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(What it looks like when it's all on display)

Each of the following sheets has a sentence I wrote to indicate a step-by-step feeling.

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When I am not in a good mood, I will calm myself down by going to the park, and going to take black and white photos in the spring can show my inner depression in a more contrasting way. The shadows of the trees, the dead wood, I'm glad that these photos have the feeling that I want, as if my feelings really got into it.

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Yoko Ono inspires me a lot, I love the emotions she expresses in those interactive devices and I love the way she uses simple and straightforward words to show her thoughts. There are times when we are reluctant to show our feelings in a real way, we are afraid of getting hurt and getting into conflicts, and I don't want that. I don't want to change anything for the sake of others, I want to use words to show my inner thoughts, and I want to use photos to record my feelings, even if they are not recognised, even if they are rejected.

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This black thing

Not my shadow

Surround Me

Sometimes Be observed

Sometimes Be imitated

We forced to connect together

The coexistence relationship

Cannot Be broken

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I went to the city farm to take some pictures of the animals, mainly sheep. Sunshine, grass, looking lovely and peaceful, but imprisoned in a place to be viewed day in and day out, walking in to see that in fact their fur is sticky with manure and dirt and smells foul.

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Plants and light are inextricably linked, and even if you look closely, plants don't move at all while you're watching, but they photosynthesize and grow all the time.

People don't change in an instant either, just like plants, only time will give you the answer. I reversed the colors of the photos of these plants, using vibrant contrasting colors and arrangements, along with poems I wrote, to create a zine about my coexistence with the feeling of inner depression.

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I took some photos of my body and hands, the process of lying down, rising feebly, and falling down again.

But they are in colour. If the black and white Polaroid film used to photograph animals and plants was to express my inner darkness and sadness, the colour Polaroid film used to photograph myself was like me being observed by others.

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The Wall of the Heart

Confined, restrained, closed in

Trying to find a way out, but no matter what, it doesn't change

A closed space.

A thought of leaving

A mind

An exit that doesn't exist.

A world that remains the same.

The walls make breathing extremely difficult, and the soul leaves our body to seek refuge in that which does not exist.

The "壁" and "obstacle" on the cover are meant to express that Polaroid frames are like an obstacle to the creation of photography, an invisible wall restricting the frames, but this is also the charm of Polaroid. We are also like that, we may be changing constantly, just like the shape of the photos in this zine, but the "wall of our heart" is the same as the frame, no matter from the inside or outside, we can't get rid of it.

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I actually didn't know anything about Yoko Ono before seeing this exhibition. I have seen a lot of art exhibitions, but I can say that Yoko Ono gave me an unprecedented feeling with an impact on the mind.

There are many of her poems in the station hall, and the poems and lines from "Grapefruit" are also on display. The vocabulary is simple, but at the same time fantastical, powerful, and shocking.

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At u9 I researched the connection between photons, quantum physics, and observation. I was very interested in double-slit interference experiments where the results of the experiment are affected by whether the observation is made or not.

When you tell people you have depressive tendencies, everyone is telling us what a supposedly normal person should be like, how to act and think, they rarely think about why you're depressed, and I didn't used to be able to understand depression, I used to think that it was just a very hypocritical and vague definition of it, and it wasn't until I became like this myself that I realized that it's very hard to define in any number of words.

I think people also need to be cared for, watched, & observed.

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Because of the lack of time, I chose only two colours to go for the first riso print of this zine, I wanted to create a psychedelic effect, like the feeling of me confronting my own thoughts, not saying but not having a very clear emotion either.

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In fact, nothing is mine and nothing is not mine. This is the perspective of God, and it is also the perspective of the universe. The beings who truly do this will have internal friction.

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The film ostensibly depicts the gradual breakdown of the current student generation in Japan, but it is actually a satire on the changes that various environments can have on a person's upbringing. Family environment, educational environment, social environment. The protagonist of the film gradually degenerates after being bullied, but he is also very guilty and conflicted about what he has done, and finally dies under the knife of his friend, who is the most innocent child in the film. It can be said that every child in the film is good, but due to the pressure of the environment, they become distorted.

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The film plays out a tragedy from three different perspectives; the perspective of a single mother, the perspective of a child and friend, and the perspective of a teacher. The teenager doesn't want his friends to be bullied at school, but he also wants to protect himself from being perceived as a monster, hiding from his teachers and lying to his parents. It all stems from the school teacher's lack of focus on the school atmosphere, and either perspective is just too lacking in understanding for each other.

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One of my favourite paper making pieces, it lies still but you can feel the ink flowing on it.

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I felt a little uncomfortable standing in the doorway of this room, and this convergence of paper that people from all over the world have written words to their mothers plastered all over this wall is just so powerful!

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I'm going to produce a publication. It's going to be a combination of my own photographs of nature animals, with poems that I express my thoughts.

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Cleaning public toilets around the city on time every day without a word is the protagonist's daily routine, and every day seems to be the same, the time and place, the same sunrise, the same sunset. The only difference is that you don't know what kind of people you will meet today. It is also the opportunities and interactions with these people that resonate with me.

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They say:

Mental internal depletion, also called psychological internal depletion, it refers to the need to consume psychological resources in self-control, when the resources are insufficient, the person is in a state of so-called internal depletion, and the prolonged existence of internal depletion will make the person feel exhausted. This kind of exhaustion is not caused by physical exertion, but is a psychological subjective feeling, which is a state caused by the individual's depletion in the psychological aspect.

I say:

Forever thinking too much, surrounded by sadness every moment, even if materialistic desires are satisfied it only improves the mood for a short time. Music, books, art, films, and other information that help me on a spiritual level give me a brief moment of inner peace when I am exposed to it. Once it stops, it's the bad memories and infinite anxiety about the future that make it difficult for me to sleep.

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You keep staring at a plant for ten seconds, a minute, an hour, three hours and you may not see any change. The truth is that the plant grows every moment, or the dead plant wilts every moment. You can't keep watching until there is a noticeable change in the plant. I think it's the same with people, they change every moment, either because of their environment or themselves. No one becomes depressed instantly, they just need to be "watched", not watered and cared for in time, just as no plant wilts instantly.

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Following their marriage in 1953, Lucian Freud and Caroline Blackwood bought a secluded seventeenth-century manor house in a Dorset valley. Shortly after moving in, Freud began a mural of cyclamen in the dining room. These were amongst his favourite flowers. In 1959, Freud was one of the first guests to be invited to Chatsworth when the 11th Duke of Devonshire moved his family back into the vacated house. In a private bathroom he began another mural of cyclamen consisting of a handful of flowers and buds. The estate greenhouse supplied pot after pot of flowers for him to paint from.

The view from the window at 227 Gloucester Terrace in London was far from bucolic. Painted when the artist was in his late 40s, this abandoned garden in Paddington-then a rundown and densely populated area just north of Hyde Park-captures a story of human and plant resilience.

What is a garden?

By Giovanni Aloi, Guest Curator

What is a garden? This is the radical question posed by some of Lucian Freud's most original paintings. Unlike Stanley Spencer, who routinely painted plants and gardens, or even Cedric Morris, who introduced him to plants, Freud wasn't particularly interested in capturing the beauty of lush flower beds.

"When I see plants, I do not see prettiness but, rather, ruthlessness, strength, and lust." - Cedric Morris, 1942. Lucian Freud was taught by Morris at the East Anglian School of Painting and Drawing from 1939.

This highly unusual composition encapsulates Freud's originality in approaching plants. Placed on the floor, seen from above, the fern is not part of a lush forest undergrowth, and neither is it situated in the stately greenhouse of a botanic garden. Ferns were absent from the classical seventeenth century still-life genre and this fern sits snug in the modesty of its terracotta pot.

Patch helps you discover the best plants for your space, delivers them to your door and helps you look after them. Bring the Freud exhibition home with living works of art - the plants themselves.

For example, did you know that aspidistra, which Freud painted in Two Plants, are sometimes known as the Cast Iron Plant because they're almost impossible to kill? It was a popular houseplant in Victorian times, because it easily tolerated the poor light and air quality of 19th century homes.

What happens when you spend three years on a plant painting? Lucian Freud painted 'Two Plants' from 1977-1980, capturing growth, movement, new life, and death. Curator Giovanni Aloi explains what this experimental painting can teach us about Freud's original approach to plant portraits.

Freud's Potted Plants

By Giovanni Aloi, Guest Curator

Potted plants have a long history and yet western art has had a complicated relationship with them. It is known that clay and ceramic pots were widely used in India, Japan, China, and Korea over 3000 years ago, mostly to bring plants closer to houses and in courtyards rather than indoors. Terracotta plant pots have been found in the Minoan palace at Knossos on Crete. The Romans preferred to plant lemon trees in large marble pots. And throughout the Middle Ages, pots were used in convents to grow herbs as well as to keep life-saving medicinal plants close at hand.

Banner image: Still Life with Zimmerlinde, c.1950 Freud,Lucian Private Collection, Photo © Christie's Images© The Lucian Freud Archive, Bridgeman Images

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Online Exhibition | Lucian Freud: Plant Portraits - Garden Museum

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Following their marriage in 1953, Lucian Freud and Caroline Blackwood bought a secluded seventeenth-century manor house in a Dorset valley. Shortly after moving in, Freud began a mural of cyclamen in the dining room. These were amongst his favourite flowers.

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 Chad Coombs：Future Wild Life Portraits.

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 Chad Coombs：Future Wild Life Portraits.

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Fine art photographer Chad Coombs has created a conceptual series titled "Future Wild Life Portraits" inspired by capitalism and global warming.