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how to balance tasks better, so I may maintain a productive and pro-active lifestyle. It has always been an issue to me, especially if the tasks just keep piling up. I look forward to ending this probably by- I'm not sure yet.

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me still trying general even if many complex factors still try to drag me down. I do not wish to say that persevering or optimistic are apt descriptions for this, but there must be a word for trying to succeed or at least accomplish even if it may take a while. I believe commitment may be close but not quite too.

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trying to wish the best for others, even people that still seem selfish. I do my best to assume that all people, even some politicians, are doing their best to the right thing even with iffy means. Right now, given this worldly context, it's hard to be this positive though.

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being blessed with all these chances, even if I didn't get them on my own merit. Somehow this was the path I was lead to, and I must do my best with all of it. It would be hard to express maximum effort given so many external factors, but I would still wish to attempt in give more than my all either way.

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connecting to people, from doing the initiative to socialize or to not screw up conversations. I also wish to be more cultured to reach out to more people and engage in better conversations instead of boring people or being shallow mostly. There are those where I can't get back from, but I could make new relationships with new friends with these skills.

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my talents, like for music and the like, to not make them wilter or get worse. I want to go beyond mere mediocrity and widen my experience/expertise because it's better than staying the same for a few years or to do nothing. Using music, perhaps I can do better in life with the thing I'm most familiar with.

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in excelling, not only in having effort. Sometimes, effort doesn't prevail all the time, so I wish to be successful more rather than fail in tasks and missions. To get there, I wish to learn how to work right with integrity too, instead of compromising with immorality or putting extra work on the wrong priorities.

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learning how to prioritize, in order to not lose focus on what's more important when I need to organize. I ought to know what should I do first and do last, to manage and juggle things to do quicker. With this, I can also accomplish all the other "I wish to improve" portions.

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Passing the ASHAPE and SHS applications was a nerve wrecking experience to me, because, unlike my application to JHS, I had more credit to give to myself this time around. I was obligated to be more independent, with using minimal help, and the results being positive boosted a lot for me. The entire day, I kept trembling until the results came, all for this and the emotions felt are worth feeling again.

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Having a 40/80 in my first term Math exam on grade 8 was a horrible time to face. All the effort in reviewing a subject I'm already bad at is already wasted, and I ended up just crying for an hour I guess. Failure motivates people to push forward, if no one else pushes you down, so I kept my feelings to myself and tried to improve withiyt having enemies.

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The retreat in grade 10 was always the number one event to look forward to last year, and it was all worth joining from start to finish. Not only was the timing of having it after the third term exams great as a year-ender, but there were a lot I got to learn about my previous class and my friends, relationships got to be improved, and it was peaceful in a time of much chaos.

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My mom has been a pillar of support to me, even if we may fight a lot. She still tries to prevail, be independent, and more when things still get harder and harder over time. I'm really grateful for her, for her love, perseverance, and care.

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Th first time I got to hang out with my friends outside of school was during grade 9, before the first term exams at that time. We expected as four people had it not much planned, and one turns out couldn't go, but it was still a great time- being with friends; wandering around UPTC. Being chill in a tense environment is something rather rare, really.

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My sister is rather a different case, since she irritates me constantly. She's a real challenge that never ends, and I never stopped thinking whether life would be easier or not if it weren't for her bugging me with disturbances, not doing her homework, et cetera.

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My friends were always reaching out for me, even in cases when I didn't expect them to do so. Even with whatever mess I am, some of them still stuck around. I'm glad for that fact, and I'm still trying to reciprocate their friendship, though that may be hard.

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My lolo mostly has been patient with me, being cheerful and calm too. He was still there to help around, acting like he still has all the energy and time in the world for everything. I love him for that, and I miss him already.

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A work in progress, eternally until I am to be laid to rest. I am expected to constantly evolve by one way or a another, regardless of pace. I will not be the same person I was yesterday, or from the last few hours. I am a subpar someone capable of improvement.