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i hate that people tell me that you're the worst thing in the world for me. i don't think they understand us.
i don't think they'll ever understand us.
you and i don't belong to a group or a clique, we never did.
we float between friend groups and people trying to find the right ones for us but we couldn't, we can't, so all we found was each other.
people don't understand that you and i have our own issues and sometimes they get in the way of our friendship, relationship, who we're supposed to be when we're together.
you come from better and i come from worse.
with differing opinions and such attitudes that send tsunamis of feelings how do we even manage each other
we're too awkward and cumbersome to tell each other that we miss each other but somehow we both know we do.
people peer pressure you and i to do such things that destroys human beings but we've never felt the obligation to hurt ourselves because by hurting ourselves, we're hurting one another.
the opportunities we've had to undress ourselves are present but we choose not to because it's not the right time.
you look at me like i look at you
sometimes with anger or annoyance, adoration or endearment but what matters is that we never look away.
we have disagreements daily about the big things and the small things but they never seem to shatter us.
sometimes you make me cry happy or cry sad but i'd rather be crying because of you than someone else.
most days i want to hit you with a car but only going two miles an hour because i would die if you did.
the people around us have differing opinions of you and i but what matters is that we don't let it affect us.
we could be each other's first love, last love, or in between but that doesn't matter because we had the chance to love.
you and i can tell each other anything.
tell me what you had for breakfast this morning because i want to know. tell me how you wish it was bacon and eggs instead of a slice of toast. i want to know everything.
two best friends, a boyfriend and girlfriend, two classmates, two people
whatever you call us, it doesn't change the fact that we are still
halle and sean
sean and halle
whether god, buddha, or the universe intended us to be married
to love and leave
to be best friends
to break each other's hearts
nobody knows you like i know you and nobody knows me like you know me

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i can hear a thousand kind words about me
yet it makes no difference
i hear one insult
and all confidence shatters

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yes it is possible
to love and hate someone at the same time
i do it to myself
e v e r y d a y ....

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for months i was stone cold
i craved your hand to hold
i desired to fill my conflicted soul

i was blinded by love,
blinded by the thought of you

what you gave wasn't enough for me
you held the key to make me happy
you never once wished for an us
please, please tell me why you broke my trust

i started to feel obligated to please you more and more
unfortunately and eventually i became quite the bore
you didn't want to talk to me anymore

you completely tore my heart from my chest
maybe that's because it's what you do best
i should have known though,
you are just like the rest.

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i'm scared
i know you say that i'm enough
but there are certain things that you are used to getting that i will never be able to provide for you...
and it might be fine, for a little while
but
what's going to happen when you start needing more
you say that you won't but how do you know that
how can i believe you
i want to believe you
i do
but i can't
i'm too scared to.

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she's in pain, she needs this.

you don't understand me anymore, mom.

your voice is too dangerous

wish i could hurt you back

too young to be this hurt

your voice, the most familiar sound

baby, you're dangerous to me now

i just wanna go and escape

terrible days only last 24 hours

baby, i've been falling for you

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i believe that when you love someone, and that person loves you equally in return, that you are uniquely vulnerable. they have the power to hurt you and it's like nothing else you will ever experience. pain is just a consequence of love. it's not the pain inflicted by others that will sought you out, but merely the pain of losing them. if your person is gone, then what is your will to live? where has it gone? certainly with them. they control every emotion you possess without your control. there is no greater pain than losing the one you are in love with, or watching them lose you and you can do not one thing about it.

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be in love with her, if you feel it.
be in love with her ugly selfies
be in love with her hair when she wakes up.
be in love with every tear that falls from her eyes that's caused by you and everything else that's wrong with the world.
be in love with her happiest days, the cheesiest smiles, and the craziest ideas.
be in love with the parts of her body that she hates. the stomach, the thighs, the breasts, the butt. she won't live up to all of society's standards of beauty but you HAVE to love her anyways. she deserves it.
be in love with her worst days, fake smiles, and stupidly dangerous ideas.
be in love with her most proud moments, and her not so proud moments.
be in love with the things she achieves, and the things she dreams of.
be in love with everything she does for you, for the ones she loves, for the ones she doesn't know but wants to help.
be in love with her, and all her little things.
if you feel it, be in love with her.

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just wait
you'll find the man of your dreams
one that will treat you the way you're supposed to be treated, the golden rule
you'll find a man who will buy your flowers just because he knows it's your favorite kind
you'll find a man who will want to talk out all of your arguments instead of running away like a coward
you'll find a man who will be able to deal with the constant mood changes but still has the power to love you, even though you're happysadangryconflictedexcited.
you'll find a man who always knows the right thing to say, the right thing to do, and the right thing for you.
you'll find a man who says he wants to "cuddle", but this time the cuddling doesn't come with something more than just cuddling.
you'll find a man who won't degrade you, but will upgrade you.
you'll find a man one day
just wait....