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Dugard, Jaycee Lee. A Stolen Life: a Memoir. Read How You Want, 2017.

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At the age of 11, Jaycee Dugard was kidnapped where she was sexually abused for 18 years, and got freedom in 2009.

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At the age of 11, Jaycee lived with her mother, step father and half sister, at the time before being abducted. She moved from Anaheim, California, to the area of Tahoe Lake because of her parents thinking that it would be more safe for her than Anaheim.

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On the Summer morning of June 10th, 1991, Jaycee began the day with her mother leaving the house. Jaycee reminded her the previous day that before she leaves for work that she kisses her goodbye. This does not happen, as this will be the last she will hear of her mother. After getting ready for school, Jaycee leaves and calls out to her step father that she is leaving the house. She then goes up the hill to catch her bus. Halfway up the hill she notices a car stopping next to her, as the street is empty and this being the only car around. The car rolls down the window and Jaycee, not being suspicious thinking the car was asking directions, approaches the vehicle, she gets shocked by a stun gun, and quickly put into the car under a blanket where she is told to remain quiet or that he will shock her again.

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After a long drive, Jaycee is taken out of the car and, with no choice, follows the Abductor, Phillip Garrido, to the bathroom of his house. Phillip then forces Jaycee to take off her clothes. He then takes off his own telling her if she knows about sex. Obviously not knowing, she gives a wrong answer and Phillip chuckles to himself. With more things that he does, this is one of many times that Phillip Garrido sexually abused and exploited Jaycee. After this event, Jaycee is led completely naked with only a towel to cover her, to a soundproofed room/shed in the backyard of his house where she is handcuffed and locked into, with only blankets and the towel to cover herself and sleep in.

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Day by day, Phillip gives Jaycee food, most of the time during the late afternoon. Jaycee begins to start to depend on Phillip as he is the only way she is able to get food. Weeks after the first day she arrived in captivity, Phillip enters the room where she is behind held, says that they have to do something before giving her food, explains what he is about to do, and rapes her. This being the first time of many this happens.

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After a few months of a constant cycle of being raped countless of times almost feeling like it happening on the daily, Dugard finally is able to be out of handcuffs after being in them everyday, other then when she is eating. Phillip also got Dugard a cat, as she complained that she was lonely. However Phillip took away the cat due to the smell of urine in the room she was being kept in. She also was able to get

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After a few months of Phillip moved her between the "studio" the first small room she was staying in to the "next door" which was a larger room with a color tv, and a fold out bed. During this time, she also got clothes which to her was a blessing.

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Phillip started to do something called a "run". This was a course of a multi-hour - day long period where Phillip, high on methamphetamine, did
"something he is going to be doing periodically and that I will be staying up with him for a few days depending on how much crank he is going to take... ...He says he is explaining all this to me so that he knows what's going on and I will know what is expected from me. He says the "run, as he calls staying up for days, will be a time for him to fulfill all his fantasies and I will help him do that. He says the crank allows him to focus on one thing for a long time. He says first he's going to get me dressed the way he wants and then depending on his mood, the rest will consist of me m* him, sucking his p*,  me in whatever position he desires, and dancing over him while he m*" (51).

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Before her twelfth birthday, seven months into her captivity, Phillip introduced her to his wife, Nancy. Nancy doesn't like Jaycee, for obvious reasons, however grows a relationship with her. She started to bring things like books, or crayons whenever she visited her. She also got her a stuffed bear. She later says that she had opportunities to let herself free, but never did.
"Sometimes I feel bad for not missing Nancy. But for the most part it is a relief for me to not have to endure her moods and the jealousy she harbored. She did have several opportunities to let me go, and I might never know why she chose not to." (67)

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Jaycee gets given a cat for her thirteenth birthday, while she has it for a month until she gets it taken away by Phillip,
"They got me another cat, which I named Eclipse. I think I had her for about a month until Phillip took her away, too. I don't remember why. I do remember I wrote a journal about her." (77)

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Easter Sunday, 1994, Phillip brings the news that him and Nancy believe that she is pregnant. Phillip brings a dog named China, which was his mothers dog, to comfort her during the time she is pregnant. During this time she was sent to a trailer home that is miles away from the place she was kept in. This was because authorities were going to raid Phillips house, (not for Jaycee).  She later returns home around the next day. After preparing for around 4 months, watching tv shows about how to raise a baby, how to give birth, etc. On August 18, 1994, at age 14, Jaycee gives birth to her first baby.
"It is late by the time my water finally breaks. At first I thought I had peed myself. I tell Phillip and he thinks it won't be long now. ...I am exhausted and all I want to do is go to sleep. I nurse her for the first time, which feels very strange to me and then we both went to sleep. My baby girl came into the world at 4:35 a.m., August 18, 1994. I am fourteen years old and very, very, scared." (108, 109)

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Through the next months, Jaycee nurses A, with this being the only thing able to do in the "next door" even though through body pain while doing this, the amount of company she feels with A around is immense. Nancy and Phillip also get her whatever she needed for the baby.
"My breasts hurt so much from her nursing. ...I like to keep her on a schedule as much as I can. She wakes up about nine a.m. for feeding and then we both go back to sleep until about noon for another feeding, then we play for a little bit..." (111, 112)

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At 17 years old, Jaycee figures out that she is pregnant again. During this time, Phillip and Nancy built a bunk bed for her and A, which had a full size and a twin bed on it. Phillip also built her a fence so she was able to be outside, instead of being cooped up in the studio or the next door. Phillip also stopped doing the "runs" with her, and on November 13, 1997, after a day of pain the day before, at 2:15 a.m her second baby was born. Phillip gave her the name S, and for her middle name Jaycee named it G. "It wasn't long before I was pushing the baby out. With A it felt like I was in labor forever. This one seemed to be going by so fast. In a matter of hours I gave birth to my second daughter at 2:15 a.m. November 13, 1997. Phillip later named her S. ... Nancy suggests Ruth or G, and I like G better." (131)

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Every day for Jaycee is consumed with Nursing A and S, which later they call S, G. And doing jobs for Phillips business which is called printing for less. During this time A is at the age of 3 and still being breast fed by Jaycee, which she wants her to stop, but Phillip insists that these are the best things she can do for A and S. "My days are consumed with the babies and Printing for Less. Since A is three, I am trying to get her to stop nursing. I can't nurse both of them at the same time. Phillip still says I am doing the best thing in the world for the girls." (135)

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A year and a half passes, and after the Fourth of July, Phillip and Nancy want to take Jaycee, A, and G to the beach, which they do. After a few weeks Nancy insists that she takes Jaycee on an outing. Phillip gives them 100 dollars for this and Nancy takes Jaycee to get her nails done, which was scary for Jaycee as she thought that the people doing her nails would see that she is shaking, but all goes well. They also went to go get lunch at Jack in the Box. "What if the person doing my nails sees my hand shaking? When we arrive, I put on my 'I can do this' face and follow Nancy in." (155)

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From the Spring of 1998 to the Spring of 2007, Jaycee needed a place to vent her feelings, she decided to write down her feelings in a journal throughout this time period. "In the spring of 1998, I needed an outlet for all the feelings and emotions I was keeping bottled up inside. I knew Phillip would never approve of me writing things dow, but I had this compulsion to get some things down on paper." (165)

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In Jaycee's later years of custody, Pat, Phillip's mother, was diagnosed with Parkinson's disease and low grade dementia. During this time Nancy and Jaycee were tasked to take care of her. Jaycee was tasked with taking her to the bathroom, bathing her, walking her, or exercise her. She also hated Jaycee because it brought up a side of her Son, whom she adored. " She says really mean things when I have to take her to the bathroom or walk her or exercise her. She hates everything except Phillip. Nancy has a hard time with her too, but sometimes can get her to listen. I feel like she deep down hates me, though, and knows what I represent even though we have never told her, I think she knows I represent a side of her son that she doesn't want to acknowledge exists." (199)

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On August 25, 2009, Phillip gets arrested but later returns home later that evening, and on the next day, Phillip wakes Jaycee to get dressed, saying that he was going to take her, and her two children to the parole office because he said he was tired of the harassment he was getting from the authorities and wanted them to see that everything was okay. After being questioned by parole and Phillip confessed to kidnapping her, Jaycee wrote out her name to a parole agent, this being the first time she used her name in almost 18 years. After a few hours of being questioned, she finally got a hold of her mom, which her mom rejoiced because her daughter was found. The next day, she reunited with her mother after a long night at a hotel.

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The next year Jaycee got the freedom of many things, being able to drive, free to say that she had a family. She also went to a psychologist whom had a unique approach to physical therapy, which helped her with the verbal abuse that she had with Phillip. She learned how to make decisions for herself, and although she didn't go to high school she hopes of earning her GED one day. She also built a bond with her younger sister, where she was also taught how to drive by her.

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Jaycee took to a reunification specialist to start her healing process. What convinced her to seek the help of this specific person was the mention of horses. She was one of the few people that was a professional in specializing in the field of reunification in abduction cases. Jaycee also met with Nancy where she told her of the fact that what she and Phillip did to her was not okay in any way.

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10 Years ago, yesterday, An interview with Jaycee Dugard.

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July 10, 2011— -- Jaycee Dugard has powerful memories from the last 20 years, 18 of them spent as a prisoner of kidnappers Phillip and Nancy Garrido.

Yet, some of the most overwhelming memories come from her first two years of freedom which she and her children have spent reunited with her mother.

"Wow. Now I can walk in the next room and see my mom. Wow. I can decide to jump in the car and go to the beach with the girls. Wow. It's unbelievable. Truly," Dugard said in an exclusive interview with ABC News' Diane Sawyer.

Dugard was kidnapped by Phillip and Nancy Garrido when she was just 11 years old in 1991 and held captive in a backyard compound.

She was subjected to rape, manipulation and verbal abuse. She gave birth to two daughters fathered by her abductor in that backyard prison.

Dugard lived in virtual solitary confinement until her first daughter was born three years into captivity and wasn't allowed to spend time outdoors until after her second daughter was born, more than six years after her abduction.

She writes that the closest thing to freedom she ever felt in the compound was when she was allowed to live in her own tent and plant a small garden.

Now, Dugard is telling all in a new memoir, "A Stolen Life," and in her exclusive interview with Sawyer.

She's taking an unflinching look at the horror she's overcome and giving an unsparing account of the way a predator operates and how she survived.

"Why not look at it? You know, stare it down until it can't scare you anymore," she told Sawyer. "I didn't want there to be any more secrets...I hadn't done anything wrong. It wasn't something I did that caused this to happen. And I feel that by putting it all out there, it's very freeing," Dugard said.

Dugard, 31, remembers the first night after she and her daughters were rescued in 2009.

They spent the night in a motel room just down the hall from Dugard's mother, Terry Probyn.

Both Probyn and Dugard had held out hope throughout their nearly two decade separation that they'd find one another.

They had no idea that they'd been only 120 miles from one another the whole time.

"That night, I woke the girls [my daughters] up and I just said, "I'm so happy. I'm so happy!" Dugard said. "I ran down the hall...the girls are following me and knocking on the door...I walked in, 'I'm so happy! I'm so happy!"
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Simple firsts have brought healing to Dugard and her family: learning how to drive from the sister who was just a baby when Dugard was kidnapped, eating family dinners around a table instead of the fast food that Phillip Garrido fed her for 18 years, and even just saying her name which was forbidden by her captors.

Still, the sounds of her imprisonment haunt her.

"That lock. Hearing the lock...for some reason that and the bed squeal. It was a squeaky bed...I guess the noise, the sound. Weird what sticks in your head," Dugard said.

Dugard remembers trying not to cry when she was first abducted because it was too hard to wipe tears away with her hands cuffed behind her back.

"I didn't really want to, because then you can't wipe them away, you know? Then you get all sticky and ...then they get itchy," Dugard said.

She says she had no choice but to endure.

"There's a switch that I had to shut off," she said. "I mean, I can't imagine being beaten to death, you know? And you can't imagine being kidnapped and raped, you know? So, it's just, you just do what you have to do to survive."

Two of the most challenging moments for Dugard were giving birth to her two daughters in 1994 and 1997.

"I knew there was no hospital," she said. "I knew there was no leaving."

At just 13 years old, Dugard noticed she was putting on weight but didn't know why.

On a Sunday in 1994, the Garridos told her she was pregnant.

Before her abduction, the little girl who sold Girl Scout cookies and wrote stories, knew nothing about sex.

Dugard writes that giving birth was the most painful experience in her life.

"And then I saw her. She was beautiful. I felt like I wasn't alone anymore. [I] had somebody else who was mine...and I know I could never let anything happen to her. I didn't know how I was going to do that, but I did," she said.

The Kidnapping

Dugard remembers the last time she left her family's Tahoe, Calif., home to walk to her fifth grade classroom on June 10, 1991.

She'd packed her peanut butter and jelly lunch, worn her favorite kitty shirt and a butterfly ring given to her by her mother.

In all pink, she started on her walk.

"And [I] walked up the side of the hill...that was the safe way to go against traffic. And halfway up, my world changed in an instant," Dugard said. "I heard a car behind me."

Creeping behind Dugard were Phillip and Nancy Garrido. Phillip Garrido rolled down his car window.

"His hand shoots out and I just feel numb. My whole body is tingly...I fall back in the bushes," Dugard said.

Garrido had shocked her with a stun gun. Panicked, Dugard scooted back towards the woods. She remembers grasping a sticky pinecone, the last thing she touched while free.

Now, she wears a pinecone charm around her neck to symbolize her freedom.

"It's a symbol of hope and new beginnings and that there is life after something tragic."

After shocking her, the Garridos stuffed her into their car, hid her under a blanket in the backseat.

Nancy Garrido sat on her while Phillip Garrido drove to the couple's Antioch, Calif., home.

"It was so hot," she said. "I remember my throat felt very dry and scratchy and like I had been screaming, but I don't remember screaming," she said.

Dugard remembers hearing Phillip Garrido laugh and say, "I can't believe we got away with it."

"It was like the most horrible moment of your life times ten," she said.

When they arrived at their home, Dugard was stripped of her backpack, her pink clothes and her name. Garrido took her to the bathroom and told her she had to be quiet.

"I guess he wanted me to be clean...very scary. I was scared," Dugard said.

Dugard was forced to wear nothing but a towel at first and was locked in a semi-soundproof room that had only one window.

Somehow, Phillip Garrido missed the pinky ring her mother had given her. She'd hold onto that ring throughout her captivity. She'd also hold onto the hope that she'd see her mom again.

Clinging to the Memory of Her Mother

"I wondered if she found out what had happened to me, if she was looking for me," Dugard said.

Dugard worried that she'd forget what her mother looked like. She'd keep journals referring to her mother as just "her" because to write "mom" was just too painful.

Her mom, Terry Probyn, carried out a frantic search for her daughter, making tearful pleas on television.

She'd continue to hold vigils for her daughter when public interest in the family's plight waned.

"I feel like I spent my lifetime looking for her and dreaming about her and talking to you and you were always there. You never left me," Probyn told Dugard during the interview.

The two women, clinching hands and with their bodies turned toward one another, share a remarkable bond.

"Being a mom now, you know, I know that she never forgot about me because I could never forget about my kids. But...when you're a kid and you think you're easily forgettable and you're not important. But she kept...her hope. I don't know how she did that. You know? How did I keep my hope? How did she keep her hope," Dugard said.

Dugard still fights feelings of anger towards her captors, but tries not to dwell on them.

"I don't feel like I have this rage inside of me that's building," Dugard said. "I refuse to let him have that. He can't have me."

Dugard's mother can't forget what the Garridos stole from her daughter and her.

"I think I have enough hate in my heart for the both of us. I hate that he took her life away and that makes me sad...I hate that he stole her from me. He ripped out a piece of my heart and he stole my baby," Probyn said.

The two women look at one another. Probyn tells her, "I'm sorry, baby."

She goes on, "He stole your adolescence. He stole high school proms and had pictures and memories..."

Dugard smiles and tells her mom, "But he didn't get all of me."

The Manipulation

The Garridos mercilessly manipulated Dugard.

When she was first kidnapped, Phillip Garrido kept a stun gun present whenever he raped her, a way to remind her of his power.

After abusing Dugard, sometimes for hours in drug fueled sex binges called "runs," he would sob and apologize.

He'd tell her that he had a sex problem and she was saving him from hurting other little girls.

While Philip Garrido was her main tormentor, his wife Nancy was equally adept at playing with Dugard's emotions. She would bring Dugard things like a purple bear, a Barbie, chocolate milk, a Nintendo.

But she never stopped her husband from abusing Dugard.

She'd even keep Dugard locked in the compound when Phillip Garrido was away serving time for a parole violation.

"In some way, she's just as manipulative, because she would cry and say, 'I can't believe that he did this. I wish he would have got a headache that morning he took you,'" Dugard recalled.

"In some ways, she's...just as evil as Phillip," Dugard said.

The Garridos manipulated Dugard until the presence of a stun gun and the use of handcuffs were no longer needed to keep her from fleeing.

It was classic manipulation, Dugard's therapist, Dr. Rebecca Bailey, said.

Bailey is a family unification therapist.

Phillip Garrido's power over Dugard grew by being "responsible for everything from time to food to human companionship to your clothes to your identity," Bailey said.

When Dugard had her daughters, she didn't flee because Phillip Garrido had convinced her the world outside their compound was unsafe, ironically full of pedophiles and rapists.

Even now, it's still hard for Dugard to fully understand why she didn't leave.

"I've asked myself that question many times. I know there was no leaving. The mind manipulation plus the physical abuse I suffered in the beginning, there was no leaving.... I don't know what it would have took. Maybe if one of the girls were being hurt," Dugard said.

Coping With Captivity

Dugard coped with the manipulation by keeping journals, writing stories and dreams that allowed her to imagine herself in a life outside of the compound.

While the Garridos stripped her of her innocence, they could not strip her of her imagination.

She would come up with stories about the tree outside the window, she named the spider in her room, she wrote in her journals about falling in love one day, riding in a hot air balloon, being a veterinarian.

Throughout her captivity, she would take care of several cats and other animals.

When she became a mother, she turned a corner of the compound into a school for part of the day.

She remembered how she used to play school as a little girl, but now she was responsible for actually educating two little girls.

She made a regimen of classes during the day with worksheets and lessons she found online.

She mothered her girls even though the Garridos forbid the children from calling Dugard "mom."

Nancy Garrido, jealous of Dugard, required that the children call her "mom."

Even with access to the computer, Dugard said she never searched for her mother or for news accounts of her kidnapping.

She was scared to because of the Garridos' manipulation.

The Rescue and the Future

Dugard and her daughters would be rescued in August 2009 after an increasingly paranoid and delusional Phillip Garrido alarmed two campus police officers, Ally Jacobs and Lisa Campbell.

He'd shown up on the University of California, Berkeley, campus with the two daughters he'd fathered with Dugard.

The campus officers, both moms, did something nobody else had done.

They saw a man haranguing and they talked to him, engaged him and then acted on their suspicion.

A background check revealed he was a convicted sex offender.

When they called his parole officer to ask about his two daughters, the parole officer didn't even know that Phillip Garrido had children.

Over the 18 years Jaycee Dugard was in captivity, parole officers had visited the home at least 60 times and never reported anything amiss.

Phillip Garrido was called to a meeting with his parole officer on Aug. 26, 2009. He brought his wife, Dugard and the two girls.

At first, Dugard lied for Garrido, still under the spell. She eventually confessed who she was by writing her real name down.

In her memoir, she says that writing her name was like an extinguished flame reigniting.

"The light came back...it was very dark for so long...but that light finally came back on," she said.

Dugard is savoring her freedom and planning for the future.

"I would like to study writing, you know? Really, because I love words and I love mythology...the way metaphors work and how [you] can see things differently with words," she said. "It helped me get through a lot of days, my imagination."

Dugard wants her book, her story to help people realize there is a way to triumph over tragedy and survive. And for her captors, both locked away in prison, she has a message.

"[You] can't steal anything else," she said.

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Jaycee Dugard Interview: Flourishing After 18 Year Long Kidnapping

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Jaycee Dugard has powerful memories from the last 20 years, 18 of them spent as a prisoner of kidnappers Phillip and Nancy Garrido. Yet, some of the most overwhelming memories come from her first two years of freedom which she and her children have spent reunited with her mother.

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30 years ago, yesterday, Dugard was Kidnapped

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30 years ago, yesterday, Dugard was Kidnapped

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PLACERVILLE (CBS13) - It was exactly 30 years ago when the ultimate ending to an abduction-turned-cold case shocked the nation.

June 10, 1991 was the beginning of an 18-year nightmare for Jaycee Lee Dugard.

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"She's very resilient and she's a survivor. I think there's no other way to put it," El Dorado County District Attorney Vern Pierson told CBS13.

Pierson knows the story well. Dugard was kidnapped by Philip Garrido and his wife Nancy as she walked to the bus stop in South Lake Tahoe. Pierson remembers getting the call when Dugard was found years later in 2009.

"To find out that the little girl that was 11 years old 30 years ago today who disappeared for all that time and that she's still alive," said Pierson. "It was fantastic to get that news but it was pretty surprising."

It was especially surprising, considering the unspeakable horrors Dugard endured. She was held hostage sometimes in a shed or even tent and repeatedly raped. Dugard was even forced to bear Garrido's children, one when she was just 14 years old and another when she was 17.

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"You know, he had recently gotten out of prison for a prior kidnap/rape...they're about as bad as it gets," said Pierson.

Pierson says they actually went back and interviewed Phil Garrido fairly recently on another abduction case that he turned out not to be involved in. It shows a lot has changed in 30 years in hopes of solving and preventing child abductions.

"The forensics has changed dramatically, communications between law enforcement," said Pierson. "There's a number of different things in terms of identifying when someone's gone missing. Technology has changed dramatically."

Meantime Dugard continues to amaze and inspire. She's since written two best-selling books and meets often with law enforcement to help create more victim-focused awareness among officers. She does this all while running the JAYC Foundation helping families through a major life crisis.

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'She's A Survivor': Jaycee Dugard 30 Years Later And Why Investigators Recently Questioned Kidnapper Again

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PLACERVILLE (CBS13) - It was exactly 30 years ago when the ultimate ending to an abduction-turned-cold case shocked the nation. June 10, 1991 was the beginning of an 18-year nightmare for Jaycee Lee Dugard. READ MORE: Sacramento Highway 99 Closure Now In Place: How To Get Around It "She's very resilient and she's a survivor.

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At long last, Jaycee Dugard looks like she is in control.

So much so that in an hourlong TV special with ABC's Diane Sawyer that aired Friday, one of the most prominent segments shows her directing and calming a horse with a series of nonverbal gestures and commands.

The exercise was among the kinds of therapy that have helped transform Dugard, who famously survived 18 years of captivity in an Antioch backyard, during which she bore two daughters fathered by her rapist kidnapper.

Since she resurfaced in August 2009, and released a best-selling memoir in 2011 - the year she gave her first public interview, with Sawyer, as a coming out of sorts - Dugard has come to exude a preternatural confidence and acceptance of how half her life was stolen by captors Phillip and Nancy Garrido.

Her continued recovery from the harrowing ordeal is the basis of a second memoir, "Freedom: My Book of Firsts," set to be released Tuesday. A People Magazine feature on her has also just been published.

"Yeah, I'm pretty amazing," Dugard says when recalling giving birth as a 14-year-old in a soundproofed backyard shed.

"We should cut that part," she quickly follows with a chuckle, in a playful plea to Sawyer.

Casual lapse of humility aside, Dugard, 36, speaks with calm and ease as she recalls some of the life experiences with which she is catching up, saying that "I still get afraid of missing out on things."

In one segment, she is getting coffee at a Peet's store. In another, she is driving a vehicle on a road in the area of her undisclosed home, which is believed to be in the vicinity of the Bay Area.

The Pharrell Williams tune "Happy" plays on the car stereo as she sings along and highlights one of the signature lyrics.

-‰'A room without a roof' is awesome," she says.

Learning to drive was one wistful goal she set for herself back when she was a scared child at the mercy and sexual servitude of the Garridos, who snatched her from her South Lake Tahoe neighborhood in 1991. Phillip Garrido is now serving a sentence of 431 years to life at Corcoran State Prison, while his wife is serving 36 years to life at Central California Women's Facility in Chowchilla.

Dugard said in the TV special that she does not "want to give one more minute to Phillip and Nancy - I gave them 18 years of my life."

But in a surprising turn, she says she wouldn't begrudge her daughters, who are now in college, if one day they wanted to visit their father.

"I want them to make their own choices in life," Dugard said. "I wouldn't be OKwith it, but I wouldn't not let them go through with it."

Along those lines, she spoke of how she and her daughters, who were initially raised to believe that she was their much older sister, have gotten to the point where they can talk about it with no equivocation.

"They lived with a crazy person for a long time," Dugard said in simulating an instance of that conversation. "They came out of the backyard, there were ups and downs, and a lot of amazing people, and they lived their life."

She added: "To know it was OK to laugh about Phillip and Nancy and their craziness, it helps."

Since being freed, Dugard has become a national advocate and founder of the JAYC Foundation - an acronym for Just Ask Yourself to Care - which aims to empower victims of sexual abuse and kidnapping. In the TV special, she is described as having spoken at Harvard and Yale universities and to other advocacy organizations.

She made a point to dispel the notion that during her captivity she had become afflicted with Stockholm syndrome, the purported phenomenon of victims bonding with their captors.

"It's degrading, having my family believe I was in love with this captor and wanted to stay with him. ... It made me want to throw up," Dugard said. "I adapted to survive my circumstances."

Dugard was also asked if she had seen the film "Room," based on a novel inspired by the 2008 Austrian case of a woman being held in captivity for 24 years by her father in a basement prison, during which she was methodically raped and gave birth to seven children. Dugard said she has read the book but not watched the movie.

"People think it's close to my story," she said. "It's very different from what I went through."

And seven years after she was freed thanks to a cooperative effort by UC Berkeley police officers, state parole officers and Concord police who all helped unravel her true identity, she still voiced exasperation with why she was not found sooner. She received a $20 million state settlement for parole agents' repeated failures to find her at the Garrido home, and monitoring policies have been revamped from the ground up as a result of her experience.

"He wore a GPS tracker. You could clearly see him going into the backyard," she said. "What's the point of a GPS tracking system if you don't follow up?"

But throughout the TV special she continues to circle back to moving forward and being strong for her daughters. As the program comes to a close, she checks another life goal off her list - operating a sailboat - and as she works the rigs of a vessel that appears to be launching from San Francisco Bay, Florence and the Machine's "Shake It Out" plays in the background.

Dugard puts her own spin on the lyrics as she talks about how she has shed much of the anger she could justifiably have.

"I've let it all out," she said. "You can't keep that stuff inside."

Contact Robert Salonga at 408-920-5002. Follow him at Twitter.com/robertsalonga.

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