# data[].attributes.body
https://discord.com/invite/xmA67yj26b

# data[].attributes.headline
im on the verge of killing myself. i cant do this no more.

# data[].attributes.subject
im on the verge of killing myself. i cant do this no more.

# data[].attributes.headline
one these days im gonna bust my head open thats a new habit of mine busting my head on the wall when im pissed, sad, depressed, hopeless, etc

# data[].attributes.subject
one these days im gonna bust my head open thats a new habit of mine busting my head on the wall when im pissed, sad, depressed, hopeless, etc

# data[].attributes.headline
To the person who just fucked up our relationship-

# data[].attributes.subject
To the person who just fucked up our relationship-

# data[].attributes.body
How fucking dare you...I HELPED YOU AND U DO THIS TO ME U MF I HELPED U I COMFORTED YOU AND YOU GO TO THE PERSON WHO SEXUALLY ASSAULTED US WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU!!! I HOPE SHE DOES IT TO YOU AGAIN SO U DONT HAVE NO SUPPORT JUST LIKE ME BC U NEVER SUPPORTED ME BUT I SUPPORTED MYSELF

# data[].attributes.headline
going to a dif group home sooon, dunno if i can make it til then and also if i can make it there all i want is tristyn to hug me and never let go i want nile and raven to be around also its the only way ill feel alright 

# data[].attributes.subject
going to a dif group home sooon, dunno if i can make it til then and also if i can make it there all i want is tristyn to hug me and never let go i want nile and raven to be around also its the only way ill feel alright 

# data[].attributes.headline
but im surronded by people who hurt me, who want to fuck me for there pleasure, people who wont save me from myself and let me do these horrid things to myself. Im surprised i havent knocked my brains out yet my body is ruined, im starving myself, i got blisters and cuts all over and not one person will try and stop it. Im shit out of lick on this life thing. Only way im gonna make thru it is by being silent and not asking for help. 

# data[].attributes.subject
but im surronded by people who hurt me, who want to fuck me for there pleasure, people who wont save me from myself and let me do these horrid things to myself. Im surprised i havent knocked my brains out yet my body is ruined, im starving myself, i got blisters and cuts all over and not one person will try and stop it. Im shit out of lick on this life thing. Only way im gonna make thru it is by being silent and not asking for help. 

# data[].attributes.headline
I literaly just ogot out of glenwood i should be better but now iv been having worse panic attacks, less sleep, and i hate myself more. Just the thought of eating hurts the thought of being here hurts, I need tristyn i need my mom i need someone who i know will be there right there when i need them. But i dont have anyone.

# data[].attributes.subject
I literaly just ogot out of glenwood i should be better but now iv been having worse panic attacks, less sleep, and i hate myself more. Just the thought of eating hurts the thought of being here hurts, I need tristyn i need my mom i need someone who i know will be there right there when i need them. But i dont have anyone.

# data[].attributes.headline
i shouldve died i wish i did as soon as i get the chance i will

# data[].attributes.subject
i shouldve died i wish i did as soon as i get the chance i will

# data[].attributes.headline
6months ago? all this. how the fuck have i not changed! im just stuck in a group home now wtf!

# data[].attributes.subject
6months ago? all this. how the fuck have i not changed! im just stuck in a group home now wtf!

# data[].attributes.headline
im fucking tired im slowly loosing my hope and energy to live the shit from last year this year just gonna be a copy if i cant get my grades up but the truth is im trying im really fucking trying its so hard tho im bothered by everyone i try and try but nothing good enough andn then friends just use me for sexual shit and for homework and shit im tired so fucking tired and then my mom is nice but once coi is around its like im just there bresathing im not a person to her im just an object that will soon be thrown out just like everything else and be brocken also its so hard im not cutting anymore ig thats good but its just bc i dont have the energy to deal with the damn mess and the possibilitys of getting caught

# data[].attributes.subject
im fucking tired im slowly loosing my hope and energy to live the shit from last year this year just gonna be a copy if i cant get my grades up but the truth is im trying im really fucking trying its so hard tho im bothered by everyone i try and try but nothing good enough andn then friends just use me for sexual shit and for homework and shit im tired so fucking tired and then my mom is nice but once coi is around its like im just there bresathing im not a person to her im just an object that will soon be thrown out just like everything else and be brocken also its so hard im not cutting anymore ig thats good but its just bc i dont have the energy to deal with the damn mess and the possibilitys of getting caught

# data[].attributes.headline
almost 2 weeks now and fuck i dont know how im doing this shit

# data[].attributes.subject
almost 2 weeks now and fuck i dont know how im doing this shit

# data[].attributes.headline
wow four days ago i was feeling like this and the feelings are not going away but there getting worse and im getting more sucidal and i wanna be done with everything and everyone because everything and everyone is going to leave and hurt me just like this good ass fruit bowl its finna leave me in 5 min bc ima end up shittin it outta my ass

# data[].attributes.subject
wow four days ago i was feeling like this and the feelings are not going away but there getting worse and im getting more sucidal and i wanna be done with everything and everyone because everything and everyone is going to leave and hurt me just like this good ass fruit bowl its finna leave me in 5 min bc ima end up shittin it outta my ass

# data[].attributes.headline
why do people ssay things that mean so much but end up lying and hurting me what did i fucking do i tried my best to make sure he was happy and that he was happy with me but i failed as usual but atleast he is happier now i guess 

# data[].attributes.subject
why do people ssay things that mean so much but end up lying and hurting me what did i fucking do i tried my best to make sure he was happy and that he was happy with me but i failed as usual but atleast he is happier now i guess 

# data[].attributes.headline
Welp now i really have no reason to live the only person i cared about didnt even have the guts to tell me they wanted to break up themselves but i deserve it i dont deserve to be loved i never have been deserving of it not even when i was a child ya it was shown sometimes but it was just to overlap all the mental abuse and the sa i went through but did anyone care or notice no because i dont matter i never have mattered im just in this damn world to be hurt not to be loved but no matter how much i want to die people who actually care dont want me to but those are just a couple out of the many people who have left me hurt and betrayed like i was nothing

# data[].attributes.subject
Welp now i really have no reason to live the only person i cared about didnt even have the guts to tell me they wanted to break up themselves but i deserve it i dont deserve to be loved i never have been deserving of it not even when i was a child ya it was shown sometimes but it was just to overlap all the mental abuse and the sa i went through but did anyone care or notice no because i dont matter i never have mattered im just in this damn world to be hurt not to be loved but no matter how much i want to die people who actually care dont want me to but those are just a couple out of the many people who have left me hurt and betrayed like i was nothing

# data[].attributes.headline
what is life anymore tbh its just ful of crying overthinking cutting punching scratching and fake smiles the only real ones are with the person thats likely to leave me any moment and thats when i will know its my time to leave earth because no one will need me anymore and even if anyone did i dont care i been ready for years now iv just been to much of a pussy to give up

# data[].attributes.subject
what is life anymore tbh its just ful of crying overthinking cutting punching scratching and fake smiles the only real ones are with the person thats likely to leave me any moment and thats when i will know its my time to leave earth because no one will need me anymore and even if anyone did i dont care i been ready for years now iv just been to much of a pussy to give up