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I believe that Dideon kept a notebook, not for the memories. I believe she kept a notebook so she could reminisce on her moments of feelings. The feelings of safety or insecureness.

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I think that the larger point that Didion makes is that it all comes back. By writing down small points of a situation, you can get a glimpse of what used to happen. Eventually it all comes back. We see it in her example of perusing through the newspaper. She sees it almost everyday and all she starts to do is look at the deaths, suicides and cancer victims. This is a definite sign that she has realized how old everyone and everything looks.

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Dideon writes, "... the point of my keeping a notebook has never been, nor is it now, to have an accurate factual record of what I have been doing or thinking"(81). Dideon writes to recall the people she has been, and met, but also the perception associated with each. By writing, she is able to reference herself to the self she had once been to gain insight on where she has been compared to where she is going.

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Dideon is trying to tell her audience that the past helps to define the present. Through her recollection of the past, she begins to recognize the progress she has made in her life. Process is too gradual for it to be apparent. Keeping a notebook helps her to see that time is passing, which she wants her readers to also be cognizant of.

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I think the reasons of writing a notebook are about the memories and stay personal to you. It is written down so you do not forget who you were. "Your notebook will never help me, nor mine you"(85) It is all about who you used to be and it is meant to be private to you. If the notebook has personal information in there and inside stuff that people would not understand, then there is no involvement for someone else to read it.

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The larger point is that everyone wants to remember who they used to be, but it is not too easy to do that. "We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget"(85) The notebook is a reminder to you of your past, to keep in touch with the other people you used to be, to "remember what it was to be me"(82).

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Didion says she writes in her note book beause "..the impulse to write things down is a particularly compulsive one..."(80). She explains how she doesn't just record daily events and write down pointless entries. Another one of Didions reasons is record what we see around us, our thoughts and reflections of the days. Didion believes that making a note book is a private thing that is only meant to be understood by the maker.

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Didion says she writes in her note book beause "..the impulse to write things down is a particularly compulsive one..."(80). She explains how she doesn't just record daily events and write down pointless entries. Another one of Didions reasons is record what we see around us, our thoughts and reflections of the days. Didion believes that making a note book is a private thing that is only meant to be understood by the maker.

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The deeper meaning of keeping a notebook is to not forget important people, memories and feelings. Didion says, "We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget". A notebook can help someone keep in tough with other people, and even yourself.

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The deeper meaning of keeping a notebook is to not forget important people, memories and feelings. Didion says, "We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget". A notebook can help someone keep in tough with other people, and even yourself.

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Didion keeps the notebook to stay true to herself. She writes, "we are brought up in the ethic that others... are by definition more interesting than ourselves" (82). She states many times that instead of stories of her own life, she writes things she overhears from strangers or takes her life and embellishes them, but in the end, everything she writes in her notebook supplies her with a memory of her life that makes her feel safe or grounded. Didion states, "I suppose that keeping in touch is what notebooks are all about... your notebook will never help me, nor mine you" (85). Didion keeps her notebook out of respect for herself and to make sure that she's always paying respect to what happened in her past.

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The larger point that Didion is making is that everything a person does is important and that the past will always come back, so it is in one's best interest to always remember and respect their past. She states this sentiment on page 85, saying "It all comes back... I think we are well advised to keep on nodding terms with the people we used to be whether we find them attractive company or not. Otherwise they turn up unannounced and surprise us..." Didion is trying to make the point that by remembering past actions and respecting them, one will always be prepared to face them when they come back.

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Didion may keep a notebook as the result of impulse, evidenced by the passage "The impulse to write things down is a peculiarly compulsive one..."(80). While Didion doesn't directly state as much, it is implied that her notebook writing may come from a need to tell/invent stories, even from a young age. "I have no idea what turn of a five-year-old's mind could have prompted so... exotic a story"(81). The point of the notebook may be to chronicle people, but only certain kinds of people. "I have no real business with what one stranger said to another... [I am interested in] the unmentioned girl in the plaid silk dress"(82).

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Didion makes the point that our lives are inherently about people, either other people or the ones we used to be. She doesn't always understand her own entries, why she chose to write what she did, but she is always adament about writing not mindless accounts of her day, such as"'shopping, typing piece, dinner with E, depressed"(81) but writing about things that actually meant something (i.e. the sauerkraut recipe). And if the things she wrote don't mean anything to her now, at least they did to the person she used to be.

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 I believe Didion keeps a notebook is not only writing her experiences in her words but to keep in touch with her inner self and keep her experiences, stories, ideas, and other precious things to herself. She says, "It is a good idea, then, to keep in touch, and I suppose that keeping in touch is what notebooks are all about. And we are all on our own when it comes to keeping those lines open to ourselves..." (pg. 85) When she says that I imagine it like a daily reminder to check up on yourself and going through your thoughts, but instead its being described on paper, not just in her head.

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 I believe Didion keeps a notebook is not only writing her experiences in her words but to keep in touch with her inner self and keep her experiences, stories, ideas, and other precious things to herself. She says, "It is a good idea, then, to keep in touch, and I suppose that keeping in touch is what notebooks are all about. And we are all on our own when it comes to keeping those lines open to ourselves..." (pg. 85) When she says that I imagine it like a daily reminder to check up on yourself and going through your thoughts, but instead its being described on paper, not just in her head.

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I think what Didion felt ad understood about life she put writing and saves it for when she gets older an potentially an audience that's interested. She believes as do I that what someone feels is personal, and even if someone comes along like we were when we started reading it, we can't really relate to every single thing that's in the notebook. Oppose to finding an diary or sketch book that was under your bed that has about 5 years worth of dust on it, we start reading and suddenly all those little memories that have fallen through the cracks in our mind stat to come flooding back. I think Didion keeps a notebook because memories are one of the most cherished thing to a person. By writing down what you experience whether it by meaningful or simply random, you’ll look back upon it one day and revisit that time.    

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I think what Didion felt ad understood about life she put writing and saves it for when she gets older an potentially an audience that's interested. She believes as do I that what someone feels is personal, and even if someone comes along like we were when we started reading it, we can't really relate to every single thing that's in the notebook. Oppose to finding an diary or sketch book that was under your bed that has about 5 years worth of dust on it, we start reading and suddenly all those little memories that have fallen through the cracks in our mind stat to come flooding back. I think Didion keeps a notebook because memories are one of the most cherished thing to a person. By writing down what you experience whether it by meaningful or simply random, you’ll look back upon it one day and revisit that time.    

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Based on the author's reflection on page 82, "...perhaps there never were flurries in the night, and maybe no one else felt the ground hardening and the summer already dead even when we pretended to bask in it, but that was how it felt to me, and it might as well have snowed, could have snowed, did snow," I can infer that she kept her notebook, not as a bland, factual record of her daily events, but rather as a literary personification of her feelings, life and also the lives of those around her as she experienced it.

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The point the author is trying to make when explaining her process is that no matter how one person interprets a minor detail, the overall outcome is not really changed at all. It is not what happened but how one perceives what happened that matters most.

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Didion mentions several possible reasons for why she keeps a notebook, but she also notes, "It is easy to deceive oneself on all of those scores," (80), in reference to her personal reasons for keeping a notebook. In fact, given her penchant for the imaginative, "I tell what some would call lies," (81), most of the listed reasons are quite probably false. The true reason she keeps a notebook is to ease the fear she suffers about the future. Didion claims, "Keepers of private notebooks are ... lonely and resistant rearrangers of things, anxious malcontenters, children afflicted apparently at birth by some presentiment of loss," (80). She also says, "I would like to believe that my dread then was for the human condition, but of course it was for me, because I wanted a baby and did not then have one and because I wanted to own the house that cost $1000 a month to rent and because I had a hangover," (85). All of these worries express a general fear of what might occur, or what might not occur, in the future. Didion's notebook serves to relay her life in the present, full of concerns and anxiety, into stories of the past. The past which she can handle, as long as she stays in touch with it by reading back through her notebook.

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The larger point that Didion makes is that the world is a gigantic place, full of people and events that can crowd us out. By keeping a notebook, Didion is able to stay grounded to her life, a lesson she wishes everyone can understand. Didion states, "It is a good idea, then, to keep in touch and I suppose that keeping in touch is what notebooks are all about," (85). This visceral connection to one's life allows us to fully appreciate your past and future, "My stake is always, of course, in the unmentioned girl in the plaid silk dress," (82). Didion doesn't get overwhelmed by her life, because she is tied to the entirety of her life by writing in her notebook.

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Throughout the essay Didion explains a variety of reasons for her keeping a notebook. A possibility is that "the impulse to write things down is a peculiarly compulsive one"(80). Meaning that she feels an urge or an instinct to take down the moments she encounters each day. Didion does not always possess a solid clarity between what truly occurs and what could have. This leads to things that "some would call lies"(81). However, those so called lies are "how it felt to me"(82), therefore it might as well have truly happened. Didion believes that a "thrifty virtue derives from preserving everything observed"(82). She lives to "see enough and write it down"(82). Therefore when the world is stripped of curiosity and passion and she is "going through the motions of doing what I am supposed to do"(82) her notebook will be there. Remaining as a "forgotten account with accumulated interest, paid passage back to the world out there"(82). A notebook that is "something private, about bits of the mind's string too short to use"(83) holding the true meaning only for the creator. And although the meaning is hard to understand, even for the creator, "it all comes back"(85). Sometimes it comes back ugly and causes you to "not like to look in the mirror"(86) and leads your eyes to only see the evil. However, it also comes to help individuals stay in contact with themselves, for "keeping in touch is what notebooks are all about"(85). In the end "we are all on our own when it comes to keeping those lines open to ourselves"(85). Didion's notebook is a tie to who she was, who she is, and who she soon will be.

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Didion mentioned that to her, a notebook has never been for, "an accurate factual record," but instead, to embellish the boredom of life. Joan Didion also states that a notebook is for the person who writes it, and no one else. This suggests that no one can critique the notebook, and perhaps it is a safe place to write out emotions/thoughts/ideas.

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She doesn't write down every detail about an event from one day, but just the specific threads that weave the her memory. The sauerkraut recipe brought back her memories of Fire Island in the Atlantic. Didion writes on page eighty-five, "We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget." She writes her journals too embellish memories and leave footprints to follow in her later years. Didion isn't writing a diary, she is writing a notebook, and the difference is that she is not writing on the page what happened that day, but writing on the page what she wants to remember happening that day. If it snowed in August when she was in Vermont, it snowed

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Didion makes her point that "it all comes back"(86). We each desperately try to hide from the people around us, the people we used to be, and the person we are. However, we fail each time. We are unable to truly hide ourselves from reality. Instead, we repress and momentarily forget our sufferings. Yet, "it all comes back"(86), because until we write it down or face it head-on we are merely mice running on a wheel going nowhere. Unlike most of us, Didion is keeping in touch with herself and her life, which is "what notebooks are all about"(85).

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Didion seems to imply that keeping this notebook, regardless of what she writes down on a particular day (whether it be fact or fiction) helps her to remember what happened on that day. She says "And yet it is precisely that fictitious crab that makes me see that afternoon all over again"(85). Perhaps I'm missing the point but that's the idea that makes the most sense to me. Another reason I suspect is that she has some sort of impulsive desire to constantly write down literally whatever comes to mind. She says this one outright "The impulse to write things down is a particularly compulsive one"(80). My guess is that she has some sort of condition similar to OCD or ADHD where she simply can't help but to jot everything down.

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Well one of the points she makes in a paragraph on page 83 makes me feel as though she's saying that we spend a lot of time prying into other's business when in reality we care mostly for our own. She says "But our notebooks give us away, for however dutifully we record what we see around us, the common denominator of all we see is always, transparently, shamelessly, the implacable "I"(83) This gives me the idea that we ultimately care mostly for ourselves and our own good. It was this point in the essay that stood out to me the most and such is why I decided to write on it.

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There are many possible reasons for keeping a notebook. As Didion expresses throughout the essay, keeping a notebook allows oneself to keep in touch with their past, present and future self. A notebook can be used to share the thoughts that a person has from experiencing and observing different events in their life. Didion explains, when writing in a notebook, it is “The impulse to write things down is a peculiarly compulsive one, inexplicable to those who do not share it, useful only accidentally, only secondary, in the way that any compulsion tries to justify itself” (80). The words written in a notebook are used as a reminder to the writer in the future when all memories of those events have vanished. Even though Didion’s words in her notebook may not speak all truth, but she can see the value of her writings and use them to learn from the past. The words written down from the past allow Didion to, “...help me to remember what I am?” (84) and to, “...help me to remember what I am not?” (84). Didion allows notebooks to hold the unwanted past to help her grow in the future. Notebooks are, “...a good idea, then, to keep in touch, and I suppose that keeping in touch are what notebooks are all about” (85).

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The larger point Didion makes is that the past is important to help create who a person is in the future. otebooks are used to document the horror of the past, to help overcome problems in the future. Many people try to forget the past and who they once are, as they may have many skeletons in their closet. However, "We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget"(85). A notebook allows Didion to never lose focus on herself and the world around her.

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Didion mentions many different reasons for keeping a notebook, the first being simply to remember. When discussing why she chose to write a certain note down, Didion states "Why did I write it down? In order to remember, of course..." (80). The most obvious answer is clearly to remember something, though Didion further elaborates and suggests that a notebook can provide an outlet for those who are dissatisfied to write down their thoughts. When discussing the happy mentality of her daughter, Didion says, "Keepers of private notebooks are a different breed all together, lonely and resistant re-arrangers of things..." (80). It becomes clear that those who are lonely or have more negative thoughts feel the need to write them down. Didion also mentions that a notebook can be more fiction than fact, but that its true purpose is to remind the author how it made them feel. "How it felt to me: that is getting closer to the truth about a notebook" (82). Didion feels that keeping a notebook is a way for a person to remember how something made them feel, not necessarily what actually happened. This is perhaps the biggest point that Didion makes through this essay. She reiterates that it all triggers a memory of an emotion with the statement: "Remember what it was to be me: that is always the point" (82). This expands on the idea that a notebook is truly kept to remind one of an emotion, good or bad. Didion also suggests that a notebook is used to remind oneself of how they were in the past. When discussing her past regrettable states of being, Didion says, "...I suppose that keeping in touch is what notebooks are all about" (85). This suggests further that realizing ones past behaviors and past emotions is an important purpose of keeping a notebook. Didion suggests many reasons for keeping a notebook, finishing with the idea that the notes of a seemingly random thing trigger an emotion. "It all comes back. Even that recipe for sauerkraut... I was on Fire Island when I first made that sauerkraut... and I listened to the rain and the Atlantic and felt safe. I made the sauerkraut again last night and it did not make me feel any safer..." (86).The final sentiments of Didion's essay show that an unconnected thing will remind her of a certain point in time when she felt a strong emotion.

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Didion makes the point that keeping her notebook makes it so she is able to stay in touch with her emotions and who she is, as well as who she has been. When discussing the actual importance of a certain note, she states "Might not Mrs. Minnie S. Brooks help me to remember what I am? Might not Mrs. Lou Fox help me to remember what I am not?" (84). Didion shows here that her notes keep her aware of who she is, as they trigger certain memories and emotions. Though this is a rather specific example, it is clear that her notes can help her keep in touch with what is happening and how she is responding to it. She also points out that keeping a notebook and reliving old emotions helps her to be aware of what has changed around her and within her. When discussing the negative emotions that a certain notebook entry triggered, she states "I think we are well advised to keep on nodding terms with the people we used to be whether we find them attractive or not" (85). This shows that Didion feels that we need to be aware of our past behaviors and mistakes, and as well as how we have changed since. By discussing the process of keeping her notebook, Didion makes the larger point that we need to be aware of what surrounds us.

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Didion describes the process she follows in her notebook. She will write down one line that allows her to recall events, people, and feelings from her past. Didion wrote, "...we are well advised to keep on nodding terms with the people we used to be..." (85). The larger point that she is trying to make is that keeping a notebook reminds her of who she used to be and her younger self. This in turn allows her to see how she has aged and changed over the years.

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Didion gives many explanations and excuses for keeping her notebook. She attempts to convince herself that the reason she is writing it is a million different things. That her compulsive need to write stemmed from something other than the true reason. Her first reason being that it was to remember things. "Why did I write it all down? In order to remember of course" (80). While that seems a reasonable explanation, Didion shoots it down along with all other excuses she comes up with. She claims it's to remember everything observed. Yet, this point does not make sense if she claimed the other one to be false. Another claim she has is that the writings are about other people, and she wishes they were, rather than it being the selfish "I". While all these claims may appear legitimate, Didion decides in the end of the text that the real reason she wrote the notebook was to keep in touch with who she used to be. "I think we are well advised to keep on nodding terms with the people we used to be" (85). Writing down the strings of thoughts that may only be understandable to her or who she used to be. She is able to look back and remember the feelings she has lost touch with. She is able to remember things that may have seemed so trivial at the time but were significant to who she became like the long skirts and the sauerkraut.

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"... the point of my keeping a notebook has never been, nor is it now, to have an accurate factual record of what I have been doing or thinking" (81). She writes to keep a record of what happened in a sense bigger than factual; it doesn't matter what the details are of a particular event, but it does matter that it happened. The notes are connections to another time, simply gateways to something much greater.

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The notebook's purpose is not to recall things, but rather, to not forget them; the details of any particular event are of little importance, but the emotions, memories, and feelings associated with are immeasurably valuable. It isn't the note itself that is important, or the notebook, but their significance is tremendous; if the memory is the treasure, then the notebook isn't the vault, but the key. They serve as conduits to emotions and feelings long lost to the winds of time. The simple words serve as tangible reminders of what was, even if the event is long past.

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The purpose to keeping the notebook was to not allow the moments of life to slip through her fingertips. "We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget. We forget the loves and the betrayals alike, forget what we whispered and what we screamed, forget who we were" (85). Didion kept the notebook to remember the blocks that built who she was. The triumphs and the mistakes. She wrote in the notebook to recall memories and feelings that would be forgotten too soon. Often times important parts of one's life are lost through memories. One cannot grow unless he remembers who he was before he became new. While Didion seems irritated by her compulsive need to write in the notebook, there is much wisdom to it.

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Didion has several explanations for keeping a notebook. At first, she mentions that she feels the impulse to write things down. Didion wrote, "The impulse to write things down is a peculiarly compulsive one" (80). The impulse to write things down is likely a reason that Didion keeps a notebook, as she wants to write down things that stand out to her. Another reason may be to remember people, events, and feelings from the past. Didion said, "I should remember the woman who said it and the afternoon I heard it" (84). She is able to remember a part of the past through her notebook, and remembering the past allows her to remember her former self and see how she has aged.

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nigger i hate black people ooga booga fuck u monkey niggers

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nigger i hate black people ooga booga fuck u monkey niggers

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Didion's point of departure from conventional Note Book.

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Fuckers in school telling me, always in the barber shop
"Chief Keef ain't 'bout this, Chief ain't 'bout that"
My boy a BD on fucking Lamron and them
He, he, they say that nigga don't be putting in no work
Shut the fuck up, y'all niggas ain't know shit
All y'all motherfuckers talkin' about
"Chief Keef ain't no hitter, Chief Keef ain't this, Chief Keef a fake"
Shut the fuck up, y'all don't live with that nigga
Y'all know that nigga got caught with a ratchet
Shootin' at the police and shit
Nigga been on probation since fuckin' I don't know when
Motherfucker, stop fuckin' playin' him like that
Them niggas savages out there
If I catch another motherfucker talking sweet about Chief Keef
I'm fucking beatin' they ass, I'm not fucking playin' no more
Know them niggas roll with Lil Reese and them