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i was feeling kind of pretty today because my fringe was looking good today but leave it to my mom to repeat ugly bitch to my face. she told me to go to youtube and learn from the girls and stuff and honestly i know im ugly and have very low self esteem. i was fed up and obviously angered so i banged the table and she throws what she was eating at me. she just lowered my self esteem today and threw her food at me.. dont get me wrong, shes a great mother and im not a good daughter and i love her a lot but i just feel so UPSET. i try not to cry but end up doing just that, i want to be stronger than that. i suck as a human being

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im lazy, ugly, negative, someone who doesn;t deserve to live and a snake ( my friend told me and i completely 100% agree )

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im lazy, ugly, negative, someone who doesn;t deserve to live and a snake ( my friend told me and i completely 100% agree )

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you know, i thought i was a nice person. Am i only seeking valid

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I feel much more content now, not suicidal at all. Sure sometimes I don't see a point in living but right now, I want to work hard and study. I want to be a therapist. I don't think that I'm smart enough but I'm gonna try anyways.

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i feel so empty yet so much at the same time. im rlly sorry for all my friends and family,, i dont even feel like trying all the time. im such a lazy ass pig and its hard to find motivation to continue on living. i want to die,, death is something im afraid of well more like afterlife but i dont want to live. its suffocating me but i wanna know the future, what will happen? maybe ill live happily but rn im feeling really depressed, sad, moody, feel like killing myself. I rlly want someone i can really just sigh idk maybe a therapist would help but i dont want to tell my parents at all...

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i srs dont know,, but i do know that i dont want to exist. existing and commiting suicide are two different things by the way. i just rlly dont want to exist and im sure everyone feels that way? maybe not i guess, you're lucky. idk this feeling.

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asexual or bisexual or straight?
im just a mess rn lmao