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Allah is who I believe.

He protects me, the way I cannot explain.

He loves me, nothing can beat His love.

He secures me with none, but very undeniable hug, embrace and cuddle nobody ever offers to me.

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This social circle we have.
Do they truly our measure to everything?
I heard those men always raised their voices at each other.
They say, we are manly enough.

I do see you,
Wanting to be reciprocated, you did horrible things. You never love and appreciate yourself!

Do these what you've been claiming all this while?

I'AM SO PROUD, DEHH!

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I do understand.
Lust get us killed the soonest possible.

I do know.
Whatever we are doing, the choice is ours

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I've been hoping the same thing as you - getting flying colour result for my stpm.

But then, why do I sometimes fall into my own leisure, all out for fruitless things until then.
Being the person who would die for its temporary.

Why don't I wake up to the universe's calling me from the first day?
Dear... wake up please.
You still have many things to do, many pages to read, many books and articles to completely analyse.

All of them.

But I'm still here, pondering about the plot I hate the most in the dramas.

Why?
How?
When?
Where?
Who?

It's all the things I can count on to.

Let's spill the best you can , dear. Amiin

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Even when the whole life defy your faith, it's you who is fully responsible for it.
Do the best you can even when giving up is the only way out.
I believe you and I know Allah has acknowledge my efforts till then. Amiin

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Idk at my first time things were just againts me. It doesn't seem to be a blunder, but it is when i start to be welcomed by the truth.

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Here's Azirah again speaking about her philosophy ;

She may be someone who dreams unconditionally; not a time has made her into a plain thinker because she is proud of her own wits.

She loves everyone she meets and wishes for a better life everyday; but her life has shape her today.

She has to be tough for every little wave that is coming into her life, she thinks of it as a sudden befall from God as a sign of His divine love ; be it mental or physical abuse.

She says everyday, " I love myself and I'm not created to obey and bow towards the unjust. Life is safe and will always be safe forever"

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Some people object the concept that nobody is perfect.

They tend to prove them unfaulty, and causing other person to befall on their traps.

The traps of being powerful and great because of their NAMES.

I ponder quizically, how could a leader do not prevail upon having high integrity and empathy at the same, at least, they do not claim themselves as a boon instead of bane because they are nothing compared to any body below them who do not become heir to wealth or name.

😏😏😏

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KNOW THAT, LIFE IS NOT TREATING YOU UNFAIRLY

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KNOW THAT, LIFE IS NOT TREATING YOU UNFAIRLY

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I know somehow, the world barely speaks about its wants. But I do know, everything that is going on, will be the boon for our own failures and downs.

As Allah the creator of All, knows better than anybody ever knows what bests.

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It's ridiculously hard, to impose my own real judgement on something

because I do not want to act upon my hastiness.

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August 14, 2021

Urgh, to admit how must a prince be?

Yes, everyone has this tendency after all, to chase after a man who has everything.

A role model?

I stopped at how wonderful the post is. I read word by word, trying to comprehend the subject of the article. It says, a father should be a role model so the princesses (daughters) of him know how to recognise a prince for each of them.

Meaning that, a father should entertain his daughters well so the daughters get the real picture of a prince (husband) in the future later.

I tried not to brag this thing. There are so much knowledge that we should be fully ready to lift. As a parent, single parent or even a single and available bachelor.

It reminds me a lot and make me sure of the importance to keep myself updated and upgraded for the most acceptable parenting styles.

The daddy in the post said, "Kid, I've been entertaining you the way you deserve to, but later on in the future, you'll get the full right to determine who is the suitable one to be a husband of yours?"

Hey mommies and daddies out there,
Please get yourself prepared about emotions management, self-therapy, and many more knowledge that we may overlook.

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Frankness of me holding on to my own style
Of thinking and deciding
Only to be greeted with annoyance and insolence of those narrow-minded people
Who perceive me with at least, the highest impertinence

I dare say, "I won't care at all"
"As people have been so fool lately, giving in to their first impression the power to decide on me"

I wish you know
"I definitely serve my own life, concerning every little thing I own, to be owned and empowered by my only hand and decisive mind"

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Care or not, 'I cannot bear looking at similarity and familiarity'
I hope my life's leaping from one destination to  the other destination is to be attributed by my own creativity to keep adapting to any possible destiny and place or sort of era.

Those labels on me, "Ancient and vintage" are rather cool despite the words refer to me on account to mortify my taste of dressing, walking or deciding"

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Oh, I came to know that people did bestow you for something, at least the way you appeared or money you saved, sometimes your genius mind. These were of reasons to be informed that almost and perfectly undeniable for some people to befriend or be in such comfort knowing you.

And I rather say, "Faking yourself won't do any better. You will soon know to what extent of less rejoice you gain, indeed."

Come on! Being under circumstance of not having companion is painstakingly bitter. I dare say, you were closed enough to inferiority and let alone the force of loneliness will definitely eat you away.

Or it overwhelmed half of your energy, at least on weekdays only.

Probably, you were to be given two opt;

Faking, or enjoying your solitude to what period I could not confirm yet.

I rather find a geniune one, it takes longer time as I have to oblige the fact that true friend is hard to find and they won't be here at any moment unless you realised her or his sincerity within the short period.

But I am telling you,
"Everyone should posses the talent of enjoying alone time. You will need it one psrticular day!"

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At this moment of life
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We have to oblige the universe, which tells us to choose what we're supposed to choose.

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There should be no entity who make us decide.

We have to know and make sure

Our choice will reflect our wits, the least.

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I am never to be ready to know or at least acknowledge myself of what the majority really have in their thoughts?

I never know that it is too lame or dull, or frankily speaking boring for a certain person not to have Instagram. By my own mean, it never comes to any signifance at all. Oh maybe, the milleniums do thirst of Instagram as for it becomes the food of continuity of life, I guess?

Then, I do not wear a lipstick or any kind or form of cosmetics. I know it's already come close to be an essential for young ladies to old folks. Everybody wants to appear at least refreshing for they use it as an obligatory. I bet it is so much more helpful if they put on my confidence than one to two inches of compact powder. Yes, I am totally okay if people do respect my own dressing up.
But, people die of seeing me wearing nothing on my face.
Would you be happy for once, for another soul who is geniunely boastful of her own look? Bare face. Nude face. Many to one. Really?

I am nobody, but I am in quest of following what a muslim supposed to behave in any manner of life. Including, the matter of attending to my own physical appearances.

Be it fair or tan, I know that a muslim cannot appear so exquisite, until no eyes left without second sight or peek on you, your beauty.

Attraction of any person who is not our flesh and blood, so undoubtly to be prevented.

Keep our modesty high above our desire to be noticed, for Allah does love the group.

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July 22, 2021

Okay, let's straight to the point.

"Everyone is beautiful. It just us live in the society who never shut up"

For those, who really know me. They know what I've been up to about beauty standard. It is simple, really simple.

Sure, there's people who speculate me for being unrealistic. But, it is you to know and assured of you are equally beautiful like anybody you saw in the street, social media or even your imagination.

I look upon myself as pretty as you and everyone

I talk a lot to myself. I did self-affirmation every single day. It helps me into being a grateful being. A giving person. A happy person. A thoughtful and confident.

It starts with a habit of defining yourself. It is not the words or feedback from the people that matter. It is you, your words, your judgements and your love that count everything. If you cannot be the one who say good thing to yourself, start by re-defining yourself as new charismatic and optimistic person. Who talk nice to ourselves. Who believe in ourselves more than anything.

My mother said, "You need to change. You are big enough to do makeover. You need that to be an official adult"

Of course. Many people don't really comprehend the proverb 'beauty is only skin deep'. When my mom said that, I am not offended anyway. It is true if I don't have confidence. But, it twists the whole statement if I do have confidence and self-esteem.

I have come into debates. From my aunties who are really worried of my appearances.

They said being pretty requires tools. It is not just a magic ritual that I might use to make my own self feel comfortable. It is not enough if I do have confidence.

Now let me ask, "Is it enough for those who are outwardly pretty but they don't have confidence?"

Well said. Confidence is the tool to be pretty. Confidence on your style, appearances and your brain.

Sometimes, I dont really get at it. Why people never dig the true component of every value?

Beauty? Is it the measuring tool is lipbalm, eyelashes and bla,bla, blah...

I never downgrade anyone nor to question why they wear makeup and pretty dress. It is common sense. People wanna be good in terms of appearances. Me, too. But, we all really get different taste, right?

So yes. Believe in everyone's moves. I move the way I wish. Let the spaces be real. No judgement. No sceptical statement. Nothing to be asked. Just live the way we want.

Beauty is in the eyes' of beholder

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Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen Version 2005 (Review)

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Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen Version 2005 (Review)

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I love the movie so much, seeing at how the writer addresses Mr. Darcy and Elizabeth Bennett's personality.

Here's my interpretation that I derive from PP:

1. I realise Jane Austen emphasises on the love rather than their looks or wealth.

2. I barely find something explicit here except the ending scene ONLY!

3. Okay, seriously I am a type of person who don't have so much interest on outer looks. I am so professional which rules me to be open for anybody to be fallen for; I have made this mistake once ago and I won't redo. So, this movie entirely shows ways of cultivating love itself through actions rather than words (Mr. Darcy is terribly cute, a jerk and determined the same time, he tried so hard to win Elizabeth)

4. Mr. Darcy has made my day! OMG, if I am to find one in my real life, definitely will I make him into legal husband! He's not someone outspoken, but he's an plain introvert. And, basically, my 1st impression on him is he suits the pride, snobbish really. But, the feeling gradually changes when the introverted personality stands out. Yes, I AM INTROVERTED PERSON! so, I do not freaking hate his personality because we're equal.

5. Elizabeth somewhat portrays the characteristics of an impressive lady. She is bold and stubborn, outspoken and really an extroverted lady. I won't be like her but I do admire her personality

6. There is no sense of sexuality that cultivates love but their love is entirely genuine. I want to be loved like what Mr. DARCY feels for LIZZIE

7. IT'S A LOVE OF A PRIDE MAN AND PREJUDICE WOMAN.

8. I love how their inferiority and exferiority blends together resulting a beautiful and tempting movie.

9. Somehow, I won't hope for similarity in finding a spouse, but I just want complexity patches the both of us. IT'S RATHER BEAUTIFUL than a flat love story.

10. Azirah, will you find your extroverted husband one day?

11. Ms. Azirah & Mr. Right?