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I am sitting here thinking about my birthday, wondering what i should actually do considering it's my sixteenth but we are in lockdown. I'm also wondering when i will actually grow. The playstation is

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I really do not want to write at all its like the last thing I want to do. I was wondering if I should just watch Naruto or something or play fifa but its towards my gcse so there not much I can do. I know im already failing science and Spanish because I never turn up to those lessons, but now I must write something like five hundred and fifty words to do. I am just going write this for a bit. This this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this. So now that has taken up about twenty words and ill make sure make each sentence as long as possible so that I do not have to think as much. You see what I did there. I wrote so that I don’t have to think as much even though I didn’t have to put it. And I just did it again. If I was Jk Rowling and I wrote this then I would be getting fifty million pounds because it would be creative or something like that but to be honest at this point im literally just waffling so that I can reach five hundred and fifty words. Like to be honest is there a point to being that specific im literally writing complete bullshit im not joking and I really don’t care but im not in a mood this is how I write when I am waffling. To be honest I was late to a lesson because I was watching Naruto and this fight has been going on for more than three episodes and I have already had an email sent home for not attending lessons, but I can’t believe a fight has taking more than three episodes. I Have less than two hundred words and then I can go but I must do an hour of revision after school but ill just watch some Naruto, I guess. Im the king of waffle I have or I will write five hundred and fifty words of waffle, you can’t lie that’s pretty impressive though. Also if it want for Word correction thing where is corrects punctuations and spelling and stuff this would be a big mess. The next one hundred words or whatever are going to be so long but there is actually no point in stopping now because this is part of my hour revision after school. This just waffling in a word document and watching Naruto. Can I really be asked to do hegarty maths or should I just waffle for another ten minutes, I think there is an obvious answer to that one. I have got like twenty two words left but its going to feel like the same length the pandemic has been going on for which is kinda peak so yeah I don’t really no what to say apart from I thought I was done but it turns out I have fifty more words to do. For this last it I have no idea what to write at all so ill just write the. The the the the the the the the the the the the the the  thanks for reading this thing 

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I really do not want to write at all its like the last thing I want to do. I was wondering if I should just watch Naruto or something or play fifa but its towards my gcse so there not much I can do. I know im already failing science and Spanish because I never turn up to those lessons, but now I must write something like five hundred and fifty words to do. I am just going write this for a bit. This this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this this. So now that has taken up about twenty words and ill make sure make each sentence as long as possible so that I do not have to think as much. You see what I did there. I wrote so that I don’t have to think as much even though I didn’t have to put it. And I just did it again. If I was Jk Rowling and I wrote this then I would be getting fifty million pounds because it would be creative or something like that but to be honest at this point im literally just waffling so that I can reach five hundred and fifty words. Like to be honest is there a point to being that specific im literally writing complete bullshit im not joking and I really don’t care but im not in a mood this is how I write when I am waffling. To be honest I was late to a lesson because I was watching Naruto and this fight has been going on for more than three episodes and I have already had an email sent home for not attending lessons, but I can’t believe a fight has taking more than three episodes. I Have less than two hundred words and then I can go but I must do an hour of revision after school but ill just watch some Naruto, I guess. Im the king of waffle I have or I will write five hundred and fifty words of waffle, you can’t lie that’s pretty impressive though. Also if it want for Word correction thing where is corrects punctuations and spelling and stuff this would be a big mess. The next one hundred words or whatever are going to be so long but there is actually no point in stopping now because this is part of my hour revision after school. This just waffling in a word document and watching Naruto. Can I really be asked to do hegarty maths or should I just waffle for another ten minutes, I think there is an obvious answer to that one. I have got like twenty two words left but its going to feel like the same length the pandemic has been going on for which is kinda peak so yeah I don’t really no what to say apart from I thought I was done but it turns out I have fifty more words to do. For this last it I have no idea what to write at all so ill just write the. The the the the the the the the the the the the the the  thanks for reading this thing 

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I made a bunch of clothes that people adore and always say oh I'd buy that yadayadaya but for some perplexing reason I loathe what I make.
The nostalgic feeling of satisfaction and excitement I used to get from finally finishing something I worked so conscientiously on is now a heavy feeling imperfection and annoyance towards something that I see as a failure.

I can't focus on work at all I try to but everything seems to go blurry and I have to start doing something sitting down at a desk for hours on end plus even more time after that because for pathetically trivial things such as homework and college applications just isn't right and when we complain we're told to deal with it.

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i stare in a trance at the wreck of my bedroom wall. its bright, and colourful, has graffiti, drawing, paintings, signatures from friends. it holds my emotions and and my weaknesses, and hold more than a thousand memories. doest mean i like it though. ive been drawing on my walls for a little over a year now, and me being the indisicive individual i am, im bored of it already and have now decided i want to go for a more bohemeiam room intirior; you know, the kind with an essesive amouts of ikea plants and oak wood? im still not sure thhough... part of me really wants a mamma mia themed bedroom. the teal brue walls and a perpetual feeling of being on holiday on the coast of greece, then i peer out my window and hit with the memoriy that im acctually just in the s***hole of south london.
yikes, ive been staring for far too long. i actually have to do english work now. the thing is with english, i love the subject, i love my teacher, i just absolutly detest dr jeckyl and mr hyde.

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same thing different day. Once again we are doing one of these "describe your surroundings" tasks as an intermission before we do our Jekyll and Hyde essay tomorrow and I'm probably gonna mess up anyways and get like a level 5 and sir will somehow make it sound like it was a 7. Looking at everyone else's work I feel insignificant but only because I haven't done anywhere near the amount of work anyone else has done and seeing Mr. Hutchinson's work underneath me just rubs salt into the wound

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I can see the guy across the street unlocking his front door....

That was a few minutes ago now. I was thrown off course by Zena and Kai not having a laptop. What's the point of digital education if you can't access what you need to access?

There are still patches of snow on the street in the areas of shade. A lot of it on the roofs of cars and on the footpath. I guess it'll be gone by this time tomorrow. Easy come, easy go.

That's really the problem with minor London snowfalls. As soon as it starts you get the sinking sadness that it's not going to hang around, and then it's just an exercise in waiting for it to end and feeling bummed about it...

I read a quote yesterday -- or maybe it was just a Youtube comment. Doesn't matter. But it said something like, 'If you can't live in the present then there's no point planning for the future because you'll never see it.' And that sounds good -- it like the idea. But it also doesn't really go into the whole living in the present thing. People say that all the time, but it lacks meaning. Does it just mean constantly wandering around saying 'I'm alive right now, this is the present, this is my life?' If so, that kind of sucks.

To be fair, I don't think anyone lives in the present. Not really. We're just adrift, lost in the washing machine of our own minds, constantly changing topic and sifting attention and forgetting what we were meant to be doing, toggling from one app to another and then checking the fridge to see if anything's changed in the last five minutes...

I've read Filippo's little piece. Perfect example of what I just wrote.I imagine him sitting in his room and getting fraud calls about his NIN being compromised. Who knows, maybe it has been. Maybe right now someone is in the process of trying to steal his identity. The question is, what do they want with it? Are they going to apply for credit cards in his name, max them out and leave him to deal with the debt collectors?

Kulala's had her paragraph deleted. Bummer. Padlet's a bit glitchy sometimes. It was a shame too -- she has a nice description of 'unsolicited sunlight'.

Harley seems stuck. He's got two sentences about the repetitive nature of the task and, it seems, of life in general. Maybe it's the COVID blues,  the sense that one day might as well be another in the long march toward eternity. Seems to be a theme among the entries today.

Maybe everyone should sack off their next lesson and go for a long walk? That's what I would do if I'd spent all morning at the computer and the day outside was as crisp and glorious as this one.  So what if you miss some pointless chemistry lesson. Go and find some of the last of the snow. Go take some photos of the light hitting the buildings. Have a skate or something.

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Yet again, nothing special is happening today. I'm writing to try and hide the fact that all the days are blending into each other and I have no idea what is going on.

It was like this even before quarantine, but now I'm in confinement it's gotten that little bit more suffocating; Not to mention that at the end of all of this, I think I'm going to have to become an involuntary binman.

Laziness wasn't always something I constantly had to deal with. It seems so long ago now though, putting no effort into anything has become a part of my personality. Which is really, really, sad. I don't know how or when, but some point along the way I lost my 'drive' for things and now I'm the equivalent of, well I can't even think of anything smart or funny to compare myself to.

It's like George said in his 600 words, no matter how bad everything gets the least you can do is log on. Well, until doing the 'least' becomes your favourite option, and sometimes even logging on becomes a once in a while commitment.

English is easier than other subjects, at least to my own judgment. I like writing stories and analyzing other people's work is kind of interesting because you get to learn from them and understand why they wrote something the way they wrote it.
Sometimes I even find myself climbing out of my sluggish routine when I try to write something worth reading, which isn't the worst thing.

A while ago, we had to say a speech in front of the class and of course, I was ill-prepared despite having all of lunchtime to do it. I talked about the first thing that came to mind, which was that some adults are kids and some kids are adults. This is actually common knowledge so I don't know why I bothered talking about it at all. I think from now on I'll try to do some much needed  'growing up' of my own.

If I can even figure out how.

349 words ^

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I am currently sitting here starring at my wall whilst listening to music because I don’t know what to write about. However, whilst I am looking at the wall I noticed a microscopic hole and I am wondering what if there is a spider inside.

Anyway, my thoughts have changed to how I really don’t want to go to my next lessons because sitting in one place for the whole day is very not exciting and extremely boring to do because at least at school I could walk to my next lesson and see different face and have different conversations and actually socialise.

However, I have now switched my music on again because the silence was a bit boring. I just refreshed the padlet and skimmed through what people had written and I really realised how substandard my vocabulary is, so I should probably read more to extend it although, I just find reading so tiring and uneventful sometimes compared to actually watching the film version of something.

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I have no clue what to write but it's fine, because this is our task to speak our mind for Mr Hutchinson. I really dont know what to write, i just want to go back to school i dont like these online lessons, and for the third time today a spam number has called me and said that my national insurance number has been compromised for fraud in Wales and they are calling again as i type. Really and truly i should be turning my phone off during my lessons but its like an addiction that most have unfortunately.

I've just updated the padlet to see how i was doing compared to my peers and wow how do you guys type so much like where do the ideas come from honestly.

I've also realised that i get distracted really easily, for example i just took a bite of my lunch with the idea of continuing on with my writing straight after and bang somehow im on tiktok scrolling my time away.

Overall life is repetitive at the moment i wake up do some sort of work during the "school day" and then play some ps4 go to bed late just to end up waking up early and its just not good i dont know how i do it. I've also realised that i really forget to put an apostrophe between the n and the t in "don't".

thanks sir.

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I get this brusque unsolicited sunlight as its vivid hue coered its way in.
i try to ensnare the sunlight by looming my shadow so that the sunlight wouldnt reflect onto my laptop screen. i turn around where the light hits my eyes and rainbow disks that looked like drangonfy wings appear one by one, leaving no heavy attendance. A row of multifarious plantpots are placed with jocund sentiment on the window pane. Dust appear from affar and up close as i am admist the tryndall effect from the 1pm sun.
The sun doesnt have a particullar form or maybe i wasnt looking hard enough as i do value my eyesight, but it had some sought of presence, that at this exact time, it made 1pm kind of... nice
i divided my time between typing and looking around my surroundings

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As I squint through the blinds of my double glazed window, I can see the array of Sun glistening over the little bits of snow which caresses before the ground. The baby blue sky is just simply beautiful and peaceful as it stands before the atmosphere. The pure white tone of the snow glimmers above the mellow green grass. It’s eerily quiet as if to say there’s no sign of human life. Just the captivating nature and the colossal Trees with no leaves that towers over the cars. All seems still indoors, compared to the bustling wildlife and swaying branches that oscillates in harmony with the majestic wind.

I take a bite of my mouthwatering angel cake and it fills me up with joy. The sweetness and texture of it makes it even more tastier to the palate. As the repetitious day goes on I check the time and see it strike 12 past 1PM. Still two more periods to go until I can finally say goodbye to school before the next day awaits me. I peak through the window again and can now see a guy strolling with his 3 plastic carrier bags from Sainsbury’s. I wonder what delicious delights of food and drinks are in there.

Ahead of the many more words to come, I glance at my other classmates work to see how well I’m doing in quantity compared to mine. I don’t want to fall behind that’s for sure. Furthermore I need to get cracking and continue to write about what is going on around me.

Surprisingly there’s a relatively small flock of seagulls which I’m astonished to have flown this far from where they are normally seen at the beach by the sea. The enthral surroundings of the sky has probably deceived them in coming this far from there normal habitation and livelihood.

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What a colorful blue sky it is. Such a shame I'm not going out today. My head hurts and I feel violently ill. However I did have a good weekend, and one i'll remember for a very long time. Oh there's no point in pretending that everything's shipshape. I'm slowly lessening my days and my mind is becoming more and more, and more and more corrupted. I don't want to over dramatize the situation i'm in, nevertheless, I think I deserve a tad bit of slack. As a whole year has gone by of myself, and millions over others, being stuck in a lucid nightmare. Maybe I should get some neon lights in my room, they look quite horrorshow. I have a quick glimpse of Microsoft teams to check if my mic is on, just to see if anyone has been listening to me talking to myself. I grow weary of this task you've set us sir. It just seems as if you, and the rest of the teachers, are trying to work us to death. I'm unfortunately starting to miss school. Which is something I hate to say. For some peculiar reason, the entire time i'm there, I just want to be at home. However now, that I've been stuck at home for so long, I want nothing but to go back. Furthermore, the comments you made about me not capitalizing my I's a while back, keeps lurking back on me. And you've successfully made me overlook my essay multiple times to check. Well done, you can now officially call yourself a teacher.

I want a biscuit, but I know if I have one, i'll just feel more ill. To be completely honest, i'm surprised i'm not less tired these days. I tend to wake up around 8: something. And yet i'm still annoyed at how I have to wake up so early. Despite the fact I used to wake up around 7: something. I know it's the least I can do to get a good grade in my GCSE's. In spite of that I still don't feel the effort to log on to my computer. Also what's the deal with the teachers making us do so much work. My drama lessons got twice as hard online.

I always wonder how the first ever people on this planet did anything. There was no language so they couldn't speak to each other. Where they born a baby or already adult? Now to see if I've done 600 words. No.

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Recently, I've been in a rather lower mood. When I say low, I mean lower than usual, so not typical, humorous Jamie, just sort of passively living life to put it simply. Life has been extremely boring in the current period of time. My mood was up in December because things were going well, swimmingly some may say. I was in school, interacting with my peers, receiving some of the best grades I've ever got and feeling confident with my work. This may seem only a little better than average, however prior to that, I went through a stage where I was doing a lot of overthinking, watching way too much TikTok and not really doing anything with my life so the late November - early December was a very reassuring period which built on my self confidence and mental state. Since then, the government of the local area has enforced the rules that were implied in my overthinking stage, which may I add is a little too personal for sharing, however I don't believe anyone who says they haven't just gone through the same thing.

I was confident I could cope a lot better this time round, which I have done so far but things in the last week or so have started to go against me. One main factor influencing my happiness of November was the opening of the Australian cricket season, as well as the reboot of my local football team Dulwich Hamlet FC. Even though I couldn't play sports, I had all the viewing in the world to fall back on in the likes of the Sheffield shield and the big bash league, 2 major cricketing competitions in Australia, and also the national league south, the 6th division of English football which is the league of Dulwich Hamlet. Perfecto. Soon after, the main Australian men's test team face India in a 4 test series. I had waited 11 months too long for that game so I had high expectations, alongside all the hype around the big matchup between the 2 rivals. Additionally, Christmas was so close, I could almost touch it. Typically though, it all comes crashing down.

Everyone was ecstatic about the festive season. We would be able to meet up with friends and family for the first time in months, but then Boris throws that out of the door. This was extremely hurtful for everyone but it hurt me especially for 2 reasons. Firstly, I had just had the best Christmas I could ever ask for in 2019. It was beyond perfect. I spent a good 3 weeks with my cousins, my aunts and uncles, my nana and masses of family friends in Australia. I get emotional thinking and reminiscing about it. To then be thrown into possibly the worst Christmas of my life, straight after the best one, that was difficult to take in, especially knowing that they don't have any restrictions of any kind. Secondly, I don't have any family in England, not even exaggerating. I have 2 very little cousins in Gloucester and a few others there, but that's it. To make up for all this commotion, everyone would spend the whole of Christmas day talking to family on Zoom calls, taking up the whole day, making it quite a lonely day for me and my family as a whole. Additionally, my high expectations of the Australia vs. India series were not even close to met. I'm not 100% sure what might have caused this but neither team played consistently well throughout any stage of the 4 games. Later on, I come find out Australia lose the series, a series that they were expected to win. This was 2 weeks and I'd reached the trough of my mood graph. I'd matched lockdown 1.

This, however was 2 weeks ago. Recently, I've been noticing that it quite literally anything can lift my mood considering it doesn't really get more dull than it already is. For example, things were beginning to go my way in FIFA in various ways for the first time ever, which was handy. Plus, the team I follow in the Big Bash League, the limited over tournament I mentioned early, are exceeding expectations and flying up the ladder, doing much better than last year.

This now takes us to the present. I hope this good news flows and doesn't stop because if I'm honest, I'm in the mood for some more.