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I am someone who is quite anxious but appears very social. I have created an version of myself that appears as some super smart outgoing guy buy I really like to keep to myself. I often find myself catering to other people and always trying to be a yes man. Its hard even though it sounds easy. I tend to bottle up my emotions but can only let loose around the right people. I handle stress very well on the outside but a lot gets to me quickly.

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I couldn’t even begin to describe the last time somebody saw the true me. I have got so used to putting on different masks for different people that it becomes second nature. If I am being completely honest I don't even know if I know who I am anymore. I've always been kinda awkward and weird but I have also had a desire for people to like me, so I did what any kid would do in elementary school and learned how to be whoever someone wanted me to be. Just like many other people in this class I am very easily overstimulated, especially in big crowds and stuff like that, and a constant over thinker, my brain loves creating scenarios that could never possibly happen, and I couldn’t even begin to tell you the first thing about any emotion I'm feeling. Because of all of this I've found it difficult to be in many situations and also often deem myself as unloveable, hence my inability or, more recently, even want to get into any kind of romantic relationship and even many friendships. I often find myself feeling anxious about many things, even something as insignificant as my bank account. I'm sure there is a lot that I'm missing but I'm not good at all when it comes to talking about myself like this. Long story short, ADHD is a hell of a condition.

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I want to be the most confident, bold, and even most intimidating person in the room, so I express myself as such. I assume difficult roles that no one else wants to do, I am super confrontational, and I get way in over my head because I take on too much to fit this persona. However, underneath the surface I struggle with a hurricane of insecurities that I keep hidden from others and it is a lot of pressure to keep it bottled up. I am afraid that if I show others my vulnerabilities then they will not view me how I want to be viewed.

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I am someone who is quiet and reserved. I am filled with anxiety and stress, but I won't let anyone know. I never want to let anyone down, getting over my head in obligations with others, which adds to the stress. Most of the time, I am too stressed out to relax and enjoy life. I overthink almost everything. Sitting in silence, playing a scenario over and over in my head trying to figure out what to do.

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I am someone who tries to make everyone else around me happy and comfortable at the expense of my own happiness and comfortability. I also tend to use humor to try and escape from awkward or even tough situations. I was always someone who battled self confidence issues, but I have been working on that to the point where I am now confident with my self and who I am. I know what I can do and what I can't do. I am always looking to improve (if I can find the motivation). Motivation is a keyword that impacts my life. I have a hard time finding the motivation to get stuff done a lot of the time with anything in life.

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I feel that I am a textbook overthinker. I often catch myself creating unrealistic scenarios in my head that ultimately make me feel worse than I did before. I catch myself second guessing my choice of words when speaking to others, and overall just overthink a lot of little things that are irrelevant. This is something I've tried to work on, and have found that talking about them or even just writing them down helps a lot.

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I am someone who has gone through a lot of hard things in my life between family changes and personal relationships, everything that has happened has changed my life somehow or another. I have been a care taker for my grandmother for over 5 years as she suffers from dementia, while juggling a full-time job, a part-time job, and obtaining my degree. I have been in some very bad relationships that made me question my worth as an individual and endured a lot of things that no one knows about still to this day. Everything I have been through has shaped me into the person I am today and has helped me grow through the good and bad and make something better from it.

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I have created an image of myself that I present to the world which paints me as someone who is very confident. Inside I am often scared about what people are thinking about me. I use humor to mask my feelings and as a result of this I have a hard time understanding how I actually feel. Sometimes in stressful situations I am unable to correctly respond and I lash out at those who care about me the most.

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i am someone who has a hard time understanding my emotions, i feel intense emotions come over me and i do not know where they come from. i feel as if they do not matter because i do not always know how to express them to other people and i tend to push them down. i feel like other peoples emotions matter more because i rather have them feel happy and comfortable rather than myself.

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I am someone who is very easily overstimulated. I often find myself shutting down, especially in social situations, unable to process emotions or actions. This often causes me to try and have an adverse reaction where I try to compensate for my awkwardness. I used to be really nervous to go in public setting because of this but I am fortunate to have found a friend group who can easily read my social battery and quickly changes plans or offer me support when it is needed.

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I don't show my emotions very well, and I tend to compartmentalize them in escalated situations. When I talked about a stressful work situation recently with my boss, they said that they couldn't tell that I was stressed out. Because of this, I also avoid situations that cause stress so that I don't compartmentalize my emotions and prioritize others more than I do myself.

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I am someone who doesn't like confrontation or disagreement so I tend to internalize my feelings and emotions. I will let things keep piling on top of each other until something pushes me to the edge and then I get emotional about everything and it's not that one thing anymore. I am a people pleaser which eventually gets exhausting because I feel like I can't be myself and I care what other people think of me. This is something I need to work on because I want to get to the point where I don't really care what people think of me.

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I am someone who easily overthinks. I'll question my actions on a daily basis and think about if what I did or said is right. Often times I will tend to go down a rabbit hole of thought and think of endless outcomes for what I did or said, and how it affects someone. This is something I certainly need to work on, and be able to trust myself and not care so much what other people think, especially when it is something minor.

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I am someone who cares about what other people think about me and I can be easily stressed out, often working myself up over things that seem insignificant later. I am sensitive towards others, but have trouble expressing myself not really wanting to be vulnerable. I tend to avoid things that go outside of my confront zone due to self doubt I have built up, but I enjoying being with other people and I find a lot of value in their support.

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I am someone who can get easily stressed out. I do not always show this on the outside and often internalize it. My stress can come across at times like I am not interested and don't care, but that is not the case. I have trouble expressing myself when stressed and this is something I need to work on. I often have low self-esteem and doubt myself. I think I'm not as capable as I really am.

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I tend to have issues expressing my emotions. From the outside, many people see me as an outgoing, confident person. But I have many things I feel but do not say because I do not want to be perceived as weak or less than.

A lot of times I result to being a very angry, snappy person when I do not know how else to express myself. This stems from the way my parents are. I try to avoid reacting in this type of way because I have seen it firsthand but it is still very hard for me.

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I hide behind the words "Im fine" a lot of the time, because I fear opening up about my life with people out of fear they will walk away. I suppress my own feelings most of the time to care for those close to me, because I feel like helping others makes my problems go away for a just a little and give me a boost of a serotonin . I hide behind humor as well, because if I can make someone else laugh who is having a bad day, then my day is made no matter how sad I feel. Imposter syndrome and I always argue, since I always feel like my problems aren't as big and problematic as someone else who is struggling with the same thing, that there is someone else out there who has it worse then I have. I feel like I only feel this way because its "trendy" and "everyone has it" and it sucks, because on nights im alone I tend to think a lot, fake scenarios, situations I cringe at, old friends, family, things I lost, and gained. Im very emotionally aware of my own feelings and why i feel them, not many people know that. Even if i am struggling, as long as everyone around me is okay I will be okay.

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I am someone who bottles and compartmentalizes emotions and how I am feeling. I tend to have more compassion and care for others than myself, someone who can even start to care "too much".

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There are aspects of me that are hidden from the rest of the world. For me there has always been a separation from myself and who I want to be. The common saying, “be yourself,” has always been a flexible statement for me, there is a constant evolution of my being day-to-day. Even though, there is change in understanding, emotions and demeanor in the end I don’t know what being myself is. I wait for the moments when I make a joke or snarky remark in my head to make myself giggle at the imaginary situations I place myself in. Those personable moments I have with my own mind break up the silent cracks that form when the world around me is lulling. I smile in the mirror getting ready out of vanity or happiness or some diagnosed split reaction, I glaze over my face, my body, the way my lips curl to show a smile that only graces a few peoples’ path. I talk to myself, creating stories, new perspectives and ideas that don’t seem to come out quite right when I need to convey them to others. I have loved and I have lost but compare myself to others and swallow the heartbreak when their experience is worse than what I have been through. I see it when others look at me, I can feel it burning into my skin. The way their eyes long for my acceptance or validation yet sometimes I stare straight ahead ignoring the plea for attention. I find I do it because I feel like I don’t ask for validation as pressingly as others or simply I don’t want to give them something they seem to long for. Out of all of the bluntness, sarcasm, quick thinking, and weltering tears there still layers of personality that can’t be seen.

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I've been grappling with the idea of striking a balance between vulnerability and confidence in the workplace, especially in a leadership role. Confidence in one’s abilities waxes and wanes but when the latter inevitably takes place, to what degree should vulnerability exist with others? Vulnerability can be a superpower, but to what extent?

I find vulnerability to be a lot easier in my personal life. Perhaps there’s more risk involved in a professional setting such as how others perceive your level of competence or credibility among the team.

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I am someone who resorts to humor during tough circumstances in my life. Humor to me is a quick escape to ignore how I sometimes feel on the inside. This partly comes from the fact that I enjoy making people smile and laugh because that is something the world needs a little bit more of right now. Today, too many people are stressed about work, school, and life in general. People need to stop for a second and take a deep breathe and realize there is more to life.

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On the outside, you may think I have a high level of self confidence, but in reality I care a lot about what people think of me. I am also very empathetic towards my family, friends, colleagues, and peers. This makes me constantly sensitive to what they are feeling. Another fact about me you may not know or see on the surface is that I hold my emotions in so that I appear happy and in control all of the time. Overall, I think it's important to understand that there is a lot more to a person than what you see on the outside, which means people should always be kind and respectful to others.

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I am someone who draws on family values, observations of the world and personal experiences to inform my interactions and passion for serving the community. I value diversity, compassion, empathy and having "uncomfortable" conversations to learn about and address systemic issues. I believe that all people should have access to basic needs, and it is the responsibility of those in the capacity to advocate for others.

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I am someone that hurts inside since I lost someone very close to me. I am someone that shares empathy if someone lost someone very close to them. I think people that you can just feel what someone else is feeling after a death of someone very close.