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Hi, Jashy! Yung mga things na nagpapa alala sayo sakin in everyday life never fails to make me hurt pa rin haha. E1 ko. Nga pala, quick update lang abt me. Not everything's going well 4 me. Yung plano ko, wala. RUINED. Pero life goes on diba? Kasi I'll live the life you never got to. Ako magtutuloy. Forever 16 ka kasi BWISET !! I'm still freaking pissed btw. Ikaw pinaka malapit sakin, in terms of loc, pero di pa rin tayo nag meet haha. Kainis talaga. I miss you so much. Sorry now lang nakasulat. - Shawty

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The last time that I wrote a letter for u here was a year ago. It’s been a while and I’m so sorry. Pero kahit naman hindi ako mag sorry, alam kong maiintindihan mo rin. Student nurse na ako this august! Second year of nursing na rin ako, naalala ko pa dati na sobrang naguguluhan ako sa kung anong kurso ang kukuhain and you were there with me all along, reassuring me na whatever decision I would make, you’ll always be by my side. I still think that life would be so much better with you around. Magpakita ka naman sa panaginip ko oh, miss na kita. I love u, beb! Always will.

xoxo,

ate em.

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miss you so much

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your close-knit friends call you 'jashy' but to me you are always named sol. derived from the sun. the sun itself. a light above. always young, never getting older.

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i miss you a lot, jashy.

ayi

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haaaay i miss you jashy so much. payakap naman :((

-say

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today was not a good day for me, jashy. i was reminded na you're gone. you're really gone. ang unfair lang kasi sa telegram and instagram na nga lang kita "nakakausap", eventhough one way communication na lang, pinagkait pa. i know there's still instagram, messenger, and twitter, pero ang unfair pa rin na i can no longer message you sa telegram. doon tayo nag-start, e. doon tayo naging close. doon tayo nag-uusap esp our deep talks at 2am.

kung mayaman lang ako, nag-invest na ako sa company ng telegram and binayaran ko na developer nila para they'll remove yung "delete account if away for 1 year" eme nila. nakakainis. nakaka-frustrate. the first thing i saw talaga kanina when i opened tg, was yung "Deleted Account" sa dms natin. tapos hindi na rin kita mabalik sa contacts. gosh. i'm so sad and frustrated.

i miss you, jashy. buti na lang may instagram pa haha kahit i hate IG dms sometimes, at least magagamit ko pa rin to message you. :(

sorry for the long and all over the place rant hehe

love you, good night.

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i love you, jashy. i miss you a lot more today.

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everything was so much better when you were here, jashy.

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ang lamig lamig dito kapag afternoon esp. night, ang sarap matulog 😆 how about up there? visit me in my dreams and make kwento naman. love you.

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happy new year, jasheah. i love you and i miss you, always.

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To the prettiest beb in the whole wide world, Merry Christmas! I wish to see and meet you in the next lifetime! Miss you lots and I will always love u!

xoxo,

Ate Em!!

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Life would’ve been so meaningful with you by my side. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko nakayanan na wala ka sa tabi ko? Kasi I was so used of having you with me by my side eh, tas bigla ka lang mag disappear. I love u sm, bunso.

Xoxo,

Ate em.

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I miss you, sol 🎼

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hi jashy, nandito na naman me hahaha. a year without u but it feels like forever, i still long for you.

xoxo,

Ate em.

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low, jashy.

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hi, jashy.

eight days to go . . . :(

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hi my sheah, my beb, my jaja, and my absolute pahinga against all odds. saw this link sa message board mo and a thought came into my mind na mag write for u here. just to ease the pain a little bit. i turned 18 last month !! couldn’t post it on your message board as it was very hard for me to accept na i no longer will get hbd long messages from my favorite kid sister. malapit na mag isang taon, ja. kung nasaan ka man ngayon, sana nasa mabuting kalagayan ka na. if only i could give you half of my life just to revive you again and hug you, i would. you were the reason why i’m alive today, and i can’t process the thought na wala ka na. will graduate shs na, konting push nalang. ‘yung graduation wish ko nalang sa parents ko ay puntahan ka diyan, bakit ba kasi ang layo ng mindanao??????? like?? if only i knew that last year was the last, sana pinilit ko nalang pumunta ng cavite, sana nagpumilit ako sa mga ate ko na puntahan ka, i think i will forever regret everything, ja. haynako napahaba, nakakahiya naman. ang tagal ko na kasing hindi ka nakausap eh. ang daming nangyari and to think that this would all be better if you were just here beside me, pains me. alam kong ayaw mong umiiyak si ate pero here i am. plus, alam mo bahindi ko matutupad pangarap ko na maging film maker, will pursue nursing na next year, pero okay lang med field din naman ‘yung gusto ko. gusto ko magwala emz.

hinding hindi ako mapapagod kakahintay sa panahon na magkita tayo ulit. sana sa susunod na buhay, magkasama pa rin tayo— and i wish for more days with you.

xoxo,
ate em.

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hi, jashyyy!! deads na si gojo charot i refuse to believe that shit may reverse curse pa sya sana gamitin hays!!

short life update: malapit na ko magkawork yay!! sana maapprove na ng company yung medical clearance na pinasa ko para madalaw kita kasi cavite area yung ongoing projects rn.

i promise na di ko hahayaang lumala yung whatever na nangyayari ngayon sakin. i'll come back stronger from this and i know you'll be rooting for me, as always. miss you so much, my number 1 supporter.

i love you, jashy. almost a year na kaya sana okay ka na dyan. payakap ako.

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update and rant (i think?) from your leo bestie

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update and rant (i think?) from your leo bestie

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tatanda na naman ako bukas, i refuse to believe this shit HAHA chz. grabe, in my mind, minus talaga yung 3 quarantie birthdays so if someone ask, sasabihin kong age may minus na 3 years. /hj

anw, i wish i could add few years from my age to yours. idk, my sentence doesn't make sense pero kung pwe-pwede lang na mag-donate ng life and age sa tao, i'll do it in a heartbeat for you, jashy. hay, miss you.

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happy birthday, jashy!

i'm making brownies and planning to cook spaghetti rin. dadamihan ko yung hotdogs and cheese for you! 😌 will also light a candle and re-watch hannibal (hahahaha unhinged) to complete the day.

anw, did you received our messages? i pa-scheduled a mass for your birthday and kaninang 6am 'yon. if my prayers and messages haven't reached you, yet, i hope soon kaagad.

yennie, ax, and ally (maybe nisay, too) will visit you on October. sorry pam, isha, and i can't go, probinsya things haha. hug them for us, oki?

love you, always missing you.

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4 minutes to go and it's your birthday na! what's your wish for this year? i hope na whatever it is, it'll make you rest easily and help you ascend without pain and hassle. please don't worry about us here, we always miss you, but we will be okay! i know you're watching over us and laughing your heart out everytime ginagawa naming joke yung pagkasunog ng niluto mong nuggets. hay, it's painful and at the same time, heartwarming to reminisce. i love you.

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happy birth month to us, jashy!

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it’s been raining hard since Sunday here, Jashy. is that you and your way to remind me na malapit na birthday mo? :>

still raining as i type this and this reminds me of eating cheese bread while we’re on vc sa IG. hay. i miss our 2ams.

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ang bigat pa rin jash 🪐🗿🍥🗿🪐😉😘🪐😳🌱😘😉😉😘🌱🪐😋🗿😳🎂🔫😜⭐🌱 I lov u balik ka na pls hwhahaahhahshshahaahhahaahahahahhahahahahha

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ang bigat pa rin jash 🪐🗿🍥🗿🪐😉😘🪐😳🌱😘😉😉😘🌱🪐😋🗿😳🎂🔫😜⭐🌱 I lov u balik ka na pls hwhahaahhahshshahaahhahaahahahahhahahahahha

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I think of you and hold myself tighter. 

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I think of you and hold myself tighter. 

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countdown to your first birthday in heaven! 🤍

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countdown to your first birthday in heaven! 🤍

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alam ko na bakit ako walang gana lately—nangungulila pala ako. hindi mo pa rin ako dinadalaw sa panaginip ko. i wish you would. see you on your anniversary, if all goes well. 🤍

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graduated valedictorian, jashy! I included you in my speech, of course. I knew you were there with me. Happy moving up to us! I love you, always.

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malapit na birthday natin, jashy! i already pa-scheduled a mass for you, ofc, malakas ka sa akin, e. i miss you so much, my leo bestie. love you love you love you, my love.

- ayi

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i don't think the thought of you gone forever will ever sink into me

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what does death look like? what does it feel like? are the things that the others said true about death?

sometimes, i wish i'm there with you to end my curiosity.

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I miss you so much that it hurts.

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i miss you so much, jashy.

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aced my exams last week and today, too. mana lang sa 'yo, jasheah. love you, miss you!

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hi, jashyyyy!

i started na my internship kanina. i’ll be busier than usual but dw! i have my tumbler with me and i always have inhaler and other meds din. tapos, ofc, i’ll send bsd tiktoks pa rin, wala kang kawala haha. love you, miss you!

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good mornight, my love.

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how are you up there, my love?

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you have a very beautiful smile. I hope you're happy and fulfilled on the other side 💗

i think if love was enough to keep people alive, you'd still be living your life right now with all the love your friends give you. and your family too 💗

- ej

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watched bsd season 4's trailer and it looks promising, in fair. will watch it soon (hopefully) tapos iba-bash ko si dazai for you.

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i've been scrolling through your writer account in wattpad, and i saw the messages on your board. you are missed and you are loved, jashy. we miss you everyday and it hurts more as reality slaps us in the face every waking moment. i miss you so much, jashy.

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it's 2am and i'm hoping for a miracle na you'll suddenly call - like what you usually do. i miss our 2am routine so much. i miss you so much.

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i miss you

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i miss you today, too.

– ayi

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never not a day of missing you, jasheah. i just know that whenever i look up the sky, you’re the brightest star shining up there. ilysm <3 !

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i wish i've out more effort in being your internet ate

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grief carves a place in the heart and sits there forever

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Thankful to be part of your story, despite the shortness of it.

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Thankful to be part of your story, despite the shortness of it.

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Glad I got to spend a short amount of time with you, Jashy. Tell me more stories when it's my time. :)

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comfort comes in many forms... and you're one of them. i miss you everyday, my jashy

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comfort comes in many forms... and you're one of them. i miss you everyday, my jashy

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- shaw🍵

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hewu, jash. visit me and tell me what it's like at the other side. i miss you

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hi, jashy q! miss you so much, visit me sometime, oki? loaf you!

- ayi