couple. Too much work for them to go outside and dig. Plus, the backhoe cuts the work back a lot.

My steel toe S.W.A.T.T. boots I work to Global Affairs Canada for my investigator position. Just soaked in mud, holding up the pipe as its suctioned to the mud. Having dad ask me to get in the backhoe, as I am stuck in the mud badly. Using the bucket to grab and grass to pull using my muscles.

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The best dog. When I come home it's the first thing Max wants to do is go for a walk. Best adventure friend, he does so far with me. Campbell cottage road a good 3 hour walk down a four-wheeler path. Always ready to meet another animal crossing.

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Max out for a walk during sunset. Bowser stays home, being a puppy, he still sleeps a lot. Got so many steps Wednesday the 28th. Extra steps came from Max.

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Pre-test was a lot of fun! Got new shoes for our fitness course. The stations we had to finish were cut a little short due to our long period of time at the plank station. We also had fun doing the reach assessment. Great time overall! Thank you

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Awesome job! You met the goal of walking 10k steps 5 out of 7 days!

Keep up the good work! You also earned a bonus for being over 70K!!

Please make sure the date is visible for the snapshot of the week.
I'm using the honour system for this week! lol

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Readiness Form.

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I did well this week. Both days I did not get the 10,000 steps in the day(s); was due to exhaustion. Older I get the less desire to stay up past 9:00PM/10:00PM.

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~  I will do 5 knee push-ups 5 out of 7 days for the next 5 weeks.
~  I will go for a 30-minute sprint 3 times a day for 2 weeks.
~  I will do sun salutation yoga 5 out of 7 days for 4 weeks.
~  I will participate in strength training with lifting weights 5 day out of 7 days a week for 5 weeks.
~ I will walk 1 hour walk every day for 4 weeks.

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Oct 1-7                                        Week 3

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Oct 1-7                                        Week 3

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Total steps: 72,693

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Excellent work!  Your padlet looks great and organized!
You only need to post the week results at the end of each week (see assignment due dates)

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First steps

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I enjoy going portaging, and was a canoe instructor growing up. This was taken in 2019, while finishing our canoeing trip with Tobin and his 7 guy friends from childhood. I was the only country mouse to know how to survive in the woods with our food, and emptying a canoe in deep water. One group decided to stand up completely, leaving me to jump in to empty the canoe. I am terrified of dark water, but did survival training lifeguarding in Lake Ontario with massive black wave for water.  I was exhausted, felt like a mom and I brought teens camping. I sat floating in the canoe, and snapped this picture. I was so happy to leave being the only camping champ, but sad to go back to the cement city with little to no trees.

I love camping, wild edible plants, rope knots, painting with wild berries, and bombfires. I am always walking, carrying big trees to make logs. I walk a lot to look for widow trees, and animal scat.

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Working hard on losing the skin under my arms. Noticing my body is getting older, and skin sits differently if I don't use it. Workout station at home before Covid. my husband is a personal trainer nutritionist. I do not need to travel or hire anyone to help me with anything. Tobin knows a fair amount to guide me to the right path at maintaining a health body while thriving. Best 13 years of my life is with my lovely health nut Tobin. Workouts happen more when home life is on point with quality all around.

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This is Teddra, she has a scar on her shell. I have seen her before. This time she was laying eggs on a hiking trail. Across the four wheeling trail. Made signs for the babies to come. When the time came dad called me to come home. Four days later, I had to walk the dogs back home. The babies were crossing the path and the dogs are way too big to walk near baby turtles.

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Maniwaki Native Reservation - Blue Sea Lake, Quebec.

Been there at our cottage for 27 years, I was 1 years old when first came up. Was no cottage just a small trailer. As the years went on I helped build this place with dad. From shingling the roof, sliding in the sliding door in the frame.. I have helped with a lot. I spend a lot of time outside entertaining myself. Being the youngest of 5 girls and 2 boys. I learn to do my own thing considering age, I was too young to tag along. I often played with the fire, or went to different family members cottages around us.
In this picture I pulled massive rocks from years of us not fixing it. Some so deep in the ground, I ended up crushing my ankle. I did not show it because I am my dads tough child. Next day we were picking trees up, slicing them, and making 2X4 for the cottage. Labor work always when with my dad.

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Acrylic, Oil, Water, Airbrush, and Spray paint. Knitting

Adjustable table to raise to hold a canvas like an easel. I usually stand, dance and run to the sink a lot for water. I paint anything. Love Tom Thomson, The Group of Seven, Emily Carr, and Maudie Lewis. I don't paint as often with my anxiety, hard to paint backwards my ideas when my thoughts are else where.

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Finally lost my weight of being 200 plus pounds down to 150lbs. Still felt bigger, until i saw my own picture. I was shocked. I saw myself in the mirror but to compare the difference in my mind. I saw myself as this big girl I was for a few years. Finding out my IBS-A and Crohns triggers and how to cope. Being vegan changed my life. Mainly because I cannot digest any animal products, allergy testing. (Modern Allergy Management)

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I can push myself for a long time doing planks. This was my first goal of 3 minutes, set a year ago. David Goggins on my phone motivating me to push through my thoughts.

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Across from dads is the Algonquin Trail for four wheelers, other side is the water. Usually I walk 25 minutes to a yellow gate on the path, and another 35 minutes with both Italian Cane Corso family dogs. They walk with me along the river, passing all the cottages facing the water. When the last cottage on my left passes, I know my spot is coming up. In a bay corner spot I carried all these rocks you can see out of the water. Made myself a rock structure while anxious and grieving. I go to this spot every time I can go home.

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Always at my dads working the garden with the dogs. It was my grandfathers farm house with horse. Now, the home is dads and we just garden.

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Was a bit of a rough day for my steps.

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Stages of Change Quesitonnaire week 1 done

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Inventory of Lifestyle needs and PA preferences week 1 done

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Barriers to Physical Activity week 1 done

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I did not get my steps. I got 8,430 steps, close but not the requirement of the step MOVE assignment. I was having IBS-A and Crohns issue. I was given cow instead of beyond few days ago. I am allergic and testing results ... I have been vegan for 7 going on 8 years. All week I was in so much pain in class. I was at Tobin's mom's place for dinner. I was standing in place prepping dinner trying to get my steps. I felt like the mother with a child at a gathering and dad was "resting" his eyes. After 13 years, I know he will fall asleep within minutes. New place for Bowser (puppy) to investigate, and play. Between making food for Tobin's family, and dog parenting an Italian Cane Corso. I grew up with them, so I train the dogs. When I sat down, I passed out for a minute. Puppy had a burst of energy late, but I passed out after the zoomies were done.