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Bye world i got F9. My father will beet me up but not only me but also my mother. What have i donee!! I let my mother and brothers and sisters. Im so useless! Ughhh! I got an F9, then my father beet me up, then i cannot buy house for mother brothers and sisters, i cannot get work with F9, no money, become poor, father will beet me up again. Why is my life is miserable. Why is life so unfair. I cannot take it!!! i cant let my father beet me up again. im going to keel myself bye bye world

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I am going to get killed by my father.Why did i get an F9? i am so stupid.i am going to dissapoint my family especially my mother.my mother who supported me at all times.why did i let down my whole family down?my dreams is dead.i should have study harder but well its just that i have stupid brain.im sorry,mother & my siblings.i think it is time to say goodbye.my dreams to get all of you a house to get far away from father and become a nurse is all gone.i am so stupid and i am sorry for that.when i am ded,i will become ghost and 🤬 father who hurt my mother and my beloved siblings everyday.goodbye world,goodbye sibling,no words can explian how much i lobe and appreciate all of you.

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Why....just why. Another F9!!! Why am I useless...why am I a bad writter... Im gonna get killed by my father. I just wanna die. Bye bye world

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Nooooooo!!!!! Why did I get F9 for my English. My Father is going to beat me up. What should I do? Can Someone help me? I think I don't deserve to live. I am sorry Mom, Dad , Brothers and sisters. I am extremely Sorry....... I hope you all undersstand me. I must tell you all that I really don't deserve to live

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Why did I fail my exams? I thought I worked hard for it! Now my family will suffer forever because of my useless F9. WHY AM I SO USELESS?! Why can't i just do my family this one favour, passing for my other classmates was such a simple task, so why cant't I do it? I should have worked harder so that I could save my family from the harms my father does to them...If i can't even get a pass for my exam to save my family I should just DIE! IM SO USELESS IN THIS WORLD! I SHOULD JUST DIE! IM NOT FREAKIN NEEDED IN THIS WORLD! I'm so sorry mother that i cannot free you from the harm father did to all of us...I should leave this world before I do anymore harm to them...I guess...this is a goodby

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i was trying to tell about my feelings but fails examination and got an F9 very sad.work so hard but still fail an get f9 for exams.my mum found out and scold me i tell i try studi hard but she no believe me because i english bad.fail everytime i feel like i should not try stdyimg and want to die. i am sad and very stress and dont know where to help get.  my cher dont understand what im trying to say in my compo am i that bad and stupid i am very useless i wish i am smart and can prove my dad wrong i was stress so i went to the 11th floor to release my stress but i feel like jumping down ws the bes chioce so i said my last goodbye bye world i jumped down as i jumped i feel like everythimg was at peace.

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Im sorry my precious love ones, my last hope is now gone, we cant escape away from him. Hes gonna 🤬 us one day. im so asahamed to face you all. i was the only one who could change our fate. The teacher doesnt understand what i was trying to tell him. he gave me a f9. we cant get a house- no, i cant even passed my english how am i supposed to get a job? Im sorry that you are gonna be hurt more becayuse of me. i hope he will change, when im gone i hope he wont beat you guys anymore but i know i know that he wont care. he will be more aggresive and will beat you guys up more. but i cant stand this anymore. it hurts , it hurts alot . why was i born like this? no- why was i even born? im sorry for leaving you guys alone im sorry im so so sorry. i love you my mom and my siblings. i hope all of us would be in a better world next time , ill see you soon...

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The world is so unfair,why my whole life im suffering..i feel like god is punishing me...I cant get what i wanted,i failed my english and cant fufill my dreams....i cant live anymore....Dad doesnt love me,mum is sick...i feel so helpless  and no one to rely on...why am i being tortured like this....maybe i deserve for being treated this way..no one will understand what i have gone through this far...my whole life i ve been living in fear...i phobia to see my dad...and for that results how am i gonna face my family....i cant survive for this long....maybe leaving is the best decision for  liberation....Bye my mum....sorry for disappoint u...id let you down....it is my time to leave from this cruel world...this may be the last time we see each other...

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Why i got F9. i study also cannot.Now i cannot protect mother and my sliblings .i cannot protect mother from getting beaten by my father...no that words sound so foreighn,more like that man .UGHHH why am i so stupid.No house,no money to earn.I thought back..my dream to become a nurse ..i wont get it already.Why must i live at this point already,my job was also to protect mother,sisters,brothers and the baby.If that man knows about my F9 he would beat mother to death.The more i live the more pain im causing to everyone ,as i look out of the corridor towards the ledge ..i saw the perfect way to escape from this torture.11th floor...i can actually die from jumping ..its a quick death anyways no one would hear my pain..actually..NO ONE UNDERSTOOD ME ANYWAYS.i hope brother and sister can protect mother when im nothing to this family already..Bye world,bye sisters,bye brothers,the last thought echoed in my mind when i plunged to my death before seeing black

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I can't believe I got an F9! Why am I like this! Why am I not smart! My mother tries her very best to convince my father to let me go to school but I still fail horribly...With these results all my dreams have turned into dust and there is no more hope in them... What choice do I have! I've disappointed my entire family, i'm a disgrace! What more can I do! Even my teacher tried to help me but even he can't do anything to save my terrible English! Now my siblings can't look up to me, they will feel shameful that they have an older sibling like me! I can't shame them! My father is probably going to 🤬 me, I have cut his last thread of patience with my results and now there is no turning back! I can't... I can't take this anymore..

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F9 ? You've got to be kidding me . i am crestfallen once I saw the grade.This cannot happen.My favourite ambition is crush. Why can I not be good as others . im failure .im a disappointment. i work very hard yet i stil cannot achieve my dream. i only want my family to have good life . is that to much to ask for ? im ashamed i dont want to face my family anymore. at that point of time i was in an emotional mess. i cannot take it anymore . i dont want to live in a world i dont belong here .im worthless. im sorry mother , brother , sister. im very very sorry . i wanted to fight of this suicidal feeling but i really cant . i go to the level of my house , contemplating whether i should just go home but no. i put my leg on the ledge and jumped . goodbye.

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why did i fail my exams?i am such a failure to my mom and my slibings if  only i had been less shy i could tell my teacher my problems instead of talking about it in my compo. now the teacher did not understand my compo and i got F9!i have been a failure to my mom and slibings !i not want this life no more! this life is not what i deserved,i jump now bye mom and silbings !have a nice and happy day when i am gone .do not concern about me .just do not die, leave' the stranger  'alone .you do not deserve the fight to live with thatman.goodbye

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Why I will get F9?This will make my future become more terrible.I cant have a good job and i cant earn a lot of money.I cant buy a big house and i cant help my mom and sisters and brothers .Why I so useless?I think i should not stay in this scary world anymore.I want to go to another places and just stay away from my dad and also all the stupid exams and teachers.Finally,i can stay away from all of this things that let me feel sad and stress.But i miss my mom, my sisters and brothers.Sorry and Bye.

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today's the day... it's the day where the whole class get back our composition. what am i going to do now? what is my next step going to be? what did I do to deserve this? why did my life become this messed up? These thoughts ran across my mind as tears streamed down my cheeks freely. i cried while holding the exam paper, crushing the 'f9' in the corner of the paper.
i knew this was it. this exam proved that i am not worthy enough to live. with my father being so abusive, my mother being so helpless, my brother still so young and small, i knew i wasnt good enough to save my family from the stranger when i can't even pass my own exam.
at night, i escaped from the house and went up to the roof, looking out at the moon. ''ill have to go, i wished i had more space to write. to whoever who finds this log, tell my family i loved them. goodbye cruel world'' those were my lasts words as i closed my eyes, trusting the gods to make it painless and quick, i took the step forward.

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i stared at the paper that was handed to me. scribbled on the top in red ink was a f9 score that stared right back at me. what should i do now? i can't get into poly or jc like this, then i will never be able to get a good job like being a nurse and i won't be able to earn enough money  and then i never be able to...to help my family. why am i such a failure? i'm such a disappointment.

i went home that day. thankfully, father wasn't home at the moment. he was probably out getting himself drunk. i didn't dare to tell mother about my result because i was scared that she might scold me.

maybe i should just die. maybe that's better, i won't be a burden to my family like that.

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"Another F9,not surprised at all." My dad is a drunkard and this family is literally a mess. Nothing in this world has meaning anymore. I tried hinting to my teacher and the only thing he can do is just correct me on my english. Why am i here anymore? Am i here just to get beaten up? This is tiring and i cant take it anymore. All i want is to study but dad is an unreasonable man. Nothing i tried worked, why,why,why? I am better off died, no more worries, no more pain. This measure has to be taken. I suck at studying, i just suck at everything. Nothing i can do to express my feelings. I climb up the railings on the 11 floor, i close my eyes and pray, this can stop now,no more why,no more pain,no more worrying. This is it, there is no looking back. I push myself down and i could feel the wind brushing my cheeks,for the first time,i smiled. It felt like i left everything on the eleventh floor.Bye.....

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Why?????I study so much but I still get a F9. I can sure that my father will beat me up and my mother will be very disappointed at me. Besides   that I cannot find a good job and earn money. My father will forces me to sell cake. My family, relatives teachers, friends, will all be very disappointed on me.Cannot let them disappointed at me. Bye the world.

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Why did I fail? If only I was smart.
How could I have gotten an F9. I have disappointed my family and teachers . My teacher spent so much time just to help me, and I let him down. I wasted a lot of his time, and I could not even pass! I am such a disappointment.
I don't deserve to be living in this world. I will only be a burden to everyone.
And my father, he always abuses us, why does he do this to us? Doesn't he love us? What kind of a father would do such a thing? I don't see anything to live for. What is the point of living? I study so hard, and for what! I failed. I am such a failure. I see no hope anymore. I am such a useless person. My mother, and siblings...I wish I could help them lead a better life away from him...
It seems like everything I do is wrong. I am so stupid! What is wrong with me?!? If only I was like everyone else. I am sorry that you are in this state because of me. I have failed to do my duty as a daughter. I am sorry that I was not able to be of much help. The heartache that my mother and siblings are suffering from is all because of me. It's all my fault. I love you mom, and siblings but.....

I'm sorry for being me...

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Bye world I got F9. My father is going to beet me up. But not only me but my mother also will get beeten up. What have i donee!!! My life is over. I cant

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As I got back my compo paper, I noticed the big red circle on the top of my paper. In the circle states 'F9'.
How did I get an F9 I thot my grammer and stori is good. If my father get back dis paper, he will sureli angry at me one and if I ded who will protect my mommy and my other siblings.  He mite 🤬 them also. I think its my fault. Maybe if I leave this world , my drunk dad mite stop drinking and not hurt my mommy and siblings. But I must leave the note that Im leaving this world. I took my pen and starting writing " Dear my family,
Im sorri for me being here I will being leaving this place and dissappear from you. And daddi I hope you stop drinking and beating my mommy and sibling
Thanks you,
Tan Geok Peng"
I leave the note wif my bag near a plant and jumped down the building.

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ooh no.Why did this happen to me?! I am trying my best to do well in my exams but now I failed.I wont be able to  be a nurse,buy a house for my family and move away from that monster! If i tell my family about my F9, he wont like mei mei and ti ti to go to school and have a good life with mama.I am so hopeless and no on to trust,not even my teacher.I guess the only way to give my family freedom from that beast,is to 🤬 myself.Mama always tries to stand up for me but she gets beaten up by him and what if starts beating Mei Mei and Ti Ti.Nevermind if I lose my life but it is for the greater good, for my family's future.Bye mei mei,ti ti and mama.I love you all

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I am such a disappointment! F9 for compo. No matter how much i try i can never write a decent compo! NOT EVEN ONE! No one seems to understand me. Someone who i trusted,my teacher..my very own teacher didnt understand me. He didnt understand my feelings,my life..which now i want to end. I cannot deal with all this problems! im too weak for that. I cant protect my mother from my abusive father. I dont see myself as a nurse with a huge house for my family in the future. All i see.....all i see is my life coming to an end.I cant deal with all this......Its too much for the weak,shy and timid Tan Geok Peng to handle. No friends..no proper father to love me..truly love me. A lovely mother who suffers a lot...ALL BECAUSE OF ME! There is just no one to understand me...even i cant understand myself..my own life. It is better for me to just die..than to live with all this burden and pain..yes i am coward to not be able to face my problems...I might as well be a coward than to put on a fake smile and pretend like i am ok...the fake face hurts me more than my decision to end my life.So,Goodbye..Nobody will ever be able to see this coward ever again.................

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how can i be so useless? how can i fail the most important exam of my life? why is god so unfair? to let me not have a good life , why does everything go wrong ? why do i even bother living anymore if i cant help my mother or my siblings? life is pointless , i cant do anything right . im so sick of failing everytime , sick of my father always beating up me and my mother , what did we do to deserve this? im sorry , sorry for being such a failure , sorry for not being able to help , sorry for not being able to be there anymore.

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Why am I so useless ? I can't even pass English now , my father is going to beat me up. What should i do ? Nobody understands how important the few marks can mean to me. Are they trying to ruin my future ? I stared at my exam paper as i started crying due  to hopelessness. I can't even achieve my goals , what can I possibly become in the future ? There is no point for me to live anymore...i can't deal with this anymore. My whole entire life is ruined. I do not know how to deal with my own emotions ,  an abusive father , i just can't...

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Dear diary,

i don't think i can take this anymore, i can't escape from him, i just feel hopeless now not able to help my mother and my siblings even after writing about him in my compos the teacher simply didn't take notice even after talking about him many times . i failed the exam and i cannot help my family to get away from him. He is the cause of the pain i am suffering he is the one that made me go through this 🤬 and now i cannot get away from that bastard. i just want to take away my pain i cannot do this anymore, i'm sorry.

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Why I fail ? Y is the world so against me ? Mum , i sick of this world liao ! I cannot tahan anymore ! Mummy , take good care of urself , try to escaep from him . I give up ! I want somewhere , witout u , witout my sis n bro , main thing , witout the 🤬 . F9 !!!! F9 ! i can't do wat i want, i can't escaep from the 🤬 !!! I'm USELESS TO THE WORLD FROM THE DAY I'M BORN !!!! That's it , BYE!

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Oh no!!! I failed my..... My composition... And some more I got F9... Can it be more worse than this.. Why is this happening to me😭
I can describe myself as useless, dumb, stupid ect. Why is no one understanding my feelings. A father should be a role model for their kids but mine is totally opposite.... Kids will need their fathers help to solve problems but for me the problem is my father. If I tell my father my results what gonna happen? As usual he is going to cane me as well as my mom. Why should my mom be punished? All because me. I'm a disturbance for everyone..... I'm a torture for my mom. What's the point to be alive? I should end my life. Atleast my mom won't be punished cause of me. Please take me God. 😭