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I used to be without plan and goals but once I got my SPM results, I have decided what I should do in life. I realised where I belonged. I am a born Christian and a part of my life was to be witnesses of Christ. So I have to not only lead a good life style but a righteous one too. So this what I planned and this way I can spread the good news of Christ too. I am 19 now, so by 20 to 24 I'm supposed to finish my degree as physiotherapist. Then I planned to work here for 2 years by that time I will be 26. Afterward I decided to be a flight attendant for the next 2 years. By 28 I'm supposed to get a job as physiotherapist at Arab so I can earn money and by that time I can find a house to settle in another country like Netherlands or USA with my uncle. When I'm stable with a house I can bring my parents and sisters there for permanent. Then I hope by that time God will find someone for me in life or else I might stay single n live happily with my sisters. My dream to travel the world will come true and my passion will also be with me. It may sound so easy to say but honestly I'm scared of what is going to happen. As long as it happen in God's will, I'm happy. There is a verse in the Bible which says " He has planned a great future for you, not to harm you but to cherish". All i want it to reach to that future by making the right decisions in the Lord's eye. I just want please Lord and not men, cause mean can never be pleased. They are never satisfied with what they have. Hope I can get everyone's prayer and blessing for my future cause I want to save lives and help others and spread the word of the living Christ.

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It's a long quote but worth reading. This quote was there for me at all time, sad or happy, angry or crying. I knew this quote wouldn't change it's meaning nor i would change myself for anyone. This was said by Rob Siltanen.

" here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemaker. The round pages in square holes. The ones who see thing's differently. They're not fond of rules. And they have no respect for status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilif them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push human race forward. And while some may see them as crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy to think they can change they world, are the ones who do"

This quote means a lot to me. I have heard from many saying " I'm complicated" " crazy" "psychopath" and many more. These just got me worried cause I thought fitting in was important but then this quote made me realise I'm a genius without realising. Past few weeks was hard but i still stood strong knowing who I am. I know I'm hard to handle but I'm sure if anyone who gets my trust, I will be loyal and love them with every last breathe I have. I haven't find anyone to trust here but I'm not giving up, I will find friends who I can trust and my own love whom I can love unconditionally.

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The Man Who Refused To Salute Hitler I read this article and it caught my attention on how this man's love was towards his family. His name is August Landmesser and he worked with the Nazi Party ( political group that ruled Germany between 1933 and 1945). Believing that having the right connections would help land him a job in the pulseless economy, Landmesser became a card-carrying Nazi. Little did he know that his heart would soon ruin any progress that his superficial political affiliation might have made. In 1934, Landmesser met Irma Eckler, a Jewish woman, and the two fell deeply in love. Their engagement a year later got him expelled from the party, and their marriage application was denied under the newly enacted Nuremberg Laws.They had a baby girl, Ingrid, in October of the same year, and two years later in 1937, the family made a failed attempt to flee to Denmark, where they were apprehended at the border. August was arrested and charged for “dishonoring the race,” and briefly imprisoned. In court, the two claimed to be unaware of Eckler’s Jewish status, as she had been baptized in a Protestant church after her mother remarried. In May 1938, August was acquitted for lack of evidence, but with a severe warning that punishment would follow if Landmesser dared repeat the offense.Officials made “good” on their word, as only a month later August would be arrested again and sentenced to hard labor for thirty months in a concentration camp. He would never see his beloved wife again.Meanwhile, a law was quietly passed that required the arrest of Jewish wives in the case of a man “dishonoring the race,” and Irma was snatched up by the Gestapo and sent to various prisons and concentration camps, where she would eventually give birth to Irene, Landmesser and Eckler’s second child. Both children were initially sent to an orphanage, though Ingrid, spared a worse fate for her status as “half cast,” was sent to live with her Aryan grandparents. Irene, however, would eventually be plucked from the orphanage and sent to the camps, were a family acquaintance not to have grabbed her and whisked her away to Austria for safekeeping.Their mother’s tale is much more tragic. As her daughters were being bounced from orphanages to foster homes to hiding places, Irma ultimately met her maker in 1942 in the gas chambers at Bernburg. August would be released in 1941 and began work as a foreman. Two years later, as the German army became increasingly mired by its desperate circumstances, Landmesser would be drafted into a penal infantry along with thousands of other men. He would go missing in Croatia where it is presumed he died, six months before Germany would officially surrender. Landmesser likely found himself incapable of saluting the very man who publicly dehumanized his wife and daughter, and scores of others just like them, only to go home and embrace them several hours later. Landmesser might have been casually aware of propaganda photographers in the shipyard, but in that moment, his only thought was of his family. August and Irma were officially declared dead in 1949. In 1951, the Senate of Hamburg recognized the marriage of August Landmesser and Irma Eckler. Their daughters split their parent’s names, Ingrid taking their father’s and Irene keeping their mother’s.

http://all-that-is-interesting.com/august-landmesser/2

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Recently I read a blog related to psychology. I rarely read blogs and to be honest this was my first. If I manage to read a blog, that means the blog is really good and intresting. It was written by Edward Shorter a psychiatric doctor. This what he wrote about;

Depression isn't a term. Even though it was the biggest problem, unfortunately it doesn't exist.  It was all the time the mind playing around with our emotions and coiled up with only the problems. This is a type of mood swing, which is called euphoria, or form of mania. Low mood would be sadness, but the problem is that many people who get the diagnosis of major depression aren't necessarily sad. They don't cry all the time. They drag themselves from bed and go to work and plow through family life, but they aren't sad.
They're anxious. They're exhausted and often report crushing fatigue. They have all kinds of somatic pains that come and go. And they tend to obsess about the whole package. Well they have is whole-body disorder, not disorder of mood. And that is the problem with the term depression: it shines the spotlight on mood, a spotlight that belongs elsewhere
The term depression means that everybody gets the same treatment. "Antidepressants" ineffective melancholia, midly effective for anxiety and obsessiveness. So the only way to overcome it effectively is by ditching "depression".

This the overview of the blog. In my view, I agree with the author. It's all illusion. If we have a right mindset,all can be done. Nothing is impossible.

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I haven't exactly started working but I have planned my years till I am 29. It might sound insane but this helps me kept motivated and encouraged to persue my dreams and goals. The best part of it is when I become an flight attendant. It has always been my dream to travel the world for FREE. I know this sounds selfish but I realise, by the time I start working n settle I might be mid thirties. and by then I have to be married and looking after my kids. there is responsiblities at every age. So the best is when my job is my dream. My dad never agreed with this idea since the beginning but this my dream and I'm going to do it no matter what stops me. I am very good at imagining, and I have imagied about how I look what I do once i become a flight attendant. It's really fun to be out every 2 weeks to another country and staying there for 5 days where my hotel and food is provided. All I need to do this work in air then when I'm n land I get to enjoy. I'm also not too old to complaint my knee hurts or my back hurts. I'm just too excited for this. My grandma is the one who had been m rolemodel. She is 85 years old n still traveling the world by herself. I learned that no one can stop my dreams unless I stop dreaming. Dreams are ment to be made real and I will make it real. I know I will enjoy this part of my job so much. It's better I learn from mistakes then regret not doing   for the rest of my life. I wanna live as an inspiration for others. Self motivation and independant is the best way to teach others how to walk boldy and confidently on their own. Some part of my life which I love. Life isn's a bed of roses but it can be if we put our minds and hearts to it.
Thank you and God Bless.
I really hope that you manage to do this.

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I am a day late to wish all but I view Valentine's Day as everyday because we can love and care for everyone anytime. i have never really had a great or different Valentine's Day because every year it was an ordinary day but this year things were different. The day started with Valentine's Day wishes from people who I expected not to remember. The day got even better when I had a beautiful lunch with my girlfriends. We had a good time even though we were single on this day. We shared 2 sets of meal by 3 people. There was love in the air. Then the day continued when a good friend suprised me with my favorite chocolate bar. The best part was I didn't even tell anyone that it is my favorite other than my mum. He really puts a lot of effort in knowing me. It isn't that hard to impress a girl. A guy just need to be observent enough to notice the smallest thing she enjoys. By doing that it places a big smile on her face forever. Getting back to my day,  it gets better. After coming back from a whole day of classes. A gift from the university. I had to crash to the bed since there will be no dinner cause i was broke and I was exhausted. More surprises!!! My roommate had noticed my hunger and little thing which I love. Starbucks!!! She got me a large cup of chocolate cream chip with a lot of whip cream. My favorite. How much better can this day get. I accepted a sorrow day where I watch couples eat their faces but turns out singles enjoy Valentine's Day too. My love life wasn't that dried up after all. I had an extra special friend who is hard to understand but it's worth the fight.
Hugs and kisses to all who are desperate for love but do not accept everyone because people like us are hard to impress.
God Bless
Sounds like a great day

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I AM HAPPY!!!!

After watching Human Documentary. I have learned a lot. I have learnd that so many people  out there have so many problem, much bigger problem but they can put a smile and keep encouraging others too. I am new to college life and and I have not accepted the change yet. Leaving school, leaving my friends, leaving my worry free life. I loved so much how things were before that I feel so lost in emotions. After watching that video, I learned change is something I can't stop and I have to learn from it. I learned that people hear the things want to hear and do the things the things they want to do. They don't really care about others. We are living in a selfish world, that it is hard to find someone who cares but if you do hold on to them and cherish with them. This New year is the year I change how i behaved last year and be a better me. I want to love and be loved. I want to be happy no matter how life gets. Most importantly I want to be blessed and thankful to God for His grace and mercy.
May 2017 bring joy and good luck to you and your family
God Bless.

Really well-written.