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He kissed me.

[ there are more words crossed out. none of them are legible ]

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Had to go on a little drive to clear my head

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Human gifted me with another collar. I'm not sure how to express my appreciation, especially in writing. The last time I've received such a gift was when Grandma Kim was still alive.
The collar is beautiful and I can only wonder if I'm worthy to wear such.

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Sometimes I think about the bad things, but then I just look around and see good things. I'm glad to have good things.

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I've been adopted. I never thought that would happen and I feel kind of warm inside.

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I started missing her more recently. Grandma Kim, you will always be remembered.

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I fell on someone today. I was working on a job with birds and had to climb a tree. It was a tall tree and now that I think about it, I'm not even sure how I climbed that with my camera and all. I didn't break anything but I was worried for the stranger.
He introduced himself as Zelo and he looks like a fetus.
Seems nice.

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We both lied.

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They say that your heart breaks when you witness the person you love shed tears, but how come when I realized that his smiles belonged to someone else, I could no longer hear my own hearbeat

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The jewelry store wouldn't make a refund. I waited too long.

Far too long.

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[ there are more missing pages. Yoongi keeps them hidden in a special box. When he's ready, he tapes the pages back together. all the pages torn off since the first one are still hidden away ]

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Hot air balloons; didn't work out.

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[ a handful of pages are covered in angry marks, making the words illegible. you make out the words angel, perfect and love. there are tear stains all over the pages and the borders are littered with red text reading "we were happy" ]

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Met someone by the name of Park Jimin. He is probably the most beautiful thing I've ever seen in my life.

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Tae introduced his new kitten, Yugyeom. I think Tae thinks that because we're both kittens, we can immediately get along. I'm not too sure about that but they're good for each other. One meal of sandwiches and black coffee but somehow I left the cafe tasting cotton candy.

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His name is Kim Taehyung and he seems to eat sunshine and rainbows for every meal.

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I met the beautiful human from a week ago and all I can say is... when I said that he was stupid beautiful, what i really meant is that he's just fucking stupid.

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I saw a stranger today at the mall. He was stupid beautiful.
I'm easily enamored by beauty so I followed him around and tried to take pictures. He noticed me after an hour or so and I bolted right out of there.

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Grandma Kim is officially my favorite person in the world! She got me a dlsr and encouraged me to pursue Photography. I haven't cried that hard since that night she found me in the rain, near her pastry shop.
I don't deserve her.

At the same time, I wouldn't know what to do without her.

[ a polaroid-style photo is attached between the pages with the words written "home" ]

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I never thought I'd see this old thing again. I completely forgot about it.
Reading back, I think I chose to forget.
To catch up, I couldn't stay in the adoption places for long. The humans didn't like me and just didn't want some abomination as their kid. Not surprised.
I wandered the streets. Had to do some shady shit to stay alive.
Along the way I met Grandma Kim. She's a sweet old lady who owns a pastry shop. She's the best, even if she does try to feed me all the cupcakes she makes.

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I'm alone now.

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The fire ate everything.

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It's the first time I've seen my dad smile in years.

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Mom left.
Finally.

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Dad's angry again.

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[ pages and pages have been ripped out of the notebook. none of them are clean and seem to have been done in a fit of rage or desperation. he just wanted to forget ]

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I wanna go to sleep like mommy told me to. They're shouting again.
...
Mommy's crying outside my door. Daddy's breaking the plates again; I hope I don't step on the sharp things like last time.