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Dugard, Jaycee L.
A stolen life: a memoir.
Simon & Schuster, 2011.

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Jaycee Lee Dugard
Born in Anaheim, California

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As 11 year old, Jaycee is having a normal morning she gets ready to go to school. On the way to her bus stop, a van pulls next to her, she gets tazed with a stun gun, and she is put into the van.

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Jaycee is gaining consciousness, and she is threatened to stay quiet if she does not want to get hurt. After she gets into the house of the man who kidnapped her, Philip, tells her that if she ever tried to run away he would use the stun gun again. Jaycee is 2 hours away from her house and is now with two random strangers.

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Jaycee does not know where she is, and Philip takes her to the bathroom. He tells her to do some things, she wants to refuse but does not want to get hurt. Deep inside Jaycee is crying and she tells herself to be brave. She cries and Philip tells her not to, then takes her to the backyard, but puts a blanket over her so she does not see anything.

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As Jaycee wakes up she is scared and handcuffed, misses her mother, asks many questions to herself, and she does not know what to do. As she tries to stand up she falls back down. Her "room" was small than the one she had at home, and there were towels covering the windows.

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"There is a towel and blinds covering the window, so I can only see a little bit of light. It looks like moonlight. I wish I could see the moon. My mom and I used to love to sit out front of my grandma's house and look at the moon." (24)

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Jaycee is usually alone, and Philip would come once a day to feed her fast food, and a bucket to use as a toilet. He tries to be nice to her by making jokes and doing things to make Jaycee laugh, and soon after she depended on Philip.

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Jaycee is very hungry and she is hoping Philip comes and brings her food. Soon after, Phillip comes in with food just like how Jaycee wished, but he tells Jaycee that she will get her food after they do something different than usual. She does not feel hungry anymore, and she wants him to go away. Then she gets handcuffed and raped. She was also forced to do sexual acts on him.

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"All of a sudden I am not hungry anymore. I have this terrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. I want him to go away. I want to go away." (31)

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Philip tells Jaycee he is going to give her a kitty, and she is hoping to get one soon because she wants company. Jaycee wishes to have a toothbrush because she is reminded of her step-father, Carl, who would scold her if she didn't brush her teeth. Philips comes and brings her a half-grown kitty, and Jaycee names her Tigger.

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"I try to think of a name for her and I decide on Tigger-bouncing Tigger from Winnie the Pooh. Tigger is always happy and never sad. My new Tigger starts to explore her surroundings, and I sit back and watch her." (39)

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Jaycee was about to go to sleep, when she hears Philip coming, she pretends to be asleep so he can go away. He enters and tells her that they were going next door, and gives her clothes. Jaycee enters and the room looked different from the one she was previously in. It had three windows, a cooler, a blue couch, a desk, a small refrigerator, a wooden cabinet, a TV, and a stool under the window.

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Philip has drug addictions and problems, so he took Jaycees to fix those "problems". Jaycee sees him doing drugs, and he tells her to put makeup on and she hesitates. Philip picks up his stun gun, tells her to clean herself makes her wear tight clothes, then rapes her again, and forces her perform sexual acts on him.

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Jaycee is introduced to Philips's wife, Nancy. Nancy is jealous of Jaycee, and she also helped Philip kidnap her. Instead of Philip bringing Jaycee meals, Nancy is going to give them to her. Nancy also took videos of little girls to help Philips satisfaction.

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It is 1993 and Jaycee is 13 years old. Nancy comes in with homemade food and Jaycee is happy that she gets home-cooked food instead of eating fast food. Nancy tells Jaycee that Philip would not be around for a month because "he went to live on an island with a rich friend for a while". (70)

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"I asked where he was. She said he went to live on an island with a rich friend for a while. SHe said he'd be gone for a month." (70)

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Jaycee loved to write. She wrote a journal with her name on it and she showed it to Philip. He explained for an hour on why it could be dangerous if anyone else had read it, so she tore out the her name that was on the pages and never wrote it again till 2009.

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It was Easter and the year 1994. Philip and Nancy noticed that Jaycee had been putting on weight and walking weirdly. Jaycee also said that her stomach had been hurting and soon found out she was pregnant. She was scared of the baby being taken away. Jaycee feels less lonely knowing that she has a baby in her.

" A few days later on the inside I am still haunted by the thought of having to give up the baby. I need to talk to Philip about it soon." (98)

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While Jaycee was watching TV, Philip came and told her that there was something going on and that they need to leave the house. He put a blanket over Jaycee and got into the van and drove to a house trailer. Philip tells her that they were going to spend the night there, and in the morning they were going to leave her to check on the house and bring her food. Jaycee is scared that she would be left alone and they would not come back for her.

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"I was so scared he wouldn't return for me and just leave me here forever by myself. What would I do all by myself and pregnant? I start to cry." (103)

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As time passed Jaycee was getting ready to give birth to her baby. Finally she gave birth to a baby girl on August 18, 1994 at 4:35 am. To note, Jaycee was 14 years old at that time.

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"I am exhausted and all I want to do is go to sleep. I nurse her for the first time, which feels very strange to me and we both went to sleep" (109)

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Jaycee finds out she is pregnant again. On November 12, 1997, 11 pm, and woke up due to pain. She walks over to Philip and Nancy and tells them that she thinks the baby was coming. As she wakes them up they get ready for her to give birth. Then on November 13, 1997, at 2:15 am her second baby girl is born.

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"Philip is reading the Bible a lot more now. I'm not sure what he is looking for. It gives him a focus and I am thankful for that." (131)

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Jaycee raises the two girls in the backyard with Philip and Nancy's help. As time passed on Nancy had a hard time when the babies were calling Jaycee "Mommy". This was because she had miscarriages and blood pressure problems. Philip tells Jaycee that it would be a good idea if she and her babies start calling Nancy "Mom", and Jaycee as the "sister" of the kids. Jaycee is sad to think about even doing that because she has a mom, and she misses her mom. Philip then tells her to change her name. Soon after Jaycee's new name was "Allissa".

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"He says it would be a good idea to bring us all together so we can all be a family for the kids if we start calling her "Mom" and referring to me as the girls' "sister". (150)

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As time passes by they continue to act like a family, Jaycee is going to the beach. She is scared that she will make a mistake, but Philip tells her that it would be an ordinary family at the beach. More time passes by and Jaycee writes a lot in her journal, mainly about goals and self-reflections.

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In August 2009, Jaycee, Nancy, and the kids went to the Concord parole office because they found out Philip had been arrested, and Jaycee cried because she relied on Philip. The next day Philip told them they had to go back for some questions, and on that day Philip, Nancy, and the kids were separated into different rooms. Two patrol officers ask questions to Jaycee, and she was scared that her children were going to be taken away. After some time the officer told her that it was okay, to tell the truth, because they found out that she had been kidnaped. Jaycee told them that she was 11 when she was kidnaped and currently 29 and that she was held captive for 18 years. The officer asked for her name, but Jaycee had not said her name in 18 years so she wrote it out, and she felt free and like she broke an evil spell.

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"It was like breaking an evil spell. In that moment, I felt free but also exhausted and completely alive all at the same time. Talk about an emotional roller coaster. I wrote my name for the first time in eighteen years." (209)

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How Intuition Helped Save Jaycee Dugard | Oprah's Lifeclass | Oprah Winfrey Network

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Jaycee is now free with her mother and her kids. Everything new that she does was her first because she had never got to do those fun things with her family. Jaycee endured the hard times during those 18 years and she was now set free.

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"My life has changed so much since last summer. I am free to be a mother to my girls. I am free to drive. I am free to say I have a family. My family is my own." (217)

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Some news stories are hard for us to believe; others we would rather not believe. When news appeared about the escape of Amanda Berry from an unassuming house in Cleveland in 2013, after 10 years of imprisonment, many of us had both of these reactions simultaneously: How could this happen for so long with no one noticing? and How could someone do this to another person? It is, indeed, difficult to fathom not only how episodes of kidnapping and abuse could go unobserved for such a long time but also how a publicly friendly neighbor could be so privately inhumane.

Over the years, there have been other instances where young women have been kidnapped and their lives altered by forces beyond their control - sometimes by a disturbed individual, sometimes by a misguided organization, and sometimes by even a family member. We recall the cases of Berry and a few other victims below:

Amanda Berry, Michelle Knight and Gina DeJesus

Between August 2002 and April 2004, Berry (age 16), Michelle Knight (21) and Gina DeJesus (14) were abducted after accepting a ride home while walking on Lorain Avenue in Cleveland, Ohio. The perpetrator was former bus driver Ariel Castro, who raped, tortured and starved his captives over the course of a decade. Berry gave birth to a daughter while in captivity, with Knight also reportedly impregnated multiple times.

The three were discovered in May 2013, after Castro left the house and Berry screamed for help at the front door. After neighbors kicked the door in, Berry ran across the street with her 6-year-old daughter and called 911, summoning authorities to rescue the other two. Castro was indicted on 329 charges, including 177 counts of kidnapping and 139 counts of rape. However, one month after he was sentenced to life in prison plus 1,000 years, he was found hanging from a bedsheet in his cell.

The three women managed to rebuild their lives and cope with the trauma of their experiences. Knight authored two books, Finding Me: A Decade of Darkness, A Life Reclaimed and Life After Darkness: Finding Healing and Happiness After the Cleveland Kidnapping, while Berry and DeJesus teamed up to pen Hope: A Memoir of Survival in Cleveland. Berry also became host of a local news station's missing persons segment, and DeJesus founded The Cleveland Family Center for Missing Children and Adults not far from the house of horrors they endured for many years.

Elizabeth Smart

In Salt Lake City in 2002, while she slept in the bedroom that she shared with her sister, 14-year-old Elizabeth Smart was kidnapped at knifepoint. She was dragged into the Utah woods and held prisoner by Brian David Mitchell, who referred to himself as Immanuel, and his wife, Wanda Barzee. Mitchell starved the girl, force-fed her drugs and alcohol, and raped her daily in an attempt to brainwash her into believing that he was a prophet. Mitchell and Barzee roamed Utah and California for almost nine months with Smart in tow before they were discovered and arrested.

The key to breaking the case was Smart's sister. Terrified, she had stayed still during the kidnapping, but she saw the man and recognized him as a former handyman hired by the Smarts. Police identified Mitchell, and his photograph was shown on the TV show America's Most Wanted. Less than a month later, Mitchell and Barzee were caught and Smart was returned to her family.

Despite her harrowing experience, Smart quickly picked up her life where it had left off. She finished high school, attended Brigham Young University and became a noted advocate for kidnapping survivors. After helping to author the United States Department of Justice's 2008 handbook for kidnapping survivors, You Are Not Alone, she launched her own foundation for victims and published a memoir, My Story. The activist later introduced a podcast series and formed the Smart Defense initiative to empower women to fight back against would-be attackers.

Jaycee Dugard

In 1991, Jaycee Dugard, only 11 years old, was kidnapped outside of her home in South Lake Tahoe, California. Her stepfather witnessed her abduction and immediately contacted the authorities, but Jaycee could not be located. She had been transported almost 200 miles away to the town of Antioch, where she was held prisoner by a convicted rapist named Phillip Garrido and his wife, Nancy. For the next 18 years, Dugard would be their prisoner and would end up bearing two children by Garrido.

Like Mitchell, Garrido felt he had religious justification for his actions. "The Creator has given me the ability to speak in the tongue of angels in order to provide a wake-up call that will in time include the salvation of the whole world," he wrote. While distributing fliers related to his new church, God's Desire, on the University of California campus at Berkeley, campus police asked him to register his organization. They soon discovered Garrido's criminal record, which led them to Jaycee's rescue.

Dugard would reunite with her family and attempt to reclaim her life, establishing the JAYC Foundation to help trauma victims. In 2011, she published the memoir A Stolen Life, a wrenching account of her years of captivity, and followed in 2016 with Freedom: My Book of Firsts.

Patty Hearst

The University of California at Berkeley was the site of Garrido's capture; it was also the site, 35 years earlier, of the highest-profile kidnapping in American history. Except for the Lindbergh baby kidnapping, no other case has inspired as much media attention and commentary as the abduction of Patty Hearst.

Granddaughter of newspaper tycoon William Randolph Hearst, Patricia Campbell Hearst was 19 when she was kidnapped at UC Berkeley by revolutionary activists the Symbionese Liberation Army (SLA) on February 4, 1974. While held by the SLA, Heart was indoctrinated into their radical ideology, eventually adopting it as her own in taped messages to the media. She renamed herself Tania and was seen taking part in a bank robbery in San Francisco and a shoot-out at a sporting goods store in Los Angeles.

The FBI pursued and finally captured Hearst on September 18, 1975. She denied joining the revolutionaries, saying that she was drugged and coerced; nevertheless, she was found guilty of participating in the bank robbery and sentenced to prison. President Carter reduced her sentence in 1979, and President Bill Clinton pardoned her in 2001, granting her official absolution. Hearst, who compiled several screen credits and wrote a mystery novel in the years after her release, went on to success on the competitive dog show circuit. She remains a controversial figure, and some critics still consider her not entirely blameless in the crimes committed by the SLA.

Kyoko Chan Cox

Yoko Ono is most famous for being the wife of John Lennon, but before she met Lennon, she had been married twice before. Her second marriage, to filmmaker/musician/art promoter Anthony Cox, resulted in the birth of her daughter Kyoko in 1963. Kyoko became the subject of an intense custody battle, and subsequent abduction, in the early 70s.

Ono and Cox divorced in 1969 and fought for two years over custody of Kyoko. (Ono wrote a song about the situation called "Don't Worry, Kyoko.") In 1971, the court ruled against Cox, and in violation of the order, he took Kyoko and disappeared. He joined the Living Word Fellowship, a cultish Christian group known as "The Walk." Kyoko, renamed Rosemary, lived an underground existence throughout most of the 70s, until Cox left the church. Kyoko, primarily raised by Cox even when her parents were together, admitted that "it was painful losing my mom," but that she loved her father and chose to stay with him.

In 1980, Cox contacted Ono to express condolences for Lennon's death. Ono admitted publicly that she would not seek to prosecute Cox for violation of the court order. It wasn't until the late 1990s that Kyoko, reportedly married and working as a teacher, was reunited with her mother.

Elisabeth Fritzl

Cox's abduction by her father, although unfortunate, is benign compared to the story of Elisabeth Fritzl, the victim of one of the most horrifying cases of abuse and imprisonment by a family member on record.

Sexually abused by her father Joseph from the age of 11, Fritzl was lured into a specially prepared cellar in her house in Amstetten, Austria, at age 18. Joseph locked her in the cellar and held her captive, telling police that his daughter had run away from home to join a cult. For the next 24 years, Joseph physically assaulted Fritzl and impregnated her eight times. Three of the children were raised "upstairs," while three others stayed with Fritzl in the cellar in semi-darkness as part of the "downstairs" family (the other two children died).

On April 19, 2008, when one of the "downstairs" children underwent kidney failure, Joseph was forced to seek medical attention. Fritzl was allowed out of the cellar; at the hospital, authorities began to question Joseph's information. Eleven days later, Fritzl told her full story to the police, and her father was arrested and imprisoned. He was sentenced to life in 2009.

Fritzl took on a new identity in an undisclosed location in Austria known as "Village X." She has reportedly adjusted to life above ground, bringing her "upstairs" and "downstairs" children into one family and finding love with the security guard assigned to protect her.

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6 Famous Abductions and Where the Women Are Today

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Some news stories are hard for us to believe; others we would rather not believe. When news appeared about the escape of Amanda Berry from an unassuming house in Cleveland in 2013, after 10 years of imprisonment, many of us had both of these reactions simultaneously: How could this happen for so long with no one noticing?

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Jaycee Dugard Part 2: Why She Wants to Change How People View Victims

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Jennifer and Jordan Turpin , alongside their 11 siblings, endured years unthinkable torture, malnourishment and captivity at the hands of their parents.

For the first time since their escape nearly four years ago, the two sisters are speaking out about their traumatic childhood in an exclusive interview with ABC News' Diane Sawyer.

In their interview, Jennifer and Jordan revealed they lived in horrendous conditions under their parents, David and Louise Turpin, in which they said they were deprived of food, proper hygiene, education and medical care. They said some of their siblings were shackled to beds on and off for months at a time.

Despite an initial outpouring of support in the weeks after their parents' 2018 arrest, the Turpin siblings and their advocates say they are still struggling to access basic living necessities, including food and housing, through the California county that has jurisdiction over the case.

"Right now, I don't really have a way to get food right now," Jordan Turpin, 21, told Sawyer at the time of the interview in July of this year. "I also don't really have a place to go right now, but I have my older siblings helping me out." At this time, Jordan is in temporary housing through a school program.

Many of the siblings are still "living in squalor," according to Mike Hestrin, the Riverside County District Attorney.

"That is unimaginable to me - that we could have the very worst case of child abuse that I've ever seen, and then that we would then not be able to get it together to give them basic needs," Hestrin told Sawyer.
Watch the Diane Sawyer special event, "Escape From A House Of Horror," on Friday, Nov. 19 at 9 p.m. ET on ABC and stream on Hulu.
Across the country, an estimated one in every seven children experienced abuse and neglect over the last year, according to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention.

Jaycee Dugard, also a survivor of abuse and exploitation, was kidnapped and held captive for 18 years, after she was abducted while walking to the school bus when she was just 11 years old.

Following her own escape, Dugard created the JAYC Foundation in 2011, which works to support "individuals and families that have experienced a severe crisis, challenge or conflict through a major life disruption."

Dugard's foundation has created a fund to receive donations for the 13 Turpin children.

"13 children were held captive by their parents in a survival story like you've never seen. Please don't look away," Dugard wrote in a statement on her foundation's website. "Three years after escaping hell, many of the 13 siblings are not under foster care or guardianship and are still struggling to survive and need your support."

100% of the donations, less PayPal processing fees, received will go to support the Turpin children in living "their best lives going forward," Dugard wrote.

"This is why the JAYC Foundation exists. It is for families like the Turpin siblings that have so little but need so much. The resources that my family and I received in our time of need changed our lives," Dugard wrote. "Now it's our turn to pay it forward and to ask you to help this amazing family."

If you would like to learn more about the JAYC Foundation's fund for the Turpin siblings, click the link here.

To read about and support other organizations working to help vulnerable children and families, follow the links below:

Prevent Child Abuse America: Prevent Child Abuse America is a national non-profit organization, which works to end child abuse and neglect before it happens by advocating for meaningful change at the national, state, and local levels, and raise awareness of supportive programs that help children and families in communities across the country. Founded in 1972 and based in Chicago, the organization has chapters operating across 46 states.

The North American Council on Adoptable Children: The North American Council on Adoptable Children (NACAC) is a non-profit organization whose mission it is to ensure that every child in foster care has a permanent, safe, loving family through adoption. NACAC reports that they are currently working with Spaulding for Children and other partners to help improve the training offered to foster and adoptive parents of children who are older and have more needs.

The National CASA/GAL Association for Children: The National CASA/GAL Association for Children is a national organization which supports and promotes court-appointed volunteer advocacy for children and young people who have experienced abuse or neglect. CASA volunteers are appointed by judges to be a voice for these children in court and in the community. CASA/GAL operates 950 state organizations and local programs in 49 states and the District of Columbia.

Foster Care to Success: Foster Care to Success is a national non-profit organization, which works to support youth transition from foster care to adulthood through education, through youth scholarships, coaching and mentorship. The organization reports that their work has impacted more than 50,000 foster youth, and it has been acknowledged by Congress, the Department of Health and Human Services, and every White House Administration since that of George Bush, Sr., in 1989.

StandUp for Kids: StandUp for Kids is a national non-profit organization dedicated to ending the cycle of youth homelessness in local communities. In operation since 1990, StandUp for Kids helps to transition homeless and at-risk youth through housing support, mentoring, drop-in centers, and street outreach.

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Turpin children, other young survivors of abuse: How to help

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Jennifer and Jordan Turpin , alongside their 11 siblings, endured years unthinkable torture, malnourishment and captivity at the hands of their parents. For the first time since their escape nearly four years ago, the two sisters are speaking out about their traumatic childhood in an exclusive interview with ABC News' Diane Sawyer.

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— -- Looking at Jaycee Dugard today, you would never know that this seemingly carefree woman, laughing and singing along to the car radio, endured nearly two decades of unimaginable horrors.

"I feel like I have lived a lot of lifetimes," Dugard told ABC News' Diane Sawyer in an exclusive television interview.

Dugard was 11 when she was kidnapped by Phillip and Nancy Garrido in 1991 near her Lake Tahoe, California, home. She was held captive for 18 years and gave birth to two daughters, fathered by Phillip Garrido, while she was their prisoner.

Dugard, now 36, first detailed her horrific experience in her 2011 bestselling book, "A Stolen Life: A Memoir," and now has a second book, "Freedom: My Book of Firsts," about moving on after those years in captivity, which is due out July 12.

Dugard sat down with ABC's Diane Sawyer for a special edition of "20/20" to air today at 10 p.m. ET, her third interview with Sawyer since she first spoke about her horrendous experience in 2011 and talked about what she went through, her miraculous rescue and how she's is reacclimating to society.

When Phillip Garrido and his wife kidnapped Dugard, he was a convicted sex offender on parole for a previous abduction and rape. He had been sentenced to 50 years in prison but was released after serving 11 years.

Dugard said he shocked her with a stun gun to get her into their car, and Nancy Garrido held her down in the back. Then they drove her 120 miles away to their home near San Francisco, which had a collection of rundown sheds and storage units hidden in the backyard.

When Dugard talks about what happened, she refers to it as "The prison backyard."

"There's no denying it. I don't want to deny it ... what it was like being in the backyard," Dugard said. "It was so much a part of my life. ... It's always there, in the back of my mind. It never really goes away."

The first day, Dugard said Garrido stripped off her clothes, walked her into a shed and put her in handcuffs. He burned her favorite little pink outfit she had on. Five days later, he raped her for the first time.

"My first taste of pure evil," Dugard said. "Maybe I didn't register that and go, 'Oh my God, you're evil,' but ... there's something inside of you that knows this is not right."

At first, Dugard said her only connection to the outside world was a little TV set Phillip Garrido gave her, which was set to the QVC channel. She remembers falling asleep to the sound of jewelry being sold and being grateful for the sound of human voices.

Dugard said Garrido also made threats, warning her that if she tried to escape, there were dogs outside the shed door or he threatened to sell her to someone else. He forbade her from using her real name and instead called her "Allissa."

"I remember one night when he dressed me up ... and asked [me to] look in the mirror," Dugard wrote in her book. "All I saw was a frightened girl who I didn't even recognize with mascara running down her cheeks, and the saddest face I had ever glimpsed staring back at me.

"I had to avert my eyes quickly," she added. "I did not want to provoke the sleeping dragon."

More than two years into her captivity, Dugard learned she was pregnant and gave birth at age 14 to her first daughter. In 1997, Dugard gave birth to her second daughter.

Parole officers came to the Garridos' house a stunning 60 times to check on Phillip Garrido and didn't check the sheds behind the fence in the backyard. Garrido was also given a GPS tracker, which apparently wasn't monitored closely.

"You can clearly see him going to the secret backyard ... and they would have been able to spot how much time he was spending there," Dugard said.

Dugard and her daughters were rescued in 2009. Phillip Garrido had been called in for questioning by his parole officer after being alerted by University of California-Berkeley campus security that Garrido was on campus and acting suspiciously.

Garrido was summoned to the parole office and brought his family with him, including Dugard. After hours of questioning, Dugard, who had not been allowed to say her name for years, wrote it down on a piece of paper. Once authorities realized who she was, Dugard was allowed to call her mother.

"I just said, 'Come quick.' I remember saying, 'Come, come quick,'" Dugard said.

Phillip Garrido pleaded guilty to one count of kidnapping and 13 counts of sexual assault and was sentenced to 431 years in prison. Nancy Garrido pleaded guilty to one count of kidnapping, one count of rape by force and to California's "one strike" rape law. She was sentenced to 36 years to life in prison.

The state of California awarded Dugard $20 million after a scathing investigation by the Inspector General that concluded that the California Department of Corrections and Rehabilitation "repeatedly failed to properly classify and supervise parolee Garrido."

Dugard's mother, Terry Probyn, said she is still fighting against her anger at the Garridos and the carelessness of the police.

"It does eat at me, still to this day," Probyn told Sawyer. "I know I have to channel that anger into something good, because it will eat me alive ... if I let it."

Even though her daughter has been home for seven years, Probyn said she still becomes filled with terror when Dugard is out of sight.

"The thoughts flood, 'Is she going to come back? Am I ever going to see her again?'" Probyn said. "And then I'll hear her skulking around the kitchen and I'll think, 'Oh, it's OK! She is here, she is home.'"

Since her rescue, Dugard has been coming to a horse ranch as part of her re-entry into the world after being held prisoner. The ranch is owned by her therapist, Dr. Rebecca Bailey, who uses horses to help victims of trauma regain confidence.

"One of the most important things of working with survivors of abduction is allowing them to have choices in every single thing they do," Bailey said. "Those things happened to her; they're not who she is."

After 18 years in isolation, Dugard's eyes are still sensitive to sunlight. She also had to learn how to be independent and make choices for herself. She says she even had a coach for everyday things such as shopping at the grocery store or writing a check.

Dugard joked that she is living her awkward teen years now as a woman approaching 40, "to try to figure out ... who I am," she said, and learning how to drive, for instance.

She says every day she has to make the choice not to yield to regret, knowing that she now has an opportunity to do the things she once dreamed about in the backyard.

"I didn't want to give one more minute to Phillip and Nancy ... they took 18 years of my life," Dugard said. "I would like to see them in jail for the rest of their lives. ... I don't really believe in the death penalty. It's just hard knowing that you're paying, being a taxpayer now, knowing that you're paying for his meals three times a day."

Dugard was 11 when she was kidnapped and has never been on a date, but she is not ruling out having a relationship one day.

"The only time I was asked on a date was when I was like 8 or something like that and I was so shy," Dugard said. "I didn't even look up when this boy was asking me to go out with him. He was like 8, too."

She said she is not on any dating websites or apps, but would look for a guy who was "caring, has a sense of humor and can laugh at stuff" and who also loves to cook. She admitted that her daughters want her to find someone.

"It's not that I don't think about that stuff, it's just there's no guys in my life like that," Dugard said. Dugard now travels to medical schools across the country to talk with psychology residents and ask them not to use the term "Stockholm syndrome," a phrase Dugard finds "degrading."

"Having my family believe that I was in love with this captor and wanted to stay with him? I mean, that is so far from the truth that it makes me want to throw up," Dugard said. "It's disgusting. ... I adapted to survive my circumstances. There is just no other way to put it."

When Dugard was in captivity, she secretly wrote down a sort of "bucket list" of items she thought she would never get to do. The first thing she wrote was, "See mom."

Today, she works with the JAYC Foundation, and organization she founded to help other trauma victims, and she's continuing to check off more items from her list, like going on a hot air balloon ride and learning to sail.

"It's taken a lot of time and it hasn't come overnight," she added. "You have to put in the hard work and cry and, for sure, laugh about everything that you can."

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Jaycee Dugard on Reclaiming Her Life After Being Held Captive for 18 Years: 'I Have Lived a Lot of Lifetimes'

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Looking at Jaycee Dugard today, you would never know that this seemingly carefree woman, laughing and singing along to the car radio, endured nearly two decades of unimaginable horrors. "I feel like I have lived a lot of lifetimes," Dugard told ABC News' Diane Sawyer in an exclusive television interview.