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Erik Erikson's first stage of development is very important in the early ages of a child. A child must have trust in others in order to understand the world and to survive. If a child has trust in their mother/father or others, then they can feel safe and cared for. When I was a child I was deeply afraid of sleepovers even at family residents. I would get scared in the middle of the night away from home from my mother. In order for me to trust the person I was with, I would have to fall asleep first so I wasn't awake at night alone. My grandmother would stay awake with me and she wouldn't go to her bedroom without me falling asleep first. This made me trust my grandmother so much she was the only person I felt comfortable and safe to stay with overnight. In the book Child written by Gabriela Martorell Page 141 she writes, "Sensitive, responsive, consistent caregiving is the key to successful resolution of this conflict." My experience with my issue with trust was resolved by my grandmother. This gave me trust within her and her household. I was no longer scared of sleeping over and being alone. She gave me trust that I was safe and in a great environment.

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Some people would use the term "terrible twos" to say the least. Erikson's second stage is not only important for the child but also necessary for the parent. This stage allows the child to be more independent and more in control of their emotions and well-being. When I had to brush my teeth at a young age I disliked doing it as a toddler. I was a child who wanted to stay outside at all hours then when it was time I wanted to just go to bed, so my mother would force me to brush them and she would do it for me since I refused. When I was around 4 I learned to do things more on my own. I would want to brush my teeth and I would want to do it all by myself. I would throw a fit if my mom tried helping me because I wanted to be a big kid and do it independently. Gabriela Martorell states on page 135, "As children are better able to make their wishes understood, they become more powerful and independent." I believe I myself proved to show autonomy instead of shame. I wanted to be independent and I wanted to do things on my own with no one helping me. This made me a very independent adult. I live on my own now and take care of myself very well.

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Children learn new things everyday. Most children want to try new things that they know can be fun and helpful or scary and bad. When a child tries new things they do not know what the outcome can or will be. Some children will knock another child's tower of blocks over to see what it does, but the child who built the tower can then become very upset and angry. When I was a child I wanted to hang around my older sibling and older cousins. I did not know much about anything given I was younger than them all. When the older boys would do something silly or bad I would join in to try it out. When the older boys took my youngest cousins toys and hid them I hid some too to help them. When my cousin couldn't find them she got very upset and wouldn't leave her room for hours. We all go in trouble but I didn't know why because I was doing what others were doing, so I thought it was a normal fun game. I never apologized because In my mind I didn't hurt or intentionally hurt her. On page 174 Gabriela states, "Children who learn how to regulate these opposing drives to develop the virtue of purpose, the courage to envision and pursue goals without being unduly inhibited by guilt or fear of punishment." This was the quote that made it make sense to me. I never felt bad about what I did at a young age, but I did feel guilty after the moment happened. I never feared punishment because I didn't deserve it in my opinion. I never took initiative with what I participated in.

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Industry is being able to work hard to achieve your goals and be a better individual. Inferiority is opposite. Being inferior is allowing yourself to fall short. Being low in self-esteem and self-image could take a toll on your future. You have to be willing to work with others in order to succeed. In early childhood I was someone who had and still continues to have a variety of friends from all ages, races, cultural backgrounds, differences, etc. My biggest positive attribute would be not having a set group of friends. was friends with everyone I came in contact with. I never secluded someone or myself. Every person I interacted with was my friend. Poor or rich, popular or unpopular, white or other ethnic race, old, or young I was always involving myself with others and vise versa. I had a 6th grade class on mixed races. I remember one day groups were formed for a project and most of the young white girls decided to choose each other and leave out the african american students. I took it as an opportunity to meet new friends and to see their views on what they know or may not know. I had my whole group at my table. All african american and me myself white. "If the stage is successfully resolved, children develop a view of themselves as being able to master skills and complete tasks." This was on page 220 written by Gabriela. I resolved this early on in life. I industrialized myself with life goals and achievements. I could not be where I am at today without the help and support from others around me. I would never label myself as inferior. I think there is success in numbers rather than alone.

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Identity is being aware of yourself and where you stand in the world. Role confusion is not knowing who you are or why you belong here. Not knowing where you stand in society can affect you from growing and pursuing goals. Knowing your identity is important to be successful. Identity is not only about what gender you are or who your family is, but it can also be about sexual aspects with yourself. It can be where you should work, what hobby you enjoy, what friend group is for you, etc. When I was young I would only hangout with my guy family members. I am one of three girls in a family of 15 plus boys. I would dress as them and play with them. I knew I was a girl, but I wanted to be more like them and interesting like them. I played in mud, I played football, fishing, wrestling, etc. I wore boy clothes and at one point around age 5 I tried peeing standing up like them. Gabriela Martorell says on page 264, "The effort to make sense of the self is part of a healthy process that builds on the achievements of earlier stages - on trust, autonomy, initiative, and industry - and lays the groundwork for coping with the challenges of adult life." My issue was resolved because I knew I was not a boy nor was I going to grow up to be a boy or grown man. I wanted to be a woman. I realized I was having an identity crisis. But it wasn't about my gender or hormones. I was just wearing boy clothes and feeling more comfortable in them since I was overweight for a girl. Dressing and being a tomboy is not a bad thing. I was finding my true self and learning where I stood in society as an overweight young girl who didn't look like others.

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Intimacy is not meant to be focused on the sexual aspects but rather the relationship aspect. Sibling intimacy is shown to be very high with same sex sister siblings rather than brother to brother sibling relationship or mixed sex. I have a brother and I am a girl so I would not know what this topic intentionally means. I was always and still am very close with my brother, but I was isolated from a lot. I was able to hangout with my brother but there were many times where he was able to do something and I was not so it caused a lot of anger and sadness. I was always isolating myself from others when I wasn't able to do the same things my older brother was allowed to. I did not ever find intimate peers to spend my time with. My brother spends everyday with his friends like he always has since grade school. I am opposite. I stay inside with family or alone in my room at all hours of the day and night. On page 229 Gabriela states, "Within the context of peer groups, children develop skills needed for sociability and intimacy, and they gain a sense of belonging." This is highly accurate to me. I know how to work with others and be involved with peers, but I do not like being around many people the older I get. I would rather stay isolated than intimate. But resolving this issue for me as a child was finding friends with similar interests. I would hangout with girls who played on my basketball team rather than a girl who was in my class. I felt more comfortable with girls I knew and enjoyed than girls who waved in the hallway. The more I was with my friends the more mature I was becoming. I understood social standards from being around others.

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Generativity is feeling the need to help others. This allows people to help younger children or anyone who is younger. This helping hand ensures the likelihood that when you as an older person go away, then the child can learn what you taught them in order to grow, survive, or thrive. Stagnation is not being able to thrive. It feels like you are frozen in life not knowing anything about anything. As an adult now, I help younger kids. I teach preschool so I want to show children how to survive and thrive. When I was younger My parents and grandparents taught me everything I needed to know about gardening. Gardening was a way of earning and providing food for myself and others if needed. I can garden my food now today to ensure a healthy safe eating lifestyle. I thought for a little that I had no purpose in life with not being able to control what the future holds, but I resolved my issue by learning new things from adults. I learned to garden and provide myself food. I learned from my father how to start campfires and chop food. I learned how to survive through the adults around me. I was stangate for a little while, but I overcame that feeling by taking charge and taking notes.

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The last stage of Erik Erikson's theory. This is the end. This stage is for ages 65 and up. This is where after all the trials have happened to someone. Looking back on life and understanding what you've been through. Did you enjoy life, did you succeed, did you have a great experience with others and yourself, etc. If you have any despair then you will not necessarily be happy with the ending of your time. Having integrity means you accept the good and bad. Being in despair means you regret everything and cannot go back because it is too late. With myself at age 21 I can safely say so far I have integrity with myself and my life. I asked my grandma who is 70 if she has any regrets and she says she does. She regrets a lot in life and she wishes she can go back, but she also says she has accepted herself and where all the decisions led her. In the book Gabriela states, "Did the individual lead a satisfying life?" My grandmother says she had a satisfying life and she would do it all over again. She may have regrets but she resolved the feeling of despair by looking back on all the achievements and the goals she accomplished.