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Panic! At the Disco fans came up with a new way to show solidarity with the LGBTQ community - and be artsy as fuck while doing it!

As audience members enter the venue at each show on the band's current tour, fans pass out different colored paper hearts with the words and the PATD lyric "love is not a choice" on them. The hearts have instructions telling fans to to hold them up with their cell phone lights behind them - making for a huge stadium of rainbow lights - during the song, "Girls/Girls/Boys."

READ ALSO: Panic! At The Disco's Lyrical Guide To Getting Lit

The fans would arrange the paper hearts so they would be sectioned into creating a rainbow Pride flag when seen from afar - and somehow, they've coordinated this in EVERY city the tour stopped in.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v1QvfCKjtEQ

Before Brendon rips into the song in concert, he ties a rainbow flag around his microphone, and as he sings, famous LGBTQ celebrities grace the screens behind him - including Ellen Degeneres and Anderson Cooper.

If you hadn't heard, frontman Brendon Urie had been formerly questioned in 2013 about his sexuality when the band originally released the song, "Girls/Girls/Boys" from the album "Too Weird To Live, Too Rare to Die." Though he's said he's experimented in the past with homosexuality and bisexuality, he ended up marrying a woman named Sarah - but even now, he by no means will hold back from telling you when he thinks a guy is hot or that he fully supports sexual fluidity.

The best part is that this wasn't a gimmick the band organized to get political attention, as according to Brendon's Instagram - he was surprised with what the fans had put together.

So maybe save that last bit of faith you have from crumbling to the floor - for this exemplifies people with actual hearts still do exist.

...and I mean, Brendon Urie for President in 2018? Anyone? I'll make the bumper stickers.
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Basic Things "Panic! At The Disco" Fans Just Know

Determining who knows what and whether that knowledge makes them a fan or not

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This past summer, I managed to finesse my way into the Cannes Film Festival. During the 12-day extravaganza of red-carpet premieres and controversial booing, I tried to study the factors that influence whether the film-critic bourgeoisie approves or disapproves of a movie.

While it was never stated out loud, I learned how important it is to a lot of critics that a film have some kind of depressing, political meaning behind it. Otherwise, some might say that it "isn't contributing to society." On a more academic note, I learned about terminology. Quick vocabulary lesson: an ellipsis is a period of time left out of a story because what happens during that duration isn't integral to the plot, and/or is implied strongly enough that it can be absent. An example of this is in "Mean Girls" after Regina George gets hit by a bus. Next, we see her in her Spring Fling dress, accompanied by a neck brace. Depicting the ambulance ride and hospital visit that likely happened in between wouldn't have been necessary to advance the plot. This is just one example of a technique that is used in the majority of films at some point or another. Other terms I learned related to camera shots and procedures, genres, and narration.

Through my experience, I've found a new appreciation for the film industry. However, my opinions on films themselves haven't changed much. In addition to my new-found knowledge, because of all the viewing I did before, during, and after the festival, I've seen more Oscar-nominated pictures than ever before in my life. Here are my ordinary-girl thoughts on a few of them.

Favorite Quote: "I hit her once. With a hairbrush."
I, Tonya

This film hits you with the unexpected backstory of Tonya Harding (Margot Robbie), public enemy number one of 1994. The trailer brings up a good point, America wants someone to love, and America needs someone to hate. We will probably never know the true extent to which Harding was involved in the Nancy Kerrigan knee assault, however we do know that the story was painted as black and white. "I, Tonya"gives the grey-area perspective.

It doesn't take long for the viewer to fall in love with Harding. Before she even hits the ice in the opening scene, you find yourself rooting for the tiny, blonde four-year-old looking longingly at the older girls' sparkly outfits. You're holding your breath later as she attempts the triple axel as an adult, and then you're shaking your fists in triumph as "Feels Like the First Time" begins to blast from the speakers after she lands it. It was such a well-done scene, that I almost didn't believe the tricks were computer generated.

Allison Janney takes on the role of Tonya's mother, LaVona Harding, and is divine. Daughters of helicopter moms everywhere relate to the dysfunctional relationship between Tonya and LaVona, especially when the line "I made you a champion, knowing you'd hate me for it!" echoes out of Janney's mouth during an argument inside of a diner.

The film breaks the fourth wall* constantly as we see the story unfold according to the retellings from separate interviews of Harding and her ex-husband, Jeff Gillooly (Sebastian Stan). In one particularly humorous scene told from Gillooly's point of view, Robbie looks directly into the camera while holding a large shotgun and says, "this definitely didn't happen," before firing it at Stan. Harding is portrayed as being unapologetically herself, redneck roots and all.

While the film is hilarious, the ending reminds us of an often-forgotten lesson. Celebrities are people too. Following "the incident," Harding was placed on trial in the court of public opinion for months. She was America's punching bag, until the country found something else to talk about.

"I was loved for a minute. Then I was hated. Then I became a punch line."

Gillespie does an excellent job of entertainingly and vividly telling Harding's side of the story, beyond the Kerrigan incident. Also, I want to point out that neither Margot Robbie nor Stan Sebastian are from America, yet their backwoods Oregon accents were spot on.

*Breaking the fourth wall refers to when a character addresses the audience directly.

Writer: Steven Rogers

Director: Craig Gillespie

Running Time: 120 minutes

Main Cast: Margot Robbie, Sebastian Stan, Allison Janney

Rating: R

Favorite Quote "You do not allow a member of the public to call you a f*ckhead in the station house!"
Three Billboards Outside of Ebbing, Missouri

Martin McDonagh's film opens with an emotionless, tired-looking woman in a denim jumpsuit driving down a lonely backroad. The camera pans out into a long shot* and shows us that the road has three vacant billboards.

The hunt to find Mildred Hayes' (Frances McDormand) daughter's murderer has fizzled out, because the cops have no more leads. In retaliation, Mildred rents the three billboards we see in the opening sequence to send three messages. The blood red panels read, "Raped while dying," "And still no arrests?" and "How come, Chief Willoughby?" We learn that the desolate road is where her daughter's burnt body was found.

The colorfully worded film is classified as a drama, but I refuse to call it anything besides a dark comedy. It wasn't until it was over that it dawned on me how heavy it was. The tragic backstory is there, but among it is ridiculous quips of dry humor. They cause you to forget that almost all of the characters are kind of horrible.

Mildred's ex-husband Charlie (John Hawkes) is a violent pyromaniac who continuously tries to cut Mildred down with his words. His new girlfriend Penelope (Samara Weaving) is the kindest character in the film, and lands at the butt of everyone's jokes because of her airheadedness. Officer Dixon (Sam Rockwell), the film's token mama's boy, is a bratty, angry and racist man-child. When asked about the claim that he tortured a black arrestee, he responds by correcting the person's use of the n-word.

"It's 'persons of color' torturing business these days," he says quickly and defensively.

Chief Willoughby (Woody Harrelson), the name in lights, doesn't fit the role of a villain at all. He is still trying to figure out who murdered Angela Hayes, while suffering from pancreatic cancer. Our heroine Mildred does not behave rationally whatsoever, yet we continue to root for her because we understand the source of her pain.

Mostly in the background, a theme of racism thinly flows throughout the film. It's just enough to catch the viewer's attention but not enough to keep it. In the first quarter of the film, Mildred's friend Denise Watson (Amanda Warren) is arrested by Dixon. The arrest was a threat to Mildred that if she didn't settle down, then all of her black friends were going to be targeted. Later in the film when she's released and reunited with Mildred, most of the viewers had forgotten about her. This scene alone makes me wonder what McDonagh actually wanted to convey with this production. I'm undecided on whether it is subtle enough to be effective...or completely misses the mark.

I laughed a lot while watching this film, but I felt frustrated once it was over. It was realistic, because McDonagh reminds us that (at least sometimes) there are no actual good guys.

Three Billboards is supposedly the front-runner for the Best Picture Oscar.

*Panning is similar to zooming in and out, but is typically done by physically moving the camera as opposed to using the zoom function on a lens. A long shot is an establishing shot that shows a scene in its entirety.

Writer: Martin McDonagh

Director: Martin McDonagh

Running Time: 115 minutes

Main Cast: Frances McDormand, Woody Harrelson, Sam Rockwell

Rating: R

Favorite Quote: "If I could, I would have voted for Obama for a third term."
Get Out

Peele's satire is the uncomfortably necessary film that we've been missing. As a white woman, I have never been able to relate to the idea of "being the only black person in the room." "Get Out" gives us an enlightening slight glimpse of how it feels through the protagonist, Chris (Daniel Kaluuya). He is dating Rose Armitage (Allison Williams), a white woman who invites him to come meet her parents. Chris reluctantly agrees but is obviously nervous about their potential disapproval. The (white) viewers relax a little bit when Chris is warmly greeted by Mr. and Mrs. Armitage (Bradley Whitford and Catherine Kenner). However, their odd we-love-black-people compensatory statements quickly become off-putting. At their weekend social gathering, we see that their friends are just like them - pretentious allies, marchers of rallies, "big Tiger Woods fans" that are constantly patting themselves on the back for being supporters of the cause. Peele didn't place his protagonist in a hostile environment with loud white supremacists because that would have been too easy.

One powerful moment in the film is when the Armitage's black housekeeper, Georgina (Betty Gabriel), smiles and verbally says to Chris that she feels comfortable in the Armitage household. Simultaneously, tears fall from her eyes, rolling down her cheeks past her creepy smile. We receive two polar opposite perspectives from the same face.

The most telling moment of the film was the end. After a bloody escape, Chris finally manages to get out of the house. However, more violence quickly ensues as Rose comes after him with a shotgun and her "grandpa," the showdown eventually dwindles down to them two...until a cop car pulls up flashing its lights.

Everyone in the audience, no matter the color of their skin, stops breathing. Chris had been held hostage in leather restraints, sold, and was minutes away from having part of his brain removed by his captors. Despite this...everyone in the audience's eyes widen, waiting to see if Chris gets shot, handcuffed, or both. The collective sigh of relief soon follows as Chris's best friend Rod (Lil Rey Howery) gets out of the car.

Upon research, I learned that in Peele's original ending, Chris went to prison for the rest of his life. I'm glad he changed it. In this case, the 4 seconds of assuming the worst was much more powerful than actually seeing it happen.

Writer: Jordan Peele

Director: Jordan Peele

Running Time: 104 minutes

Main Cast: Daniel Kaluuya, Allison Williams, Bradley Whitford, Catherine Keener

Rating: R

Favorite Quote: "Listen, if your mother had had the abortion, we wouldn't have to sit through this stupid assembly!"
Lady Bird

This is a coming-of-age story* that takes place during the early 2000s recession in Sacramento, California. Lady Bird (Saoirse Ronan) is the new name that Christine has given herself in the wake of her "I hate this town, I hate all of these people, I'm going to get out" stage. This is a frustrating time of life that most of us have gone through and may or may be not still going through. Sadly, Lady Bird's dream of flying out of California seems bleak. Her mother (Laurie Metcalf) is working double shifts in an attempt to compensate for her job-hunting husband (Tracy Letts) who got laid off. Through its entirety, the film serves as an illustration of the middle class that tends to get hit the hardest during economic recessions.

I didn't realize early 2000s nostalgia existed until I saw this movie. The first thing Lady Bird does on the morning of her 18 th birthday is run to the nearest convenience store to buy a pack of Marlboros, a scratch-off, and the latest print edition of "Playgirl." This seemingly rebellious behavior was a breath of fresh air in the current time of e-cigarettes and digital journalism.

Lady Bird goes through a lot of the necessary teen movie drama. She stereotypically ditches her theatre friends to hang out with the popular girls, she gets "deflowered" by a guy that she was led to believe was a fellow virgin, she constantly fights then makes up with her mom, while her dad tries to bandage the cracks on both sides. She also lands herself in a few odd situations that give the movie a special charm to it. She finds the seemingly perfect boyfriend (Danny O'Neill), only to find out he's in the closet. The scene of mourning that follows can only be described as dramatically hilarious, while Lady Bird lays down in a car with her friend Julie (Beanie Feldstein) as they loudly and snottily sob to the Dave Matthews Band hit "Crash Into Me." She convinces her new popular friends that she lives on the "correct" side of the tracks by claiming her ex-boyfriend's grandmother's house is her own, only to be awkwardly exposed later. After these events and more, an ellipsis transports us to New York City where Lady Bird ends up attending college after all.

Greta Gerwig channels some of her private school past into the "Lady Bird" script, which largely takes place in a small Catholic school full of girls that roll their plaid skirts up, only to be scolded by the nuns for it. The film is authentic and delightful, and leaves the viewer to self-reflect on their own hormonal teenage years.

*Coming-of-age plots in cinema and literature focus on the maturation of a leading character from youth to adulthood.

Writer: Greta Gerwig

Director: Greta Gerwig

Running Time: 93 minutes

Main Cast: Saoirse Ronan, Laurie Metcalf, Tracy Letts

Rating: R

Favorite Quote: "Trust me, they don't know it yet, but they're going to love you."
The Greatest Showman

Michael Gracey's decorated telling of P.T. Barnum's backstory encourages us to choose to stop searching for depressing undertones that teach the viewer something about society. Instead, we should bask in the fun tidbits of life, such as Hugh Jackman's obvious desire to sing and dance in a world that constantly tries to paint him as the badass with wolverine claws.

One word comes to mind when I think about this movie. Pretty. Everything about it was pretty. The use of vibrant colors in the costumes was pretty, the musical outbursts that now consume my Spotify library were pretty, the cinematography* was pretty, Zac Efron was pretty. If you liked La La Land, you'll like this one. Even if you were one of the many soul-suckers that hated La La Land, you'll probably still like this one. The magic of this film will absolutely consume you, but only if you aren't actively searching for a reason to hate it.

*Cinematography is what is seen in a shot; lighting, camera angles, focus, color, how the scene is framed, etc all relate to the quality of the cinematography.

Writers: Jenny Bicks and Bill Condon

Director: Michael Gracey

Running Time: 93 minutes

Main Cast: Hugh Jackman, Michelle Williams, Zac Efron, Zendaya

Rating: PG

Hopefully these reviews have made you slightly more prepared for the 90th Academy Awards. The Oscars will premiere on ABC on March 4th, 2018 at 8:00 p.m. EST.

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This past summer, I managed to finesse my way into the Cannes Film Festival. During the 12-day extravaganza of red-carpet premieres and controversial booing, I tried to study the factors that influence whether the film-critic bourgeoisie approves or disapproves of a movie.

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Panic! at the Disco Joined by 'Stranger Things' Star During MSG Show (interaction between fan and artist

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Panic! at the Disco reunited with Stranger Things star Noah Schnapp during their Madison Square Garden show on Thursday night (March 2). The actor -- who starred in the band's "L.A. Devotee" video and plays Will Byers on the Netflix series -- hopped on stage to sing along to the tune at the show. Schnapp was clearly jacked for the honor, hopping around next to Panic! singer Brendon Urie and getting a pat on the head and a big hug from the frontman as he exited the stage.

Noah Schnapp performing on stage with Panic! At The Disco (March 2nd) pic.twitter.com/pYMU67Xza2
- Stranger Things (@ST_Posts) March 3, 2017

The whole crew also posed for some pictures after the show.

Noah Schnapp performed on stage with the band "Panic! At The Disco" at Madison Square Garden in New York! (March 2nd) pic.twitter.com/OqHc0Mu6gf
- Stranger Things (@ST_Posts) March 3, 2017

Schnapp also shared a pic from just before his big moment. "I look like I just saw the demogorgon," he joked in character.

Hiding under the stage waiting to join @PanicAtTheDisco . I look like I just saw the demogorgon -- pic cred brendan walter pic.twitter.com/8XGpu004QO
- Noah Schnapp (@noah_schnapp) March 3, 2017

i don't have any words for this. @panicatthedisco Brendon, thank you for your kindness and... https://t.co/YMzviEHNmS
- Noah Schnapp (@noah_schnapp) March 3, 2017

When the "L.A. Devotee" video dropped in September Schnapp tweeted, "count me in @brendonurie for your concert in NY!"

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Language: "How do media use different forms of language to convey ideas or meanings?" While some fans use more formal language to write about the fandom, some are more personal, which depends on the levels of comfort each have in their relationship to the artist, which is interesting to consider because most fans are on the same page in terms of personal relationships with artists, but some perceive that their relationship or understanding are closer to the artist based on their knowledge or interpretations. So, these perceptions are able to be conveyed by media and their interactions with artists not only through what is read, but also interactions on social media (i.e. Brendon responding positively or negatively to a fan on twitter).

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Production: "Who owns the companies that buy and sell media? How do they make a profit?" Often times, the places that allow for fan expressions are owned by large social media companies such as Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, etc. that are free ways to share information. Additionally, writing websites such as Archive of Our Own or LiveJournal are free for users, but occasionally Archive of Our Own asks for donations so that they do not need to run ads on their website and are able to keep the content free. Thus, the user does not pay for the service, but are able to make donations to keep the service running to the standards they expect.  Websites profit by usage and word of mouth about what their websites are good for in terms of fan circles, which bring more users to the website so that they can participate in fan activities.

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The Buckingham questions this addresses relaing to production are "Who makes media texts?" and "What technologies are used to produce and distribute media?" Often times, tumblr is a good source for fan medias to circulate because of the range of media able to be uploaded, including texts, photos, audios, videos, etc. These medias are often produced by fans, since the website is very much a website to find others who are interested in the same subjects and talk about your similar interests. Thus, anyone is able to produce media. However, popular media about a certain subject is mostly circulated amongst the group itself and becomes popular within that specific sphere, not the community sphere at large.

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This relates to the Buckingham questions for representation of "What is included and excluded from the media world? Who speaks, and who is silenced?" When people are seen as obsessive, they are often encouraged to be silenced and to hold their opinions to themselves because they are discredited due to their extreme interest in a subject. Thus, their voices, despite being the ones that are heard the most, are often the ones that are encouraged to be silenced.

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"A gap in perspective exists because teens and parents have different ideas of what sociality should look like," (Boyd, 2014, p. 85). This leads me to think about how a parent may see their child's interest as an obsession, which goes back to that idea of where the line of fan vs. someone who is obsessed is drawn.

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"The norms that get reinforced online do not deviate much from the norms that exist in school," (Boyd, 2014,  p. 40).
The idea that the girl did not fit in with her friends because of her certain interest illustrates the ideas of identity reflected in high schools. While she was still friends with them, she was not able to expose this part of her identity to them due to their lack of interest, which reflects what is seen as the 'norm' in high school friend groups.

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"Turkle was critical of some people’s attempts to use fictitious identities to harm others, but she also highlighted that much could be gained from the process of self-reflection that was enabled when people had to act out or work through their identity in order to make themselves present in virtual worlds," (Boyd, 2014, p. 36-37). This relates to ideas of how fans interact with each other through their portrayals of band members in fan fiction, which some may agree with or while some may see as problematic or offensive. Writers have an identity not only as a writer, but as an interpreter of events among the band members that is not done for profit, but is still meant to entertain (and sometimes convince) others in the fandom.

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"Being exposed to information or imagery through the internet and engaging with social media do not make someone a savvy interpreter of the meaning behind these artifacts," (Boyd, 2014, p. 177). This draws questions between who are the experts about the band and who are the novices, and how both voices have a place in the fandom.

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"look me in the face and tell me george ryan ross III was not in love with brendon boyd urie"
Based on the picture in conjuction with looking at other interactions between the two band members, the writer asserts that the two were in fact lovers/dating/in a relationship, despite their denials of such a thing. This illustrates a more emotional fan literacy that is subjective to what the author sees as evidence of emotion/love between the two band members.

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This author created "A Brief History of Panic! at the Disco", which was something they did for fun and most likely was a way for them to showcase their knowledge of the band and give that knowledge purpose. This could be used by people who are wanting to know more about the band and are wanting a good baseline, as a product to critique by those who have much knowledge about the band, or by authority figures who are wanting to know more about what their friend/relative/daughter/etc are talking about when they mention the band. It is not meant as something to gain profit from, but is meant to be informational as well.

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Im sorry if i got any facts wrong please don't hurt me thanks i tried my best

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This video is an example of the artist being aware of what fans would be interested in, and thus making a work that is of interest to them for them to consume. The video is of Brendon Urie telling the history of the band Fall Out Boy, because the FOB fandom and the PATD one are in very close contact (it is almost like you can't have one without the other because the bands are also so close personally in real life). Brendon does it while drunk, which is also meant for humor. This video was made because the two bands were on tour together, so it was a good opportunity to produce something the fans would enjoy, which is something the two bands have always tried to do.

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Drunk History: Fall Out Boy featuring Brendon Urie of Panic! At The Disco

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This is a forum centered around the question ""I Don't Like X Because of the Fandom;" Why?" which I felt was an interesting question to address because it deals directly with these distinctions we are making between the obsessed fan and the casual fan. One entry in particular states "Just because you watch/read something doesn't mean you have to partake in fan activities." which is interesting to consider when thinking about why people even consume certain media. Can they actually see it/consume it without being at least in some way integrated into the fandom? Is it exclusionary to say if they don't like the fandom, they can chose not to be part of it? What if the fandom itself if problematic?

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One of the ways that people interact with the band is through fan fiction. One of the most prominent Panic! at the Disco fan fictions is THROAM, aka The Heart Rate of a Mouse, which has actually become copyrighted and is available for purchase.  While the text has become more commercialized, the author originally wrote it with the intention of depicting a relationship between Brendon Urie and Ryan Ross in an alternate universe. This, according to Caillois, falls within the bounds of play because it is "accompanied by a special awareness of a second reality or of a free unreality, as against real life," (Caillois, 1979, p.10). Thus, the author writes the text knowing that it is not true, but it is meant for enjoyment and participation within the fan community because it is a text other fans may enjoy as well.

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Like seagulls on crack ( ) wrote,

Like seagulls on crack

The Heart Rate of a Mouse
by arctic_grey
Ryan/Brendon
1st POV, Ryan's
NC-17
c.513,000 words

THROAM FAQ (spoilers!)
THROAM chronology (spoilers!)

DO NOT REPOST THIS FIC ANYWHERE ELSE, E.G. WATTPAD/FF.NET. IT IS COPYRIGHT INFRINGEMENT AND I WILL HAVE THE ILLEGAL COPY REMOVED. THANK YOU.

Also available on AO3 as a re-post by the author. :)

Vol.1: Over the Tracks - visit for full information

Prologue

I | 66,000 words

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Chapter 9 | Chapter 10

II | 78,000 words
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Chapter 9

Vol.1 soundtracks

Vol.2: Wolves vs. Hearts - visit for full information

I | 54, 000
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6

II | 70,000
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8

III | 67,000
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7

Vol.2 soundtracks

Vol.3: A Kingdom by the Sea - visit for full information

I | 60,000
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5

II | 109,000
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Chapter 9

Vol.3 soundtracks

Epilogue

Warnings: good ol' sex, drugs and rock 'n roll. Some mild violence, some het sex. Infidelity. Vol.3 contains discussion on statutory rape. That's all I can think of, really.

Notes on the story
This story has girlfriends, ex-girlfriends, roommates, ex-band members, and I gave myself the liberty to make them angels or assholes or something in between. A character's personality does not reflect my own view of the real life correspondent in any way. I also let the story imitate certain aspects of real life chronology - the appearance and disappearance of people, for instance. I don't know any of these people and the characters are entirely fictional.

Here's an almost full list of pairings: Ryan/Brendon, Ryan/Jac, Spencer/Haley, Jon/Cassie, Brendon/Shane, Ryan/Keltie, Greta/Butcher. Lesser pairings and insinuations can also be found, like Audrey/Joe, but my favourite is definitely Brendon/David Bowie (well, it never specifies if they hooked up, and it was pretty innocent anyway, but they might have!). This list is missing some pairings because secrets are pretty awesome too.

A patronising paragraph: gay men do not practise safe sex in this story. The 70's were before the AIDS epidemic and most gay men simply did not use protection. However, now we know better and act accordingly. This story in no way promotes unprotected sex - it is simply trying to accurately depict the time period.

As far as accuracy is concerned, I do research where I can. I have not witnessed a day of the 70's myself, however, and I am sure that at some point there will be something I messed up. Feel free to point this out to me, though, like, "Hey, I don't think they had iPods in 1976". I tried fact checking whenever I could, e.g. they did have frisbees in the 70's! But I am still not sure what kind of lubricants were available then. Someone most definitely has written a history of personal lubricants, but I just haven't found it, so I simply decided that they did have lube as we understand the word today. Hopefully errors in accuracy are few.

The Heart Rate of a Mouse
by arctic_grey
Ryan/Brendon
1st POV, Ryan's
NC-17
c.513,000 words

THROAM FAQ (spoilers!)
THROAM chronology (spoilers!)

DO NOT REPOST THIS FIC ANYWHERE ELSE, E.G. WATTPAD/FF.NET. IT IS COPYRIGHT INFRINGEMENT AND I WILL HAVE THE ILLEGAL COPY REMOVED. THANK YOU.

Also available on AO3 as a re-post by the author. :)

Vol.1: Over the Tracks - visit for full information

Prologue

I | 66,000 words

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Chapter 9 | Chapter 10

II | 78,000 words
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Chapter 9

Vol.1 soundtracks

Vol.2: Wolves vs. Hearts - visit for full information

I | 54, 000
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6

II | 70,000
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8

III | 67,000
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7

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I | 60,000
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5

II | 109,000
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Chapter 9

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Epilogue

Warnings: good ol' sex, drugs and rock 'n roll. Some mild violence, some het sex. Infidelity. Vol.3 contains discussion on statutory rape. That's all I can think of, really.

Notes on the story
This story has girlfriends, ex-girlfriends, roommates, ex-band members, and I gave myself the liberty to make them angels or assholes or something in between. A character's personality does not reflect my own view of the real life correspondent in any way. I also let the story imitate certain aspects of real life chronology - the appearance and disappearance of people, for instance. I don't know any of these people and the characters are entirely fictional.

Here's an almost full list of pairings: Ryan/Brendon, Ryan/Jac, Spencer/Haley, Jon/Cassie, Brendon/Shane, Ryan/Keltie, Greta/Butcher. Lesser pairings and insinuations can also be found, like Audrey/Joe, but my favourite is definitely Brendon/David Bowie (well, it never specifies if they hooked up, and it was pretty innocent anyway, but they might have!). This list is missing some pairings because secrets are pretty awesome too.

A patronising paragraph: gay men do not practise safe sex in this story. The 70's were before the AIDS epidemic and most gay men simply did not use protection. However, now we know better and act accordingly. This story in no way promotes unprotected sex - it is simply trying to accurately depict the time period.

As far as accuracy is concerned, I do research where I can. I have not witnessed a day of the 70's myself, however, and I am sure that at some point there will be something I messed up. Feel free to point this out to me, though, like, "Hey, I don't think they had iPods in 1976". I tried fact checking whenever I could, e.g. they did have frisbees in the 70's! But I am still not sure what kind of lubricants were available then. Someone most definitely has written a history of personal lubricants, but I just haven't found it, so I simply decided that they did have lube as we understand the word today. Hopefully errors in accuracy are few.

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Like seagulls on crack (beggarsnotes) wrote,

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The Heart Rate of a Mouse by arctic_grey Ryan/Brendon 1st POV, Ryan's NC-17 c.513,000 words THROAM FAQ (spoilers!) THROAM chronology (spoilers!) DO NOT REPOST THIS FIC ANYWHERE ELSE, E.G. WATTPAD/FF.NET. IT IS COPYRIGHT INFRINGEMENT AND I WILL HAVE THE ILLEGAL COPY REMOVED. THANK YOU. Also...

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Mode of enactment essentially deals with the ways in which fans and academics interact with literacy regarding fandom subjects. Fan literacies are seen as more emotional, participatory, subjective, and reader privileged whereas academic literacies are seen as rational, controlled, objective, and author privileged.

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This is a fan text that is written to depict the imagined scenario of Brendon adding people to a group text, the result of which is a relationship between Brendon and the exp-guitarist Ryan Ross. This fan fiction is written, but does not have the aim of being used as an educational tool or sold for a profit, it is just a way of enjoyment for the fan, which is why it varies from THROAM. While the text will convey knowledge that the writer has of the band members, it is not meant as a reality and is meant to be understood as an alternate universe, like the Caillois reading asserts comes with play. "All play presupposes the temporary acceptance...of a closed, conventional, and, in certain respects, imaginary universe," much like what is being created here in the fan fiction (Caillois, 1979, p.19).

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

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"Fan cultural capital, like the official, lies in the appreciation and knowledge of texts, performers and events, yet the fan's objects of fandom are, by definition, excluded from official cultural capital and its convertibility, via education and career opportunity, into economic capital," (Fiske, 1992, p. 42).

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"Productivity occurs at the interface between the industrially-produced cultural commodity (narrative, music, star, etc.) and the everyday life of the fan," (Fiske, 1992, p. 37).

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This video is about how teens react to different Panic! at the Disco videos, ranging from teens who are extreme fans and those who hardly know the band. This is evidence of how fans and even those who are not fans interact with the products produced by the band. This may be on a more aesthetic level, as witnessed in the video when the singer transforms into a demon, or on an emotional level, such as the fan who was in admiration of the singer's vocal range.

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"I’m sorry for every single thing you had to gave up, for every single thing that ‘fans’ said to offend you, i’m sorry for everything Brendon, I hope you don’t give up on us, the real fans who do respect you.

You’re my hero, sincerely,
a true fan."

In an open letter to Brendon Urie, singer of Panic! at the Disco, the author writes about how they are sorry for the ways in which stardom has affected the life of the singer and the harassment he has dealt with from "fans" that are over-the-top. This is a distinction that even the author sets up within the fandom, not just between those who are fans and those who are not. The author sets up a distinction between "real fans", as in people who seem to have extensive knowledge about the band/band members but do not directly interact with the star to get them to consider their opinions, and those " 'fans' " who believe the singer should accept their opinions on things and believe they have a say in the life of the singer.

This illustrates the idea of boundaries and distinctions within the fan community; that one can be obsessive and disrespectful and another can be loyal and respectful while both are still gaining information about the singer that the singer may not necessarily wish to expose to them. He did not ask for their opinions or involvement in his life, but they became involved anyways. I come to consider this: if the author of the letter was a "real fan", would she be as involved in the singers life as she is? Or is she just as much to blame as the 'fan' because she is digging into the singer's life without his permission?

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Dear Brendon, I'm sorry that you had to see how 'fans' offended your beloved wife. She's a beautiful woman whom I truly admire and respect, you guys are the perfect match. I'm sorry that you always get asked about your previous band members, there's nothing wrong with that but, the problem is the way people ask about them, by saying incoherent or offensive questions.

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"Mundane viewers often wish to avoid what they see as the taint of fandom... on the other side of the line, fans may argue about what characteristics allow someone to cross it and become a true fan, but they are clearly agreed on the existence of the line," (Fiske, 1992, p. 35). Thus, there is the idea that there is a sharp contrast between being a fan and being obsessive.