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One of the crosses I have been dealing with for the past years is being between family and relative that are fighting. I do not know where to stand anymore, I wanted to cut ties with my relatives but my mom said just let it be, I can't stand how my relatives call and say words about my my parents. This affected me so much emotionally and I was not able to focus on acads. I have been praying for the peace that was once in our family. I pray that everyone will have a chance to talk and to be heard with respect love and understanding. I also pray for God's guidance to help me with decision making as do not disrespect anyone and promote an understands and loving space for my family and relatives

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One of the crosses I have been carrying for my whole life is that I do not and cannot experience to be in a complete family. Throughout my life, my grandparents were the ones that stood beside me through thick and thin. however, the 'what if' of having a father who will teach you how to do basic home repairs or mother who is there when you cooked your firstt egg. Therefore, I offer everything to God that this is all according to his plan. I survive and will continue to live amidst these hindrance. I pray that I can get the closure (peace of mind) that I deserved from 22 years of existence. All Glory and praise to you O Lord.

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One of the crosses I have been dealing with right now is learning to adjust to going to school everyday aside from learning to deal with my aging parents. My parents are in their 60s and it gets more and more difficult to manage them while also dealing with my own things as well. I have been praying for God to guide us as we try to strengthen our relationship over the next coming years.

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One of the crosses I have been carrying is the feeling of fear and anxiety of the future. I know it is unhealthy but a lot of the times, even today, I often overthink and compare myself to the achievements of my peers. I try to tell myself that it is okay to be in different paces in life but a part of me in the back of my head keeps telling me I am inadequate. Through God I pray that I will be able to have the strength and courage to overcome this fear and develop a more positive mindset and outlook for myself.

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One of the crosses I've been carrying is the challenge of dealing with all the changes that come with growing up. In the past year, all of my siblings have moved out of our house, and it has been tough to adjust to the new setting. In addition to this, I'm also having a hard time confronting people from past painful experiences. I'm praying that God will provide me with humility, courage, and grace to overcome these challenges and help me choose the more loving option of gratitude for family and forgiveness.

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A cross of mine is feeling inadequate when it comes to my course of study and not feeling capable to pursue my true passions and dreams. I tend to think of the future with fear of regret rather than excitement or fulfillment.

I truly hope that through God I can better muster up the courage to overcome this fear and believe in myself more.

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One of the crosses I have been carrying for my whole life is my undiagnosed and deteriorating mental health. It has affected almost every aspect of my life and I know this will only continue spiraling downwards if I don't do anything about it.

I don't necessarily believe in a Lord, but I hope I'll be able to get the help that I need along with the people who are experiencing this situation as well.

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One of the crosses I face is that some members of my family are in argument, which affected the closeness of my family. We do not bond as much as we used to (which is something I got used to growing up). This is difficult for me at times because spending time with my whole family has been my safe and happy place. Now the family dynamic is quite different and you can feel the tension among everyone at times.

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The main cross I carry is the challenge to find myself amidst everything going on. I know that I still have time to do so but it feels so challenging to find who I am in my own words. I feel apprehensive towards the topic as I do not wish to commit to something that I may end up regretting in the end, but I also don't want to just float around in life and never concretely figure out what my goals are for myself. I hope that as time goes by, I figure out which aspects of my life bring me genuine joy and ultimately what my vocation is. Lord, please help me find your calling and grant me the strength and the gifts to do it well.

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In this season of my life, I find myself carrying several heavy crosses that I long to entrust to the loving hands of the Lord.

First, there's the persistent weight of impostor syndrome that plagues my academic journey, making me doubt my abilities. I yearn for the grace of emotional support to help me find confidence and self-assurance.

Being far from my family and my significant other adds to the burden, causing loneliness and deep, depressive moods. I pray for the strength to introspect and find solace in your presence.

My overwork, paradoxically, leads to underperformance, and I need the will to engage in self-care and an opportunity to rest and recharge.

Household stressors further compound these challenges. I long for the grace to get back on track, to regain productivity, and the commitment to pursue personal projects and self-improvement.

Lord, I lay these crosses before you, trusting in your guidance and grace to help me embrace and overcome them. Thank you for your unwavering love and support in my life.

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The cross I'm carrying now is the feeling of Imposter Syndrome. I'm overloaded and I feel burnt out and drained trying to catch up with all my subjects just so I can graduate this year. I'm a senior who took a LOA to spend time with my dad who is diagnosed with cancer. I feel lonely because most of my friends have graduated and I can't find the time to be with them. I also really miss my family and feel incredibly homesick everyday.

I pray that I can find my inner-peace. I ask God to give me that sense of belongingness and patience. I also thank God for the patience of my family and my strength that I've come this far.

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One of the heaviest crosses I carry right now is the fact that my failure to properly and successfully deal with my own mental health issues has created a rift between myself and my family over the last three years. Bad decisions that I made in regards to trying to figure out my own identity and resolve my issues make me worry that my own behavior has become sociopathic in nature.

I keep on failing and I don't know if I can even fix this anymore. Even if I improved somehow in the coming years I would never be able to erase the harm I did, and so I seek out the grace to accept that and see that I can in fact make things right.

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Recently, like one of my batchmates who also posted in this Padlet, I have been carrying the cross of physical, chronic tiredness and pain; but every time it seems to get to the point that I think I cannot handle it anymore, God always appears in the most unexpected ways.

I pray for the patience, strength, and grace that I, and those who also carry this cross, need to keep seeing and embracing God and goodness in our lives, even at our lowest. Praying for everyone :)

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One of the crosses I have been carrying in my life is my physical disability. Although God is good enough to grant me the physical strength and confidence to live a normal life, I still experience pain that I keep hidden from my loved ones and put on a smile to hide it. I place my trust in God to grant me relief from my chronic pain and to get past this.

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One of the crosses that I have been carrying in my life is the financial burden of my education to my parents. Although God is good enough to grant me scholarships, I still experience guilt over the financial strain I impose on my parents. I place my trust in God, hoping that this burden will ultimately prove to be worthwhile in the end and I can help improve my family's financial situation.

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One of the heaviest crosses I carry is getting sexually harassed in our own home from when I was 11 until just before I turned 17. I am 21 now but I’ve yet to concretely heal from that experience. I hope I gain the strength to finally grow past this.

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The past 2 years I’ve observed that both my parents and grandparents have been developing ailments and sicknesses that are consistent with their aging. I entrust this cross to the Lord in hopes to become more resilient and caring for them.

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One of my crosses was the passing of my Mom just this year. It's something I still carry on my back and I wish to have the strength to grieve and accept what has happened, and move forward always carrying my mother in my heart.