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all posts are 100% anonymous- you do not need to share any names or personal details

with this said, feel free to address your letters to ‘ex’ ‘friend’ ‘sibling’ etc or simply just ‘drew’

be kind!! this is a safe space to be honest, not mean :)

all comments go to review before publishing, just to ensure anonymity where needed!

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Henry Moodie - dear drew (official lyric video)

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Thank you for changing me into who I am now, although there were better ways you could have done it, and I didn't like you then, I am thankful for who I became after you

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i hate you. but thank you for making me the better person i am today even though you took me down i got back up 10x stronger and found my worth!

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its taken years, but i think i can finally accept that some things just aren’t meant to be- even if society says so- and i deserve better than empty promises :)

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sometimes i wish i could go back to the way our friendship used to be

but i ruined it well you made me feel i did

i miss you every day and constantly check up on you

i’d do anything to go back to the way it was as you brought the best out of me and always will

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I wish I could‘ve told you, how much you meant to be, before you died. I will never forget how much joy you brought into my life. And I forgive you, for every worst thing you did to me🤍

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You brought me down, a lot of times, in a lot of ways. But I got back up again. Stronger each time. I’m glad you’re no longer in my life and sometimes I wish we never met, but thank you for helping me become the person I am today. I wouldn’t change a thing about it.

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You always told me I was a boring person and no one would love me. You made me believe, that I am nothing more than just a body to be used by you. But guess what, I found a man who finally treats me right.

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i wish you could try get the help u needed instead of continuing to make my life a constant worry, i love you and nothing will change that but sometimes u really are my biggest hater ! sometimes i dont even think u can be the role you’re meant to play in my life ! PLEASE get better <33

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thank you for changing me for the better. the years i spent with u as my best friend were honestly some of the best of my life and though it didn’t end in the way i would’ve wanted i don’t think i would ever change the time we had together. i wish it couldgo back to the way it was but you hurt me so much that it would never be the same.

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why did you do that, it ruined everything, it shows that all you really give a shit about is yourself. thankyou for making me find better friends that actually care about me though

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I hate you,

You never treated me like a person around our other friends, you acted like a was just a lost dog around the rest of you, but alone you wanted to know everything about me, you made me insecure about myself, you lied to me every day, you still try to be friends with me to this day, it has been years but you miss me, I'm glad I don't need to deal with you and your shit ever again.

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one time you asked me why I was still friends with you. The reason is that I’m a people pleaser. I did everything to keep you at my side and I knew that you only did bad things when you were drunk. I knew you had a problem with alcohol and I thought it was in my hands to help you with your problem because you were one of the only people who helped me and you were one of the greatest person I knew, when you weren’t drunk.

A year ago I stopped being friends with you because I thought it would be best for us. A side of me wanted to write you every day, because I knew your drinking got a lot worse but I didn’t had the courage to write because I was sacred. Scared of what you would do if we were together while you were drunk.

A few weeks ago you died from the consequences of your alcohol problem. Sometimes I think it’s my fault because I stopped helping you and I weren’t there when you needed me the most. I don’t know if you hated me in your last days and I don’t know if you thought I hated you. I will never get the answer to my questions but I hope one day I will get closure and I hope you also got your closure💫

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You’ve ruined my life for 8 years, but I’m not gonna let that effect me anymore. I have the best people around me. Thankyou for letting me see I shouldn’t let people get to me and not change myself for anyone.

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I don‘t think you know me but you mean a lot to me. In my good and bad days you always know how to lift my mood and to make me smile. Without knowing it you are always there for me and I want to thank you for that. I wish you all the best!

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I REALLY HATE YOU! But.... Thank you for teaching me what heartbreak feels like as a child, thank you for bringing out my full potential, for showing me that I am strong enough to overcome the feeling. Everything happens for a reason, and I hope that whatever that happened between us would affect our future.

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You made my school days the worst time ever. I started hiding my true self. But because of you, I became stronger and learned to be myself again. I now live my life the way I want to and have a job that makes me happy. You never believed in me, but now I'm standing here and have already experienced so much of what I've always dreamed of. I finally know that I have to separate myself from people who are not good for me and that I should never change myself for anyone.

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I’ve liked u since forever but I can’t tell you, your my friend and ur friends know me so that would be awkward, and you probably don’t feel the same but I care about you, I think ur great and I hope you find the right one, even if it’s not me

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I just wanna say sorry that I ghosted and ignored you when my mental health was bad. I didn't have the words to explain what I was going through and at some point I felt it was just to late to speak up. I don't know where you are now but I hope you're happy and successful.

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I never thought i’d be thanking you for the hell you forced me to endure while i was simply a teenage girl just trying to get by, but i do thank you. Thank you for being the fuel to my success and the drive i now use to keep pushing myself to succeed and live the life i’ve always dreamed of. You knocked me down so far that it took years of my life to build myself back up again, but now i’m there i’m happier than ever. I now have so many people around me who i can be myself around and who show me how i deserve to be treated and have taught me that the problem was never within me. I’ll never forgive you and ill forever hate you for what you did to that vulnerable little girl but i do thank you because i truly believe i am a better person today because of it and my biggest motivation now is to be able to help other people who are in the same position. If this resonated with anyone who isn’t yet out the other side, i promise life can be so beautiful and things can change so fast <3

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I finally see now, the last 2 and a half years were abuse, I’m grateful for the life we shared because there was good times, but all the good doesn’t erase the bad.

I despise you and I now know my worth, I know I deserve better. So thank you for been an awful person, because I’m now doing better than ever, I didn’t deserve to be treated that way but you were a lesson, I will never let anyone take my spark away again.

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Bringing stuff up from my past is so shit. And because of that I’ve gone back into the state of panic. Why can’t you js LET. THINGS. GO. bringing up stuff when my mental health was rock bottom is idek. Now I sit at home before I sleep I have a panic attack and that’s because of you.

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You were the most shittiest friend anyone cld ever be in the span of one yr after being friends with so many ppl who hated my guts but no. You didn’t care. You were supposed to be my best friend be there for me like I was for you. Not give me back tickets I gave you saying I rlly want you to come and give it back to me saying “she’s not going so I’m not either” what kinda friend does that. I went all out for you for your special days, and all you did for me was give me a little money? Now you say you don’t like me? Ig all the talks on our way home meant Nthn to you x

But the only thing I took from this friendship was that Ik what I want in a friendship and what a friend shld really do for you. Bc of you I hated myself for ages and still do.

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From the moment you walked into my life and we played Mario Kart with your sisters, I knew there was something special about you and I've never stopped thinking that. Looking at you, seeing everything you've gone through and the fact you're still fighting makes me so incredibly proud of you, you're an incredible human being and the fact that I even get to be a small part of your life makes me happy.

You're so beautiful, your kindness, your eyes, the way you tell me random facts just because you can, the way you make me feel comfortable and safe and wanted makes my heart hurt, I love you so much that it's crazy.

Do I think he doesn't treat you right, the way you deserve? Absolutely. Do I think I could treat you better? Maybe but would I risk our friendship and everything we have for that chance? No because living with this feeling is better than living without you.

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Thank you for the horrid things you put me through. You made me realise how shitty you was and looking back on how I was when I was with you, I lost myself. I wasn’t the person I or my family knew, I lost it all. You made me feel like I was going insane. Making things up of things I ‘did’ which I never did. You was a controlling freak, a narcissist a gaslighter. And I HATE you for that. You literally made my life horror. Not even the fact you CHEATED on me with a girl who’s 18 😳 you were messed up, you don’t know how to treat women. I HATE YOU!!

Ok thanks moodiereports….this was so therapeutic…! ❤️ love everyone who’s gone through a hard time!! Sending hugs!! X

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To the people in high school and the people i called my 'friends'.

I am sorry i trusted you guys, that wasn't my favorite mistakes. After those years i see that the only reason why we were 'friends' is because you could use me. It's sad that you didn't see me for the person i really am. You never gave me the chance to show the real me. There was just not enough space. I am a chronically people pleaser so i might have saw your behavoir but was to naive to believe it. I was willing to chance a lot to just fit in, but i knew deep down that whatever i would do it was never gonna be enough.

To my 'best friend'

I hope you see one day that i was the one who helped you through difficult times. I still hope you and your boyfriend stay togheter forever but don't forget that i was the one being there when you were at your lowest. Now you are almost ignoring me, idk if i can call you my best friend anymore

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You broke me in many different ways. Gave me a burn-out, i crashed under school work which gave me a chronic illness. You are the cause of the feeling of not being understood cause my chronicl illness doens't represents it selfs in the way it does with others. You took away a lot for me and caused me to not trust my body antymore, not being able to stay up to late, panic attacks at random places and some other things.

But maybe the past month you made me a more honest person. My chronic illness will always be an obstacle but it also makes me the person i am and lead me to the study/ job i will do.

But you are still horible

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I never thought I would thank you for what you’ve done to me. Bully me because I liked your friend well not very smart but anyways. Not thank you for the tears you’ve created or for the panic attacks I had. But thank you because I know my true friends now, maybe leaving the city was the only thing that I needed and I didn’t realize it until I lived this hell. So thank you because now I know what I deserve, I know which person I am and I’ve grown so much since high school. So yeah but go fuck yourself because you’re a dick guy

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There's so much I could say to you, I don't have the space but I want to start with I miss you. I miss you so much, it envelopes me, you were one of the best people I ever knew and I will ever know. You taught me to find joy in the little things, to love music that little bit more and to unapologetically be myself, no matter who I am and I'm learning to do that. I miss your laugh, I miss getting your texts and calls, I miss hearing your voice, i miss everything about you. Olly Murs was in our city recently and I know you would've been there singing your heart out and dancing so I made sure I did it for you, I listen to his music and I think of you, I sing his songs and I think of you and not just him, Maisie Peters released new music and you were the first person I wanted to tell because you loved her as much as I do. I went to see Taylor Swift on the eras tour and you were the first person I wanted to call and tell and I couldn't because you're not here and it hurts.

My life and my heart haven't been the same since I found out the news. I want you to come back and tell me a daft joke, I want you to come back and tell me about this week's number 1, I want you to be the first person to wish me happy new year and happy birthday like you always did, i just want you here.

As well as being sad, I'm angry. Angry that you're not here anymore, angry that I don't know why you're not here anymore, angry that you felt you couldn't reach out and talk to me, I would've helped you Drew, you know that. You helped me so many times and I would've done the same for you, you only had to ask me and I'm angry that you didn't, I'm angry about it Drew, I'm angry.

I used to tell people you were the boy who swallowed the sun because you had an energy that filled the room with warmth and made everything brighter, everything's been grey since you were gone. You used to tell people we were going to get married one day and I always replied with "you wish" but maybe we would've, who knows. Either way, I would've been by your side always, watching you find your person and championing you the way you always championed me.

When I heard the news, I told my mum first and she said "that's the boy who bought you the bracelet and the lipstick for your 18th birthday" and that just showed how much of an impact you had, I'm way past 18 now but we've never forgotten that, I always tell people how you got the whole of McDonald's to sing happy birthday to me on my 18th and how I was so embarrassed but looking back now, it's one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me.

I didn't tell you enough how proud I was of you and I'm sorry but I am, so incredibly proud of you and I always will be. I'll never stop talking about you, I'll never stop missing you and I'll love you forever, there'll always be a piece of my heart missing because you're not here.

Until we meet again, keep shining, keep looking out for me and I'll keep making you proud, being unapologetically myself and not letting things hold me back, the way you always wanted to me to.

I love you x

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Know that with all of this feelings you're not alone (as you can see). Even though some people, situations,... might have broken you in the past, you are still a beautifull person! Please never stop believing in yourself. Go be the person you want to be, forget the social expections because who made them? Live for yourself and make the life you want to have! If they ask you to write the persons you love the most, please don't forget yourself!

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You used to scare me, say horrible things in that playground, but without you I never would have a gained a voice, I never would have stepped up and told someone, you to stop that what u were doing was wrong and that I’d had enough. I’ve never had a voice but u helped me find mine, so I may dislike you, a lot but thank you, because without you I’m not sure if I would have learned to voice my opinions or tell someone when somethings wrong, I’m now great 11 or so years later, living my life being authentic and true to myself, not everyone likes me but because of experiences like the one I had with you, I know it’s ok to not always be everyone’s favourite, and that being different, being me, is more important.

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I still think about you and I hate that. Let me move on please and stop mentioning me to mutual friends and comparing me to your girlfriend. We haven’t spoke in 3 years let me live

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Firstly I want to thank Henry and all my amazing friends for helping me. It means more than you'll ever know. And a big thank you to my ex of 2 whole years for treating me like shit. I've always thought of relationships as either a positive thing or completely negative, yet somehow, this didn't fit either category. I'm one of those girls who reads romance books at any given moment, who loves the hopeless romantic movies. But i also know how bad relationships can be. Studying criminology and psychology helps with that, and seeing how relationships wrecked your big sister helps too. Yet you, you weren't either. There were moments we shared together that felt like I was on cloud nine. Smiling, laughing, but there were more times I felt like shit because of you. Guilty for going to concerts because you wanted the attention and were annoyed i was giving my attention to people on a stage. What you didn't realise were these people on that stage helped me through so much, helped me find who i was meant to be, helped me cope with you. Never once did i complain about you disappearing daily for hours to watch wrestling, but you had a huge issue when i went to a concert once a year. Why? You knew how much music meant to me. It's hard right now, clearing out my camera roll of everything relating to us, because i keep seeing that little 14 year old girl gushing about the boy who said i like you too with her friends, the girl who wouldn't let anyone change her no matter how weird people thought she was. It's hard knowing that i no longer resemble her, besides maybe the ginger hair and glasses. I no longer see myself in her, but I want to. You stripped that from me. The girl who had never had a relationship, didn't know what to expect, you took it for granted. I had so many days where all i wanted to do was lay in bed and listen to music or watch my comfort show (i bet you don't even know what it was even though i'd spoken about it a thousand times). School is exhausting, that relationship was exhausting. I had no social battery and hadn't seen my friends in months because i couldn't face it. You still made me come see you, every weekend even though you wouldn't pay any attention to me. The only attention you gave me was begging for that when you knew i didn't want to. I bet you didn't even consider how much that affected me. The day you broke up with me, october 3, i just knew. I knew you were cheating yet you were too scared to admit it. You know how i know? You didn't ask to see me for 2 months, you were on your phone but it wasn't texting me, and i found the girl's social media. I didn't even bother to confront you further, there was no point, but i wish i had that closure. I felt relief when I read that text. And immediately, i cleared out everything from my phone, changed my password, erased any trace of you from my phone. Yet you're still engraved in my mind, the good times, although there weren't many of them. I'm 16, i should be living my life and enjoying being young, you didn't allow me to do that, so I'm doing exactly that now. I'm over you, thankfully, and there's no way i'm ever coming back to you, that my life with you is complete. I wish you all the best, i hate you for what you did to me but i don't wish anything bad on you, besides some karma, maybe. and guess what? My life has been amazing since you left it. I'm me again, that little 14 year old who wouldn't let anyone change who she was and how weird she was is back. That girl who thought odd socks bring good luck, the girl who couldn't believe her eyes when her mum surprised her with her first concert. A few weeks ago I couldn't bare to look at myself in the mirror, i saw a broken girl, with no self esteem and no self confidence. Now im singing and dancing in that mirror and i see an amazing girl in the reflection of it. A girl who has personality, her own weird little traits. Since you left i spend my lazy days watching criminal minds (my comfort show, if you forgot.) and dancing with my mum to my playlist. Thank you for showing me that relationships really aren't all they seem to be, and that i can live a great life without one. You hated me going out with friends, especially going to concerts, so guess what my mum and i did on October 3? We went to Taylor's release party in cinemas, came home and booked concert tickets for Henry's tour in April. Thank you so much Henry, you helped me cope with this. And instead of relating to 'Closure' and 'People Pleaser' i finally relate to 'Good Old Days'. Mood Swings has helped me so much, and I can't wait to scream Dear Drew and Cigarette (as well as every other song too, my gosh its a no skip album) on tour. Thank you for helping me find who i am again. Thank you to my mum for supporting me and being there for me, thank you to my friends who let me ramble for hours about music, videogames, books, my comfort shows, and of course ranting with me about how i wasted 2 years of my life on a 3/10 AT BEST boy. I love you all and I'm forever grateful. I wish I could tell Henry how grateful I am, but i fear that would take hours upon hours. I'm so thankful for being me again, that girl who loves odd socks, concerts, romance books, and painting.

With that, I have one final thing to say.

Dear Drew,

Thank you.

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I hate you so so much because you made me hate me so so much. Are you ok? To treat me like that when I was a stranger are you ok? What happened to you? You made that playground a hell whole you made every corridor of that place horrible but now I have learnt to enjoy it and I am reclaiming it. I hope you understand everything you did and how it hurt me. To you it was a joke to me it took years to feel comfortable in myself again but thank you because now I know who I am and I know how I will never treat someone. Thank you as the way you hurt me made me have something (concerts and music) as a comfort and thank you because it showed me how strong I can be. You finally left my life a couple months ago and I am doing so much better. You wernt a friend you wernt a ex you were a bully and I would never wish what you did on anyone even you but Trust me I will turn your words into songs people scream.

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You told me u loved me just to hate me the same day and now im doing better than I ever was without u

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I wish I stopped justifying your mistakes and I didn’t love you as much as I did because I know your not good for me

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Thank You ruined a song that I loved and now knowing I cant listen to this song without thinking of both of you

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I have liked you for awhile now and dont know how to exactly say it to you as I know you dont feel the same way but even though I met you a few times and seem like a great people I hope you find the one even if it's not me

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Oh and did you know it hurt me so bad when you cut off contact all of sudden when i DID nothing wrong

i have moved on but the pains and scars you have given me will remain some time in my life~im slowly healing and i wish you nothing but the WORST because i really really hate you

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I’ve always been struggling with my mental health. But recently in school, some people’s comments towards me have been making it worse. It’s been going on for months and I haven’t had the courage to tell the teachers. May this be the courage for me to tell the teachers what’s going on and to tell those people to stfu!

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because of you I nearly left. You made every day a living hell that I couldn't escape. The only way I knew to cope was by trying to hurt myself more than you could hurt me. You scarred me for life both physically and mentally. But now I am stronger than ever. Your words can't hurt me anymore, I refuse to hear them. Getting away from you was the best thing I have ever done for myself and I'm proud of myself for doing that. I am so happy now and I'm glad I stayed. Your actions have made me a stronger, kinder and better person who can appreciate how beautiful life can truly be when you stop listening to the voices in your head. So Dear Drew, thank you.

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you ruined my life in so many different ways and i'll never forget all of the things you did to me...but i'm stronger than i ever was before you and am finally living my life happy. i wouldn't have become the person i am without the things you did to me, so although i only forgave you to heal from my past thank, you for shaping me into the person i am todah

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there is SO much I want to say to you. You were equally as good of a person as you were absolutely horrible. I didn’t expect to come back from such an emotional experience to the mess you created for me to handle. You were such a good friend. Regardless of what happened later, you were still a good friend - and that’s what hurts. You were genuinely such an amazing person when you were in my life, but you’re not anymore, and I feel so much better. If leaving that era behind means leaving behind all my old friends but not having you running the thoughts in my head, I guess that I said im ok with that! Seriously, I feel so so much better without you in my life and I’ve grown so much without you, and maybe I should say thank you!

Dear Drew, thank you!

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as a friend, i love you so, so much. you are genuinely the best person ive ever encountered, but what the HELL were those comments. I don’t even know what to say to you, I’m just so very confused and dumbfounded as to why you would even THINK that. I felt so extremely comfortable sharing one of the most personal discoveries of my life with you first, just to realise you thought I was joking and don’t even support me. I’ve been told that if our friendship is strong enough it’ll “defy these differences”, but is it really? Will it really? That stuff hurt, that stuff was confusing, I swear, I just sat there trying to process what idiotic essentialist statement came out of your mouth. I still love and appreciate you. So much. But I seriously want to reconsider all this, because my identity and self worth means more to me than your opinions. Dear Drew, screw you!

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thank you SO much. You’ve brought so much joy into my life and I could not thank you enough. I think about you practically every single day and reminisce the good old days. Oh how I wish I could just go back in time and relive it again and again and again. You taught me SO much about myself and how to genuinely be me and you made me such a better person than the me I was before. The old me is gone and I said im ok with that! If I could have just 1 hour with you, I’d probably fall to my knees and cry and tell you everything that I’ve achieved and how much you helped me. Dear Drew, thank you thank you thank you!!!

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If only you knew how much it hurts and haunts me even though I tried to play it cool. Till now I couldn't understand.

But it made me realise how supportive my friends are during my saddest and I deserve so much more.

It's almost a year. Sometimes it still stings just a teensy bit, but I do feel my spark is back.

I wish you the best (fr), but I want nothing to do with you. Ever again. Thank you.

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I hate you so much I really do! You left me with a lot of trauma and I will never ever forgive you for that, you made my school days the worst ever and I’m still so angry for everything you did and made me feel but in a way I am kind of grateful because if it wasn’t for you and your awful actions I wouldn’t of realised how much of a strong person I am and how even the worst things might knock me down but I have the strength and motivation to get back up! I will not now or ever let you ruin my life and I stand by that statement.

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I wish so much that I had told you a million times a day everyday how much I loved you and cared for you before you died. I wish you had asked me for some help but I know it’s not that easy and I forgive you for that I always will! I would move the world if it meant I could see your face or hear your voice even just for 5 minutes! I miss and love you so so much and I really hope you’re okay up there. Thankyou for helping me create positive memories in a place where that was very hard to make I will never forget them and they hold a special place in my heart! I appreciate so much that I got to spend so much time with you before you sadly left this world because it has left me with some positive memories that really do make me smile on the darkest days. I’m sorry I couldn’t save you but like you always said to me “if I go first , don’t give up and go live this life for me” so that is what I’m trying to do and I hope with all my heart I’m making you proud ❤️‍🩹

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It really took me a lot of years almost all of my childhood and teenage years to realize that it was never really about me or my fault in the first place for how y’all treated me and Henry’s song kinda made me realize even in the bad things is some positivity if y’all asked me for forgiveness I wouldn’t be able to forgive you (too much happened that’s unforgivable but I’ll never wish any of you smth bad bc that’s not who I am I believe in karma and if it would want to see ya down it would make sure that happens or happened) but I’m thankful even when no one deserves to get through such a pain especially as a kid I know I’m not alone and I never was in it it’s sad how many of us had to experience being bullied but we’re all strong it learned me a lot in life I got stronger than ever, learned how to handle a small friend circle only good friends that you can really trust, learned how to deal with my emotion and grew over myself I’m still not at the point where I want to be but I was at the bottom when I found comfort in music which healed me sm and it made me more confident I was struggling for years couldn’t speak up even simple phrases in public beside my 4 walls at home and hated myself for that but I realized that I have to get out of this bc I will never ever let myself down again not because of anyone else how you always wanted to see me and a lot of this I can thank my fav artists for especially Henry his songs are a never ending therapy session ❤️‍🩹🥹 especially dear drew make me realize all this last year I started finally to get out of my comfort zone y’all created to destroy me in but in small steps… I applied for a job I always wanted but always was scared to apply for, planned my first ever concert and went to it since then I can’t live without concerts and I’m growing from day to day even more and one day I’ll be at the point where I don’t even care a bit about y’all sometimes y’all still cross my mind and everything comes up again but now I want be the best version of myself hoping one day y’all regret it from the heart if you have one (I know y’all won’t because you’re evil people) but one day y’all look up at me being successful in life and having everything I ever wanted even with the stones y’all put on my path I’m not a person who gives up easily and if someone else reads this we’re all survivors we were so strong they couldn’t bring us down and it’s amazing how we all relate to the same songs and experienced the worst but never give up

Thank you Henry for all this amazing songs you build us up with we heal all together from it 🧸🤍

And to my dear bullies I’m not even mad anymore it doesn’t help me anything in life to still be I’m thankful for this path of my life bc I learned a lot and know I’ll never treat anyone like y’all did treat me or I’ll always stand up for someone who don’t get treated well and that’s what I’m proud of about myself even when y’all wanted to destroy me I’m doing better than ever

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You were my first ever girlfriend, but after 5 months you broke up with me without telling me the reason. I was so broken, I didn't think I could live without you, and I didn't think I would ever go a day without you crossing my mind. But I did, and it became 2 days, and 3, and then a week, and after a while it was more specail if I thought about you than if I didn't. I guess what I want to say is: I'm finally over you, I hope you don’t hate me, because I don’t hate you. Thank you for the amazing time, I hope you have an amazing rest of your life.

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Thank you. Because of you I’m now finding myself. I gave you so many years of my life, years that I’ll never get back. In those times you hurt me, you broke me down to nothing, you made me feel like I didn’t deserve to feel any sort of happiness. But now without you I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. I’m living the life I never thought I’d be able to live whilst with you. I’m exploring the world, I’m working in a job I love with people that I love, and even starting to work on my dream job that I’ve always wanted. I’m doing the things you always said I wouldn’t. And I’ve never felt prouder of me. So Dear Drew, thank you.

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I forgive you but I will never forget you

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Thank you for treating me so bad because thats changed me for the better and without that i wouldnt be the person i am today

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it's been years since we've been friends now, times have changed, we've all grown up and gone our own ways

i still check up to see how you're doing every now and then

i don't know if i can ever forgive you for the hurt you caused and the friendship trauma you've caused but you will always be a part of my journey of growing up to be who i am now

so dear drew, thank you

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you always told me i wasn't enough and that I'd never make it, that I'd lose the fight. But you were wrong. I made it. I'm now 1000 kilometres away from home and i changed so much in the time I've been away. I learned more about myself than i have the past years and i learned that i can do everything i set my mind to. I met total strangers that i now call my second home and met people who believe in me, who say i can do it even though they know nothing about me. I have strangers believing in me, and that made me realise i should believe in myself too. And I do. It took a long time, but I'm proud of the person i am becoming here, and i believe in me and my goals.

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I have finally accepted the fact we're not friends anymore. 6 years of a friendship went down the drain the minute you chose other people over me and you only knew them for a week. I am grateful we're no longer friends because that showed me that i don't need people like you in my life. I have foumd my people through my favourite artists and through school/college. You leaving my life was meant to happen so i can see the type of person you were.

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i’m glad we’re not friends anymore, after finding out what you said, even though it had nothing to do with me i was done. since i stopped being friends with you, we were friends soon after but that changed quickly, the way you act to me and the way you are annoys me. i think of how much i dislike you everyday and hate to see you at school, forget archie, your my biggest opp now. i hate seeing you at school, it ruins my day, and i hope you stop swearing considering your family are quite religious so maybe learn that.

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Fuck you. I hate you. I fucking fucking fucking hate you. You took people from me far too early so I didnt get to meet them. Then when I was only 10 you tried to take my mum. So fuck you. Cause guess what you fucking failed and I have never been prouder of someone in my life. You tried so many different ways but you failed. You made me go into primary school every day scared I was going to come home and not see my mum. But I did. Every day I came home and she was there smiling no matter what pain she felt. So fuck you. You made my life hell and it is something I will never truly be over. I am so so sorry to anyone going through anything like this and just remeber there’s light at the end of the tunnel ❤️(here for you xx)

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I'd like to thank you for your time. You were there for me when I was feelin helpless and broken. You boosted my self-confidence, you taught me to love myself. On the other hand, I wish you were more honest and I meant a lot more to you than I actually do. I feel like I am nothing more than firstly a hoe, secondly someone who you come back to just because you're bored. And the fact that you probably sleep with other girls.. I wish I could end things between us just as easily as you are ignoring me.

Thx..

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alexa play f you by lily allen! even though this song is exactly how i feel. you’re disgusting behaviour has made me who i am today. your constant belittment and abuse has made me so strong !! so in a world full of hatred and a heart full of NO forgiveness. thank you for that <3 i AM the bigger person here. enjoy the rest of your sad little life ✨✨✨