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In 2018 I've been trapped in a dark world of fantasy. I believe horrible things religion wise and would like to become a better chrstian. I want to be more realistic about my life rather than being negative. Realism is one step closer to being happy. I feel lonely when I know I'm not I have to look at the world the way it is rather than the dark cruel plain I believe it to be. I want to look for the light in the dark, the reason why so many people can be so happy. I want to find the peace in realism. I have a hole inside my heart that's stupid deep and I want to fill it with religion, and love from the Lord.