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I´m obsess with love. With all the different types of love. I have so much doubts about this feeling, I´m curious about it. How it works on my mind? How it works in my body? it´s a matter of mind and physiology; ethics and moral; passion and beauty; everything works in base of love.

From love came this idea, this project. And this comes like this:

In 2019, I was thinking a lot about the meaning of love, because YES, I felt in love with a Basque guy. He comes to worked to Colombia at the end of December, and we meet in the beginnings of January, I rented a room at my apartment to him. After a while that we had been sharing as friends the feeling changed and we started “dating” and everything else. The year pass through so fast, I got addicted to the feeling. Aitor, thought me a lot about myself and about communication. I was surprised about this new kind of relationship we shared. He tried to find a job but he did not find, and I think he was also wanting more of the world, he is another curious person with an amazing heart, and a clear mind about what he wants and how he wanted. So, he left Colombia in December back to Vitoria-Gasteiz, his home town. My heart, clearly, was broken and the illusion to travel to Spain was pretty clear in my heart, but not too much in my mind.
I used to have an apartment, a huge apartment, I used to rent two of the 4 rooms that the apartment had, but I was tired of that and leave the apartment. I went to live alone in another place to concentrate just on me and my goal. And then the universe complotted at my favor and sent us the famous COVID-19. Just on time for me, I was wishing loneliness and I got quarantine, thanks universe!
In January I decide to come back to the university, to resume Biology classes in order to graduate, since the last class I must took to graduate from biology was until the next semester, I got the option to finished the complementary career in Pottery, so I decide to do that, since what I the idea that I was super clear about was that the master must be in arts.

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A beautiful work my best friend Lorena made to me. She was hugging me when I was broken, crying in her arms. This was the first time she saw me like that. 

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La enamorada

Ante la lúgubre manía de vivir
esta recóndita humorada de vivir
te arrastra Alejandra no lo niegues.

hoy te miraste en el espejo
y te fuiste triste estabas sola
y la luz rugía el aire cantaba
pero tu amado no volvió

enviarás mensajes sonreirás
tremolarás tus manos así volverá
tu amado tan amado

oyes la demente sirena que lo robó
el barco con barbas de espuma
donde murieron las risas
recuerdas el último abrazo
oh nada de angustias
ríe en el pañuelo llora a carcajadas
pero cierra las puertas de tu rostro
para que no digan luego
que aquella mujer enamorada fuiste tú

te remuerden los días
te culpan las noches
te duele la vida tanto tanto
desesperada ¿adónde vas?
desesperada ¡nada más!

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During the year I had the opportunity, because COVID-19 times change everything, to saw some classes they do not gave in a normal semester for pottery, lucky me!!! So, I saw this amazing installation class with the Edgar Guzmán-Ruiz and another class of sculpture, called Object and Context, with Juan Fernando Herrán. My mind got trapped by the infinity forms and paths to create and be creative and everything changed. My new love changes its form, instead of been a romantic love it becomes love for create. I fall deeply in love of installations and sculpture, and chemistry and physics and biology, again. I remembered pretty well the feeling to see and touch and share with others, your work. The idea ripped from the head and created in the real world. That feeling is what I got in love with. The day I finished my installation, I cried. I think all this feeling just emerge in tears. When I saw my little ocean hanging from the sealing and working perfectly with the mechanism and the object of wood I create with my hands. ufff a new addiction born inside me. I called my mother and told her that at that specific moment I was super happy and that I was feeling something new, something I had not felt never and I just wanted to let her now that I was deeply in love with the idea of create. That year I worked so much on myself, on my mind, on my expectations of life, on what I was really wanting of what I was learning that the romantic love that was pushing me to study in Spain melted from my brain. As I already told you, everything changes that day.

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Since I thought I had to focus only on my studies in order to find a master degree outside of Colombia I focused on Ceramics, I started to worked really hard to achieved my purpouse. My first career is Biology, but to be honest, my love lies in pottery. My interests in arts started when I was 10 years old when my mother put me in a drawing class. I remembered my teacher was really good, she studied at Universidad del Valle, but she got sick with some sickness that makes her body change, she used to had a hump. I have a clear image of her amazing pencil drawings. Anyway, when I started studied at university, in the first day of induction, the program gave us the possibility to do the double career and also to schedule classes from different departments. With this in my mind I started takings art classes every semester, with the excuse that I had to attend them in order to not got crazy with so much scientific square academy. I felt sciences where amazing because allows me understand the world that sourrounds me. I though that with science I was getting outside the matrix of the society by undestanding the biology by the interaction of the chemestry process and the physiological ones. This processes will never stop amazing me. By the other hand, arts makes me feel  this outside the reallity, arts makes is the best tool to leave the presence, I will write about this feeling later. Arts makes me feel free. This was the reason I started to assist to every art class who call my attention, I saw for example History of Arts, super amazing class, but I don´t think my teacher liked so much, since all my essays, except the first one that was about this amazing work of Richard Estes and my favorite paint call "Broadway bus in Liberty street" that is in the Museum of Banco de la Republica, but the others were about street art and were pretty political, I guess it wasn´t very appropiated but well shit happens. I also assisted to photography classes, scientific illustration classes with the amazing Carolina Franco (she´s such an amazing person) and finally I got with ceramics. When I realized we can pull together art and science, that I can apply the chemestry and physics I had learned, was such an amazing understanding, that I just felt in love and my hunger of ceramic knowledged was unleashed. I started to added every ceramic class I could attended, then the thing got more serious because I hat do ask for permisson to add some clases, directly with the Art deparment, so inmediatelly I started to talked to the teachers and requested them a permission to assit to their classes. Finally I got enrolled in the Human figure ceramic class, this class blow my mind. I have my differences with society because I think that since we are so outside of our animal feeling and our savage nature, seening everything by the antropocentric position, we have had lost empathy with the rest of the living things, this rupture generates a great gap between the cultural and the biological (is a complex idea, if you want to know more about this, check out the Biosemitcs padlet).

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Byung-Chul Han (2014) - La agonía del eros

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Maestrias de Grado de Artes de la Universidad Nacional, 2021.
Casa Museo Jorge Eliecer Gaitán.
I went to this master degree exposition and it was all about installations. Just to let you know, I love installations I love to be part of a work of art, because I´m art! hahaha just kidding...(some said shes like me, sassy like me https://www.youtube.com/shorts/2e7PdgMNABM)

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process with my girls