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"At the time I first realized I might be fictional, my weekdays were spent at a public-funded institution on the north side of Indianapolis called White River High School, where I was required to eat lunch at a particular time between 12:37pm and 1:14pm by forces so much larger than myself that i couldnt even begin to identify them."

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"For hours or days, the thoughts would leave me be, and I could remember something my mom told me once: Your now is not your forever."

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"Through the walls, I could see the whole kitchen suffused with gold light."

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"The Sidekick."

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"funded"

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"forces"

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"larger"

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"shouting"

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"rushing"

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"And as I sat beneath fluorescent cylinders spewing aggressively artificial light, I thought about how we all believed ourselves to be the hero of some personal epic, when in fact we were basically identiocal organiosms colonizing a vast and windowless room that smelled of Lysol and lard."

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"masticating"

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"disgusting"

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"yellow"

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"follow"

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"work"

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"hear"

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"convulsed"

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"host"

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"massive"

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"reminded"

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"thousand"

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"feel"

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"know"

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"shut up"

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"parasite"

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Splitting

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"You're a genius."

Pattern 2

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"...Eerie green coyotes with white eyes."

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"You sound surprised."

Pattern 3

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"I looked up at her."

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"'Ever since I was little, I've pressed my right thumbnail into the finger pad of my middle finger..."

Pattern 7

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"I mumbled in reply."

Pattern 4

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"I know, right?"

Pattern 4

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"Let's hang out today."

Pattern 4

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"...so I cover it up with a Band-Aid to try to prevent infection."

Pattern 4

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"She'd dye her hair."

Pattern 5

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"She was a math teacher."

Pattern 2

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"She shook out her hair..."

Pattern 5

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"I remembered being eleven and carrying a vague but constant fear."

Pattern 1

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"Daisy Ramirez won't break her promises..."

Pattern 5

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"Even I found myself annoying."

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“I wondered why I wanted him to kiss me, and how to know why you want to be with someone, how to disentangle the messy knots of wanting.”

Pattern #5

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"I was thinking about how part of your self can be in a place while at the same time the most important parts are in a different place, a place that can't be accessed via your senses."

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My stomach really hurt now, like it was twisting in on itself, like the trillions of bacteria within me were making room for a new species in town, the one that would rip me apart from the inside out.

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"And the thing is, when you lose someone, you realize you'll eventually lose everyone."

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"For hours or days, the thoughts would leave me be, and I could remember something my mom told me once: Your now is not your forever."

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"No."

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"Cool shirt."

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"Please."

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"Who?"

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"I split it with my friend; is that okay?"

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"She was as much a person as any other person; you're real, but not because of your body or because of your thoughts."

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"Davis started talking about the stars again -- as the night got darker, I could see more and more of them, faint and wobbly, just teetering on the edge of visibility-- and he was telling me about light pollution and how I could see the stars moving if I waited long enough, and how some Greek philosopher thought the stars were pinpricks in a cosmic shroud."

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"Love ya!"

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"She was as much a person as any other person; you're real, but not because of your body or because of your thoughts."

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"I mean, my father is many things-- but a jogger is not one of them."

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"He looked like a kid now--his watery brown eyes, the fear and fatigue in his face, like a kid waking up from a nightmare or something."

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"I knew how that felt--all my life, I'd been unable to think straight, unable to even finish having a thought because my thoughts came not in lines but in knotted loops curling in upon themselves, in sinking quicksand, in light swallowing wormholes."

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"A necklace is a gift."

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"Fifty thousand dollars is a gift."

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"He's all alone, too."

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"I can drive."

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"For hours or days, the thoughts would leave me be, and I could remember something my mom told me once: Your now is not your forever."

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"He was wearing his school polo shirt and khaki pants, holding a book at an angle to block the sun as he read."

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"For a moment, and only for a moment, I entertained the notion that Davis might've helped his father disappear."

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"Of course I’d long known that I was playing host to a massive collection of parasitic organisms, but I didn’t much like being reminded of it."

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"But I was beginning to learn that your life is a story told about you, not one that you tell."

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"I wiped my sweaty palms on my jeans, and I tried to control my breathing."

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"Admittedly, I have some anxiety problems, but I would argue it isn’t irrational to be concerned about the fact that you are a skin-encased bacterial colony."

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""At the cafeteria, where a shrinking slice of my consciousness still resided, Daisy was telling Mychal that his averaging project shouldn’t be about people named Mychal but about imprisoned men who’d later been exonerated."

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"She shook out her hair, with so red-they-were-pink highlights."

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"By cell count, humans are approximately 50 percent microbial, meaning that about half of the cells that make you up are not yours at all."

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"Russell Pickett, the controversial CEO and founder of Pickett Engineering, wasn't home when a search warrant was served by the Indianapolis police Friday morning, and he hasn't been home since."

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“I wondered why I wanted him to kiss me, and how to know why you want to be with someone, how to disentangle the messy knots of wanting.”

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"I opened it."

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"It could survive months outside a body, waiting for a new host."

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"Sometimes it happens because you ingest someone else's C. diff, which is slightly different from your own, and it starts mixing with yours, and boom."

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"A spasm of nausea lurched through me, and I vomited, the pain in my ribs blinding, as Mom grabbed me by the arm."

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"He looked like a kid now"

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"It could survive months outside a body, waiting for a new host."

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"I swiped right, watching us all get younger.

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"A spasm of nausea lurched through me, and I vomited, the pain in my ribs blinding, as Mom grabbed me by the arm."

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"Mom kept doing CPR on him until the ambulance came."

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"As I walked up to the Pickett house, I could see two place settings at one corner of Davis's huge dining room table."

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"I might be fictional, my weekdays were spent at a publicly funded institution on the north side of Indianapolis called White River High School, where I was required to eat lunch at a particular time — between 12:37 P.M. and 1:14 P.M. — by forces so much larger than myself that I couldn’t even begin to identify them."

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"I opened up my phone and connected to the night-vision camera, which wasn’t password protected."

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"Lies,” I answered, and, before we set off, I drove Harold over to the front entrance and waited while Daisy threw away her milk."

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"She took a bite of her burger and mostly swallowed, before saying, “This lawyer guy isn’t going to try to take back the money, is he?”

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"Thoughts are just a different kind of bacteria, they are colonizing you."

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"I grabbed hold of the IV pole and took a few shuffling steps."

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"I didn't care."

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"I might be fictional, my weekdays were spent at a publicly funded institution on the north side of Indianapolis called White River High School, where I was required to eat lunch at a particular time — between 12:37 P.M. and 1:14 P.M. — by forces so much larger than myself that I couldn’t even begin to identify them."

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"But I was beginning to learn that your life is a story told about you, not one that you tell."

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"His dad was about to be arrested for bribery or something, but the night before the raid he disappeared. There’s a hundred-thousand dollar reward out for him.”